Gabriella's Pov:
I watched as my warrior fell asleep after this long day, he had witnessed one of his best friends kill themselves and he had been hurt. Physically and mentally, he had been scarred and forever bruised by what he had been through in the space of hours. His life had changed in a matter of minutes or seconds. As the rest of the gang fell asleep I decided to go to the bathroom to do something no one would ever think I would do.
I reached the bathroom and locked the door, I pulled down my sleeves and stared at the scarred skin covered in dry blood. I looked completely different, I felt different too. I wasn't eating that much, if I was even eating and I had turned to that one addictive source of pain. A pain that I can handle, the pain that Troy had, cutting was my only option to relive stress. I had never thought I would have to turn to this but I had, my life was taking a turn for the worst. My mom had recently been admitted to Albuquerque hospital from cancer and my father was never home. I was lonely and terrified. Two deadly combinations and if that wasn't enough I swear I was turning anorexic, I couldn't give Troy that pain again. He had already been through this same pain eating the life of his sister, I couldn't let him relive that. If he thought about suicide after his sister's death and after Hannah's death actually attempt it what would he do if I died?
I brought the silver object towards my arm and shut my eyes as it broke the layers of my skin turning my hand to be coloured in rich crimson. If anything the sight looked amazing, but to other people they would be scared and snitch.
The next day,
It was 12:00 pm and Chad and Troy hadn't woken up yet, it was Tuesday there was meant to be school but after yesterday the school won't be open for awhile. Troy had, had one nightmare and was shaking like mad whilst Chad was mumbling in his sleep peacefully. I wanted to wake Troy up so I went over to his peaceful body and shook him gently, he groaned but then opened his eyes a little bit.
"Hey, you okay?" I asked softly as i moved hair out of his eyes. "yeah..., my body kills though." I looked at him sympatheticly as he winced in pain, "I'm going to tell your dad, okay?" He nodded at me before shutting his eyes again. I got up and fount Jack playing basketball with Zeke and Jason in his backyard. He noticed that I had came outside so he let the other two play whilst he went inside and checked on Troy and Chad.
Troy's Pov:
After my dad coming inside and helping me and Chad we both got up and went outside to watch my dad and our friends play basketball. I was feeling a little bit weird being outside with Hannah's house right behind mine. My dad looked over at me and caught me looking over at Hannah's house, he sighed. He knew I haven't been out in the backyard since that fateful day so it was a struggle to keep focused on the game.
It had been several hours later and it was dinner time, I couldn't eat anything without it giving me pain or making me feel sick. I wanted to cut again, if I was going to survive watching my best friend kill himself then I would have to cut again. If I let all this guilt and hatred build up in me I would turn back to the suicidal thoughts and I really wanted to live my life, this was the only way I could get rid of my emotions without blowing up on people.
5 days later:
It had been 5 days since the shooting and I had been getting worse, I barely spoke to people- even Gabi! I had been eating though, all my physical scars had started to fade and my ribs were healing just fine, so were my wrists but my mind was getting worse. I had been getting restless nights, more distant then before and I couldn't take my eyes off of Hannah's house, usually I would never look at her house but now I had started to get more notice of it. Hannah would always be in my heart, I had been cutting more as well. I knew that Gabi was hiding something from me and that I could tell she was loosing weight dramatically.
I was going round Gabi's today because I wanted to ask her if she was okay myself, although I know she would never admit that something was wrong to me it was worth a shot right? I pulled my rusty old truck into her driveway and carefully walked towards her front door, she had no idea I was coming but I knew that she had nothing planned today. Instead of knocking like any normal person would I took out my key to her house and entered without making a noise, I checked the kitchen for her but she wasn't there. I looked in her fridge because her mom said that I had free power to and I noticed that none of the food had been touched- all thrown out at the expiration date.
I heard Gabi say "what are you doing here?" To me as I looked at her surprised, I saw something that I wanted to unsee- this view was so upsetting, I wanted to make an excuse for why I was there but it never came, I hated what I saw. My stomach had a pit in it and I held my breath, I hated everything. I hated just what I had just saw. My eyes were glued to something, something that I never thought she would do...