A/N: Thank you LyndsBaby for the idea! Now I have something to work with :]. I think I might plant that idea in the next chapter or the next….

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters.

I drove home, still crying. When I finally parked in to the drive way, noticing that my parents were not home, I turned of the engine and got out slamming the door. I opened the front door, closed it and ran up to my room quickly. I fell onto the bad and sobbed my poor breaking heart out.

It was too much drama for me.

The next few weeks went too slowly for me. The pain in my chest hurt constantly and my depression was getting a little worse each day. Emmett and Jasper were kind of confused as to why I was so down but they didn't push the issue. As for Alice, well she knew but she kept it secret from everyone else. She knew that is she told Em and Jasper, then they would get pissed off for sure and would go confront Edward. I so did not need that kind of commotion in my life right now.

I ignored all the smug looks from Rosalie and Tanya and all the pleading glances from Edward. I stayed clear from them and always dodged at the last minute if I were near them. I would sometimes see Edward coming towards me but I never gave him a second glance.

I knew that being friends with Alice, Jasper and Emmett and not the rest of them were putting pressure on them. I felt bad that Emmett was my friend when Rosalie clearly hates me. I knew she told Emmett to stay away from me and all that bullshit but I knew Emmett. He's a big teddy bear inside and I knew that he would be my friend no matter what. But that still didn't sooth the guilt I felt whenever Em and Rosalie were in an argument about me. And that goes for Alice and Jasper as well. They were brother and sister to Edward and Rosalie and I knew it hurt Alice especially that she would defend me against Edward. She wasn't that much closer to him anymore. As for Rosalie, they were never really close. I wouldn't blame Alice, 'cause Rosalie was the biggest bitch to grace Forks. And I totally mean it.

As for school life, well that was going great. I managed to get all straight A's in all my classes. Emmett was especially jealous and it was hilarious to watch him pout and complain all the time. Jasper always told me: "I knew you would get good grades." And I would ask why: "Why do you think that?" He would reply: "I don't really know. I guess I can sense it." Then he would shrug indifferent. Then I would say: "Huh." And then I would get lost in my thoughts.

Usually the days would go by faster when I hung out with my trio and we would goof off so much that we would we rolling around on the ground laughing our asses off. People would look at us with curious and questionable expressions and that would add to our laughter. Those days were the light of my sulking days. It seems like all I did was do that. And it all changed one day I had been staring off into space.

"Bella!" a high pitched voice reached my ears. I snapped out of my daze and looked around. I was sitting with Alice during our free period on the benches next to the picnic tables. Her expression was irritated.

"Huh what?" I asked confused. She sighed loudly and sat up straighter.

"Bella…." Her tone was sad. I snapped my gaze to her eyes and saw that they were shining with pity.

I growled and clenched my fists, "I can see the pity in your eyes Alice. I hate people feeling pity for me."

Alice bit her lip, her brow furrowing, "I-I just…Bella, do you know what your doing to yourself?"

"What do you mean?" I asked a little annoyed.

Alice scooted over closer to me and took my hand. She looked me straight in the eyes, intently, "Bella, Jasper, Emmett and I are all worried about you. You always have this sullen expression on your face and you always go off into your own little world. You're not like you used to be." She said gently yet there was an edge to her tone.

My eyes widened. "I d-don't know what you're talking about." I stuttered nervously. My heart beat a little faster.

Alice snorted, "You know what I'm talking about Bella. Don't try to play innocent. It's not going to work."

How does she know everything? Irritating little pixie.

"Look Alice, I don't want to talk about it. I'm fine." I said trying to sound firm.

"Bella, we are going to talk about it. I don't care what you say." She said sternly. I tried to leave but she grabbed my wrist in a tight grip and pushed my back down. I grunted and looked away from her and towards the sky.

"Bella, we all know about Edward." She assured me. My head snapped up and I looked at her in shock.

She laughed. Yet it wasn't a humorous laugh it was more of a bitter sound.

"It's kind of obvious Bella. Especially when you live with Edward and you see the regret and hurt on his face and all his glances at you."

I made a choking sound and realized that I was laughing, though it sounded more like snorting. "Yeah right, like he should be the one feeling like hurt and shit. He's a fucking asshole who only cares about his own feelings." I said bitterly, my lips pursed tight.

Alice looked at me like I grew an extra head or something. "Edward selfish? I don't think so Bella."

I looked at her with a smirk, "I'm not saying he's selfish, though he can be at times, I'm saying that he plays with people's emotions."

"Bella, Edward isn't playing your emotions. Don't you see him trying to talk to you everday? He wants to make things right between you guys." She stated lightly.

I rolled my eyes, "I don't want to make things right between us. He hurt me so much and he acts like he should feel sorry for me because that's the sort of gentlemanly thing to do." I stated a little angry.

Alice looked at me hesitatingly, "You know, it can help me if you can give me the reasons why you're both pissed of at each other." She cocked her eyebrow waiting for my answer.

Should I tell her? Or not? What would happen if anybody finds out? My reputation, if I had one, could be ruined.

"I-I don' k-know." I said biting my lip nervously. I twisted my fingers together. "Do you promise not to tell anybody?" I asked pleadingly, looked at her with a small pout.

Alice's lips twitched, "Fine, I won't tell anybody, though it would be hard to keep a secret from Jazz."

I smiled brightly, "Thanks Alice." I hugged her quickly.

Alice laughed the sound twinkling like soft bells. I smirked and chuckled.

"Well?" she raised an eyebrow waiting, impatiently I might add.

I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. "Well you know that night when I went to your house?"

Alice smiled and nodded.

"Well after Rosalie and Tanya left and we were watching the movie, Edward and I started to talk a little. It was dark and the movie was playing the naughty scene from titanic and I could feel the electricity boiling between us and I was so attracted to him. I mean what's not to like," I wiggled my eyebrows at her and she laughed, "Anyways, I guess he felt it and then out of a sudden I had this urge to kiss him. I made the first move and started kissing his face softly and then finally his lips. He responded after a few seconds and we started to make out. And did it feel good. But then the movie finished and we jumped apart and we couldn't look at each other at first. His expression held guilt, confusion and then a little lust. I was overwhelmed.

"Then we started talking for real. I apologized and told him I didn't regret it and he the same. He told me that he loved Tanya, but he felt something for me. He told me that he doesn't want to hurt Tanya. I felt sad and so hurt. I told him that I couldn't change the way I felt for him and he said he couldn't either," I didn't look at Alice after I said that. I didn't want to see the disappointment or anger on her face, "I asked him if we had a chance to be together and he said maybe and that he wanted to. I told him that I wished we did and that I would wait for him and then he told me the same.

"A-and then the next day I eased dropped on his and Tanya's conversation and he told her that he cared about me as a friend," I laughed bitterly, shaking my head, "He told her that he loves her and that I was nothing to him. When he said that I felt so much pain, I mean I like Edward and I thought that maybe we had something between us but no. And then that fight we had a few weeks ago, he asked me what was wrong with me, and why I was so sad! The nerve of him. I told him that he knew what I was talking about and his face held regret, confusion, guilt and all that shit. I told him to fuck off and ran away so broken. Now, I don't even want to talk to him at all." I finished, tears running down my face.

I finally looked at Alice and saw that she was furious. I cowered back and looked at her hesitantly.

Is she mad at me? Oh god, I ruined everything didn't I? God, where's all my confidence. I'm such a freakin' chicken.

Alice saw my expression and she spoke through clenched teeth, "You're right, my brother's an asshole. I mean how could he do that to you and to Tanya? I mean I don't like her more that you do but still." Her tone cold.

"I can kill him!" she nearly shouted and stood up, fists clenching and lips opened in a snarl.

"Woah Alice! Calm down. I know you're mad, I am too, but you promised you wouldn't say anything." I commented anxiously.

Alice closed her eyes and took a deep breath, "Right, sorry. I forgot." She said sheepishly. I laughed and shook my head at her funny antics.

Who knew the pixie was scary. Not me.

She calmed, "Though, I'm sorry about what happened. You don't deserve what happened to you." Her eyes were gentle and concerned.

I smiled weakly, "Thanks. Like I tell myself: Too much drama." Alice laughed loudly.

"Totally true."

I looked at my watch and saw that it was getting late. The bell was to ring in about 2 minutes. "Wow that was a long conversation."

Alice agreed. "Our longest deepest girl talk."

I chuckled, "Yep, now let's get ahead to class." I winked and stood up.

We hooked arms together and walked towards class.

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