Title: Sinful Thoughts
Author: Readingmama/Vampiremama
Beta: AcrossTheSkyInStars, Are you reading her stories yet? Cause you should be.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters. No copyright infringement is intended.

Continuity: AH/AU
Rating: M cause you never know when a lemon writes itself.

A/N- Thanks to everyone reviewing, some have been anonymous so I can't respond, but I love them too.

More A/N at the bottom.

Chapter 13

BPOV

When Edward came to me with the plan to pretend to date other people, I'll be honest, I looked at him like he had three heads. There seemed to be so many ways that it could go wrong, but the thought of getting to spend some time alone with him and keep my parents off my back caused me to give in. That is how I ended up learning to flat out lie. I had never been very good at it; apparently all I needed was the right incentive.

"Hey mom," I said, finding her in the laundry room.

"Hi honey," she replied.

"I just wanted to let you know that Edward and I are going out on Friday night. We have a double date."

My mom whipped around and a smile lit up her face. "That's wonderful, who is the lucky boy?"

"His name is Jake; he works for the messenger service that delivers to my work."

She put down the shirt she was folding and gave me her full attention. "Tell me everything! Is he cute?"

"Yeah, he's really cute. Tall, dark skin, nice eyes," I said, listing off Jakes attributes.

"That's wonderful," she exclaimed, "so who is this girl Edward is taking out?"

"Some girl named Charlotte, I think. She's his bio partner."

"I am glad you kids are getting out, having fun."

I smiled at her and then turned around. I left the room and took a deep breath. The hard part was over, I lied and she bought it. The only thing to do now was to wait until Friday night.

Seeing Jake at work that week felt strange. I had a guilty conscious about using him, even if he didn't know about it. It didn't take him long to notice that something was off about me.

"Is everything all right?" He asked leaning over the reception desk.

"Yeah, it's just been a stressful week," I answered.

"You know Bella, even if you don't want to date me, you can still talk to me."

"I know, thanks Jake." I gave him a small smile and he dropped it. That was one of the things I liked most about Jake, he knew when to back off.

Friday night came and I locked myself in my room, arguing with myself over what to wear. I would normally ask Alice or even Edward, but that was impossible. Alice would ask too many questions if I called her in California for wardrobe advice, and I wanted to surprise Edward, so he was out. We decided to go to Port Angeles and see a movie. We knew there was a chance of running into someone we knew so we opted to go see the new Disney cartoon, thinking if our former classmates were there, they would likely be seeing the new monster movie.

I chose to wear a skirt, thinking of the skin-to-skin contact I would get if Edward put his hand on my lap at the movie. It was knee-length and a rusty orange color. I paired it with a chocolate brown sweater that hugged my barely there curves.

I heard Edward's door click open and my heart started beating fast. When he knocked on my door, I jumped.

"Hey Bella, are you ready?" He called quietly through the door. Every time he said my name, my thoughts became more and more R rated. He had probably not even considered the double entendre of his statement, but I sure did. And yes, yes I was.

"You kids have fun tonight," Renee said smiling and blocking the front door.

"Thanks mom," Edward replied and I just huffed.

"Be safe," she yelled as we exited the house. Mortification spread through my body as her comment obviously had nothing to do with driving.

Edward opened the passenger door for me, but when he saw Renee still watching, he left it and went around to the driver's side, leaving me to close it myself. I didn't mind, nothing was going to bring me down on our first official date night.

Once we were on our way, Edward slipped his hand into mine. I looked over at him and smiled. He looked nervous, which only added to his attractiveness in my eyes.

"Bella, do you mind if we go somewhere different tonight?" He asked.

"I don't mind, I'll follow you anywhere," I said truthfully. His face relaxed and he smiled over at me before looking back at the road.

We drove down the freeway, the nights had been getting darker and the sky was a pale orange as the sun set. The light in the sky cast into Edward's hair, causing his bronze highlights to shimmer.

"You really are beautiful," I said, unable to take my eyes off of him, "do you know I used to curse you for having all the good genes. I guess that is because you got yours from a different pool."

Edward laughed and then realized that I wasn't joking. "You don't see yourself very clearly. The locker room at school is still a buzz about Edward Swan's older sister. There isn't a guy in Forks high that doesn't think you're hot."

"I'm just hot by association, cause they can't think you're hot," I said trying to joke away my discomfort at the topic change.

When we arrived in Port Angeles, I became anxious. I had been hoping for some under-the-popcorn-tub groping, and now I was clueless as to where we were going. We pulled up to a small coffee shop that was miles away from the usual places we went. It was perfect.

Inside I was pleasantly surprised to find large lounge chairs and couches set up with tables. There was quiet jazz music playing in the background, and best of all, the place was deserted.

"How did you find this place?" I asked as we sat down with our drinks.

"A little thing called the internet," he teased. I playfully slapped his arm before snuggling into his side.

I felt slightly anxious at being so open with him in public but with no one here to catch us I was going to enjoy it.

Now, not that I'd recommend it for everyone, but dating your brother has real advantages. The first date awkwardness was nowhere to be found. We already knew about each other's likes and dislikes, embarrassing childhood stories, and personal hygiene habits.

I snuggled into his side on the oversized love seat that smelled of spilled coffee, and sighed. Edward shifted so I sat up to let him readjust, only to realize he was looking down at me.

"I need to kiss you," he said, our habit of talking it out had yet to die.

"I'd like that," I replied.

He brought his face close into mine, resting his one hand on my cheek while the other stayed around my shoulder. The rush of adrenaline I felt at being kissed in public by Edward was amazing. I would never need to try drugs in college; I had already found the ultimate high, Edward's soft, steady lips.

When we broke apart, I was panting much more than I would like to admit. "We should go," he said sighing. I grunted but acquiesced, grabbing my jacket to leave.

As we headed back towards Forks, I teased Edward. "Are you sure we can't pull off and park somewhere for a bit?"

The car swerved slightly and Edward cursed under his breath. "Are you trying to get us killed?" I giggled, loving the reaction I elicited from Edward.

We arrived home in plenty of time for our curfew. Actually, Renee and Charlie had dropped my curfew, stating that I was going to be eighteen in a week and therefore responsible enough to come home at a decent hour on my own. The truth was, they both knew that I spent most of my time with Edward, whose curfew was still firmly in place.

"I'm sad I can't kiss you goodnight," Edward said as he pulled into the driveway.

"Maybe mom and dad will be asleep and we can sneak one in," I said hopefully.

Of course, Renee was waiting up to hear all the details about our date. Edward and I had discussed the basics on the way home so we didn't get caught in a lie. He excused himself to bed about five minutes into the conversation and I glared at him for leaving me with the vulture.

Once I finally got away, I headed up to my room and collapsed on my bed. I couldn't help the smile on my face as I thought about my evening. As I thought about Edward and how he held the door for me, or how his eyes crinkled in the corners as he laughed or the sweet smell of his cologne, I couldn't help my hands from roaming my body. I worked myself up until I couldn't take it anymore; the problem was that my orgasm was eluding me.

I huffed in annoyance and looked at the clock. It was already half past one in the morning and I was wide awake and very frustrated. I jumped out of bed and crept across the hall, careful to stay quiet. I didn't knock as I didn't want Charlie and Renee to hear, so I just slowly opened the door.

Edward's back was to me when I entered the room, but it looked like his body was vibrating. Part of me was concerned that he may be having a seizure in his sleep. I fully blame my mother for my overactive imagination.

"Edward?" I whispered in a panicked voice. His head whipped around and from the terrified look on his face, it was clear what he was doing. He let out an embarrassed noise before his eyes rolled back a little.

"Shit Bella, what are you doing in here?" His angry tone hurt and my eyes shot to the ground.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know...I just..."

"Just give me a second," he said, softer than before. He stood up but kept his back to me. I saw him pull a couple of tissues out of the box on his nightstand, obviously cleaning himself up.

"Okay, come here," he said holding his arm out.

"I'm sorry," I repeated.

"Don't be, okay? I was just startled. It's not every day your fantasy woman interrupts said fantasy."

"You were thinking about me?" I asked incredulously. Surely he could think of better women to stick in his fantasies.

"Always," he replied, the honesty in his voice knocking me back. "So, do you want to tell me why you came over here in the middle of the night?"

Even though I had just witnessed him doing the same thing I was about to confess, I felt a little humiliated.

"I ah...well, I mean...I sort of had a problem and I need your help."

"Well that is very cryptic," he replied with a smile.

"You see, we both were kind of doing the same post date activities," his eyes widened, "but mine wasn't as successful as yours." I hoped to God he would get my meaning.

"You were touching yourself?" He asked almost clinically.

"Yes."

"And were you thinking about me?"

"Yes."

"Okay, sit down there, I'm going to wash my hands and be right back." I raised my eyebrows but then sat on his bed.

In less than a minute, Edward was back. His hands made quick work of my problem and I nearly drifted off to sleep before he reminded me to go back to my own room.

When I was all tucked back into my bed I felt my heart swell. My date was truly perfect.

"Yes, I have an appointment open for Tuesday at three. Okay Mrs. Greeves, see you then...Goodbye."

It had been three weeks of our plan, and Edward and I had gone on four dates. Sometimes they were staged as double dates and sometimes Edward would say he was studying at the library. My birthday had come and gone. Edward had bought me another charm for my bracelet, a small silver 'E' that I wouldn't be able to wear until we moved away, but I kept it in my purse as a reminder anyway.

I stood up from my desk and stretched, thankful it was lunch time. I poked my head into the back to tell everyone that I was leaving for my lunch. As I was setting the phones to the messaging system, Renee walked in.

"Hey mom," I said, surprised to see her there.

"Hi, honey, I thought I would take you to lunch."

"Sounds great, let's go."

The next two minutes happened in slow motion. As I was heading towards the door, it opened and in walked Jake, a large smile on his face.

"Hi Bella," he said dropping the box he was carrying on the desk.

"Hi," I replied.

"You must be Jake, I would know you by your description anywhere," Renee said, extending her hand.

The panic rose.

"Bella talks about me?" He asked, raising an eyebrow at me.

"Of course, but after that date you took her on last week, how could she not?" I was impressed by Jake's poker face. If he was surprised, he didn't show it.

I swallowed and prayed that he would play along with me. "Yeah, Renee was surprised that you got me out hiking. I've told you how clumsy I am."

"Well I'd never let you fall, dear," Jake said stepping over to me and putting his arm around me. The jerk was enjoying this.

"What's taking so…" Edward's voice clipped off as he took in Jake's amorous stance by me. His face stayed stoic as he stood there waiting for a response.

"Oh Edward, I was just meeting Jake, but you boys are already acquainted."

That was enough to break Jake's calm. He looked at me and then at Edward before righting himself.

"Yeah, hey man," Edward said and Jake nodded but kept his eyebrows furrowed.

"Okay, let's go," I pleaded, pulling myself out from Jake's grasp.

It was going to be an awkward lunch.

EPOV

I know Bella already told you about the night she snuck into my room, but I wanted to mention it as well, seeing as it is one of my favorite memories. Her showing up mid-stroke asking me to help her out with her own problem was easily the most embarrassing-slash-hottest moment of my life. The way her body shook as I pleasured her fueled my fantasies for months. I couldn't believe she thought I would choose another woman for my fantasies. She was perfect to me.

I am ashamed at the way I handled the Jake situation, but when I walked in and saw his arm around her, I was okay. It was when I looked at my mom and saw her beaming that I felt jealousy. She would never look at our love like that, it would always be wrong in her eyes and that pissed me off.

I was thankful for him playing along. I'm sure we could have come up with another story if we were caught in the lie but that could have gotten messy. The guy was big and obviously older than her; I wondered why she chose him. I knew better than to think that she would choose him over me, if she had wanted to, she would have already. That's not to say though that I didn't pout all lunch.

We walked across the street to the restaurant, when we sat down Renee excused herself to the washroom.

"That was close," she said once Renee was out of earshot.

"Yeah, he was." I will never once claim to have been a fully mature teenage boy.

"Edward, this was your idea."

"I know, I'm sorry. I could tell how much he was enjoying playing along."

"Well don't worry, he's not the one I like playing with," she replied, her voice low. I cleared my throat as my brain tried to kick start back into gear.

I was in a mildly better mood until Renee came back and continued to grill Bella all lunch about her new beau. I may have taken a couple of subtle jabs at my competition, but I did so in true brotherly fashion.

I blocked Jake out of my mind and was quite successful at it until the following week when Bella came to me distraught. She had just returned home from work and her face looked wild with terror.

"Edward, we need to talk," she said entering into my bedroom.

"What's the matter?" I asked pulling her into a hug.

"It's Jake."

"What about him?" I asked curtly, my jaw tightening.

"He came in today and was asking me what the deal was with mom thinking we were dating. He knew I was seeing someone secretly, but when he saw your face as you came in he thought it was you. I told him that you were my brother and overprotective and he dropped it but he said that if he was getting credit for dating me he should at least be able to take me out on a date."

"What did you say?"

"I told him no, and he said that he just might forget next time Renee is there. What do I do?"

"Dump him," I said.

"What? How, we aren't even dating?"

"I know that, but tell mom that you guys broke up. Then if he says anything, you can just say he was upset over losing you. Who wouldn't be?"

"Then how will we be able to go out so much?"

I held her even closer to me and kissed the top of her head. "We'll figure it out," I said.

Bella had to set up her break up date, and we thought it would be better if she went out alone that night as to not raise suspicion. When I asked her what she was really going to do, she said park along one of the side roads and read a book. The simplicity of her happiness made me love her more.

I spent the evening on Skype with Alice. She and Jasper were settled into their dorms at UCLA and were still going strong. Alice had already made lots of new friends and Jasper, as far as I could tell, was just along for the ride. The only time our conversation got uncomfortable was when she asked about my love life.

"Nope, nothing for me," I said instinctually, "oh except I went on a couple dates with this girl from school." I knew the chance that Alice would speak to either of my parents was low but I still needed to cover my bases.

"Who is it? Do I know her?"

"Her name is Charlotte, she's my bio partner."

"Charlotte Stanson?" she asked.

"Yeah, that's her."

"No, that's not her name. Simpson," she said knowingly.

"Yeah, isn't that what you said?" I asked trying to keep my cool.

"Why are you lying to me, Edward?" she asked.

"I'm not… I…I'm not," I stammered.

Alice left it alone but I knew that she was suspicious. There was no way she could know the truth, but any little step towards it could cause my world to crash down. If there was anyone that I wish I could have told, it was Alice. Even though we hadn't talk as much since she left for school, I still considered her one of my best friends.

Renee, Charlie, and I were sitting down watching the TV when Bella came home that night. I was shocked to see her in tears. A part of me was hyperventilating; concerned that something had happened to her. Her hair was wild and her eyes were red-rimmed and she looked convincingly upset.

"What's the matter honey?" Renee asked

"Jake and I broke up," she said sniffling.

"Did he do anything?" Charlie said gruffly.

"No dad, I just didn't think we were working out. I told him that I just wanted to be friends and he just called me some names. I think he was just really hurt." I had to hand it to her, if we kept this up for the remainder of the year, Bella could go into acting.

Bella went upstairs, and once I waited an appropriate amount of time, which happens to be twenty-one minutes, I headed up to join her. I knocked on her door and she turned as I opened it. Her eyes were still red but she had a large smile on her face when she saw me.

"Do you think they bought it?" She asked.

"How did you do that?"

She turned around and grabbed something out of her backpack, and when she turned back, she was proudly holding a chopped onion. I snickered as I thought about Bella sitting in her truck taking deep breaths over a bag of onions to provide tears for her dramatics.

"You are amazing," I said.

"All for you," she replied, providing me a small kiss on the lips.

E/N-

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