Dean sat down next to his mother it hurt him that the only way he could get through to her was by alcohol but it was his only option , she'd always been a drinker and Dean just came to deal with it as he grew up. She sat their staring at the floor for awhile before Dean gently patted her knee

"please mom , I deserve to know don't I?" Dean asked quietly.

" yes of course you do , believe it or not I never wanted to be like this I wanted the best for my baby boy I had everything planned out when I found out I was pregnant. Your father had just came out of jail and I thought he had changed he had stopped taking drugs and I had just started a new job it seemed like the perfect time to start a family. When I told him I was Pregnant he was so happy , one of the happiest I had ever seen him actually we decided on a names , what school you'd go to and what your room would look like. We were so excited but less than a week later his friends decided that him becoming a dad meant he would no longer hang out with them getting drugged up and drunk so they told him I was a fucking whore sleeping around with all the men while he was away. I couldn't believe he actually listened to them I had always been faithful to your father and for him to even come home and accuse me of cheating saying that you weren't his child ... It fucking hurt I loved him so much and he threw everything back in my face calling me a slut and a whore I could smell the alcohol on his breath. I was so pissed he didn't believe me and I couldn't reason with him so I told him he didn't deserve to be a father and some other things that at the time I meant , instead of coming home and speaking to me he got drunk hanging around his good for nothing friends hanging on every word they said. That's when things went from bad to worse he started to throw things at the wall trashing the house so I pushed him out the door and locked it. He finally left about an hour later and I cried myself to sleep I wanted you to have everything I didn't have and you weren't even born and your father had already made it clear you weren't going to have a stable family. After that I didn't hear from him for awhile so I thought he just wasn't interested. I managed on my own for a little while before everything started to get on top of me , I was working in a warehouse and the morning sickness and tiredness I had in the pregnancy made it harder to lift the heavy objects , so I ended up taking days off work which meant I was getting paid less and with your father out the picture completely the bills just kept getting higher and higher , that's when I met Kyle" a tear rolled down her cheek and Dean held her hand , he already knew from Dylan that Kyle was complete dick and that it was probably when his mom changed for the worse. " I put an advert in a local paper for a roommate to help me with the rent and he was the only one who turned up , he seemed like a lovely gentleman when he showed up dressed in a suit , hair combed back and very handsome. I let him move in and things seemed a lot easier I could afford the bills and anything I needed he couldn't do more for me , any mood swings , cravings , pain and sickness he dealt with it all holding my hair back , running to the shop even holding me when I cried for no reason. Everything seemed great ,sometimes he would make backhanded comments but at the time I thought nothing of them whether it was dressing the wrong way , not speaking correctly in front of his colleagues or if I accidentally burnt dinner I just wanted to make him happy you know?. Then your father decided he wanted to turn up out of the blue as if he could just waltz back into our life and everything would be great. Kyle told me he had seen your father completely fucked up only two days ago I couldn't believe he was back on the drugs so from that point I decided that Dylan was never going to be your father."

"so that was it he had apparently taken some drugs and you decided I didn't need a father in my life , when you are a fucking alcoholic who's taken drugs"

"Dean I told you it was a long fucking story do you want to hear it or not?" she snapped , Dean just sighed and nodded for her to continue.

" so ... at that point I decided that Kyle would of been a better father and that you would of had a better life. He went to all the scans with me and he told me that he would look after you as if you were his own , I couldn't believe how lucky I was to have him. One day when he was out your father came back around , he broke into the fucking house and I caught him looking at the scan on the fridge. He seemed to be on the straight and narrow but I knew I couldn't trust him anymore , Kyle was there for me and he would of gave us a more stable life so I told Dylan you weren't his. I know I shouldn't of done it but I was looking out for you Dean , I promise that's why I done it. He looked broken and I wanted to tell him the truth but I couldn't I knew he'd never stop coming around and you'd never have a normal family life. As soon as he left Kyle came through the door and he looked pissed , I told him Dylan had just barged his way in but he didn't believe me he thought I was going back on my word of us becoming a proper family and that's the first time he hit me. He apologized as soon as he done it and stupidly I forgave him , but then after that everything changed , he went from a caring , loving family man to someone who I was scared of , I felt like I was on edge all the time making sure that I hadn't done anything wrong. He'd never hit my face or my stomach , he knew if he hit my face everyone would know and he never hit my stomach in case anything happened to you. In his eyes you were his and that's what made it so hard to leave him , I needed him and I knew he would never hurt you. Then one day he came home and I had one of my old friends round who had noticed a mark on my arm and instantly knew something was up. He told her that I had hurt my arm setting up baby things and as soon as she left I knew I was in trouble he threw me at the wall and I knew something was wrong I let out a scream and the next thing I knew I was in hospital in labour. You were premature when you were born so tiny , so innocent I just wanted to hold you but they kept you in a little cubicle hooked up to machines. You got stronger though every day , you were my little soldier you never gave up" she started to cry holding onto Deans hand. " the day came that we could go home and I really wanted to stay at the hospital I was so scared to go home to him. My mom picked me up from the hospital and dropped me off at home , she knew Kyle had hit me but I wouldn't talk her about it. When I got home I was surprised to say the least Kyle had organized a welcome home party with all my friends and he couldn't stop apologizing he even started crying when he seen you and I was so happy I thought everything was behind us now and we could start fresh , everything was going great Kyle helped with everything and as long as I said and did the right thing he never had a nasty word to say to me. Then for some stupid reason your father turned up again I knew he had had something and he just laid into Kyle before turning to see you , you were crying so he picked you up. I didn't know how he had the nerve to just show up hit Kyle and pick you up , I told him you weren't his I didn't understand why he had shown up. when I looked at Kyle on the floor I knew I had to do something , Kyle was going to be your father and look after you not some drugged up criminal who broke into houses beating people up so I called the police and it wasn't long before they came to take him away. He started shouting at me telling me he was going to get full custody of you and I couldn't let that happen so I filed a restraining order against him , it was the only thing I could think of to stop him from trying to take my baby from me"

" I don't understand why you were so unhappy dad was there if it was you who kept him away"

"I called him when Kyle left , I was going to check if he was going straight and maybe let him be the dad that you needed. Then when I called some woman answered the phone she told me that Dylan had a new family now and he didn't want anything to do with us"

"what!?" dean asked he couldn't believe that Dylan didn't tell him about his other family.

"so I guess he didn't tell you everything" his mom answered.

" why didn't you tell me all of this mom"

"because who wants to tell their son this , I was beaten from Kyle who eventually left me when he got another girl pregnant , I went off the rails I couldn't handle it even mom stopped coming to see me I pushed everyone away and I was scared to tell you about your dad in case you left me. I know I should of handled things better but when I lost my job I had to try everything to put food on the table and I turned into someone who I never wanted to be."

" you can still change mum"

"I can't Dean it's to late , just go see your father I'm pretty sure you'd prefer to be around him anyway he's probably got a new family by now"

"he's in hospital mum" Dean blurted out , he knew he had to tell her.

" what's he in hospital for" she tried to sound uncaring but he knew different

"he in final stages of cancer mum , he's going to die" Dean voice broke.

" oh baby I'm sorry " she said pulling Dean close for a hug. " I should of told you about him I so sorry "

" there's nothing we can do about it now , you can come see him if you want"

" I'm pretty sure I'm the last person he'd want to see , especially the way I am now. look at me a sorry excuse for a woman I'm a fucking alcoholic Dean and I couldn't even look after my own son" she said cupping his jaw." I love you , you know that don't you"

"if you love me you'll get help , you need it mom "

"I don't know if can do it"

"Maybe this was what you needed to realize you can do it , I'll go with you mom rehab is the best place to be" this was the first time he and his mom had a proper talk about her drinking without him screaming and storming out or her downing a bottle , he liked to think this was progress.

"but dea-"

" please , I want to know my real mom not some alcoholic you turned into" Dean said a tear rolling down his cheek.

"oh baby , I'll try for you I promise"

"thanks" she stood up drying her eyes and held his hand.

"okay if were going to do this , I need to go now because this. " she pointed to the bottles." this is too tempting" she said looking down with shame.

" C'mon then no time like the present" Dean said as they walked out the house. He couldn't be happier , he would finally have a proper mother and as nervous as he was that this might not work out all he could do was hope.

" How have you been dean" his mother tried to make small talk as they sat in the back of a taxi.

" I've been fine mom , when I first left things weren't great but I met someone and I have a career , a relationship and a house things are looking up mom I'm a lot better now then I ever have been". His mom gave a sad smile knowing that she was the reason his life hadn't been great but she was happy to know he'd found happiness with someone and he had everything he needed.

" wow , so what's his name then I'll have to thank him for making you so happy"

" Roman , you'll love him I promise. He's amazing really I can't fault him in any way"

"sounds like my baby is in love"

" yeah ... I guess I am " dean smiled.

Well looks like deans finally got to his mother , will she get sober? does Dylan has another family? Deans in love and were going to rehab. let me know what you think.