They were still at Adamant, trying to figure out where to keep the Grey Wardens and learning of other groups that they needed to contact. Sili needed to breath, to be alone for just a few minutes and ran at the first chance, heading up the stairs that she had chased Clarel not an hour before. Sili had waited until no one noticed her before slipping away.

Turning the corner, Sili walked down the destroyed wall until she safely couldn't go any further, and promptly dropped to her knees. The past hour rushed back at her as she finally was able to comprehend what just happened.

Chasing Clarel and Eramond while dodging a dragon. Falling and going back into the Fade with Hawke, Stroud, Varric, Iron Bull, and Dorian. Having a Nightmare demon fuck with all of them the entire time while recovering her memories. Finding out that it was the Wardens who were partially responsible for the conclave disaster.

Fighting the said Nightmare demon only to be trapped by its fucking pet. Having to choose a decoy, of that being Stroud, so that she and Hawke could escape. Then deciding the fate of the Wardens, to which they were to be watched allies... All to have all her companions hate part of her solution. With her head spinning, her stomach lurched and emptied itself down into the Abyss.

Sili didn't know how long she had been heaving, but someone had walked up behind her. Whoever it was staying far enough back for her comfort, but Sili was still dry heaving when someone else came with some water.

"Rinse your mouth out, dear." Dorian whispered, "Bull, is he..."

"Yeah, Cullen's on his way. Varric ran and got him." Bull stated simply.

Sili's mind was still foggy as she tried to figure out what was going on. She guessed though, that Iron Bull had followed her and made sure that no one else besides her companions followed and that he stood to cover her vomiting. Either Dorian had followed as well or some prompt from Bull had the Tevinter bring her water, all the while Varric had been told to get Cullen.

Sili rinsed her mouth and spit down into the Abyss. With help from Dorian, she slowly moved from her spot on her knees to leaning up against the nearby wall. She felt unnaturally hot and the cool wall eased some of tension that was building. Sili felt Dorian's hand on her forehead before moving down to check on her magically.

"Home and to bed, my dear friend." Dorian stated to her hazy gaze on him.

"What's the situation, now?" Sili asked, trying to keep her nausea down.

"Don't worry about it, Boss. Most everyone is getting the hell out of here and back to where they belong." Bull quipped, but Sili noticed how tense he was, "We'll all be better once we get home."

"Inquisitor?" Cullen asked from behind Bull, "Sili, are you alright?"

"Our dear Inquisitor needs to get home. All this ruckus here has drained her and she won't be able to go back alone. One of us needs to ride with her. Us being Varric, myself, or you Commander." Dorian shrugged, trying to hint at Cullen.

"She can ride with me. That way, you are available in case she needs... help." Cullen replied with a nod before walking up to Sili and holding out her hand.

The ride home was a blur as consciousness drifted around her. Cullen's grip tighten around her waist and, hoping to ease some of his tension, she settled her arm above his. Luckily, they were all back at Skyhold before sunrise and Sili sighed in relief as they passed under the gates, thankful that not many were awake as they neared the stables.

Sili tried to slide off Cullen's horse, wanting to get back to her room as soon as possible, but Iron Bull was there to 'assist' her. Her head was still spinning, the world was blurry, and staying upright was becoming a challenge. Cullen slid off his horse only to have a scout bring messages that needed his urgent attention.

"Would one of you...?" Cullen asked as he slowly walked away.

"We will get the Inquisitor safe to her room to rest, Commander." Dorian nodded.

"I think we have a few days until our next move, right Commander?" Iron Bull asked, a little loud, but enough to make a point.

"Longer than that, Iron Bull." Cullen replied, just as loud, "I think today, there will be nothing going on at least for the rest of Skyhold." Cullen stated before following the scout up the stairs to his office.

"Just carry her, Bull. No one is up yet and she's about to pass out." Dorian scolded, "The sun is barely cresting the mountains, we have time."

"Come on, Boss." Iron Bull agreed, kneeling down, "Climb up."

"Seriously Tiny? You can't just be a gentleman and carry our dear Inquisitor to her room." Varric laughed.

"This is easier." Sili replied quietly as she carefully climbed up his back and locked her fingers around his neck.

"Plus, I can move around easier like this." Iron Bull said before running off, leaving Dorian and Varric by the stables.

"Harold's Rest?"

"Wicked Grace?"

"Loser buys?"

"Deal."

"There you go, Boss." Bull said as Sili eased herself off of his back and onto her bed.

"Thank you, Bull. Can you tell Josephine?" Sili asked, taking off her armor slowly, "In case she needs anything?"

"Sure thing. I'll find Iriani and have her come up soon. You need something to eat, Boss." Bull said, helping her out of chest plate.

The thought of swallowing anything right now had caused her to turn pale. She took off the last of her armor before rubbing her face. Sili soon realized that Bull hadn't moved, "No promises."

"You okay there... Sili?" Iron Bull asked.

The use of her name worried her and she looked up to the Tal-Vashoth. She knew lying wouldn't work on him and sighed, "No, but I really just want to be alone, just for a bit, and sleep. We have plan our next move and see what Corypheus is doing now."

"Alright." Bull nodded, "I'll have Iriani come up in an hour. Sound good to you?"

Sili nodded and watched as Bull made his way from her quarters and listened as the doors opened and shut. She fell back onto her bed and just listened to Skyhold. The clatter and clunking of the merchants getting their stands up, the servants running from room to room, then there was the soldiers and their patrols. The rhythm of their marching was enough to lull Sili into a dream and nightmare free sleep.

When she woke, Sili felt better than she had in weeks. She yawned and stretched before removing herself from her bed and making her way to her balcony that overlooked Skyhold. Sili's eyes wander the grounds, watching everyone, but one person caught her eye, Cullen. He was walking from their little makeshift Chantry Shrine of Andraste, up the stairs and to the ramparts, all the while looking around.

Smiling, Sili found a light armor outfit that she used for Skyhold. It allowed her to blend in for a time, especially if she wanted time to herself. Sili was barely dressed before she heard the door to her quarters open and Iriani's head bobbed up from the stairs.

"Morning, Miss Sili. I came to wake you, but..." Iriani smiled, "Breakfast will be soon, maybe an hour?"

"Thank you, Iriani. I think I may go walk the grounds..." Sili nodded, walking up to the young elf.

The two walked to the Grand Hall together before separating. Sili walked quietly through the rotunda, where Solas' seemed to be meditating and she didn't want to to disturb him. She surprised herself on how quietly she could open and close a heavy wood door and smiled to herself as she walked to Cullen's office.

"There you are." Cullen said from his desk as she walked through the door.

"Were you waiting for me?" Sili asked, shutting it and walking up to his desk.

"Yes, I mean no..." Cullen immediately turned red while rubbing the back of his neck.

Sili couldn't help, but laugh, "Oh, good. I've kept and not kept you waiting."

"Let me start over." Cullen sighed, hands dropping to his sides.

"By all means."

"We, my family, have some dwelling in Ferelden. I was hoping you might accompany me. When you can spare the time, of course." Cullen asked bluntly.

"Is something wrong?" Sili asked. Cullen's voice held something, but she couldn't place it.

"What? No! I would rather explain there. If you wish to go..."

"I have time now. You said it yourself that nothing should be going on for a few days..."

Cullen sighed with a smile spreading across his face, "I will make the necessary arrangements."

Within the hour, Cullen and Sili were out of Skyhold and somewhere in the middle of Ferelden, "Where are we?" Sili asked, walking to the edge of the lake.

"You walk into danger every day. I wanted to take you away from that, if only for a moment." Cullen sighed, walking up next to her, "I grew up not far from here. This place was always quiet."

"Did you come here often?" Sili asked, looking around.

"I loved my siblings, but they were very loud. I would come here to clear my head." Cullen shrugged, but Sili watched as a smile creped on his lips, "Of course, they always found me eventually."

"You were happy here? It's beautiful." Sili matched his smile.

"I was. I still am. The last time I was here was the day I left for templar training. My brother gave me this. It just happened to be in his pocket, but he said it was for luck." Cullen said with a laugh, a token turning in his hands, "Templars are not suppose to carry such things. Our faith should see us through."

"You broke the Order's rules? I'm shocked." Sili laughed, shoving him lightly.

"Until a year ago, I was very good at following them, most of the time. This was the only thing I took from Ferelden that the Templars didn't give me. Humor me. We don't know what you'll face before the end. This can't hurt." Cullen said, placing the trinket into her hands.

"Keep it, I don't want your luck to run out." Sili said, turning her hands so that the trinket was in his again.

"Nor do I. Not when I finally have some." Cullen said, taking her hand instead.