Yey! Look how fast I updated. I said I'd get the next on out in a flash, it's cause this is actually the same chappie as the 13th, it just had to be divided into two since it was too big.

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They woke up after that restless night and both felt they could deal with the situation much better now. And so, when both were cleaned up and had eaten some breakfast a large sigh coming from Sirius was taken as cue to start the conversation.

Remus was the one who did it however, still on the bed he hadn't left he looked at anywhere but his former lover's face as his question sounded through the ward. "How can you be here? What about…how could…" he had trouble picking the right words like he never had, Moony always knew what to say!

But memories took the better of him and he'd rather not let Sirius hear the pain in his voice. Since at that moment he was remembering how he lost all four people he loved at the same day. He was remembering Lily and James' bodies, the people's accusations that he too was a death eater. Seriously, a werewolf who was the male lover of maniac Sirius Black? Well of course he just had to be a death eater too! Get him and lock him up! That went on for months and the ministry wouldn't leave him alone; not that it had before, what with him being a werewolf and all. That thought reminded him of something that at the moment might seem pathetic compared to what was going on, but would surely get him into more trouble once this was all over: he had never registered at the ministry. Oh the joy!

Sirius started to speak, his voice did no job of masking his sorrow and his fear; fear of Remus not believing him, that is. But he told the werewolf everything with all the details, he spilled the truth as naked as it would have come under veritaserum; the only thing he left out was the reason for trading with Peter. Remus didn't need to know that yet, it was too much.

"You…why…why didn't you say…you…but…the ministry…" Remus was at a loss of words, he felt like he was being torn apart by his feelings. A part of him wanted to yell in pain for what Sirius had gone through. Another one was tearing at his heart with guilt, he had not believed his lover then, Sirius had told the truth, he had begged and Remus…he didn't even bother…he hadn't even tried…he just…"Merlin…I'm such…oh Merlin…I'm…" he whispered shaking his head no, he was going to apologize but refrained from doing so, no apologies would give Sirius' three years back, their three years…

"Remus, come on…I…back then we, we couldn't have known…I…everyone was turning their back on each other and… you just… you did what you thought, I mean, your feelings then…and Lily and… and James." The mere mention of his best friend's name hurt Sirius in a way he could barely describe. When James died he took a really really large chunk of the animagus' heart with him.

Their conversation on the topic continued this broken and unconnected, and even though they spoke through half phrases both understood what the other was saying. And apologies did come in the end, no matter what Remus had thought at first, it was after all , all he could do right now.

Sirius asked him about the whole Harry issue and Remus felt a weight lift his shoulders when he spoke about it, he could finally tell someone about his rage and murderous thoughts. He barely started explaining what happened when Sirius became as altered as he had been at the moment.

"They what?!" the animagus demanded feeling as indignation took a hold of him. "And no one did anything?! Wasn't Dumbledore supposed to be keeping him safe? I even let him go…I" a frustrated growl escape his throat and his hands curled into fists.

"I know! I was so…I was out of myself, I almost…I almost killed him" he admitted, though regretting doing so the next moment.

It was weird talking to the animagus like this: the part that accepted that that Sirius was his wanted to spill his heart, felt no restrain when talking to him. The part that kept Remus firm on the ground wanted to say no more, it realized that he was talking to a stranger; and that, probably, said stranger felt no correspondent emotion towards him what so ever.

"I would have killed him…the bastard!" he kept murmuring curses that Remus didn't even understand. "If I wasn't trying to make things right again…I probably would go after him." he paused as though to get his feelings back in order and then looked the lycanthrope in the eyes. "I knew there was a good reason Remmie; I knew you wouldn't take him like that for nothing."

For a second Remus wanted to tell him he was wrong, that he wasn't all that noble, that his personal need for the boy had played a part in it all, but refrained from doing so. He had enough guilt on his shoulders already…

A silence reigned and once again they felt awkward around each other. After all, the facts were all on the table, cards were up. But the emotions, oh those were still choking them, were still at the top of their throats and the unspoken words made the air heavy. One could probably feel the tension built by all that needed to be said.

"Remus, I…-" Sirius begun as he gathered some courage, however, a low clearing of a throat interrupted him.

Both turned to see the school's headmaster smiling at the door.

"Professor…" the animagus said softly, afraid of what the man was there for: they had been on the edge for the past couple of days, like the calm before the storm, waiting for the ministry to come and all hell to break loose. So yeah, the man's presence lifted his guard.

"May I come in?" he asked as his smile changed into a knowing one.

Remus didn't hesitate to nod, his voice was back to normal mostly but right then it was like it had vanished.

"Madam Pomfrey told me you were awake, Mr. Lupin." He said as he conjured a chair to sit on. "She asked me to leave you to…rest undisturbed, but however unfortunate it is…I have to take a bit of your time" he said looking from one to the other.

Sometimes the werewolf wondered if everyone felt as exposed around Dumbledore as he felt, the old headmaster's every word had a double meaning, it was a bit scary actually.

"But, first things first. Are you feeling better Remus? Albeit, under Madam Pomfrey and Mr. Black's care, I believe you'll be as good as always in no time."

The lycanthrope nodded. "I'm much better professor, thank you" he answered truthfully with a smile on his face.

"That's very good to hear! Harry will be very glad to know it. I actually spoke to him this morning, seems he is finally coming around. He asked for you, in fact, and I said he could come down later as soon as we have spoken." He said, adjusting his spectacles. "Funny thing about children Mr. Lupin, they are very honest when spoken to seriously, and I do believe I can trust Harry's view about what happened…so I sympathize with your feelings…" he said very calmly. "I believe your heart was in the right place, but I don't think it's necessary to mention the danger of your actions. You are very lucky to be alive, Remus…though I cannot blame you or reprimand what you have done. When we love, we are lead to do very foolish things, some of which may blur our judgment and get us into issues that are hard to resolve…"

Remus listened closely to every word, though he knew what, in sum, the man was trying to tell him 'It was stupid, never do it again!'.

"Maybe the stars were watching out for your safety…" he said with that knowing smile once more.

The werewolf was going to say something, but the headmaster went on.

"I came bringing news: both good and bad. They are both very relevant and I wish you'll hear them carefully." He waited for Remus to nod and went on "It finally has come to the ministry's knowledge that you, and I mean you both, are here at Hogwarts. I was questioned about it and did not try to conceal the information…They realize you are under medical care at the moment but since they became aware of the situation we've gained a couple of Aurors at the hospital wing's entrance. Measures have already been taken; they set the date of your trial Mr. Lupin, and…they have Harry's guardian's permission to obliviate his memories of you-".

"What?! How can they do that?? That's not even legal!!" Sirius yelled outraged, so much that he stood up.

"They claim that this event has caused a change of plans as to how Harry should have been kept away from the wizarding world and so they used that as a good enough reason. They claim it has jeopardized Harry's safety. And they found little objection, I have to say…"

"That's stupid! Of course they wouldn't object to what they were saying themselves! Harry's safety my arse! They were killing him there!" he said, completely altered.

"Sirius please, sit down" Remus said quietly, though the words said by Dumbledore were making butterflies flap around his stomach. They were gonna make Harry forget him?

"But…that's unbelievable! Remus saved Harry's life! Twice! They can't charge him with anything, they should be thanking him!" he had sat down and he didn't speak as loud as before, but still looked altered.

The headmaster had a more sad expression as though he acknowledged Sirius reasoning but found it useless against their problem.

"I understand that, Sirius, as much as you do. The ministry, however, finds it awfully easy to overlook your arguments over the one that Mr. Lupin-"

"…is a werewolf". This time it was Remus who spoke, finishing for him.

"Precisely" Albus agreed nodding.

Sirius drew in a large breath and looked at the headmaster; his eyes were filled with hope as he did so.

"Dumbledore, James…" Merlin, how hard it was to talk about his best friend. "James choose me as Harry's guardian, you know I'm his godfather…but they had a will and-"

The headmaster nodded and held his hand up, smiling calmly.

"…which brings us, Mr. Black, to the good news." He said "Not only does such will exist, but it is already in my possession. And it does say very clearly that in the event of both their deaths you would be the one to take care of Harry as his legal guardian." he watched as Sirius expression became more and more hopeful "Of course you had been, up until now, unable to fulfill that part due to your imprisonment in Azkaban; which is why you will also be getting a trial of your own, tomorrow."

Sirius frowned and stared at the headmaster unable to believe what he was hearing. A trial? How did he get a trial? He hadn't gotten one in the first place, how in the name of Merlin did he earn one now, with all the chaos his breaking-out had caused?

"A trial?" Remus asked frowning at the same time Sirius asked "Tomorrow?!"

"I personally requested one and they wouldn't have it later than that, they can't stand to know that you are here and they aren't acting on it. And, though I cannot participate in the judging, I will vouch for you Sirius. Lord Voldemort is gone, they needn't make innocent arrests to keep the population calm. We are not at war and so it is, above all, their duty to give you the trial you never got. It will also put an end to the panic your break out created." He explained.

"But…what if I'm not cleared? What if they send me back there?" he shuddered at the thought, he couldn't go back, he just couldn't!

"You will be Sirius, you will be questioned under veritaserum and will not be tricked, I will not allow it." The old man assured in such a way that made all the doubts on the animagus' mind vanish. "You are not guilty of the murders you were imprisoned for and as soon as you're a free man-"

"I'll be able to get custody of Harry!"

"And as his guardian you'll drop the charges against Mr. Lupin, whose trial will be soon after yours." He concluded with a playful look.

Both ex-lovers were smiling like complete idiots right now, because suddenly everything seemed fixed and they hadn't even seen it happening.

"Thank you Albus" Remus said smiling softly, he was beginning to feel light headed again.

The headmaster just nodded and stood up. "I'm sure you'll want to…discuss the details of further arrangements, and so I believe I should go. I'll ask Minerva to bring Harry down, is that ok?" he asked, his eyes held that twinkle he got sometimes around them.

Then, humming softly to himself, he left the ward nodding to their 'goodbyes'.

Sirius was surprise at what the man had said about Harry, that the boy wanted to see Remus and all, actually the mere fact that the child had spoken had come as a surprise. The thing was, ever since they came back nearly a week ago, the boy hadn't said a word. He cried a lot and from what Sirius was told had constant nightmares but he never said anything.

His godfather hadn't been there to see him much… and it wasn't that he didn't want to see the boy. It was that he was so disturbed and agonizing over his former lover that he didn't think his presence would do much good to the already traumatized child. But it seemed Harry had opened up a bit more a couple of days ago.

But now that Remus was ok, well he wasn't really ok yet, but now that they could expect him to recover, Sirius felt he even missed Harry.

He remembered very well when he saw James' son for the first time, that little messy haired carbon copy of Prongs crying his lungs out; it was one of the most beautiful memories he had. He remembered how James and he even shed a few tears between laughs as they each held the baby for the first time. He had loved Harry as though he was his own ever since.

It was no secret to any of the marauders -don't forget Lily- that Sirius, like his best friend, treasured very much the idea of having a family - what with the one he had and all. And the sadness of having to give that up, at least for that moment, because of choosing Remus was crushed by the arrival of the soon-to-be boy-who-lived.

So he smiled happily to Remus, everything would be fine!

"Hear that? I'll be able to take Harry away from those muggles!" he said joyfully.

The werewolf nodded but then suddenly understood those words through a whole different meaning and his expression turned into a grim one.

That's right. Sirius would get Harry, not him; this meant actually that he'd be losing them both.

Just because he felt the same way towards Sirius now as he had felt before didn't mean it was reciprocal. He was here, he was taking care of him, but he had said clearly that he felt he owned the werewolf for all that happened. That wasn't out of love, it was out of guilt. And so Sirius would get Harry, but that didn't mean, in any way, shape or form that Remus was included.

The lycanthrope hadn't said anything about his attachment to the boy, his need to be Harry's -oh dare he say it- parent to feel alive and he wouldn't. He would rather bottle up everything inside of him… Sirius didn't owe him anything, he was a free man with the right to a normal family and lacking need to have, once again, the burden of having a werewolf lover.

Easy thought than done…

He managed to keep everything inside, but his eyes started to betray him and he felt them sting. Closing them at once he stared to the opposite side of the ward and tried to push those thoughts away.

The ex-convict, however, didn't seem to notice any of his internal turmoil and called his name softly. But the werewolf didn't feel emotionally stable or strong enough to bite back tears and pretend everything was okay, he couldn't place a mask at will and so he spoke softly back.

"I'm sorry, I…I think I have a headache or something, I'm not…thinking that clearly" he said, not looking back at the man.

Sirius looked a bit taken aback, though Remus didn't see it, but he nodded. "Sure, ahn...get some rest, I'll let you know when Harry's here." he offered with a smile.

Then that pregnant silence that seemed to like the place so much spread again. Sirius would have to wait a bit more before trying to approach the subject he needed to speak with Remus about.

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A/N:

Oh oh! Tiny Chapter, I know but if it's tiny it's cause I couldn't arrange it any other way, sorry! Hopefully the next will be up soon :)

Notes about chappie:

-Don't you just LOVE Dumbledore? Come on, you know you do!

-Ok, some people are at the verge of killing me, yes I know, 14th chapter and no slashy action yet. Hold your horses people :P I take my time -laughs-

-About Sirius and Harry's lack of interaction: yeah, I do realize it's missing, but I hoped I cleared up the reason…:X and don't worry! They will be up and about soon enough!

Answer to Reviwes:

Bottlebrush¹¹: Thank you! This scene was one of the very first I wrote for this story, but it was too...raw back then, so I had to fix loads of stuff. I'm really glad you liked it! I did have to think load of things through :P Glad it turned out ok! -hugs-

arabellaw: Hunn I wouldn't say 'together' yet but, I know what you mean :P I just haaaate it when people write these 'getting back together at first sight thing' I mean, seriously, that's so unreal!! You haven't seen a person in three years! You would so not jump at them :P It's gonna be a little awkward for a while, but hopefully...;P

pink-robot-pentapi: Don't cry!! Huuunnn I can't tell you that, but you'll like it! Don't worry! :P

MagicalWinry: Ok! :D

miss freddy: Here it is!

E.Nigma: Thank you very much! -I love reviews like this :)- I loved writing the torture scene! -laughs- But yeah, I think Remus would have fought if he had the chance to, but to make them fight in the situation he was in would be pretty unbelievable :P I mean, the guy was falling apart from the full moon. Err I have to admit I like making my character suffer -laughs evily- Hunn...about him believing Sirius it is just as you said, Remus was almost out of his mind then, he couldn't tell odds from ends and in the back of his mind he saw that person he loved the most, he trusted the most...It's like what Bottlebrush said in her review! :P I didn't get what you said about Madam Pomfrey /! By "hun" meant she was, you know, "humming" like a pause to think or something, so I didn't get what you said about americanism :X (though I have to say: I suuuuuck at britishism and stuff, having lived in the US and all. I try to keep americanism at minimum, but it's hard!) Thanks!!

ProtegoNox: \o/ yey he's fine :P and his voice is fine now too! Unfortunately Sirius didn't have any interaction with Harry yet. First it was because he was completely centered on Remus then it was cause Harry is the one who won't speak to anyone...but they're both going back to normal now and will slowly build a relationship! Don't worry, it's coming!:)

LittleHero: Thank you! :) Yeah, everyone is wondering about the Sirius/Harry relationship, but don't worry it will develop! And hopefully this chapter explained what was going on :) Good luck too!! (Don't be like me who can't get away from novels! Study hard :P -laughs)

NavyBlue...: Don't worry! :D I think Remus cares for Harry very very much! So he'd surely think of him before anything else ;) Thanks!

Mersedes: Thank you!! -hugs- They were acting cute weren't they? Though, I guess things are getting a little messy right now hun? :X Thanks!!

Xylia Luna Orion: Everyone is wondering about harry! And he wasn't in this chappie either :X but I hope the reason is cleared now! Here it is!

Bottlebrush¹²: He probably ordered her to touch him or something, yes sidelong apparition. He was holding harry with one of his arms, the other had his wand and that was enough to make the woman do what he wanted :). I'm evil! I know! Yeah, I guess for Siri it'd be easier, but Remus...well one cannot run from the ministry while unconscious, now can they? :P Ohh see? Dumbledore is always on top of the situation! The man is a genius -hugs him- Thank you very much!!

People, I'm serious! Review! -pouts- u.u kkkkk

Love yall, till next one!