I own nothing.
Let me take you for a ride
With the devil in the details
We'll kiss and tremble with the light
Everything is fine
-Devil in the Details by Placebo
When you answered your door tears were streaming down her face.
Even when you were fist deep and had her screaming your name she had never looked so utterly human and the realization startled you as if you had just witnessed your reflection moving of its own accord.
When she stepped forward and grabbed you, hugged you, admittedly your first thought was that one of your new teammates had kicked the dust and you began preparing yourself for the news.
And then she looked up at you, with nothing but gratitude in her eyes and utter relief on her lips.
She thanked you.
Your heart had never pulled off so many acrobatic maneuvers in your life.
You quickly learned that she had taken the books you left on her bedside table to heart.
You also found that she was so proud to show you what she had learned.
So relieved to know what she was feeling was something human.
That the dance they had been tangling each other up in wasn't something ugly or shameful or wrong.
That they were fine.
That she was fine.
Normal even.
Or at least, something close enough to work with.
And she was an impeccable learner; your old headmaster would have sold several limbs for such a dedicated student, and you quickly found yourself doing so.
Her offer was tantalizing.
Her contract direct.
The way out is clear, she reminds you later and then again and then once more still, "always there."
The presence of a word you could name set you both at such an ease it was almost like a release in itself.
You were still leaving trails of marks along each other's flesh, still fighting to feel alive and to be on top, still doing everything in your powers to rip the rest of the world out of each other's heads, but now the game was refined once more.
Fine tailored like a three piece suit, and the seams fit so snug you were surprised that you weren't wearing a second skin.
And there were words to describe and words to discuss and illuminate and connect and reform and to illustrate and to heal.
The two of you now conversed as you danced.
It was a beautiful way to fill the air between screams.