Even if you knew 14
*disclaimer* I don't own once upon a time or its characters
warning: sensitive content. Mentions of rape, unconscious intercourse, and whatever else I might be missing.
Honestly hope this makes up for lack of plot last chapter and I want to see reviews this time!
Emma's P.O.V
The first time I met Henry it was in passing. I chanced to greet Regina in the diner one evening when she was in for dinner. Thankfully I had just got off work and had time since I had just returned to tell Granny about my day. I saw the little brown head of hair sitting in a high chair beside her and didn't need to ask just who it was. I crouched down to see eye level with him when I approached the table. I wore a huge smile just so excited to see him for the first time.
"Hey there, I know your moms name what's yours?" Even though I already knew his name. I didn't want others to know I knew things like that about Regina. Looking at Regina for permission almost but I realized it was more that likely he didn't know everything I said. So he was almost three it didn't mean he knew that sort of thing. Just as I was mentally face palming myself for not thinking he gives it a try.
"Henwy." I'm not sure if I should be surprised at how smart he is or laugh at how adorable it was.
"Wow he knows, I didn't think when I asked but I was sure he was to young to talk." I said looking to Regina. She smiled at him then me.
"I tried teaching him useful things instead of easy things I can figure out he wants or needs myself. Things like his name, momma, his aunts name, and some big words. They only retain so much and at his age I wanted him to know big things. Now he's learning more the closer he is to three and he has learned how to repeat the strangest things." She gives him some more food and tells him good job.
"He's a wonderful boy then I'm sure." I say. "And he must have a even better mother teaching him." I left her and Henry moments later not wanting to risk staying to long.
Today though was the last day of the weekend and before I had to work. I had at least three hours to spend with Regina and Henry. We didn't have to go out of town but I did have to discreetly make my way into her house to the back yard. Henry had a small pool set up. Him and Regina both wore swim suits. I may have seen Regina naked once in moon light but seeing her body shine with a tanning oil while barely wearing anything more than that if she was in underwear was something else entirely.
"Do close your mouth dear and get changed in the changing room," She points behind me to the window that must be a bathroom inside. "Before its already time for you to go."
I blush and hurry inside coming back out after needing to tell myself I looked okay for ten minutes just to have a little courage. My bathing suit was not as pleasing as her and if I was being honest neither was my figure. I wore shorts to cover my thighs and hoped the rest looked alright. Stepping outside again I watched the two play ing the water. Henry trying to swim her chasing him herself or with his toys.
"Henry dear look who is here. Do you remember her?" He stopped and glanced at me Regina having only heard me close the door. He started to shake his head but suddenly nodded and grinned. "Her name is Emma, can you say Emma?" His small face said he was trying to figure out how to say it. Regina repeated and looked up at me for the first time. My nerves rapidly jumped as she stared. Her eyes trailed my body and rested on my chest.
"Ma," Henry said and Regina's eyes widened. Her eyes found mine to find mine just as wide with surprise as hers. I chuckled and walked toward them sure the though of being a mom wasn't entirely what I ever thought of and it did scare me but I wasn't willing to think to much into it knowing Henry only meant to say my name.
"It's okay 'Gina I know what he meant." Her face softens at my nickname for her. I give her a quick peck as I step into the water.
"Hey kid, what are you two playing?" I ask them both.
"He has a name dear." Regina Said and I hummed as I adjusted to the cold water soaking it just like I was going to soak up my time with them. Later I arrived to work with a smile. Work still consisted of shadowing, helping with paperwork, and organizing. I stayed until about 7 before getting off and making my way home. Once inside I was surprised to see Ruby, Belle, and Ashley dressed to go out.
"Hurry Emma! Go change your coming with us we need to get you out there more." Ruby said rushing me as soon as I came in the door. I flushed at the thought of crowds or where ever Ruby might be up to. She hurried me upstairs leaving Ashley and Belle downstairs. She is to excited but I can't help she's growing on me.
"Ruby what am I suppose to even wear? You know I don't have a lot of stuff like you do." I whined
"That's why your gonna wear something of mine." 'Oh.' I think watching her dig through a closet of clothes. She pulls out something dark and short. It's a short dress strapless. I shake my head before she can even ask e to try it on. "Yeah maybe not your style." She tries again coming up with a red short dress (straps this time) with a shoulder coat. As I try it on she jumps excitedly.
It feels odd but looking at myself I realize I like it. I'd like it more if I could see Regina's face. With Ruby's approval as well as Belle's and Ashley's I felt a little more confident arriving at a mini mansion or so I called it compared to Regina's it was smaller. The man who owned almost all the properties in the town had a son who was throwing a party. Neal was his name and when he answered the door his eye ogled me until Ruby thankfully shut him down.
"You're so not her type man, keep your eyes to yourself." He coughed and ducked back letting us in but despite his embarrassment I could still feel his eyes on me. It certainly didn't take long for the girls to find their own crowds. Having never been to a party tried to stay close but I felt to nervous to talk and the lack of talking wasn't helping how weird it felt to stand there. Wondering around 20 minutes later to find the drinks I went unnoticed by most. I spent 30 maybe forty minutes bobbing and weaving people. A few people drunk and a few to busy talking to see me. Some stopped me needing to ask how I liked the party.
"Can I help you find anything?" A guy said behind me when I turned it was Neal and once again his eyes were on me though I suspected he'd been there all the while. "You look hot by the way."
"I'm just looking for a soda." I said ignoring his statement.
"There isn't any unless you plan on using it as a mixer." He replied but it's not like I know what it meant anyways. "You can totally drink with me."
"Water?" I tried something else. "I'm not drinking." He looks at me curiously before leading the way.
"You should give it a shot. Not like your gonna drive tonight right?" I still said no, thankfully he shuffled behind the counter for a cup and put some ice in. "What kind of soda. Just this once then you should drink water so others can drink."
"Mm cola." Once he handed me the cup I drank and made my way back to Ruby. I was glad he didn't push me to drink.
"Well uh hey you wouldn't happen to have any ideas what places are good out of Storybrooke do you? I hear you've moved a lot." I just nodded and thought for minute. Suddenly I feel he is much closer to me than before and I almost jump before putting space between us again.
"I guess Boston was good and New York if you like big cities. I was gonna go to Pennsylvania once but good thing I didn't it snows there all the time."
"Right probably no fun if it snowed all the time." As he said this it sounded like an echo followed. My fingers were cold but felt as if the sweat was from overheating. I felt his hand on my shoulder and my first instinct was to walk faster but my feet went slower if at all possible. After what felt like forever I was seated. Relieved to have a moment I leaned back and found myself not on a couch but a bed. I gasped realizing I was duped.
What had felt like a panic attack closing in for which I just needed a breather was really signs of being drugged. Wherever I was now wasn't a mistake. The bed dipped an now i realized it was to late to call out because I was alone with some one. Neal? Or had he let me wander off? His face was blurry but I could see it was him and a lone tear numbingly broke down my cheek. He hiked up my dress and pressed what underwear I had to the side and entered. Not that I didn't cry out or struggle best I could I still found the more I did the less and less of the ceiling fan I could see before my eyes closed leaving me just feeling and then eventually nothing but sleep.
-SQ-
I woke in the strangest place. In a chair in the bathroom. I didn't remember how I got there or when. Things felt jumbled but tried piecing them together. I had some mixers and water though I could only remember the first trip. I suppose that's what drinking does to you. After figuring I came here to get sick or go to the bathroom I made my way down stairs. Each step though sent a wave of pain in certain places. One being my center more so my thighs the other being my shoulders. The more I tried to fit it in the more my head hurt. I groaned not at all happy to know this is what a hangover feels like.
Once down stairs mostly everyone had cleared out. It was only then I saw a clock for the first time. It was just a little after 1 am. I gasped loudly thinking I had to hurry home and hope Ruby left the door unlocked. Hurry from the room to the dinning room I hear and exclamation.
"There you are Emma. Where have you been?" Ruby sounds sober though she drank right away. "Belle Ashley she's in here." The two rush in.
"Oi, Emma you scared us, Ruby almost beat Neal to a pulp thinking he saw you last." Belle grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. The words shook me a little.
"Yeah so where were you?" Ruby demanded as if needing to know if she still had to kick some ass.
"I was um up stairs in the bathroom. Well in a bedroom. I think I drank an feel asleep." Nobody said anything but watched me to see if I really knew that's what happened. My first thoughts were what if it was a dream? Or what if I fell asleep and nothing happened? What if I was so drunk I lead him on and asked for it?
"Ruby lets just go before granny comes with her weapon of choice." Ashley said convincing the other two to let it go. The whole way home nothing was making sense. I didn't know why I drank at all or why I would want Neal if I had Regina. Once we made it to bed with no problems more than making sure we were quite I fell asleep in my bed so fast the only thing I could do is set an alarm for 5 in the morning. My dreams only made things worse once I woke as my nightmares started with my past foster brother only to change into Neal's. I sprung awake heart pounding and mind racing things barely clearer than the last time I woke. I turned my alarm off and got ready for the day vowing a day in my thoughts to clear my head properly. When Ruby came to me cheery and excited the next morning saying she sent me a picture of me in her dress I forced a smile.
Regina's P.O.V
The moment I saw Emma in school my first thought was what happened at work but this seemed deeper than that. I had done exactly what I was seeing her doing for years. A fake smile an the light in her eyes gone and covered up with vague emotions. She hadn't managed to see me this morning before school but now I had to wonder if she had chosen not to. I didn't need to know but I wanted to help seeing her now. Her eyes fell darkly on her paper of what I handed out. Her Pencil hovered over her notes but wrote nothing.
"Emma what is wrong?" I asked now that she say in her seat for a whole five minutes after class with nothing to say.
"I can't." It was faint but the tears welling up told a lot to me.
"Did someone hurt you Emma?" I asked and she let it all fall down.
"I don't know. I feel like it was a dream cuz I was panicked from the crowd in the party. But it feels so real. I don't even know how it happened because if it did it would hurt you too." I didn't want to put a conscious thought into what she said but subconsciously I was placing her in so many situations I felt jealousy, anger, and fear all at the same time. Grabbing Emma's hands I practically begged to know what happened. "Ruby, Belle, and Ashley dragged me to a party last night. I went for a drink I guess I had alcohol. I've never been to a party so I don't have any experience of how many drinks over do it. I told Ruby nothing happened that I just fell asleep in a bathroom but the thing is I can't help but think something did happen."
"Who do you think did something?" My blood was boiling was she intoxicated or worse drugged when someone took advantage of her. At first I thought her response was to avoid answering but gradually I realized she was telling me something she wanted me to know.
"I get nightmares sometimes of a foster brother I had. He hurt me and raped me but last night it turned into Neal. It turned from a dark musty room that my foster brother had and a stiff wall behind me with him pinning me to a soft bed and Neal hoping over me with a ceiling fan spinning behind him." She clenched her hand and took a deep breath. "It still hurt the same."
"Neal. I'll kill him." 'Just as soon as I find out who he is.' Emma looks shocked.
"You're not pissed at me for letting it happen?"
"What! No of course not love but I definitely think you should talk to your boss about this and about getting tested for any drugs someone could have put in your drink." I couldn't blame her or think she wanted this it would only make her feel I don't trust her anymore. Which I could never do to her without reason.
"Oh yeah I guess that's possible too I had a thought about that but I was scared to think something like that could happen. I always thought I could stop it from happening again now that I was older." I pulled her close as to smother her fears.
"No one can beat drugs once it's in you dear you just never take a drink from someone you don't know without watching the entire time and checking your drink is a good thing too." I couldn't help but think more fondly of Emma knowing this was something that would have easily broken broken me into tear at her age yet her she was staying strong about it. I ran my fingers through her hair while I hugged her for a few minutes. When she pulled back she swiped away a single tear and smiled as she changed the subject before I could say anything.
"Ruby sent me a picture of what I looked like last night would you like to see?" I nod. I might have died though as the picture came up on her cell phone. A short red dress with a bunched up look at the bottom just above Emma's knees. If I hadn't seen her in far less before I would have blushed at the amount I could see now. The low cut in the v line was perfect for her breast size and the shoulder coat took away the drastic show of skin there would have been without it.
"Wow if I haven't said it today or recently you are beautiful definitely sexy in this." We both ended up blushing at my words. Without thought I brushed my lips against hers before whispering. "I want to see you properly in my bed, naked, and fully visible."
"Mm I want that too. No quickies on a desk or moonlight glimpses as nice as they are." She's agrees making me smile as I crash our lips together and suck her bottom lip releasing it with pop. Over our heavy breathing we hear the bell and I quickly make distance between us by heading to my desk. Emma looked so young an sweet as she packed up and it worried me how she might looked not having someone to talk to about this situation with Neal.
"One more thing Emma. If Neal if ANYTHING comes up about what happened I'll help you how ever you need." If nothing else a little relief reaches her eyes.
Emma's P.O.V
"I'll have to run the tests Emma, but from what you told me I can almost be certain you were drugged. If you remember anything come talk to me and I'll bring the guy in for questions." Sherif Humbert said once I told him what I told Regina. He took me to the hospital where he had me do a rape kit and draw blood. Being I was old enough he promised until he heard back it would be just between us and the hospital. The kit turn up empty except for signs of fresh vaginal tears.
"I woke up in the bathroom do you think he could have.." I didn't know what to believe if there was no evidence how could I be sure anything happened. Sherif only nodded and the doctor agreed it was very possible whoever did it didn't want to be caught. They gave me a prescription for a pill and told me to wait for their call.
Turns out getting the pill by myself I had to be eighteen or over and that I wouldn't be for just under two more weeks. If I waited it would be to long and if I mentioned anything to Ruby or Granny I was afraid what they might say. If I asked Regina well someone might wonder why she would get it for me. I walked home hoping that Neal used a condom. All night I tried to think of something to say but choked everytime something came close to spilling out.
My dear,
I did as you said today and I can't figure out what to say to my mom nothing seems to sound right. I need her to get a prescription.. All I can think is she'll be furious.. At all of us. I don't think Neal would have cleaned me up but not used protection, maybe I don't need it at all.
Yours.
I sent Regina a message like she asked but as I waited for a response I got tired so I took a shower and got ready for bed. When I came back to bed I found her answer waiting.
You should never just assume, he may not have had one or maybe he did you need it anyways. Unless you're against that sort of thing. I will see you have it if you want it. If you don't I'll be here anyways.
He cleaned you up? I have to find out how to beat him to a pulp without getting caught. The thought of someone else touching you is torture. I want to remove the impressions their hands have made on your skin. Figuratively speaking of course right because you didn't seem to have any marks on you right?
I must find my punching bag. Sweet dreams dear, dream of angles.
YOURS.
I grinned at her possessive protectiveness. It was more than okay with me because I liked feeling wanted.
You own a punching bag oh my! I am mark free. I'll always dream of you.
YOURS
Reviews please!
Baby experience anybody. Personally I think it's a good idea but I don't know if I want to write it if no one else likes it. Who knows Emma could be lucky. Yes yes I know Henry was Emma and Neal's baby but just for this story he's not.
Also Regina protective mode yah? Nah?
Note: sherif Humbert is Graham's father if you didn't get that but only because I couldn't think of another choice.