Sarah collapsed to the ground crying, after she's heard the front door closing. Raymonda walked to her and hugged her, "It's okay, Mummy. I'll take care of you. Don't cry, please."

Sarah held her firmly and whined, "He's gone. He left me alone again."

The young girl wiped her mom's her, "No, mum, you're not alone. You have me. I'll take care of you as he told me."

Sarah raised her eyes to her, "I'm sorry, Monda."

Monda smiled at her and shook her head, "Don't be sorry, mum. I know he would be back. He will take care of his work, then he will be back to take care of us."

Sarah looked at her sadly, the poor little girl doesn't know the truth about this man. The truth that he won't be back. That it's dangerous for all of them to be together. That he is a notorious lair. But she believed him. Red could convince the little girl that he would back. That she's got to be a tough girl. Sarah sighed, SHE needs to be the big tough girl. For her daughter and for herself. She's in her forties now. She's got to be strong. She must prove to herself and to Red that she really has changed.

She had a deep breath, and looked at the little girl who patted her arm, "Come on, mum. Let me help you change."

Sarah got up and started to change with the help of Monda. When they're done, Monda said, "Go to refresh yourself, and I'll make us dinner."

Sarah looked at her amazed, and the little girl chuckled, "It's okay, mum. Dembe taught me how to make cheese sandwiches, and I'll bring yogurt too."

Sarah nodded and went into the bathroom. They sat together to eat the toast with cheddar and yogurt, then Monda held her arm, "Let me take you to bed now."

Sarah held her hand, "Do you want to join me in the bed? I don't want to sleep alone tonight."

Monda sighed, "I wanted to ask you the same thing."

And they nuzzled into each other in Sarah's bed, till the alarm clock rang next morning.

When she reached her office next morning with puffed eyes, she met Hobbs. She smiled embarrassed, "Mr. Hobbs, good morning."

He replied, "Sarah, I'm sorry. I don't know how to say that but..."

He swallowed and her face got pale, "What is it?"

He had a deep breath and exhaled the cruel words, "You're fired."

Her eyes open wide and she repeated, "Fired?! Why? Did I do anything wrong?"

He twisted his lips, "No, you didn't. You're perfect. And I admit it, this is going to be a big loss to this branch of my company. But I had to do that. I'm not willing it, but I have to."

She stared at him and whispered, "It's Reddington? He brought me this job, and he's taking it back."

Hobbs nodded sadly, "I'm sorry, Sarah. But I can help you find another job. I'll be always ready to help you."

Her eyes glowed with tears, "I know, James. You've always helped me, and I owe you much. Thank you for everything."

She didn't give him a chance to reply, and just left to get her daughter and go back home.

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Sarah sat in her bed this evening hugging her daughter. They had their dinner, and chose to lie down in bed and watch a cartoon movie. She wasn't really watching. She was staring at the screen, but her mind was away. She was thinking how stupid she was, to let him into her life again, into their life. He came back for two days and destroyed her life. Just like he did the first time she saw him. She lost everything just like that night she met him in her office. Only this time, she still has her daughter. She held on to the little girl firmly thinking. Will he take Monda. He gave her the job and took it back when they fought. He gave her the seed of that girl five years ago, will he take her back now? She can't loose this girl. She's everything she has. She's her life. She will die without her. She can't let him do this. She would kill him with bare hands, if he tried to take her girl.

"Mum, are you okay?"

She didn't know she was crying, until Monda said those words worried. She wiped her tears, and tried to smile, "I'm fine, baby."

Monda sighed, and rested her head to her mum's chest, "You love him too, don't you?"

Sarah swallowed and replied, "You shouldn't talk about that. These stuff are for big people, young children shouldn't discuss it."

Monda moved to face her, "But you're my mother. And you're sad. And you don't have anyone else to talk to."

Sarah stared at the innocent girl, and nodded as her tears fell again, "I love him."

Monda asked confused, "Then why are you treating him that bad? He didn't do anything wrong. He was careful to make me happy all the time. And you were just yelling at him, why?"

Sarah sighed, "I wish the answer was as simple as the question, Ray."

The girl looked at her confused, "I don't understand. Why are you mad at him?"

Sarah held her daughter's hands, "Because I love him. And because I'm afraid."

Monda asked, "Afraid of Red?"

Sarah sighed, "Afraid he would leave us again. Afraid he would break our hearts. Because I know he would leave eventually."

Monda crossed her legs on the bed, "Why should he leave? Is he working out of America like dad?"

Sarah swallowed and nodded silently, so Monda asked again,"But if he loves us, why don't he quit that job for us? You left your job to be with me, why wouldn't he do this for us?"

Sarah shook her head, "It's not that simple, my baby."

Monda sighed, "You know? I don't think he loves us enough. I don't think my father loved us either. "

Sarah furrowed and squeezed the little hands in hers, "No, sweetheart. Your daddy loves you so much. He's away because this is better for you, for the three of us. You can never doubt his love to you."

Monda stared at her, "But he told me he would be back. I'm sure Red loves me too, and will be back for me. I will never doubt that."

Sarah tried to hold her tears and nodded, "I don't doubt it either, baby. Red loves you very much, this is why he left."

Monda scanned her mum's face for a moment, then she asked seriously, "Mum, is Red my father?"

The hot tears ran on Sarah's cheeks, and she nodded silently. Monda stared at her for another moment, then asked hoarsely, "Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't HE tell me?"

Sarah sobbed, "I'm sorry, Ray. I didn't know how to tell you. And he didn't want to do it against my will. We needed to take that decision together."

The girl started to cry, "This is why you were fighting?"

Sarah nodded, and pulled her to her chest whining, "I'm sorry, Ray. I'm so sorry."

The girl sobbed, "Why mum? Why did you let him go? I wanted him to stay. I wanted my daddy to be with me. I loved him."

Sarah rubbed her back, "I'm sorry, baby. I was stupid. I was confused, and you two were making it harder."

And they held onto each other crying desperately for their loss, crying for Red.