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You keep me awake at night and it's driving me insane, oh God I don't know what I want, I want you to stay, but I want you to go, but I'm at a loss for words and rational thought. This is not like me at all but given the circumstances, I am allowed to be this way, no?

I want to do so many things; I want to break a window, throw something against the wall so I will not be the only one who is breaking apart.

"How are you feeling today, Sierra?"

It hurts to breathe.

I look away.

"Are you in any pain?"

Everywhere.

I close my eyes.

"Have you been experiencing any shortness of breath?"

My heart hurts so much.

I pretend to sleep.

There is a short pause where the doctor looks to Seto for assistance.

But there is nothing he can do either.