Chapter 13

BPOV

After breakfast the following morning, Edward and I went over to my place to pack up some of my belongings since I was moving in with him.

Knowing that I would sell this place soon made me rather content,and we would share everything from now on.

A house.

A last name.

A baby.

The more we talked about having a child, the more I wanted one.

Edward would be the best father.

I placed my hand over my stomach, wondering if we had already created a new life.

Every time we made love now, he kissed my belly in a reverent way.

There was no doubt he would take care of me and our baby.

I was ready to become a mom.

Once we were inside my house, the first room we went to was my bedroom.

"Let me start by getting my clothes out of the closet."

Edward started by emptying my dresser.

"You won't be needing this anymore," he said as he held up my vibrator. "Unless we use it together."

Oh my god, I forgot that it was in that drawer.

My face felt like it was on fire as I looked from his face to the floor.

"Sweet girl, there is no need for you to blush. Have you ever considered that I might like to watch you play with it?"

"Umm.. no, I"ve never put much thought into that until now," I said as he came walking closer to me.

"I hope I can change your mind soon," he told me while he began sucking and nibbling on my neck.

"If I tell you we can try later on...can we finish up faster?"

He laughed darkly...and I was turned on.

"Yes, Bella, I'll make sure we're done faster."

I grabbed the vibrator from him and stuffed it into my purse.

While a part of me was still unsure of using it in front of him, I still wanted to see his reaction.

For a few hours, we worked together, getting my things into the trunk of the Volvo so we could get out of here as fast as possible.

Most of the furniture was old, and he said to leave it behind.

Since Edward already had everything I would need at his house, I only took what I felt was essential.

He promised that I would never want for anything.

Thankfully, it was easy to move my things over to his place, so we locked the door so we could leave.

I would not miss living here, not when his place felt more like home

Edward helped me put away my things in the bedroom, but he was afraid I was overdoing it.

I was getting a little tired, so we ordered pizza for a late lunch.

I went upstairs for a few minutes while he was relaxing on the couch.

As I sat on the bed, I took the vibrator out of my purse to look over it

It was a gift from Angela after James and I broke up.

She said I needed something to make me happy, but I never used it before.

It had always sat in the bottom of the dresser drawer, next to my lingerie.

Maybe I would finally get some use out of it tonight.

Once I went downstairs, Edward had the pizzas sitting on the table, and he built a fire since it was chilly in the room

Sometimes, I never had to mention my wants or needs to him becasue he always looked after me.

"Everything okay?" he asked.

"I'm good, love. I needed a moment to myself. Ready to eat?"

We were blissfully happy as we got everything set to place it on the table, and he pulled out the chair for me as he normally did..

But I could never get enough of his wonderful manners; I needed to thank Esme for raising him so well.

I did not realize how hungry I was until I was on my third slice.

"You must think I'm eating too much."

"Bella, I love to see you eat. Sometimes, I worry that you are not getting enough during the day." he said as he set down his glass.

"I don't want you to think I'm getting fat because I don't want to be unattractive to you."

"Baby, come over her and sit in my lap," he instructed.

I got up from my chair as he asked, and he wrapped his arms around me.

"Look at me. I will love you no matter how you look. All I want is for you to be happy and

healthy. We have a bright future ahead for us, and I need for my wife to be in good shape."

He placed a soft kiss on my lips.

"No one has ever cared about me the way you do, love. I have so much gratitude for the things you have done for me, Edward. Thank you."

He took my face in his hands.

"I will always care about you because the love I have for you knows no bounds, sweet girl."

I sighed in contentment as he pulled my plate over and he told me to eat as much as I wanted.

Once I finished eating, I stood up, stretched my arms upward, and took the dishes tio the kitchen

He was looking in the cabinet as I filled the dishwasher; I wanted to know what he was trying to find.

"What are you looking for?" I asked him.

"If you must know, Bella, I am trying to find a certain bottle of strawberry syrup."

And with that, I knew what he was thinking about.

I turned around after I closed the dishwasher to see him staring at me with his arms crossed and bottle in hand.

"Bella...I think it's time for you to strip naked."

Being eager to fulfil his request, I grabbed my shirt, pulling it over my head, and I unzipped my jeans.

My bra and panties were removed next as he looked at me with lust in his eyes

"What did you have in mind, Edward?" i asked as I leaned back on the counter.

I watched as he removed all of his clothes, tossed them into a pile on the floor, and then he set me onto the table.

Edward began licking my neck, my collarbone, and my shoulders.

His name was the only word I could coherently moan when I felt the cool syrup drizzled over my nipples.

The it was followed by his hot mouth.

The burn of fire and the torture of ice.

He poured some more over me, and this time I got some on my finger to bring to his mouth.

He moaned as he sucked it vigorously.

"So sweet, baby...god it's so sweet."

His lips returned to my nipples as I felt his hands drift down my stomach.

Gently, he caressed my skin; I knew he was thinking about our child.

No matter how erotic our love making became, he always remembered to acknowledge how much we wanted a child...the twinkle in his eye gave it away.

His hand slipped between my legs, as he parted my folds and poured sauce on me.

"Mmmmm, Edward...yes, lick me please."

Instead of teasing me, he lapped me wildly while I watched him feast on my skin.

Once his fingers were deep inside my pussy, I began to rock against them.

I was a trembling mess, hardly able to breathe, but before I closed my eyes, I caught his gaze.

"Do you like to watch me, baby?"

That was all it took, and I succumbed to the power of my orgasm.

It washed over me, claiming me as he sucked my clit.

My body was all his to do with as he pleased.

I wanted him to bend me over the table now after I sucked his hard cock.

"Edward, mmmm, I want to fuck your shaft with my mouth."

I placed my hand in his and he lifted me up off the table.

I got down on my knees to take him into my mouth.

"Fuck, baby I love seeing you do that."

I took him all the way in my mouth, hollowing out my cheeks.

I popped him out to swirl my tongue over his tip, tasting a bead of his pre-cum.

He placed his hand on the back of my neck to guide me.

I loved how he would control me sometimes.

"Bend me over the table, " I told him as I slid him out of my mouth.

He picked me up and put me over it.

'Fuck me hard," I said as I looked over my shoulder,a nd he slammed into me, wasting no time as he gave me what I desperately wanted.

His hands were grabbing at my hips, pulling me closer as he mumbled about how wet I was.

"Next time, baby, I want to fuck you with that vibrator." he told me when he lightly slapped my ass.

The combination of his words and his actions were about to make me come.

"Faster...yes...fuck me," I begged him before he sped up and rode me harder.

I saw a million stars bursting when I closed my eyes, but it became all too much for me to handle.

In my mind, though, I was lying in a warm bed when my body began to shut down.

It became all too heavy, unable to move on its own, and I was unsure of what was happening.

I thought I could hear Edward's voice when I drifted off to a quiet room.

There was no way I could not be asleep now because everything was soft and peaceful.

Yes I was since I could feel a warm blanket over me.

It was the only explanation possible..I was in bed and I was sure Edward was next to me.

Softness engulfed me from all angles.

There was a warm feeling too, like being near a fire, and it was deeply comforting.

I heard soft words in my ear.

"Bella, my sleeping beauty, wake up. I'm here, holding you."

I felt his lips on mine, pressing urgent kisses on them.

"Show me your amazing brown eyes, princess."

I had to see him at this very moment.

My eyes fluttered open to meet his mossy green ones.

"Wh...what happened?" I asked as he smiled at me.

"I think we over did it again. You passed out on me when we were making love."

"Oh no," I said as I put my face in the palms of my hands. "I am so sorry, Edward. You must think I'm an idiot."

He brushed my hair out of my face.

"Sweet girl, I could never think of you that way. I love you, and you're nothing short of brilliant."

"This is the second time, thought." I said as he took my face in his hands.

"As long as you are not hurt, it's okay. I looked up some information about this, baby. It's more common than you think."

I let out a deep sigh before asking him if he felt it was okay or normal.

"I will be more concerned when you're pregnant, but we'll talk with the doctor about that later."

"Okay if you are comfortable with it," I replied softly.

"Let me get you something to eat and drink because you need to have something since I know you are weak."

He walked into the kitchen and came back with some yogurt and a bottle of water.

"You need some protein. I can't risk you becoming dehydrated either."

He sat beside me and start to rub my back as I ate.

"This is helping me, Edward."

"Good. I would do anything for you Bella."

He kissed my cheek softly, and I heard his phone ringing.

"Hold on, I'll be right back, but I only want you to relax now."

"'Hey Alice." I heard him call from the kitchen.

"She's wonderful, but resting."

"Tomorrow at eleven? That should not be a problem."

"Yes, I will give her my credit card."

"No, she does not want to spend all afternoon shopping."

"We'll see you then"

"Love you, too. Bye."

He came back over to me and snuggled me into his arms.

You heard all of that, didn't you?"

"Yes, but I still don't know all of the details. I am under the assumption that it involves your sister and money" I told him as he tucked a stray piece of hair behind my ear.

"Alice wants you to come to Neiman Marcus to look at a few dresses she has set aside."

"That sounds reasonable and I figured I'd have to look at some soon."

"We can drive up there after breakfast if that is fine with you," he said.

"We can do that, but what are you going to do while I'm gone?"

"I'll see my parents for a while because I know they miss me."

"That sounds fine, Edward. While I'd rather spend time with you, I need to choose my wedding dress."

"Yes you do because I intend on marrying you very soon," he told me as I stood up.

I was feeling slightly better, but I was still weak.

"Would it be okay if we went to bed now? Or do you have other plans?"

"The only other plans I have are to put out the fire and tuck you in, baby." he said.

I tried to stand up, but my legs were not strong enough.

"I've got you," he said as he scooped me up, carrying me to bed, and laying me down in it gently, as if I were a china doll.

I moved over to make room for him.

I moved over in the bed to to make room for him while he gathered up the blanket, covering us.

"I want you to dream about our honeymoon, baby. In one week, we'll be in Hawaii. I love you."

I smiled as I thought about that because I will be Mrs. Edward Cullen in less than one week from now.

My eyes grew heavier, and I fell asleep as he kissed me goodnight.

I woke the next morning to an empty bed.

He was not in the bathroom, so I hoped he was getting us a bite to eat.

Even though I was fully assured of his love, a small part of me feared he would leave me behind.

One day, Edward might see me as the ordinary, damaged girl that I sometimes see myself as.

If that day ever came, I would find a way to disappear because my life would no longer have meaning.

He gave my life the depth I needed and longed for always..

As I thought about the prospect of him leaving, tears flooded my eyes.

I did not notice he had come into the bedroom until his arms were around me.

"I've got you, baby. What's wrong?"

"Nothing, Edward, nothing." I said in hushed voice.

"Something has to be making you cry like this, so please tell me."

"I was thinking about how you might leave me one day."

I laid my head on his chest as he rocked me.

"That will never happen, sweet girl. I love you and I want to build my life around you and our family, always remember that."

I nodded, then he took my face in his hands, which I think he did that simply because he knew it made me feel treasured.

"I love you, too, " I said as I looked into his eyes. "Thank you for reassuring me every time my emotions get the better of me."

He smiled at me and brushed his fingers over my face.

"If you are ready we can go ahead and eat. The sooner we leave, the sooner I can have you all to myself again."

I liked the sound of that since I was in hurry to be alone with him.

After we ate breakfast,I knew I need to wear something that was easy to get on and off since I was going to try on my wedding dress.

I still could not believe I was getting married.

Every time I thought about that, my heart would beat a little faster.

Edward would look so handsome waiting for me at the end of the aisle.

I had to stop thinking about this, or I would get completely caught up in my mental musings.

As I was looking for my jacket, I felt him tapping my shoulder.

"You left it downstairs when we got home yesterday."

He knew me well.

"Thank you. It's the last thing I need to get before we leave."

We went downstairs, grabbed it before we left, and he took it from me to slide it on over my shoulders.

We walked outside, the sky dreary looking with heavy clouds.

After we were settled in the car, Edward pulled out of the driveway and we were off for Seattle.

"I will miss you while you're at your parents house."

"I'll miss you too, but you need to get your dress ready. I have to talk with my dad about the

foundation today. When we get back from our honeymoon, we'll have the plans ready to

present to the school board."

"Are you excited about the program you and your dad are presenting?"

"I'm pleased about the progress we are making, but I'm excited about our wedding. Nothing

will compare to that."

My last day of school was Thursday, and a sub was going to take over for the time I was

away.

I would miss the kids terribly, but the thought of having a long span of time alone with my man

made me feel elated.

Edward had made reservations for us, but he would not give me any details.

All he said was that I could count on being pampered day and night by him.

On Friday, we would leave for his parents house and stay there till the ceremony began.

I would take a private car to the Space Needle, where our wedding was taking place.

Alice and his mom had made all of the arrangements for us.

I had enough stress due to my parents and their obvious hatred of our relationship.

But I was not going to think about them or the resentment they harbored against us.

They would not be present to celebrate the beginning of our life together.

Who would walk me down the aisle?

I needed to ask him about this before I had an anxiety attack.

"Edward, who is going to walk me down the aisle since my dad won't be there?"

"Sweet girl, relax,' he said as he gripped my hand tightly. "I can't say this with complete certainty, but I have a feeling my dad won't hesitate to do it if we asked him. You are like a daughter to him now."

"Are you sure it's fine to ask him?"

"I'm certain it's fine, and if he's not there when we arrive, I can ask him while you're gone,"

he said as he kissed my hand gently.

I felt more relaxed since he had given me this reassurance.

We pulled into the circular driveway in front of their house, and Alice came bounding out of the door with her keys and a bag.

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Edward helped me out and she gave me a bear hug.

"I've missed you so much, Bella. Are you ready to go see your wedding dress?"

"Let me say bye to Edward before we leave."

"That's fine, I'll pull the car around."

He took me in his arms, kissing my hair.

"I love you so very much Bella. I'll be right here waiting for you, my wife to be."

My lips were soon pressed against his in a deep kiss, our tongues mingling.

I'd rather be with him right now than looking at bridal wear, and the sound of a car horn interrupted us.

"Don't worry about the amount. Buy anything you want, baby." he told me as he handed a black credit card over to me.

He opened the car door for me and helped me get in.

I turned to wave at him as we left.

"How are you doing today? Love certainly agrees with you"

"I'm good, Alice, but you know I'm missing him already."

"The only reason I'm doing this is because I could not bring the dresses with me. If I had that

ability, we would be back in the house so you could try them on there."

"You've done so much for us as it is." I told her as she sped through the city.

"It's no problem, Bella. I want you and Edward to be happy because he's over the moon for you. I have not see him this happy in some time."

I smiled as I looked down at my ring knowing that it was a symbol of his affection for me.

"I love him tremendously, and life without him is impossible now."

Once we parked in the lot, we got out and chatted as we entered the store.

Alice waved at various employees as we walked toward her office; I loved how energetic she was.

"This is where I weave my magic, so have a seat and I'll get the dresses for you to look over."

She brought out a massive pile of white fabric, lace, and satin.

I could barely see her small form underneath it, and I let out a small giggle.

"Let me put these on this rack and we can get started," she said.

She made fast work of the task, setting them on the bar, and separating the garments to let me see them better.

"Should I go ahead and get undressed?"

"Yes, it might take me a few minutes to get them ready."

I slipped off my jacket, shirt, jeans and shoes.

It felt odd to stand in the middle of her office in my bra and panties, but I had to do it.

"Let's see how this one looks first."

I stepped into the dress and slid it over my body.

Alice buttoned up the back, and we turned to look in the mirror.

"What do you think of this selection? The length is good on you, but it's ultimately your choice."

I looked in the mirror, but the dress did not suit my frame very well.

"Can I try on another one?" I asked cautiously.

She busied herself with unbuttoning the back of the next garment quickly.

"Why did you not like it?"

"It was too low in the front, honestly."

"Okay, I hope you at least like one of them," she said with a smile. "If none of them work, then I can keep searching."

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Sadly the next two were not contenders because neither one looked like something I would wear.

I was not going to wear a strapless dress because I felt it would not look right on me.

"I have two left for you to try on, Bella." Alice said as she handed one to me.

"Is one of them strapless?"

"Um..,yes, but I promise you'll like it."

"I'm only trying it on because you'll soon be my sister-in-law." I told her as I stepped into another dress and she zipped it up.

The fabric was not stiff, so I immediately liked the way it felt and moved on my body..

"What is this made of?" I asked her as I ran my fingers over the skirt.

"The fabric is a blend of silk and organza."

She moved in front of me and let out a gasp.

"Bella...this is your dress. Look at your reflection. You will make his jaw drop when he sees you coming down the aisle."

I turned to look at myself and...I was floored.

Even with my hair down and very little makeup, I did not look bad.

This dress was amazing, and the delicate beading on the waistline was a very nice addition.

"I think you're right, Alice. You have found my dress, and it looks stunning."

Even though it was strapless, it was far more fitted than the other dresses.

It gave my body an understated definition that the others could not accomplish.

Yet it made me feel beautiful, like I could be Edward's princess.

"You need some heels also. We can go get a pair after you get your clothes back on." she said.

I looked down at the hem of the dress, and since it was long, I needed the right heels to wear with it.

"You are right about the heels. I will need some since this dress is long. Can you help me with the zipper?".

"I'm sure you're looking forward to when Edward does this on your wedding night."

"More than words could say." I told her as I imagined him doing just that

"I'm so glad he found you, Bella. He's been pretty lonely lately," she said softly.

"I'm glad he was assigned to my classroom. He loves those kids as much as I do."

"Are you all planning to have a baby?"

I could not resist smiling when I heard her question.

"Yes, we are trying for one now." I told her.

"That's fabulous! I can't wait to have a niece or a nephew."

I could imagine how she would have a nursery picked out for our child.

"I have the dress ready for you, Bella. Let's find some shoes now."

We walked out of her office and around the store till we saw the shoe department.

When I sat down on one of the couches, she went to find a sales associate to help us.

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Once she found someone to get the merchandise, Alice came back over to me.

"He's going to get some shoes for you. Are you okay, Bella?" she asked. "You look a little uncomfortable. Can I do anything to help?"

I had this strange feeling in my gut, so I turned to look around the store.

There was a mirror close by to us, and when I saw his reflection in it, a cold shiver ran down my spine.

James was only a few feet away from us.

"Alice, can you get your phone out. I...I need you to call Edward now."

"What's wrong, Bella?" she asked as she looked at me.

My breathing became faster, my anxiety level rising exponentially, and I was frozen in place.

I could feel myself starting to hyperventilate.

Alice was on her phone, dialing Edward, but I could barely hear her voice.

"Well, if it isn't Miss Swan. You don't have your boyfriend with you. Whatever can I do to you now?"

He was putting his dirty hands on me, and I closed my eyes to keep from seeing him.

The sound of Edward's voice began to fill my mind.

I saw us on the beach, and I could almost feel the warmth of the sun on my back.

But even my thoughts were not enough to protect me from the pain I was feeling now.

Then I surrendered to the solitude that the darkness offered.

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