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I made my decision. I'm going to end it with Sian. There was a time when I thought Sian was the love of my life but since I met Maddie everything changed. Now I think she is the one for me. I still love Sian but I don't think I'm in love with her anymore. She is perfect in every way but I don't feel the same when I'm with her. Being with Maddie is different, special. She makes me feel alive. I need to talk about this with Maddie. So now I'm at her door knocking.

Sophie: Maddie are you in?

She opens the door.

Maddie: Why are you here?

Sophie: To talk.

Maddie: Come in but make it fast because we should get to work.

Sophie: Fine.

I came in.

Sophie: Last night I was thinking and I decided. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

Maddie: You can't be serious.

Sophie: I am. I'm one hundred percent sure that I want to be with you, only you.

Maddie: What about Sian and your baby? Did you forget about them again?

Sophie: I'm going to leave Sian.

Maddie: And if you leave Sian you think we automatically will be together.

Sophie: Sort of.

Maddie: Well, then I have to tell you something. I'm not your fucking slut who you can use when you want and put away if you don't need it, understand?

Sophie: I don't want use you.

Maddie: You already did that. I'm tired of this conversation.

At work we could act like everything was fine between us but I know that our relationship can't end here. I need her.

After work I went to Steve. After all he is my best friend. I'm going to tell him everything and ask for support cause I know it won't be easy to get a divorce from Sian.

Steve: Hi Soph! It's a long time no see you. Come in!

Sophie: I know. I was busy.

Steve: Wanna catch up?

Sophie: To be honest there's something I would like to tell you.

Steve: You sound serious.

Sophie: Cause I am.

Steve: Then let's hear what you got to tell.

Sophie: Remember the night when you gave the phone number of a pimp?

Steve: Of course but you said you did not use it.

Sophie: I lied. I used it on that night. I called and then I had a meeting with a prostitute.

Steve: No big deal. One time you needed it. Sian doesn't have to know about that.

Sophie: It wasn't just one time.

Steve: So you regularly go there now?

Sophie: No but there was the prostitute. Her name's Maddie. Well, we started a relationship. It become more that sex for money and soon I convinced her that she should quit this job so she did and she is working with me now.

Steve: That is fucked up, you know?

Sophie: It will be more fucked up just listen. Lately I realized that I'm not in love with Sian. I love her, really love her but it's not the same anymore. I'm in love with Maddie. I feel that she is love of my life. She is something fabulous.

Steve: You know I'm you friend and I support your decisions however we need to think it over. Things are not so simple.

Sophie: I know but I would do everything to be with Maddie.

Steve: I get it but are you sure that what you feel is not just a flame which won't last long?

Sophie: I'm sure. Every inch of mine wants to be with her, only her.

Steve: Than you have to get a divorce from Sian but what it makes this whole thing complicated that you two have a baby together.

Sophie: I know that but I will never abandon my child. My son or daughter is the most important in my life. If I divorce from Sian I still want to be the part of my child's life.

Steve: Look if I were you would not rush my decisions because you have a wonderful life. Your wife is absolutely perfect. She loves you, cares about you. And there's a child and you take away his or her chance to grow up in a loving family.

Sophie: Please don't say that. It makes me feel awful.

Steve: Well, you know…honestly…I am really your friend but what you wanna do is awful and selfish.

Sophie: I did not come for this.

Steve: Everything that I heard now is hard to understand. I mean you even lied to me without a without a wink of the eyelid. I'm slightly upset about it. You pretty much shocked me. I think you should go now.

Sophie: What?

Steve: I'm still your friend but I need time.

Sophie: I fully understand you.

My next way is home. To my surprise Sian is not at home. I sit down on the couch and start to think. I can't believe that this horrible person become of me even my friend thinks that. But it's not my main worry because we have a strong friendship at finally he will be there for me, I know it. But if I tell everything to Sian. I can't even imagine what will happen. Such a complicated situation. I go to the kitchen and try to make myself useful. I do dinner for me and Sian. It's so ruthless that when I'm kissing her or having sex or when we are simply together I'm thinking about leaving her. I start to cry. I can feel the tears coming from my eyes. It's not easy for me. How? Why did I have to get myself in this whole mess. Why couldn't I talk to Sian at the first place? Why did I have to fucking cheat on her? Why do I have feelings for Maddie? I'm completely in my thoughts when I hear the door opening. Sian came home. I wipe my tears and wash my face. I hope she won't realize that I cried. I go to greet her but she is not alone. There's Maddie on her side. My blood freezes in my from that view.

Sian: Hi baby!

She kisses my cheek.

Sian: I invited Maddie to have a dinner with us. I hope it's not problem. At the party we talked about that we should get together for a dinner now here's the chance.

Sophie: Of course it's not a problem.

Sian: Make yourself at home, Maddie.

Maddie: Thanks!

I can't believe she is here. I told here she should stay away from Sian but of course she doesn't care.

We're having dinner together. I can't even eat. Once I'm looking at Sian and then Maddie and I go deep in my thoughts again. I see that they have a nice little chat. After a while I start to make conversation with them if everything would be alright. I seriously don't know how Maddie feels about this. Isn't it uncomfortable for her? I need Steve's help. I'm gonna get crazy from these women.