14
"We all make mistakes" Ton said as they were almost to the driveway, "I wore that hideous orange shirt all day without knowing it had that green spider thing on the back of it. I thought I looked swish but from the back I looked a bit of a twat."
Imp nodded.
"You know … Daddy dropped me once. I remember. He was doing that throwing in the air thing he does and he sneezed. It was in the old house. Nainny Bets almost clocked him one with the fry pan. She was so mad, kept screaming and waving her arms about. I was only winded and Daddy was so scared for me. It happens. Accidents."
"I could have killed her"
"I could have driven over that stupid dog back there trying to have a go at Taddy's motor. I could have shaved me head this morning even if Taddy might die from all the horrors of it. Fen might come down naked for the meal. So? Not everything is fixed ya know. Some things are sort of broken. Makes the fixed things more real."
"Fixed?"
Ton stooped the motor and turned to his little brother, "This is a secret. Something I don't think I should know, but I know things because my brain sees it different, Right?"
Imp nodded.
"There are things that are fixed. Like … fixed points in life. They will happen no matter what. A zig or a zag that happened even if we know it might and try to avoid it. The Gods wrote the Book of Life that way. Knowing that it is fixed means it can't be altered or changed. So … why sweat it? It was not our problem, fault or even our choice. It was fixed. Like … Taddy will always check if we put the lunch box in the dishwasher no matter how many times we tell him we did. It's fixed. A definite 'gotta happen' sort of thing. This was fixed. Something that had to happen in the story because it was a point where it was decided by the Gods writing our story to put it in there. You couldn't change it or avoid it. The fact it was not a bad thing might have been fixed, or because Sam acted fast it was not as bad as it originally might have been. You see … you falling was fixed. Not LB getting hurt. That was not fixed, that was like … several parallel choices could have been made like a twist-a-plot book. You chose to put your hands out so your fall was cushioned, she chose to roll over LB so her legs caught you … lots of things. LB stayed there instead of rolling into the way. See?"
"So … even though it is my fault … I can't help it or fix it so …"
"So … accept it and move on dude!" Ton said as he started the motor again, "It's done. Ticked off in the book and we move forward."
Imp relaxed as he saw that Ton was right.
As always.