"A Life I Thought Would Never Return: Dean's Past"

Chapter 13

A/N: This is the first time I'm writing in Dean's POV (therefore Alec's too) so I apologize in advance if he isn't himself for some parts (I tried adding in those famous lines though). This will be DARK ANGEL focused for the majority of it but it's in these categories so it's in the same one as STORY A.

REMEMBER, I WROTE THIS AS IF I WAS DEAN LOOKING BACK ON THE MEMORY (Dialogues are in italics and are from memory)

This whole chapter should be italicbut I didn't want to. It's still all a memory (don't forget that!)

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural, Dark Angel or Twilight. They belong to their respective owners (I thank them for creating them in the first place).

Episode thoughts (are my thoughts) follow the original plot line of the episode (only alterations were made in come dialogue to merge the universes).

STORY A's Summary: SPN/DA/Twi Crossover. Bella finds herself being Victoria's target as well as having conflicted emotions when her past comes back unexpectedly. ~~~~Dean(Alec)/Max~~~~Bella/Sam/Edward/Jacob~~~~SPN (Season4), DA (Post-Series), Twilight (Eclipse)

STORY B's Summary: Dean lays awake in his motel room (moment in Chapter 8 of Story A) and reminiscences about his life with Manticore and his battle with the supernatural. (Goes through Dean's thoughts on events from his childhood to events in season 2 of Dark Angel and leading up to where Story A takes off)

Moment Summaries in Chapter (separated by the dividers):

Part 1 - Heat (takes place between Episode 2.19 & 2.20 of Dark Angel) **these scenes are my idea, not part of the Dark Angel original series**

TAKES PLACE IN APRIL

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Dean's POV

It's been a week since Max's clone came into our lives and it's been the same as usual if not better. Max returned to Jam Pony and caused Sketchy and Normal to forget their suspicions about her and Original Cindy was glad that she had her roommate back. Everything seemed to back to normal at Jam Pony except with the news about the transgenics still going strong but Max and I were fine, we still hung out like great friends and we acted like a couple when Logan was around. No much public displays of affection but just stuff like holding hands, hugging, me kissing her on the forehead. It didn't happen often but we were ready. It was driving me crazy having Max in my arms or touching her skin and just acting like I love her when I already do but couldn't tell her. It was torture being with her like that yet not telling her that I want to be with her like that for real.

I didn't notice it at first but last night at Crash, Max was looking at me all funny with the love sick eyes and I thought it was because Logan was in the room but I just waved it off and ended the night early. For the next two days OC was telling Normal that Max was too sick to come in. The same thing happened on the third day of Max's absence, and that worried me even more, because we don't get sick so what could have had Max skip work for three days? It wasn't an Eyes Only job since she only did a few of those and they were usually with me. I decided to call her on her cell. It rang a couple of times before she answered.

"Hey Dean." Max answered as I heard tapping on the other side.

"Hey, you alright? OC said that you weren't feeling well."

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just can't come in today." The tone in her voice was different so I just pushed it off as her not really feeling well.

"Alright, I better go deliver some packages then. Talk to you later." I was about to hang up the phone but Max stopped me.

"Dean, wait!"

"Yeah, Maxie?" There was silence before Max continued.

"I was just wondering when you found out that my clone was in town." That question was something I wasn't expecting. What was I supposed to tell her? Of course I would know the difference between twins if one of them was someone that I love, or the 'I know you better than I know myself sometimes' cliché. No, I couldn't say that because she doesn't feel the same way towards me. So I just told her the basic truth.

"At the end of the day when I first saw her, I knew she wasn't you. So I headed to Joshua's to see if you were there and then I called your cell. Why?"

"I was just wondering. Thanks for knowing then."

"Uh, yeah sure, no problem…..Max, what's this about?" I only heard the tapping on the other side with some heavy breathing. "Max?"

"Can you come over? I need to talk to you."

"We are talking." I could have sworn I heard a faint giggle on Max's side.

"I meant face to face."

"Alright, I'll be there shortly."

"Bye." I hung up without saying anything and rushed to Normal to make an excuse about having an appointment before I rushed to Max's place. I didn't know why Max wanted to see me, or why she wanted to see me now and not later at Crash.

All the possibilities were rushing in my head as I drove to her place. It wasn't until I was right in front of her door that I knew why she stayed home. As soon as I stood in front of her door, I instantly could smell the pheromones that were being emitted from her apartment and right then I knew that I was in trouble. My body started to react to her pheromones in a way that I couldn't stop it. All I could think about was getting in that apartment and kissing Max, taking her in my arms and making her mine. Every other common sense I had to pull back from the door was being pushed back by the want and desire to be with her, to taste her, to touch her, to smell her divine scent like I've wanted to for so long. It happened so fast, one minute I was levelled headed and the next, I was some crazy sex addict that needed to be with Max and before I could snap out of it, Max opened the door. I knew she could smell me out in the hallway. Her eyes were full of desire, need, and lust as she looked me over.

"Hey Dean." Max said my name in a seductive way that made my knees want to buckle but I had to stay strong, I didn't want her like this.

"Max, what have you done?" I backed up from her until I was against the opposite wall.

"What do you mean?" She said all innocent like and it was killing me the way she was acting.

"I can smell it on you, you're not yourself." I tried not to breathe in her scent as I spoke.

"I am myself Dean, I….want…..you." Max was stepping closer to me as she spoke and I couldn't move. She breathed the last three words in my face and I swear I was gonna loose control.

As Max leaned in towards me, I took the opportunity to blur down the hallway and down towards my bike to go back to my apartment. I could sense that Max was chasing me but I needed to focus on what to do. I wanted Max but not like this, I wanted her to want me because she had feelings for me, not because her screwed up feline DNA is making her want me or any other guy in the city. I rushed to my apartment and locked the door and had a chair blocking its way but I knew that wasn't going to stop her. It was only minutes later when I could smell the pheromones again on the other side of my door. I was backing up in my apartment until I heard the kicking at my door before it swung open to reveal Max. She sauntered inside and slammed the door shut before making her way to the living room where I was.

"I want you Dean." She declared as she locked eyes with me.

"Max, you're not thinking straight." Max walked a little closer as she took her leather jacket off and dropped it to the floor to reveal her blue, skin tight tank top.

"Yes I am."

"It's the heat talking Max, fight it." I was trying so hard to fight the effect she was having on me. It wasn't just the regular heat induced reaction I was fighting off, but I was fighting off my natural attractive towards her, the one that I've been fighting off for a long time now.

"I don't want to fight it." Max had moved around the couch so that it wasn't between us anymore.

"Fight it Max, you don't want this!"

"I'm not gonna fight it anymore." Anymore? I stood to think that one through which was a bad idea side Max was closing in on me. I moved around the room as she trailed behind, not keeping her eyes off of me. I headed towards the bathroom, thinking that maybe if she had a cold shower, then she might have enough sense to leave. I had backed myself up to the wall beside the bathroom door and I had to hold Max back before she got any closer. It didn't help much, my hands were on her bare skin as I felt her skin burning up under my touch.

"Max stop! Control yourself."

"No."

"God, why are you doing this to me?" My hold on her was loosening and she was stepping closer.

"Because I want you!" Max said in that seductive voice once again.

"You're in heat!" I practically shouted hoping that fact alone would make her stop.

"Yeah but I could've had any guy I wanted by now." Max had lowered my hands from their hold as she walked into my arms to whisper into my ear. "But I want you Dean Winchester, only you." Right at that moment I wanted to kiss Max so badly, like I did the moment I first saw her but I resisted the urge. She's just playing with you, I kept telling myself. She's never shown you signs of having feelings for you.

"Why me?" It was all I could whisper into her ear as she back up to look me in the eyes. Her gorgeous chocolate brown eyes had no Manticore mask covering what she felt, I saw the desire, the need, the lust that I assumed were from the heat. But I also saw understanding, passion, intensity and………….love?

"Why do you think?" I saw a flash of hurt in her eyes when I didn't answer but only gave her a confused look. "I love you Dean." My eyes widened at her confession. She can't love me, she loves Logan. This can't be happening? But what if it's true?

"You love Logan."

"No, I don't. I haven't for awhile. I love you Dean Winchester."

I couldn't process what she said fast enough and Max was up real close that she brushed her lips along my jawbone before meeting my lips in a kiss. The kiss was more than I could image with Max. I could feel the electricity flowing in my body as the kiss deepened. I could feel the intensity of the kiss rise as her arms snaked around my neck as one of my hands pulled her in tightly towards me as she fit perfectly against my body as the other cupped her face. I kissed her back so hard that others couldn't handle it but she kissed me back with the same force, passion and intensity that I gave her. It was a longer kiss since we didn't need oxygen yet but once we broke apart, we were both panting for some air yet still staring at each other.

"I love you too Maxie. Always have."

"Make love to me then."

"Max-"

"I want you and only you, Dean. Now make me yours." Max seductively whispered into my ear and I instantly pulled Max into another heated kiss as I lifted her up and took her to my bedroom as I couldn't resist the pheromones or her anymore.

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Before I woke up, I started to panic. What if Max didn't mean any of it? What if she used me again? What if she wants to forget it all? I can't forget it, now that I've had her, I don't want to let her go. I could sense that they were a pair of eyes watching me before I opened my eyes, as well as the smell of pheromones had faded away. I opened my eyes to see that the room was dark and that it was night time from the looks of it as the moonlight shown through my bedroom window. I turned by head to the side to where the eyes were and I saw Max's gorgeous eyes staring back at me, accompanied with a smile.

"Hi there." I smiled down at her.

"Hi."

"Have to say, I was a little worried." Max moved her head to rest it on top of my chest.

"Why's that?"

"I thought earlier was all just a dream." I kissed the top of Max's head.

"Nope, it wasn't." Max inched up and kissed me on the lips. It felt like the first one all over again.

"I love you Maxie."

"I love you too Dean."

"Since when?"

"For awhile now, just didn't occur to me until last week that I did. I was too focused on Logan but I loved you both at the same time. Even my clone helped me out in a way."

"How so?"

"Telling identical twins apart is definitely a sign." I smiled. She had noticed.

"I was hoping you would say that. So what about when we went to that classy club?"

"The feelings were there for you."

"And when I confessed about Rachel and my past?"

"Kind of jealous there and I liked you then too." I couldn't help but smirk at the thought of Max being jealous over me.

"Aww. Now how about, when you got that temporary cure?"

"Kept thinking about you plus I spend it with you instead of with Logan, didn't I?"

"True, and when you were shot?"

"I heard you."

"You did?"

"Yup, I don't fully sleep you know." I gave a slight laugh.

"Good to know, so what about now?" I asked.

"I want to be with you, no more pretending."

"I wasn't pretending." I admitted as I had grinned at the thought.

"Neither was I."

"I still get my pie though, right?" Max slapped me in the arm. I couldn't help it. "What? Just asking."

"I was thinking of giving you something else." Max kissed me again and I couldn't help but smile in the kiss. Once I broke from the kiss I saw a glimpse of Max's neck.

"Max, are you sure about us?"

"Yes Dean, why?"

"It's just…..I think I marked you earlier." I brushed Max's hair away from her neck as I saw the bite mark that I had given her earlier.

"I think I marked you too." I felt a slight stinging at the side of my own neck when Max slightly touched it.

"I guess I'm yours then Sweetheart."

"And I'm yours." I took Max in for another kiss as I spent the rest of the night with my mate, my lover and my best friend.

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A/N: What do you think? They didn't have a situation where Max went into heat during Season 2, so this is my take on it......sorry if it's lame, but I tried. Sorry if either Dean/Alec or Max seem out of character but I needed this scene to happen =D

REVIEWS are welcomed =D