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Chapter 13

Completely Dead Inside

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I took in everything she said and took a step into the meadow.

I stopped a couple of steps away from her, and hesitantly I started to talk.

"You know you're wrong about something." I could tell she was startled because the moment I said the first word, she was up and at the very edge of the meadow in less than a second.

"Edward?" She seemed stunned that I was there.

"These past weeks have been awful, the worst, not the best." She looked at me confused and in disbelief.

"When you were talking, you said that these past three weeks were probably the best, but they were the worst days of my life. Not even changing into a vampire competes with these past weeks." I was fighting everything I had in me so I wouldn't run to her, hug her, and kiss her for three weeks straight.

She just stared at me, not moving, not speaking but when I took a step towards her, she took a step back.

"You know the whole family misses you, they want you to come back."

"Except….?" She questioned in a whisper.

"Rosalie has no say in who I love and want to live with me, just ignore her. Please come back Bella, the whole family misses you and wants you to come back, without a doubt." When I finished talking I stared at her for a while, taking in all of her, putting it away in my memory.

Then I took another step forward, but she took two more steps back.

"Edward, I want to come back, I really do, but…but-"

"See, you can't even come up with a reason why you can't come back." I said, barely above a whisper.

"But Edward." She looked at me with pleading eyes, but I wasn't going to give up that easily. Now that I found her, I would make sure I at least had a good reason for her leaving me, or if I didn't get that, then take her back home with me.

I took another step toward her, but this time she didn't even move. Just stood there, looking down at her feet.

I was still walking slowly, just in case she changed her mind and did decide to leave again. When I was right in front of her I grabbed her hands gently, she still didn't look up, just kept staring down.

I couldn't stand it anymore. I pulled her to me and hugged her as hard as I could. Holding her to me like she was my life line, and in a way, she was.

At first she didn't really respond or move, but after what seemed like hours, she hugged me back, just as hard as I was holding her, buried her head in my neck and started to dry cry.

I just held her even tighter.

"Edward, I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry, but I just couldn't stand the idea that the only reason your family was going through any trouble at all was because of me."

While she was talking, her lips kept brushing past my neck that sent shivers down my spine.

"Bella….Bella, Bella, Bella. You have no idea how much I missed you." I said while inhaling her wonderful scent, also locking it away in my memory.

"I missed you too, so much." She put a lot of emphasis on the last word. We stood holding each other for who knows how long.

When I slowly started to sit down, still holding onto Bella of course, she didn't even complain. Just sat in my lap, her head still buried in my neck, but I wasn't complaining either.

"Bella, please don't leave again. I don't know if I can handle it this time. I barely made it through the last three weeks. It was like I was dead, I don't want to go through that again." I whispered.

"But if I come back….I don't want to bring trouble with me, and Rosalie-"

"Rosalie has nothing to do with this. If the real reason why you don't want to come back is because you don't love me anymore, then I won't stop you and you can go, but if it's just because you think you're going to bring trouble into the family, or anything to do with Rosalie at all, then I'm not going to give up. Ever. So Bella, do you still love me?" She picked up her head and looked me straight in the eyes.

Bella's POV

Of course I still loved him, but I couldn't put him and his family through all that trouble again, and I wouldn't feel right being in the same house as Rosalie everyday. As much as it was going to kill me, I had to do it.

"Yes Edward I do love you, but as a best friend loves another friend." That was it, I actually felt myself die, even more when I saw the pain in Edward's eyes. I couldn't even look at him, so I looked at the trees behind him. I slowly got up from his lap and sat in front of him, everything inside me screaming to kiss him and tell him that I love him. But if I really loved him, I should leave, saving him from dealing with me.

"Oh, well then that's different." He didn't look at me, just put his head down instead. I could tell he was struggling to get the words out, and I wanted to kill myself all the more.

"I'm sorry Edward." I finally managed to choke out.

"It's fine. It's not like I can make you come back with me. It's okay if you don't love me, no big deal." He looked up, met my eye, and gave a small smile. But it was obviously fake, the pain was written all over his face, I just hope that mine didn't show how much pain I was in right now.

Edward's POV

I wanted to die at this moment. Bella didn't love me, she said she did when she was talking when I got here, but I misread that. She meant only as a friend. Why should I even live? I knew the smile at this moment on my face was fake, but I couldn't put a real smile on my face, I don't think I was ever going to have another real smile ever again.

I saw the pain in her face, but maybe it was because she knew how much I was hurting. Since she didn't love me love me, she would have no other reason for the pain on her face.

I was finding it harder and harder for my words to come out, but since I now knew the truth, I wanted her stay to last at least a while longer, so I could actually close the door between us. Something inside me told me that she did love me, but I shut it up because if the fact was that she didn't love me, it would just kill me more, if that's possible.

I decided though that I would truly find out if she only loved me as a friend, only a couple of days. If nothing happened, then I would let her leave without any arguments.

"So, I'm guessing you're going to leave?"

"Um, yeah. Going to see if I can find a job, and a place to stay. Where I was before I came here was horrible, I don't think I could have stayed there much longer." I didn't really ask her about where she was, hating to hear if she went out with any guys.

"Why'd you come back anyways?" I was stalling, trying to find the right moment to ask her to stay at least a little while longer.

"Just wanted to see you, and to say I'm sorry about leaving like that, and maybe say goodbye to the family."

"If you want we would go back to the house so you could say goodbye to the whole family."

"I don't know. It would hurt me too much just to see them, say goodbye, and just leave." Here was my opportunity.

"Well, you could stay a couple of days. You know, so when you leave at least you'll have the couple of days you were with us forever in your memory. At least you'd be able to know that you said goodbye, and not feel guilty about just leaving." She looked uncertain.

"Are you sure? Do they even want me to step into the house?"

"Nonsense, they want you to come back. The least you can do is stay a couple of days so the goodbye can really sink in."

"But what about Rosalie?"

"What about her. You'll only be there a couple of days. She'll more or likely be in her room the entire time."

"What about school?"

"We haven't gone for the past three weeks. Since we were moving anyway, we thought, what's the point?"

"So you're still moving?"

"Yeah, didn't Alice tell you that we were already planning to move? Suspicions are getting high, so we're still moving." She just nodded her head looking down. I wanted to kiss her so bad, but I couldn't.

I was completely dead inside, but was trying not to show it. That was really going to be hard if she did stay, but I didn't care. I just wanted her there close for at least a couple more days. Not really ready to say goodbye.

"Um, okay. But only for a few days, I don't want to be a bother."

"Don't be silly. Come one." I grabbed her suitcase.

"Race you." I tried to act playful, but I knew I wouldn't be able to act like this for long. I was just going to have to deal with it. At least until she left….

Well, do you like it? I know I'm mean doing that to Edward, but I was running out of ideas for continuing chapters. I had to do it. Please don't be mad. But if you look at the summary, it says "Bella and Edward no matter what." That should give you a clue about the outcome of this. Please review!! No Flames please!! They hurt me.

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