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note: So Hermione loves Draco. Now whatdoes she do? Hope you like this chapter and thanks for all the reviews guys!

Smiling into his chest she gave him a kiss to reassure him. He smiled back and cradled her. She hugged him and traced patterns on his chest with her fingers. He laughed when she found a sensative spot and she giggled before moving her hand. Why can't all moments be like this? Just him and me and these feelings. In this moment the baby is fine and whether or not its there I feel loved and I know he does to because I love him. She felt his hand reach for hers and she intertwined there fingers. A small tear was sliding down her cheek and silently landed on her other hand. She felt his other ran run through her hair and felt her eyes close "Daco?"

"Hmm?" He asked lazily. It was on the tip of her tongue. I love you she wanted to say to him. Instead she said something else.

"I'm glad your my boyfriend." Sitting up and easing her against his chest he tilted her chin and gently kissed her.

"I'm glad your my girlfriend." Looking into his eyes she felt her chest ache. I need you to love me. If only you'd love me the way I do. I don't want to do this alone. Feeling her emotions overtake her she buried he face in his chest and held him tight. He was taken aback by the force behind her emotion but held her to him and whispered into her ear, "Your beautiful Hermione." He felt her smile and kissed her harder this time before looking her in the eyes. She felt herself falling and knew tears were threatening to fall. Disengaging herself she got dressed and felt her stomach clench with nausia. Closing her eyes she stood up. She heard Draco getting dressed and looked over at him. He was looking back at her confused but still getting dressed. Hermione turned before walking out the room and into the bathroom. The minute she got in she slumped to the floor crying silently.

She couldn't see through her tears. She loved Draco but she knew what it meant to love him. They had a secret relationship. She understood that. It meant no one could know. Not her friends or his or his family. It meant danger if his family found out. So my two choices are to live a lie, or to do this alone. Why can't I have love? It would be different if he loved her. If he did then she knew it would work. Right now she was doubting everything. She held her body before trying to still her tears. She needed to calm down. Hearing a knock at the bathroom door she tried to answer but found no voice. "Granger Potty and Weaselette are here." Granger.

"Sod of Malfoy!" Hearing him stomp away she washed her face before going downstairs. When she opened the bathroom door to her bedroom she heard the door open on the other side from Draco's. She didn't bother turning just wiped her face again and went downstairs.

When she saw Harry and Ginny she smiled and gave Ginny a hug. Sitting down with them Harry asked her why she wasn't at dinner. She explained that she fell asleep reading a great book. Harry laughed and Ginny did as well saying that was just like her. Smiling she relaxed once more as she visited her friends. They had just begun a conversation about quidditch when they heard a door slam upstairs and saw Draco stomping down the stairs and go in to the kitchen.

Ginny raised her eyebrows at Hermione who shrugged her shoulders. Inside she was worried about him. He looked very upset and it hurt Hermione. Harry simply shook his head and murmured "Pms boy." Ginny laughed and then gasped when they heard a slamming noise and a yell of pain. They turned and saw Draco holding a towel to his hand and walking out of the common room. Instantly Hermione's chest clutched again.

Harry and Ginny didn't say anything and they sat in silence. Finally Harry began talking about how much they had missed her and Ginny joined the conversation. Hermione joined in and they didn't notice that she wasn't really participating. Finally it got late and Ginny and Harry hugged her before leaving. Thinking for a moment she considered the consequences. She wanted to go to Draco. Finally she said, "Screw it."

Walking out of the common room she managed to get up to the hospital wing with no trouble and saw Draco getting treated. His eyes were wide when he saw her and a look of tenderness crossed his face. Thankfully there was no one there but him and she didn't have to worry about getting caught. It was hard though she wanted to go to him but couldn't. When Madam Pompfrey asked what she was doing there. She hesitated before asking if she could speak with her alone.

When they had gotten away from Draco, she asked softly, "Do you have a cure for morning sickness? Any prenatal things i need? The muggle world has remedies, I'm assuming that the wizarding world does too?" Madam Pompfrey smiled before nodding. Leaving to get her the remedies she put them all in a baket before giving her instructions on each one. Thanking her repeatedly she began to transfigure the potions into books in case someone happened to chance on them. When she got back into the main room Draco was gone.

Sighing she shook her head before walking back to the common room. She went straight to her room thinking to herself the entire time. I was so worried about him, I didn't think. But he knows now I care enough about him to risk exposing our relationship. Or do I love him enough not to and to live the lie?

Seeing Draco on the couch she whispered softly, "You need to control your temper."

"You need to control your idiot friends!" Silently Hermione walked to the couch and held his intertwined there fingers and Hermione knew she couldn't help it. She kissed him fiercley and whispered to him.

"I was worried about you."

"I cut my hand. I'm fine. But its sweet of you to worry." Hugging her he led her to his bedroom and Hermione cuddled up to him and he held her possesively. "Hermione? What did Madam Pompfrey give you?" Freezing she remembered she'd left the potions on the couch.

"It's nothing. Don't worry about it." Draco disengaged himself from her. "Draco." She tried to pull him back but he shrugged her off.

Turning to her he said, "If you can't tell your boyfriend the truth..." He didn't even bother finishing his sentence and she could tell he was hurt. Tell him the truth. Now's your chance. You can tell him about your feelings and that your pregnant. He's going to find out somtime. Hermione pulled him to her one more time.

"Its a potion to help my stomach. I won't throw up now." Draco stopped trying to pull away and studied her for a minute before nodding and hugging her. Hermione wanted to cry. She felt like such a bitch. Why can't you tell him damnit?

Because I want him to say it first.

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