Recap

(Bella) "Edward, I'm ready to go, please." "Sure Bella, let's go." Edward said "Bye Jazzy, take care, I love you" I whispered the last part.

(Jasper) I promise that no matter what I, I will make things right with my Bells, she is the only women that I love and that I am in love with.

Chapter 14: Friends

(Bella POV)

Today has gone by in blur; I left with Edward this morning and was still with him. Well, I was with him physical anyway but my mind and my heart was stuck on Jasper.

Edward was a wonder friend; he tried all day to make me feel better. After, he took me to eat breakfast which I really didn't eat very much of. Then we went to his meadow and I fell asleep.

Poor Edward must think that I'm about as fun as a brick, but no, he was nothing but understanding. How did I deserve him in my life? Why didn't he hate me? I was and still am in love with his sister's boyfriend.

He's spent the last 24 hours with me. He has to know that Ali and Jasper made love, what does he think about that? I swallowed hard as he brushed the hair out of my face.

"Bella, please don't cry again. What would you like to have for dinner?" Edward asked as he wiped a tear from my face.

"I'm so sorry Edward, I suck, maybe you should take me home, I could hide in my room forever, no one would even know I was missing," I said back.

"Bella, you have nothing to be sorry about," he said.

Maybe I should tell him everything that Jasper and I have shared and he would understand better, but he would hate me and I need him right now.. I had to tell him it was the right thing to do and I deserved to be alone anyway. I'm a horrible person that sleeps with someone else's boyfriend and then gets mad and jealous when she wants to do the same with him.

"Edward, I'm going to tell you something and please don't hate me. I'll understand if you do and you won't want to be my friend anymore."

"Bella, don't be absurd, I could never hate you," Edward said.

Little does he know, he could and he will. "Edward, you know that at my birthday party I broke up with Jasper and encouraged him to go to your sister Ali. I love him but I didn't think I was in love with him."

"I was wrong, as you know, all these ugly feelings started to come out and I didn't know what to do. You told me to go to him and tell him and I did."

"You also know that Ali came and we never really worked anything out. Well, that night he stayed at my house like he and Rose do most of the time. Are you sure you are ready for this?" I asked.

"Bella, nothing you tell me will make me like you any less than what you mean to me, in fact, you being completely open with me makes me love you even more," Edward said.

He just said love, I can't deal with that right now; push it down and keep telling him the truth, he should know what kind of person he thinks he loves.

"Okay, well, that night Jasper was waiting for me in my room after I got out of the shower and he was on my bed wanting to finish our talk from earlier that day."

"Well, we talked and then we kissed and then we needed each other so badly, we wanted each other so badly that we didn't think anymore, we just did.. Do you understand what I mean?" I said to Edward, almost ashamed for the first time that I had hurt many people and didn't even care.

"Bella, I think I've always known that you and Jasper slept together that night. You just seemed happier in a way. Do I hate you for it? No, love, I could never hate you. I wish that it was me that you wanted like that but things cannot be changed."

"Bella, I'm here for you and if you still love Jasper I understand that too, but I'm not going anywhere because I think you might have some feelings for me in there somewhere," Edward said.

I could hardly look up, I didn't want to look him in his eyes, how could I?

"Bella, look at me please," Edward said. I looked up and saw that we had pulled over into a parking lot and Edward was pulling my face to his face.

Then he pressed his lips to mine and kissed me. This was a new kiss that he never gave me before; I could feel the passion in it. I wanted to be kissed like that, but did I want it to be from Edward or from Jasper? Stupid Bella, what a mess you have made of your life.

"Thank you, Edward," I said as I pulled away. "Let's just take thing slow," I told him and he agreed and then he drove me home.

"Thanks for today, Edward," I said as I kissed him on his cheek goodbye.

"No, Bella, thank you for telling me the whole truth and trusting me with it," Edward said then he kissed my forehead and drove away.

I sat down on the chairs that were on the front porch, not ready to go inside just yet. "Hey Bells, can I join you?" Rosalie asked.

I looked up and smiled at her and she came outside and sat with me. "Bells, I'm sorry, Jazzy can be an idiot, you know that he-" I cut her off there, "Rose, I love you and I know you know that I love him but I don't want to talk about him right now, I've been crying on Edward all day and I'm all cried out."

"Alright, Bella, but remember that I'm here and I'm not on his side or yours; okay, I'm on yours but anyway, if you need me, when you're ready, you should talk to him, alright?" Rose said.

"Thanks Rose, I just need a shower and then a good night's sleep, I'll deal with things tomorrow."

With that, I took a deep breath and walked into my house and up to my room. I'm glad that mom and dad were still out of town, I won't have them in my face too.

I showered and was hoping that Jasper would be in my bed waiting for me but he wasn't. I don't even think he was here at all, he must be with Ali. I ran to my bed and cried myself to sleep for the third time in 2 days.

(Jasper POV)

Well, today was hell. Bells left with Edward and she hated me. She thinks that I slept with Ali and it's because I told her in not so many words that I was going to.

Then I tell her that it was okay if she slept with Edward, I forgave her. That was such a wrong thing to say. She hates me even more now..

I went and told Rose that I was going to go home and spend the day and night there; I couldn't be here and not be with Bells. What a jerk I am, I shouldn't have told her that I was giving in to Ali that was the biggest mistake I've ever made.

No, the biggest one was letting her walk away to began with. I sulked around my house all day alone. My parents were out of town a lot just like Bells and Em's were. So I had loads of time to reflect.

I sure didn't like what my future would be like without Bella Swan in it.

I crawled into bed late tonight and felt so empty, two nights in a row without holding and kissing my angel, Bella.

Morning came and it was like I had slept Sunday away and today was school. I would at least get to see my angel even if she was with Edward. I would also see Ali and that wasn't something I was ready to do. Ali has called me like a hundred times or more and wants to get back together.

She said she didn't care that I was in love with Bella and that I could screw her all I wanted as long as I was her boyfriend. That made me feel even worse. I've never just screwed Bella, I made love to her, I'm in love with her.

I drove myself today because I haven't talk to anyone but Rose since Saturday. I would have to face them all today.

Man up Jasper, you have to fight and win Bells back don't you? Yes, but I never win when I go up against Edward for a girl's heart. But I have to try, I can't be with her, without Bella.

Everyone was already in the hall by the lockers when I walked in. "Hey Em, what's up?" I tried to sound fine, but I was far from it.

"Hey Jasper, where have you been all weekend? Bells was a mess without you around," Emmett said. Great, I feel way better now. I love this big lug but is he clueless?

"Hey Jazzy." I turned and it was Ali, she walked right up to me and kissed me. I pulled away but the damage had already been done.

Bella looked at me and then she grabbed Edward's hand and they walked away to their first class. I've never wanted to hit a girl before but I was close to wanting to hit Ali right then and there.

"What the hell, Ali?! I broke up with you in Friday! I didn't call you back, not one time this whole weekend! Why would you come in here and do something like that when you know it would hurt Bella?!" I said.

"That's why I did it Jasper, because I wanted to hurt her, you hurt me because of her; I know it. You were probably sleeping around with that trash! Even her own parents don't stay around long enough to even care about when we were together!" Ali screamed..

"That's enough, no more out of you, Ali! Don't be talking about my future family like that! I'll show you trash!" Rose said then she picked Ali up and put her in the trash can.

"That's, my little rose bud," Emmett said then he winked at me and he and Rose walked off. I should've helped Ali out of the trash can but the look on her face was priceless, so I pulled out my phone, snapped a picture, and then left for my first class.

Lunch time was about no better. The only plus was that Ali went home after the whole trash can thing with Rosalie. Edward was with Bella and he never left her side.

Sure, they sit at our table and Bells even kinda smiled at me a little but it was a smile that you smile at someone just to be polite. I smiled back at her and even tried to talk to her but Edward kept all of her attention when she wasn't talking to Rose or Em.

"It'll all work out," Rose said to me after lunch, but it sure didn't feel that way.

The next few weeks were almost the same way. Edward and Bella spent a lot of time together and even when I stayed at Em and Bells house, I slept in the guest room. I would be happy if Bells would just let me be her friend again.

I missed her, in more ways than just in my arms. I missed the way thing have always been between us. It was going to change and I won't stop till I get her back even if it is just as my best friend again.

Emmett ordered pizza as his mom and dad was out of town again. Tonight was a good night, it was just Rose and Emmett and I.

No Edward, he and Bells had gone out to a movie or something; I didn't know, she doesn't share things with me anymore. All I knew is what Rose told me to keep me in the loop.

Edward dropped Bells off and she told him goodnight but didn't let him in. I was happy for that!

"Hey Jazzy wanna watch a movie with me tonight?" Bells asked. I had to blink twice and Rose hit my arm before I answered.

"You talking to me, Bells?" I had to ask.

"Yes, silly, I miss you, I miss my best friend. Is it okay that we spend some time together again?" she asked me.

All I wanted to do was run over to her and kiss her! These last three months have drug back and been quite suck-ish . Besides, Rose and Emmett are sick of me anyway. Take it slow Jasper, she is letting you back in.

"Sounds great, Bells, what movie would you like to watch?" I said back to her.

"You make the popcorn, I'm going to shower and I'll meet you in our room. I have the perfect movie for us to watch," Bells said then she smiled a real smile at me the first real smile forever and off she ran up the stairs.

"It's a start!" I said to Rosalie, she hugged me, and I went and popped the popcorn and to grab some sodas for us.

"Jasper, don't blow it this time," Emmett said with a smile. "If you hurt her like that again, I'll hurt you, got it?!" he added.

"Got it Em, I love her, I won't ever hurt her like that ever again, I won't make that mistake twice," I added then I ran upstairs to watch a movie with my angel, with my Bells.

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Thanks for read, please review. I haven't made my mind up yet as to if I am going to have Bella with Jasper or with Edward. Thanks to my beta Strawberry9212 .till next time.