(warning from the author, in this and the next chapter, there will be a LOT of salt, and by salt, I mean badmouth, trashtalk,bashing)

What were those words before ? Oh yeah

AND THIS IS TO GO EVEN FURTHER BEYOND !

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH...

Yep , this was not me , but my anger , in a nutshell .

Needless to say that not only Monika , Shizuka , Yoruichi and the other were surprised to see three girls barely able to walk behind me , probably injured , but also hugely taken aback by what used to be my face was now looking like . Let's take a better look , by using the reverse power of the forth wall no jutsu .

'Here he stands , the O' so good looking male who took upon him to rescue three poor injured girls in the forest , further down the park . But he wasn't that ' good looking ' anymore . Eyebrows furrowed in an almost inhuman scowl. Pitch-black sclera with blood-red irises barely visible . Nose scrunched as if he was disgusted, almost to the point of destroying anything entering his sight or his path . Mouth transformed into a deep reversed smile . Two scars on the verge of being fully clear to the naked eye forming , one one the left side of his face , almost like all around the eye , from the temple down to the lower side of the cheek and the jaw , as if the skin had been burned , then reformed in a darker tone . The other scar , on the right side of his face , starting from the very top of his forehead , at the barely visible base of his hair , an almost pitch black straight line , crossing his right eye vertically in a slightly angle way , down to the other side of his jaw , with tiny horizontal lines all along , as if they were stitches . His hair... long gone were the two chin-length strands that he had almost shadowing his eyes. Way shorter now ,
just reaching under his nose , where a very little unshaved beard was now , surrounding his mouth . The black hair replaced mostly by blood-red mixed with white-sand and dark grey from the middle to the very tips . Spikier and even more unry than ever , now hanging just below the middle of his back , where it was reaching the beginning of his thighs before . Looking like they were made of solid steel , shining like razors blades already covered with blood not even dry , eyes shaped a bit differently , sharper , with solid black and thick lines under . the same as the one who was running from the base of the right side of his neck , all the way to his right arm , changing directions but ending in a straight way towards the upper part of his hand where it splitted itself then covering every finger , but thinner .His left hand was now covered by some sort of dust covered bandage all the way to his forearm , elbow , and seemingly arm .

Here wasn't neither Damian , Serguei , Lightning , or Mahk . No , here was the very same person who recorded himself before being transported in this world . The five of them were now making one once again , and it definitively wasn't a pleasant sight .

HERE WAS ALEX !

He passed near every single girl who was worriedly waiting for his return , not sparing a glance , not saying a word , simply extended his right hand near a wall . In half of a second , the large and solid looking wall was pulverized to nothing more than ashes , dispersing themselves in the wind . A dark black , deep red and purple aura surrounding him . '

End of the reverse forth wall no jutsu !

I stare at nowhere in paticular , I simply bark while making one more step in my way to going home .

" I'm going ! Do whatever the fuck you want . Sakura , Tayuya , Erza ! 'Night ! "

Here it was , and I disappear in the street slowly covered by the night's veil , the lightings making my shadow even bigger , more fearful , more ... DANGEROUS ...

Almost inhuman , evil so to speak .

A couple more steps , and I stop myself , the anger slowly replaced by a question .

Evil ?

So far , the only evil thing I saw was the spirit , or whatever you wanna call it , in the club's classroom , and I locked it away,
safe from everyone . But is it the only evil thing in this world ? What if I was evil myself ? What if I was my own enemy ?

This realization slowly dropped on me , as fast as I dropped on my knees . Eyes lost on the pavement right in front of me , had I been blind all along ? All those negative feelings that I felt towards a lot of my pasts ' crushes ' on those same anime/manga characters , who had been developped to some points I really disliked . They weren't responsible , the authors , the ones who designed and created them had , at first , made a great work , but later on , destroyed them piece by piece . And have I done , myself ? I just turned my back on them . I put more of my anger that I was feeling due to my own problems in my real life , and I added those irrational thoughts on top of the real ones , thus creating a slowly breaking mind . Which led me to the video I recorded , where I did nothing more than spitting my rage all over again , on top of explaining sometimes more calmly my thoughts and point of views . I was as guilty as those fucking sons of bitches . Take Sakura and Erza for example : Two girls who started weak in their lives , who had been traumatized by the ones they had feelings for , the same ones who tortured them for YEARS , before forgiving those scumbags , and ending up with them . All of this because of another human technique , the infamous ' I don't give a fuck , I'm the author , it's my story my creation , I'm making millions with this , I'm free to do shit with it and a big FUCK YOU ALL , you'll still buy it ' NO JUTSU ! Yeah , starting creating a nice story , the characters with their past ,their personalities and dreams , spending years to develop them carefully , before tearing them down just like that , on a whim .

Why not creating a story where a young kid is hated by his own village for something he isn't even responsible for , diminished all through his life up to his sixteenth birthday , after becoming the hero of his village who had been destroyed , ending a war with some sort of alien-rabbit goddess with three eyes who had a reverse oedypian complex , bringing back his best friend the emo fuckfag at the cost of his arm , lately become the leader of his village , thing he wanted the most , and then ? Oh , I have an idea , we gonna timeskip to let's say 10 years later , where he is an irresponsible father never there when his family need him,
slowly killing himself at work , and not even a tenth of what he was ten years ago , the living incarnation of a god , probably being the most powerful human in his whole world . Oh and guess what ? The story will not only show how pathetic he had become , it will also feature his own son who hates him , while being confronted by the same alien race as the alien-rabbitch he faced before,except this time , they are more . All of this in the name of what ? Oh yeah , making more money !

Ha , reminds me something , don't know why ...

And now look at me ... What a joke . When your past comes to haunt you . What a fucking really nice feeling .

Hey god, you exist ? Cause if yeah , you should be laughing your motherfucking godlike ass at me , huh ? That feels good right ?

Poor guy , I pity you if you truly exist , being a piece of shit like you , even if I had all your powers , I'll still pass !

And during that time where I slowly realize who I am , what I truly am , my body , or rather Damian's body comes back to normal , any previous feature due to my feelings of anger and hate disappearing . Do they deserved to be shunned ? All of them ? After all ,
they didn't do anything to me personnally to begin with . I was the one to put that on myself , I'm the one to blame , even if I hate this sensation . I painfully put my right hand on my thigh , and I really slowly get up , my head feeling heavy and dizzy .
I'm about to faint and fall when two pair of arms grab me . I take a look and watch carefully : Monika and Yoruichi ! Tch , not even Shizuka ? I'm hurt ! But still , it somehow feels nice .

" You're not even preventing my from falling , Shizuka-chan ? I thought you cared about me more than that ... " I playfully and teasingly say to the blonde young women despite me being tired watching me with a surprised look on her face , before answering.

" Mouuu~ You're not heavy , but I was beaten to it ! It's not my fault ! " She whines and complains , saying that Yoruichi was way faster , and also for her defense , that Yoruichi looked more stronger than her , so she wouldn't be able to carry me .

Well , it was quite true , I can't say the contrary . Meanwhile Sayori and Natsuki were carrying the numerous bags due to the trip at the mall , containing lots of things , books , clothes , food etc ..

Yuri was helping Sakura with Tayuya and Erza .

I didn't dare look at them , but I still had to do , to say something .

" Look ... I know I hadn't be really nice , far from it ... but you'll understand surely better when we're gonna reach my home , okay ? " I say slowly , feeling my eyelids growing heavy , on the brink of closing , making me faint ...

NO !

I WON'T FUCKING FAINT AGAIN ! ENOUGH ! GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF FUCKING SHIT DAMN !

I manage to keep my eyes open , if barely , and put each of my arms around bot Yoruichi and Monika's neck .

The trip back to home took a bit longer , but was uneventful . Yoruichi was the first to unlock the door , and the last one to come inside , locking up and putting the keys next to the TV . Couldn't have done better myself , which makes me giving her a small smile , while she gives me one of her own , way bigger of course . Her and Monika both help me to go in my room , and Yoruichi insist a bit too much to Monika's taste that I should get rid of my clothes to sleep , and she means EVERYTHING . Reluctantly , I accept , because I'm the one concern by that matter , and it would one make things more fair . After all , I say her in her fully naked glory today , I can do the same so we will be even . Besides , how about a way to tease her even further ?

Monika simply sit on the edge of my bed , and watch Yoruichi helping me getting rid of my clothes . Once it's done , barely standing in my skin suit , I can't help but wink slightly at her , and I see her , and Monika did too , licking slightly her lips before saying " Oh my , is it an invitation , seductor-kun~ ? I take back what I said earlier , you know how to talk to a women , even with your eyes ! I might be really into you if you keep doing that you know~ ? "

Exactly what I expected from her ! teasers also like to be teased after all . I slowly enter my bed , pulling the sheets over me , but before both girls exit the room , I tell Monika something .

" Monika , dear , can you please do what I did earlier today ? You know , the video... I think they ALL deserve to know , both Yuri and Natsuki are concerned about this after all . And for the others , I guess it would help clarify the situation , even if I still have to apologize to them later . You just have to push the play button on the program on my screen , and switch on the TV ."

She gives me a warm smile , put her hand and lightly caress my locks , kissing me deeply , passionately , almost is if she just want to keep doing this the whole night . I reluctantly cup her face with my right hand , and slowly pull out , and she knows .
She nods and tell me before doing as I said , softly in my ear .

" You better not be sleeping when I come back love~ ! You know how much I want to be with you right ? "

I look at her , a big smile on my face despite my eyes really heavy by not , and I would have kissed her again , if it wasn't for Yoruichi ' carefully ' interrupting the moment by clearing her throat . She never left the room , she was watching all along !
She then look at Monika with a smug smile on her face , and ask her bluntly .

" My , by the look of your face , he might be really good at that , and many other things , isn't he ? "

What I didn't expected from Monika , and could be my future death sentence , was her answer .

" Well , If you want to know so badly , I guess the only option is to try it by yourself , hehe~ "

And just like that , Monika exits the room , smiling brightfully at me , while Yoruichi now has a more determined look on her face , almost ... HUNGRY !

OH DAMN , I'M NOT GONNA SLEEP FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS !

My door closes and I quickly see my vision fading to an empty black void .

The black void however transform itself in an white and snowy landscape , with ruins of a city all around .

Gunshots , screams , long grey coats armed with rifles , fighting in the snow and the mud brown and dark clothed mens .

two armies colliding .

I turn my head , looking at a sign , with the name of the town I assume

STALINGRAD