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"I seriously can't believe what I'm hearing" I say completely shocked into the phone. "You want us, to get back together?"
Mercedes gives me a small chuckle.
"Like you're not foolin' me? Like you really want us back together?" I say trying hard not to show her how ecstatic I really am...especially with Jen sleeping on the couch of the Hummel living room. "Can you say it again?" I laugh.
She laughs too. "I want us back together...I love you Sam and I want you back."
"You love me?" I say grinning like a complete idiot.
She answers yes and I legit feel my insides explode and then reform and then explode again.
"You were right Sam, we belong together...and I'm stupid for allowing myself to take so long to admit it."
My head spins with each statement. "I'm definitely going to need you to say that again."
"You were right!" She laughs exaggerated. "We belong together! And I'm stupid-"
"Stubborn" I correct her still smiling. "Stubborn as hell!"
"Fine!" She trills another laugh. "I was stubborn as hell for allowing myself to take so long to admit it...happy?"
She has no idea how happy I am! I feel like I could leap over the Great Wall or swim my way to England. I feel invincible! Why?! BECAUSE MERCEDES JONES IS BACK IN MY LIFE!
"So..." she begins. "What now?"
"Now...we tell Shane."
"Oh no Sam-"
"I don't care what you say, we're facing him together."
"It would be easier if you let me handle it" she says with a sigh.
"I'm not letting you confront him alone. We do it together" I say final.
"Shane's going to be upset, but I don't think he'd do anything-"
"Even so...I lost you before, I'm not going to be careless."
"What does that mean?" She laughs again.
"It means, in some weird way you find him attractive...what if you decide to change your mind?" I laugh but I'm still serious. "You may not come back to me."
She's quiet for a moment, realizing how serious this joke is.
"Sam..." She says comfortingly. "I will always come back to you."
I swear with each confession she tells me, it's like dipping my heart in gasoline and then setting it on fire. It's amazing I'm not spazzing out!
"Good" is all I manage to say.
"Good" she replies in a way that I know she's smiling too. "So...do you think we could talk tomorrow?"
"Absolutely!" I almost shout and she laughs.
"Good, because I'm sleepy" she yawns cutely. "But I wanted to cal you before I went to sleep."
"Just like before?" I say dreamily.
"Just like before" she answers.
Jen's POV
Do you know how difficult it is to choke on your Samcedes feels in the middle of the night, when you're trying to pretend to be sleeping? I seriously don't know how I should feel about this! Is it bad that I'm laughing, even though everything inside of me wants to break down and cry? Like how can I be feeling like crap, but totally excited at the same time? It doesn't make sense? I'm totally confused about some of my emotions, but the one that sticks out the most is jealousy. How could I not be? I know firsthand how wonderful Sam can be...so what am I supposed to do now? I'm not evil enough to sabotage them, I encouraged them. Hell it's partially my fault why they're back together...but I had to help...Sam would've been miserable with me. Can I just take time out to point out that love sucks ass right about now? And why does it have to cause insomnia? I swear I've gotten no sleep the entire time I've been in Lima. I'm watching the green digital clock on the television tick away my time left in this town. It's six-o-clock, so hopefully only three more hours. Sam on the other hand is out like a light; after his call with Mercedes and a few happy-dances he curled up in a nearby chair and fell asleep. He's sleeping soundly...peacefully snoring each of his cares away. I can't look at him for too long because he makes me angry...which makes me laugh when I think about it because it's ridiculous.
I think that's what makes me so angry...the fact that I didn't matter and I still want him happy! Why can't I just not care about him? Why do I constantly fall for everything he says...like it's going to change anything? Like I'm finally someone he thinks is important. This sucks!
I look at the clock and it reads 6:02...
I give it an eye roll and beat the pillow under my head before lying back to stare into the dark. I begin whispering the lyrics to every single song by The Kooks I can think of...
6:15
Maroon 5...
6:30
Britney Spears...
7:03
Backstreet Boys...
7:10
N*SYNC
7:30
Missy Elliot
7:45
Nicki Minaj
7:48
Kurt comes up from the basement in a rush with Blaine following close behind.
"Okay" Kurt quietly giggles pushing him towards the door. "You have to go now!"
"I'm trying too, but you're very persuasive...especially in the morning" Blaine smirks earning a punch from Kurt.
I clear my throat and roll to the side as the two of them look guilty as hell, before I'm busting out in a hushed laughter.
"You scared me half to death!"Kurt hisses angrily towards me.
"Sorry" I say still laughing. "But you have to admit, it was a good one."
"Yeah you sound just like Kurt's dad" Blaine says as Kurt and I are both looking at him confused. Then the three of us are laughing.
"You seriously need to go" Kurt says as Blaine hugs him goodbye before making a mad dash out the front door. Kurt sinks onto the sofa, sitting next to me. "So...how was your..." he raises his eyebrows and tilts his head towards Sam who's snoring loudly. "Night?"
"You didn't hear?" I laugh sarcastically. The whole house must have heard our fight.
"Well, I try not to eavesdrop."
"We were so loud" I say stunned. "How could you not?"
"Honey! Please, spare me the dirty details" Kurt says acting like he's going to cover his ears.
"Details?"
"What happens behind closed doors is-"
"Eww no! Kurt! We didn't"
"Oh!" He says understanding. "Then why were you guys...did you two fight?"
Sam lets out a grizzly snore before turning over continuing to sleep. Kurt and I look at his body before looking back at each other.
"It doesn't matter" I shrug. "He's happy." Kurt's looking at me like he pities me, or sees me in a different light. "Stop it Kurt...I'm fine."
"No" he says unconvinced. "You're a lot of things, but fine isn't one of them."
I roll my eyes beginning to fold the blanket I've been using.
"It's your own fault" he chuckles. "You're too nice...I'm not even supposed to like you."
"But you do?" I smile.
"Yeah, you're chill and trust me that's hard to find in Lima" he says getting up from the couch. "Why couldn't you be a bitch?" He asks stretching walking into the kitchen.
"Sorry to disappoint" I smile even bigger.
Few Months Later...
"THIS IS THE BEST PROM EVER!"
Everyone chants this throughout the gymnasium because we all know it's true. Britney has truly outdone herself with this project...a prom about dinosaurs? Genius! There's this massive T-Rex as the entrance way, like we legit had to walk through it's legs to get into the space. The gym doesn't even look like the gym anymore; it's like this massive prehistoric jungle and it's awesome! Like I totally forgot how much I love dinosaurs!
"This place is incredible" Mike says to Britney as the Glee gang is sitting or standing around a table.
"Thanks" she smiles to him. "I'm just glad you guys all decided to come."
"Me too" Finn says giving Rachel a squeeze that makes her smile reluctantly.
There was this big controversy this week about creating an Anti-Prom; but when it came down to it everyone decided that it was dumb making people choose which one to go to. The group decided to go with the traditional idea; it's how it's supposed to be. Surrounded by friends just having a good time enjoying being young...too bad life can't stay like this always.
"Dance with me?"
Mercedes tugs on my tux jacket. She's looking at me with those perfect doe eyes so I can't even answer, I just get song changes to a cover of Use Somebody by 2cellos...and it's weird that I'm liking it let alone that we can slow dance to it. I can't help myself from singing the next verse low in her ear.
Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you
She holds me tighter as I spin the both of us around our space of the dance floor. I find myself getting caught up in the little things about her, like how amazing she smells. Her light floral scent has me inhaling deeply and I'm praying to God that this feeling never goes away. Things between us just feel right, and effortless and unchanging. Even with her graduating, it's like it doesn't even matter...we have this moment now and I believe with everything that I have that nothing between us will ever change.
"Sammy," she says my name in a way that makes me melt constantly. "Are you thinking about us?"
I breathe out a smile. "When am I ever not?"
"Me too" she says sounding very small. "Tonight has just been...amazing."
I rest my head on top of hers wishing I could keep her there forever.
"Like is it bad I don't want to graduate?" She laughs.
"You want to go to Prom again that badly?" I tease and she pulls back to make a face me.
"I was talking about you" she says with a little attitude. "I'm gonna miss you."
"Well I asked you to flunk English but you said no" I joke again but she hugs me tighter. "Nothing's going to change...we still have the summer-"
"Where have I heard that before?" She asks sarcastically.
This time I pull away and use both of my hands to capture her face. She looks up at me uncertain as I stroke her cheek.
"I came back to you the last time...now it's your turn." I duck my head low to kiss her and she kisses me just as passionately. It's a soft kiss but its full of promises. We both pull away smiling as the song ends.
"Hey! This is a shout out to all the Kings out there!" Finn says up on stage with Artie and Mike.
All I do is win, win, win no matter what
Got money on mind, I can never get enough
And every time I step up in the building
Everybody hands go up
And they stay there, and they say "yeah" and they stay there
Up Down Up Down Up Down
Cause all I do is win, win, win,
And if you goin'in, put your hands in the air make 'em stay there
The crowd goes wild as Artie takes the first rap of the song. Mercedes lets me go to face the stage and begins hollering in support of the guys. She's dancing to the music and I dance next to her jamming as well until I see Puck dancing with his date...I stop immediately as I'm staring at the last person I'm expecting to see here...Jen.
My jaw must be on the ground because I am totally shocked. Jen's barely talked to me since that weekend she came for regionals. Even the way she left was weird.
"Alright, say goodbye everyone."
Mom is helping Stevie and Stacey with their coats as Dad is talking with Mr. and Mrs. Hummel. Jen comes out the bathroom and ruffles her hair around a bit walking to her jacket to put it on. She stuffs her wallet in her back pocket before going to say goodbye to Finn and Kurt.
"It was so nice meeting you" Kurt says giving her a hug. "You'll have to come back and visit."
She doesn't answer but just smiles letting go from the hug. She looks at Finn a long time before stepping towards him to hug him too. This hug is totally different from the one she gave Kurt; there's no space between them. The way his arms wind around her body, and the way her body curls into his chest is like they've known each other for years. Even now he's rubbing her back in comfort as they pull apart.
"Thanks for everything" she says, sincerity drenching each word.
"Anytime" he answers laid back and cool.
The small smile she had on her face reduces to a wince when she sees me. "See you around?"
I feel my eyes narrow in confusion. "Yeah...sure."
She nods unsure of what else to stay. She extends her hand towards me and I'm not sure at all what this means. It takes forever for me to realize that she's offering me a handshake.
"Bye Sam" she says flat...unfeeling almost.
I take her hand and wrap my fingers around it, totally not used to this gesture...especially between us. I am completely torn...I have no idea what to say or do. I do know that this handshake is completely wrong; this could potentially be the last time I could ever see her again. I have so many feelings that I can't just blurt out, but handshaking doesn't cover them at all. I know I can't kiss her, but I thought hugging was a possibility. It doesn't matter, because she's pulling her hand away. She smiles to us and then joins my family outside in the car. And that's it...that's how she left.
I'm upset...that's clear...I'm mad at her. I'm watching her hug each of my friends with happy expressions, here at my Prom. What surprises me most of all is when Mercedes get's a glimpse of Jen she freaks out and completely ditches me on the dance floor. My mouth is definitely hanging two inches from the ground as I'm watching her hug and shriek at Jen's arrival. I walk over barely feeling the floor under my feet; I swear I must be having an out of body experience. I'm checking out Jen and she's not beautiful...she's fucking gorgeous. She's wearing this black dress that flares out like a semi-long tutu. Its completely strapless at the top and full of this glittery material that makes her chest sparkle. Her legs look long and toned in the heels she's wearing, and her hair is a lot more wavier than usual. She's giving a perfect and effortless smile to everyone...including me. When she sees me her entire face lights up even more.
"Sam!" She calls to me and I walk over.
I'm speechless...like I legit have no idea what to say, I'm too busy taking in her appearance. Is it wrong? Probably, but I can't stop from staring...she looks flawless.
"Sam?" She says again unsure, no doubt waiting for me to respond.
"He's just a little surprised" Mercedes answers for me. "He didn't know you were coming."
"You didn't tell him?" Jen looks to Mercedes shocked.
"No!" Mercedes laughs and I feel my head jerk towards her voice. "I wasn't sure if you were even going to make it! Like I know you said you would try, but I didn't know it was definite..."
Wait a minute...Mercedes knew Jen might be here? Mercedes? Of all people? Why should she know anything about Jen? How could she? No...no...there is absolutely no way Mercedes and Jen kept in touch all this time!
"I'm just so happy to see you!" Tina exclaims hugging Jen again.
"Me too" Jen replies.
"Me three" Puckerman replies. "Now if you don't mind, my extremely hot date owes me a dance" Puckerman says taking her hand in his.
"Like we don't have the rest of the night" Jen laughs following him back to the dance floor.
"You wanna dance Sammy?" Mercedes asks tugging on my arm.
"No" I glare back. "I do not want to dance! Especially with someone who's lied to me for months!"
"Excuse us" Mercedes smiles to the group before pulling me to the side. "Now, do you want to try that again Samuel Dwight Evans?"
She's giving me the full divatude, but I can handle it...I'm shocked, upset and...something else I can't quite name right now!
"You've been keeping in touch with Jen?"
"Yeah" she answers innocently. "She's pretty chill."
I roll my eyes. "Why? What could you two possibly have to talk about?!"
"Lots of things...she's a really cool person" Mercedes says still oblivious. "I really don't get what the big deal is."
"The deal is, my current girlfriend is best friends with my ex-girlfriend!"
Now it's her turn to roll her eyes. "Aren't you overreacting?"
"No I'm not! She's all bff's with you and-"
"So?"
"So?" I emphasize. "For all I know she could be trying to sabotage what we have-"
"She's the last person to try and sabotage us" Mercedes says firmly.
"How do you know?" I challenge.
"Because she's always trying to encourage me to stay with you!"
I'm glaring at her. "Why do you always need someone else to tell you that we belong together?"
"I don't! But sometimes when you get like this Sam-"
"Get like what?!"
"This!" She yells. "Jen's always helping me find ways to open up to you! She's the one who convinced me to give us another chance."
I don't know why I'm furious but I am...Jen did me a favor. Maybe it's because I feel like I owe her something else? Or it's the fact that I don't understand why she's being so nice? I think it mostly has to do with everyone else still having a connection to her, but she's severed all ties with me. Even though I hate to admit it, it hurts.
"Sam?" Mercedes begins. "I didn't think you would mind. I thought it would be okay since you were still talking to her-"
"I haven't spoken to Jen in months. Not since she left Lima."