CHAPTER FOURTEEN

Sully let out a sigh when he almost nodded off again. He looked down at his watch then rolled his eyes when he realized it was 2:30 in the morning. He gawked over at Emily and Charlie who were lying on his bed asleep. Charlie was sprawled out taking up most of the bed as Emily lay curled up in a ball on her side of the large bed. Sully got up from his seat in his favorite recliner and stood in the doorway, watching the children sleep.

Gawd... they have to be going through the worst times in their life. Screw puberty and getting bullied in high school; they lost their mother who was having an affair and pregnant with her loves baby. And to top that all off, their father is the one who killed them... poor kids.

Sully walked to the kitchen and poured himself another cup of coffee. Before he could put the creamer in the cup, he heard a whimpering sound com from his bedroom. He hurried back and found Emily thrashing around in her sleep. Charlie was woken up by her movement and he watched in horror as his older sister now screamed as she tossed and turned in the bed. He looked up at Sully who was just as shocked as he watched Emily. When she rolled off the bed and hit the floor is when she woke up from her nightmare. Sully slowly inched his way to her side, not to scare her.

"Emily! Calm down! It was just a dream!" Sully shouted over her cries.

"Mom! Mom!" She cried and looked around the room. "I want my mom! Where's my mom?!"

"She's not here Emily!" Sully said in a loud voice and put her in his arms and tried to comfort her but she kept pushing him away and crying for her mother. "She's gone Emily..." He said and she stopped pushing him. "She's gone..." He repeated quietly.

Emily slowly looked up at him and shook her head. "It's all my fault." She whispered.

"No! I already told you before Emily! NONE of this is your fault! You did not make your dad do this!"

"I told him!" She blurted out and stared into Sully's eyes. He looked back at her with a confused stare. "When I found out that Bosco was hurt and my mom was going to stay at the hospital with him, I got so mad because I told her that she needed to end it when him or I was gonna tell daddy." She shook her head and let out a sob. "So I told my dad... He didn't believe me and got mad at me for lying. Then he went up to the hospital the next day and that's when he found out." She looked up at Sully and shook her head. "If it wasn't for me, my mom would still be here!"

Before Sully could reply, Charlie spoke up. "This is all your fault!" He shouted at the top of his lungs. "If it wasn't for you, Mommy and Uncle Bosco would still be alive! I hate you!"

"Charlie! Calm down!" Sully shouted.

"I'm sorry Charlie! I was trying to save US! I didn't want them to get a divorce!" Emily cried. "I didn't know daddy was going to kill them!"

"You probably wanted them to die! I know you hate Bosco and you love daddy more than mommy! This is all your fault Emily!"

"Everybody be quiet now!" Sully yelled.

They both stopped yelling but Charlie continued to glare at his sister as she sat in Sully's arms sobbing. "Look... this is nobodies fault... Your dad... I don't know him personally but... to me it seems like he is very disturbed about your mom and Bosco's relationship. This had nothing to do with you guys."

"What's gonna happen to my dad?" Charlie asked.

"The detectives are gonna talk to him tonight about his side of the story. I really don't know what will happen to him after that." He said as he got up from the floor and sat on the edge of his bed.

"He's going to jail right?"

Sully looked at Emily and sighed. "Yeah... he killed two people."

"When I went to the bathroom at the police building earlier I heard some guys say that Yokas wasn't going to live to see his court date." Charlie said softly and they both looked at him in shock. "Is that true? Are they gonna kill my dad?"

"No... Of course not." He shook his head.

"Then why would they say that?"

"Come and sit down on the bed. Sit next to each other." He paused and looked down at the sheets. "Your mom and Bosco meant a lot to us at the five-five. We're all really close over there. We have each others back on the streets. We're like a big family... And when someone hurts a member of our family... we all react differently. Some people like me just deal with it quietly and in their own way. Others are angry and want to seek revenge."

"They're not gonna hurt him are they?"

He slowly shook his head. "No. Nothings gonna happen to your dad." He said, standing up.

"When can we see him?" Emily asked as they all walked to the kitchen.

"I don't know. They probably took him down to Central Booking already." He said looking at his watch again. "Cop Killers are usually held on no bail." He stopped and looked over at the two children. "Sorry."

"Do we have to go to Grandma Yokas or Grandma Mitchell's when daddy goes to jail?"

"I'm not sure, that's up to them and a court."

"Can we stay here with you?" Charlie asked with a sad grin.

Sully chuckled at the young boys' question. "No... You guys can't stay here with me. Your grandparents would probably have a fit if they knew you guys were over here tonight." He paused. "I have no rights to you guys. I'm not a blood relative... plus I work terrible hours."

"Well, maybe we could work something out." Emily said.

"No judge in their right mind would give me custody of you guys." He said and took a sip of his coffee. "You guys should go get some sleep."

"Every time I close my eyes I see my mom." Emily whispered.

"I miss her so much." Charlie cried and put his hands over his face. Sully lowered his head and put his hand on Charlie's shoulder and squeezed it. "I'm always gonna miss her."

"She wouldn't want us to cry Charlie." Emily said and hugged him as she herself cried. "You know mom... she would never want us to cry or be hurt." She closed her eyes tight as she held her sobbing brother. "I miss you Mom..." She whispered softly.

It took months for me to sleep through the entire night without thinking about my mom and Bosco. They were laid to rest beside each other two days after they were murdered. My dad was convicted of two counts of first degree murder and was sentenced to two consecutive life sentences without the possibility of parole. Charlie and I were forced to live with Grandma Yokas because Grandma and Grandpa Mitchell have a history of abusing alcohol. We still see Sully though which was the most important thing for Charlie and I. He picks us up on his days off and we will either go see a movie or go to dinner or just sit at his apartment and talk about our Mom and Bosco. There was some funny stuff that my mom did at work that she never told us about. Bosco was quite a character too.

I miss my mom so much... There were so many things that I never got to tell her. I know I will see her again and the one thing I am going to tell her that I never did enough when she was alive is... I love you Mom.

Forgive me, watch over me, God bless you... love always... Emily.

The End.