FOURTEEN
You keep me awake at night and it's driving me insane, oh God I don't know what I want, I want you to stay, but I want you to go, but I'm at a loss for words and rational thought. This is not like me at all but given the circumstances, I am allowed to be this way, no?
I want to do so many things; I want to break a window, throw something against the wall so I will not be the only one who is breaking apart.
"How are you feeling today, Sierra?"
It hurts to breathe.
I look away.
"Are you in any pain?"
Everywhere.
I close my eyes.
"Have you been experiencing any shortness of breath?"
My heart hurts so much.
I pretend to sleep.
There is a short pause where the doctor looks to Seto for assistance.
But there is nothing he can do either.
