Chapter14 (by milael)

Every thought about Cas disappeared out of Dean's mind when he saw his brother was awake. He smiled and laid a hand on his little brother's cheek in order to attract his attention.

"Hey Sammy" he told him. When his brother's eyes watched him, he continued. "How are you ?" Sam coughed again before answering weakly.

"D-De… ?" The older brother smiled even though his eyes expressed worry.

"Yes, it's me, Sammy. How are you ?" Sam watched around him and noticed Bobby who looked at him.

"I'm fine. What… What happen ?" Bobby and Dean exchanged a look.

"What do you remember ?" Bobby asked. Sam, who still was in his brother's arms and who didn't seem having noticed yet, looked at his almost-father. He frowned and thought, searching in his memories for the last thing which he remembered. It was difficult because all was blurry and vague in his mind.

"I… The demon… I killed it and… Shouldn't I be… dead ?" Dean closed his eyes for some seconds but it was enough to see the picture of a dead Sam. He opened them immédiately and met Sam's eyes. He caressed his hair.

"You were but… thanks to Cas, you're here, alive, among us." Bobby cleared his throat.

"Speaking of Cas, we maybe should find him or call him, no ? He didn't seem to be fine when he left." Dean hesitated. His friend's reaction had surprised him. It was the first time he had seen him like that. He had looked very angry but desesperate too. What did it happen while his unconscious ?

"I don't know if it's a good idea to go to search him. Maybe we should wait he calms down and let all he feels go out. And then, approaching an angry angel isn't some thing I'd do." Not when I have Sam in my arms.

"So we have to wait here untile he comes, that's it ? Dean, Sam needs a good bed. Listen, what do you think about me geting out and find out where we are ? Like that, I will call you if I find something or you will call me if Cas comes back." Dean thought about this idea for some seconds before nodding. Bobby was right, his little brother needed a good bed and food and water some to have got his strength back.

"Okay but take care about yourself." Bobby stood up. What he hadn't said was he hoped that with his absence, the two brothers would talk because they should do that. They needed to do that.

"Like always. It's the same for you. I'll call in twenty minutes to tell you what I found."

"Okay."

Bobby left the warehouse, leaving the two brothers alone. The older watched his brother who didn't understand what it was happening. Dean noticed it and explained to him.

"Cas brought you back but that cost him a lot of energy because he fainted. When he woke up some minutes ago, he seemed to be panic-stricken. Then he started to speak, saying we shouldn't dare to tell him that and just after he got so angry. If you had seen him...it's the first time I saw him like that. Afterwards he left and you woke up."

"I see."

While several minutes, the two Winchester stared at the other without saying something. Nevertheless, they both had the same thought. They both remembered what they had said before Sam died. They wanted to talk about that but didn't know if the subject was welcome and if the other remembered. Eventually Dean spoke.

"Sam ?"

"Yes ?" Dean breathed for having the courage.

"What you said before… did you really think that ?"

"Yes, and you ?"

"Of course I though it. I love you Sammy, I'll love you for an eternity. And I'm sorry for not to telling you that before because if I had done it, none of this would have happened."

"Dean, no, it wasn't your fault," Sam protested.

"Yes, it was, Sammy. Because of me and my actions, you believed I didn't love you and I didn't want you around me." Sam lowed his head.

"And Cas ?" he asked insurely. Dean frowned.

"What do you mean ?"

"Do you love him ?" The older opened his eyes wide.

"What ? No… well yes… well no." Sam frowned, not understanding. Dean noticed and explained. "Yes, I love him but as a member of my family. I don't love him as I love you. You are and will remain this one who is the most important for me." Sam had tears in his eyes hearing that.

"I love you too and you are the person who means the most for me."

Dean smiled and leaned to kiss him. Sam was surprised by this gesture but closed his eyes and kissed him back.

Yes, Sam and Dean finally kiss ! Please review.