Chapter 14: I don't want to try
I woke up the next day early, way to early. I hadn't closed the curtains the previous night and now the sun was shining on my face. I looked to my left and missed a pink head. She's visiting her friends. What am I going to do all day?
I turned the TV on. The first chancel was a music program. The top hundred from the galaxy was playing. The song 'your sex is on fire' just ended and the host came back on the screen: "Well I just love this song and if it was up to me it would have been higher ranked. But that's just me. The next girl is also someone I like. I met her one time and she seemed a very cheery person. She's ranked twice in these charts. This is Alexis Trusedale, with 'this is me'."
The screen caught my full attention. The song was recorded live. She was standing on a stage with her back to the public. Her pink hair was hanging lose and came lower then her shoulders. She was wearing a black skirt, that had a diamond chain hanging on her side. High, pink-black socks came above her knees and she had black sneakers at her feet.
I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know
She turned around to see her audience. She was younger. Must have been last year or the year before that. Her white top had the words 'rock princes' written on it and she was also wearing her skull earring. She didn't have the white in her hair. I can't believe this is the first time I heard one of her songs. We've been dating for more then a month now and this is the first song I hear her sing, well with the exception of that one time on the streets.
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
She had a huge smile cover her face. I got jealous because of it. She was exactly where she belonged, but that's somewhere I don't belong. The camera showed two people standing in the V.I.P. lounge. Must be her parents. She looks a lot like her mother, well except for the hair. The two people had cell-phones pressed against their ears and didn't seem interested in what their daughter was doing. She has never talked about her parents before.
Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
Hey, this is that song I read the second time I saw her. When she kicked my leg. I remember those words. That's when she started haunting my mind. The camera zoomed in on her and an eyebrow piercing could be seen. She doesn't have that anymore. I haven't seen her with it. She walked over the stage, into the crowed and everyone's eyes followed her. She was completely comfortable on standing right there.
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you
This guy walked on the stage, seemed the same age as her. They knew each other good. You could tell. The way they hang around each other was driving me insane. Man, what's going on with me. She didn't even know me back then. What does it matter if she's holding hands with some guy on a stage.
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
They looked each other in the eye and were still holding hands. God dame it! What wrong with me? The host of the programme came back: "I'll never get tired of that song. To bad those two broke up a few days after that concert…"
They broke up? Good. What am I saying. She's my girlfriend now. I'm dating her. Hell, I even sleep with her every night at the moment. Not for long if you don't make sure that fight from last night is worked out. Wait, that dude was also one of her boyfriends? How many did she have? There's also that Daniel dude.
The next song started playing. I didn't know it. Didn't that woman say that she was ranked twice in these charts? I saw her laptop laying on the table in the corner. Maybe I can look up what the other song is. It's not like I'm going to look into her stuff.
It was a black laptop. I opened it and saw some papers laying between the machine. It were songs she was still working on. No, I'm not going to read them. The laptop had a password. Great, I don't know her that good. Wait, maybe…
I entered four letters and got access. That was kind of obvious. She does have an obsession with pink. A welcome message came and then her background. It was a mix of a few pictures: her friends, pink All Stars, a photo of her concert, her idol, Tia of the Snow Kids and one of me. Wait she has a picture of me? It was of the All Star match.
A document opened by it's self. It was an other song. It wasn't finished yet, considering there were only a few sentences written.
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left's goodbye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
It was written very resonantly. Maybe a day or two ago. I wish I hadn't read it. Am I losing her? No, that can't happen. She's the only own who cares for me. I can't lose her. I switched the laptop of and turned the TV out. I got my jacket.
What am I doing? I don't even know where she is. She didn't tell me. It's like I don't know her at all. That doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that I have to talk to her. Tia and Mei probably know where she is. They seem to be good friends.
(Aarch)
"Aarch, why are you calling?; I heard Artegor at the other line of the phone. He sounded a lot better then the last time I called him: "You seem to have cooled down. How did that meeting go with the team?"
"Not so great considering no one showed up. Kind of expected it though; the man answered. I looked threw the window that was behind my desk. The sky was bright and I saw some birds fly by. It was only eight o'clock: "But tell me Aarch, why did you call me? I have a feeling you wanted to talk about something else."
"Yes, your boy's had a little three on three match against my team; I started and I could hear Artegor sigh: "Let me guess, someone got injured."
"Yes, Micro-Ice got tackled by your star striker. His ankle is bruised pretty badly; I told my former friend: "Well, I'm sorry Aarch, but what do you want me to do about that. I haven't seen my team in a week now."
"Try to get them to play again for you. Solve your team problems and do it fast!; I said. It's clear what he has to do: "I'm working on that Aarch, trust me! By the way did you see Sinedd?"
"No, cause else he would have gotten a lecture from me. Why?; I asked. Maybe I would have strangled the teenager. I was capable of a lot yesterday. I did torture D'Jok and Thran for a while in the hollow trainer: "Just to make sure he's alive. I have to keep an eye on him from the orphanage, remember."
"Well, he's doing fine. So don't worry about him; I said and hung up. What a morning. This seems promising for the rest of the day.
"Tia, can you open the door. I'm still getting dressed; I heard the tall brunette yell threw the room. The white girl opened the door, wearing the yellow training uniform. She was holding a brush in her hands and was surprised to see me: "Euh…am I dreaming?"
"No, your not. Where was Lex going to for a few days?; I asked and saw Mei walk out of the bathroom, wearing the same thing as Tia: "Sinedd? What are you doing here? You wane get killed?"
"Not really, you know where she is?; I answered Mei and look back down at Tia, who was a head shorter then me: "Well, she's going to the opening match of the basketball team from her school. So she's probably at PCD-high on Obai Moon."
"Thank you; I said and walked off. I could feel the two girls starring after me. Both of them confused and with a questioned face-expression: "Tia, pinch me. I think I'm dreaming."
'SLAP!!!'
"Aw, I said pinch me, not hit me!; I heard the two girls get into a fight. The stupid elevator ride took to long to my taste. It looked like a year had passed. I ran out the elevator. I saw Aarch walking in the hall. He saw me running threw the door: "Sinedd, wait! I need to talk to you."
"Not now.!; I yelled back and got a cab. I have other things to take are of first.
"Sir, is something wrong?; I turned around and saw my two female players standing behind me. Ready for practise. I shook my head. What does Alexis see in him?: "I just wanted to talk to Sinedd, but he seemed to have other problems."
"Yeah, I think something's up between him and Lexie; the white girl explained. So they know too. Of course they would, what would you expect. Tia and Alexis are best friends and Mei is becoming one: "Oh well, I'll have to talk to him when he gets back."
"Euh…can we know about what?; Mei asked carefully. She clearly didn't want to anger me. I smiled to the girls. I don't have any secrets for my players, well not a lot: "He and the Shadows need to start playing again. If they don't watch themselves, their going to get kicked out of the cup in the first match and I would lick to beat them for to the end of the cup."
"You just want to beat Artegor Nexus again, don't you?; Tia asked me and I laughed: "Is it that obvious?"
"Kind of coach."
oe, what is Sinedd going to do now?
who knows...
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