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Previously:
"Care to explain?" Edward asked me, softly, once he realized I wasn't going to elaborate any more than that. He was giving me a choice, if I didn't want to tell him, I didn't have to...somehow though, I realized I needed to talk to someone, and Edward seemed like the perfect person. "Bella, you know you can tell me anything," he continued, reinforcing my thoughts. And somehow, his words seemed true. I had not known him very long, but it felt like I had known him all my life. Right now, if anyone could help me, it was him, for it seemed like I could trust Edward. After all, he would have experience with keeping secrets, most people would not like someone blabbing about everything they thought...And it also wasn't every day that you realized you were turning into a monster. Back in Carlisle's office, I had experienced blood lust for the first time. After feeling the raging fire in my throat, burning me, consuming me, willing for me to give in to my desires, I now knew exactly what the Cullen's had to suffer through every day. I was sure I could identify with how Jasper would have felt earlier with the water-fountain incident. So I started with what I needed help with most, "I'm scared." I told him honestly. I averted my eyes as I spoke. "I'm scared about hurting someone, I don't want that to happen." I turned my head away as I talked in a small voice. The fear was eating me up inside. I had moved to try to avoid hurting anyone I cared about from danger that would be coming after me, but more and more, it seemed like the real danger was from coming from something I had no control over, because it was something I had been born as. It was my destiny, it was who I am, the danger...it was within me. Somehow
Yet, amazingly, Edward chuckled, "Of course, your worried about someone else." I turned back to him, surprise etched on my face. "Just like Jessica." he said softly. I turned my face from his, not caring to meet his gaze.
"I just don't want anyone to be hurt because of what I am..." I spoke softly, unable to stop the tear from falling. Before I could wipe it away, Edward had brushed it off of my face. His touch made me shiver in surprise. Immediately, Edward shied away, probably thinking he was too cold.
"You won't." Edward said, his voice full of conviction, for a moment, I actually believed him. Then, rationality got in the way. Why did it always have to do that?
"This afternoon, Edward. Did you see the kind of control I lost? And that was just because I was angry at someone because of Lyla! What would happen if I lost complete control?" Then, in a voice so small I was shocked it was audible, I spoke one of my main concerns. "I know what happens to a newborn, and by the thirst I felt this afternoon.." I cut off my statement there, Edward could guess at what I was saying: I didn't want someone to get hurt. What if my thirst became overbearing? What if it actually took control? What if I had no way to stop my actions? What if I actually...
"Oh, Bella. We will help you, don't worry. I wouldn't ever let you harm anyone." He spoke softly before he did something I wasn't expecting: he pulled me into his arms.
Hugging Edward was unlike any hug I had ever experienced. I had a slightly lower temperature than a normal human, it was an average between that of a vampire and a werewolf. Because of that fact, I normally ran about 80 degrees. As such, I could feel the slight chill of Edward's skin on mine, though not near as cold as it would have felt had I been completely human. His embrace made me feel as though nothing could ever pull me out of his grasp, like he would protect me from the world.
"How, Edward?" How could they help me? I never knew when my thirst would hit, or how much. Especially with my powers, the Cullens would have a hard time controlling me.
"We could leave after your eighteenth birthday." Edward suggested. Of course, I would probably have to leave anyway after I received my powers.
"Until then, though. I never know when I will become thirsty; for sure when I became angry, but what about other times? What if I was simply excited, or shocked? What would happen then?
"Well, we will talk to Carlisle. Perhaps, you should come hunting with us..." Edward mused, causing my body to go rigid. Hunting was not an idea I reveled in. In fact, I was scared stiff over the thought of hunting. Of course, I would never want to hurt someone, but even still.
My eyes were wide as I contemplated the thought, "hunting?" I said in a small voice. Immediately, Edward held me tighter, reassuring me.
"Don't worry, Bella. It was just a thought. And when or even if it happens, I will be right next to you. You have nothing to be scared about." Edward said softly, calming me. I couldn't help but feel safe in his arms, like I belonged there.
Stop it Bella! What are you thinking? You don't like Edward that way! Or did I? For the moment, I simply ignored those thoughts, not wanting to have to think about them.
I don't know how long we sat there, minutes, hours, to me it made no difference. After a while, however, it began to become dark. I wouldn't have minded if we stayed there all night, but then again, I didn't know when Charlie expected me home. Plus, I still had some worries that I couldn't shake out of my head.
"Edward?" I asked him, softly, still wrapped in his arms. "What about my phasing?" That was another one of my concerns. The Cullen's could teach me how to control my thirst, but as for phasing, I had no idea.
After studying Lyla's book, I knew as well as Edward did that phasing could be as dangerous as my thirst. It wouldn't be helpful if I learned how to control my phasing, no, it would be imperative.
Regrettably, Edward had to let me out of his arms for me to be able to see his face. He was contemplating my question, trying to figure a way out of our only single option.
However, when he noticed the position of the sun, nonexistent, he realized it was time we left the meadow. We would be expected back. Although neither of us cared that it was dark, for we both had impeccable eyesight, even in the dark. Still, other people would wonder where we were. Especially since I didn't know what Alice had told Charlie.
With a groan, Edward let me go, and helped me to my feet. Clearly he was not anxious to leave, either.
"We will have to talk to the wolves..." Edward said, answering my question, though clearly he did not like the idea. I didn't expect him to, however. Vampires and wolf shape-shifters were arch enemies. "They will be able to help you."
He glanced around the meadow, a sad expression on his face. Like me, it was clear he was unwilling to leave this place. And who would want to leave? The meadow was a secluded spot away from the troubles of the world. I was reluctant to head back, because then I would actually have to confront my problems. At least, now, there was a difference:
I was ready.
"Lets go," Edward said, smiling his crooked smile at me. My heartbeat sped up of its own accord, oh how I couldn't wait until the day when it would not give me away!
Edward chuckled, and together we raced off toward the Cullen house. As we ran through the woods, the sound of my laughter rang out, for neither could gain the lead. In fact, I was somewhat shocked; I had werewolf speed! Edward, however, was able to keep up with me.
When Edward realized this, he began to laugh as well. The melody was breathtaking, like the sound of Christmas bells. As I looked at him, a calming peace washed over me. With the Cullens helping me, someway, everything would be okay, somehow.
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