Chapter 13: Rearrange My Life

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Here is another chapter. This is the longest chapter so far for this story. Enjoy :)

Edward's POV

Rosalie and Emmet came home on Christmas Eve. They brought some happy atmosphere that influenced me a bit. Emmet came with a bag full of presents that he brought on his shoulder. He looked like a Santa Claus wearing jeans. He even laughed like Santa with his loud voice. My mom just sighed and shook her head seeing her eldest son acting like that. Rosalie, on the other hand, looked annoyed and hit Emmet on the back of his head.

"Emmet, stop acting like that! There's no child to be entertained by doing that," Rosalie snapped while taking a seat.

"But, there will be, Rose," Emmet pleaded to her.

Suddenly the room fell silent hearing Emmet's words. I looked at him feeling confused before I turned my head to Rosalie. "OH MY GOD!" Alice squealed before any other people in the room could react. She ran to Rosalie and pulled her up before hugging her.

Mom gasped and walked to Rosalie to congratulate her after Alice. "Congratulation, Rose," my mom said hugging her and kissing her cheek. "Ohh.. a grandchild for us, Carlisle," she said excitedly to my dad.

My dad just chuckled and kissed Rosalie's cheek before pull mom to his embrace. Once I overcame the shock, I slapped Emmet's shoulder hard. "Finally, huh?" I said half-teasingly. Emmet had wanted a child for a long time, but Rosalie wanted to wait. Emmet just laughed hearing my words. "Congratulation, bro," I said hugging him.

"Thanks, bro," he said back to me.

I went to Rosalie to hug her. "Congratulation, Momma," I said half-teasingly and made her chuckled.

Jasper hit Emmet's shoulder before shaking his hand. "Congratulation, Em. Hopefully, you can grew up before the kid born," Jasper said jokingly.

"He will. Or I will make sure this is his only child," Rosalie said threatening Emmet. But, there was slight smile on her face that was indicating that she was joking.

I could see the happiness on my family's faces. It was so obvious that they really were waiting for this child. This child would be so spoiled, I was sure. Suddenly, I felt alone. Looking all of my family's faces, feeling the happiness in the air, I couldn't help but felt alone in the middle of this. It was like I was just the outsider who was watching the show. I could see and I could even feel the happiness, but somehow the happiness didn't reach me.

God, I felt pathetic.

We had dinner happily after congratulating the happy couple. My mom and dad looked really proud. They really looked happy with the news of a grandchild. Emmet had been married to Rosalie for more than three years. My parents had been waiting for a grandchild for a long time. The funny thing was I thought they didn't even look old enough to be grandparents.

After having dinner, the women decided to have women talk at the kitchen while they forced the men to leave the kitchen immediately. We, the men, decided to have drinks at the back porch. Dad had a cup of coffee while Emmet, Jasper, and I had beers.

"When exactly Rosalie will be due?" dad asked the happy father-to-be.

"The middle of July," Emmet answered grinning. He looked really happy and proud.

"Whoa, July baby. Are you really ready to be a father, Em?" Jasper asked half-teasingly.

Emmet was still smiling. "Of course. I really have been waiting for this for a while," he answered looking really sure.

"What do you want? A boy or a girl?" I asked.

"I don't really care. I'm happy for either boy or girl. As long as the baby and Rose are healthy, I'm happy with anything," my brother answered still smiling.

Suddenly, dad's phone rang. "I have to answer it. You boys just continue talking," dad said walking back to the house. He seemed to go to his study.

The moment dad was out of the hearing distance, Emmet turned to me with serious face. "What happened to your hand?" he asked curiously. It seemed like he had been holding back the question and interrogation until dad wasn't around.

I glanced at my broken hand before looking back at him. I shrugged nonchalantly. "Just a little misunderstanding with the pillar," I answered jokingly trying to get Emmet's mind away from the real problem.

Emmet frowned. "Don't lie, little brother. I know you. It must be something serious if you hit the pillar like that," he said looking really serious and concerned. I hadn't seen Emmet looking like that often. He was the joke-maker, the laugh of the family. He always made the joke when the family was trapped in the seriousness or sadness.

"Nothing, Em. It's not serious," I said trying to convince him. "So.."

"What is it, Edward?" Emmet asked again cutting my attempt to change the topic. "Is it about Bella?" he added.

I froze. I looked at my brother with my wide eyes. "Bella? What do you mean about Bella?" I asked slowly and carefully though I knew that he could have suspected something because of my expression.

Emmet rolled his eyes. "Oh, come on now, Edward. You know that I'm not that stupid. Besides, Rose is really perceptive about things like that. We've known that there's something between you and Bella. Moreover, Bella is not really good at lying. We could see her feeling clearly at Thanksgiving," Emmet said.

"What feeling are you talking about?" I asked again, still feeling unsure to what I should say about my problem to Emmet.

"Her feeling for you, of course. You do realize about that, right?" he asked suddenly.

I closed my eyes for a second before sighing. "Yeah, I know," I finally answered.

Emmet smirked. "Have you finally realized that you love her too?" he asked smugly.

I narrowed my eyes. "What do you mean?" I asked pretending to not knowing what he was talking about. I didn't like the direction of our conversation. Emmet looked smug while Jasper tried to hold back a smile. I really didn't like their expression.

"Edward, let's just face it. We all have known that Bella is special to you. You're always protective of her. Hell, I still can remember the way you punch Jacob Black for making Bella cried in High School," Emmet said smiling widely. He looked like he was proud remembering my fight with Jacob Black while I grimaced remembering all of the punishment that I had received back then.

Jacob Black had asked Bella out once in High School. He had been on the same grade as me. He had been pursuing Bella for a couple of months on our senior year. Bella had been just freshman back then. Black had been kinda popular since he had been one of the best basketball player back then. I never knew why Bella hadn't accepted him. Maybe it had something to do with me. Anyway, Black's action had become really bad and compulsive. He even had forced to kiss her one day. I had seen her crying in the parking lot one day. She told me the story between the sobs when I asked her. I looked for Black instantly after that. Once I had found him, I punched him. He punched me back, of course. We fought for a few minutes until someone called the teacher. I got detention for weeks while he had just received a week detention. My parents had even grounded me for starting the fight.

That was the only serious fight I had ever had. I wasn't a hot-headed person. I always thought before I acted. But, somehow every time it was about Bella, I just lost my head. Hence the broken hand I had right now.

"Come on, Edward. Tell me everything. We all know the basic problem here. I just don't know what exactly had got to your head for hitting the pillar like that," Emmet tried to persuade me.

"Just admit it to him, Edward," Jasper encouraged me with a smirk on his face.

I rolled my eyes. They were really something. They liked to torture me every time they got a chance. I sighed and gave up. I told Emmet about my conversation with Alice the day before. Emmet looked serious listening to my story until the part when I had hit the pillar. He whistled and chuckled hearing that. He clapped his hands before slapping my shoulder.

"I didn't know that you have it in you, little brother. I thought the only way for you to express your feeling was by playing your piano. I never thought that you would be hitting something like that," Emmet said chuckling.

I rolled my eyes again hearing his insult. But, like it or not, he was kinda right about that. Like I had said, I wasn't a hot-headed or violent person. I usually poured my feeling or energy through music or running, not hitting or throwing things like that. I really had lost my head.

"So, what will you do?" Emmet asked again.

I shrugged. "I'm planning to move to Seattle," I answered easily.

Emmet looked brightened. "Really. That's good news. It's been awhile having you around, little brother. I even had to pay people when Rose wanted to redecorate a room. If only you were around, I could just use you," Emmet said shaking his head. He looked as if he was full of regret because of that.

I hit his shoulder. "I'm not your servant. You would pay me more if you want my help," I said half-amused half-angry.

Emmet rolled his eyes. "Whatever. Anyway, you can stay with us when you arrange all of the shit you have to arrange," he offered seriously.

I smiled a little. "Thanks, Em," I said sincerely. Joking aside, I knew I could rely on him when I needed to.

The Christmas this year, there was slight sadness in the air that all members of my family must have felt. One of us couldn't celebrate Christmas together with us. Bella was always a member of this family no matter what. This year, my only hope was she was okay no matter where she was and she could come back and celebrate Christmas with us next year.

To the contrary of that, there was a happy atmosphere because of the baby news. There was another of the increasing little member of the family. Next year, there would be little person who would be spoiled rotten by every member of this family.

After Christmas, I stayed at my parents' home for almost two weeks before going to Chicago to manage all of things I needed to do for transferring my residency. Tanya wasn't happy when I told her about my decision, but she said she had known this was coming. She had been pretty sure that I would want to go back to Washington after I had decided to pursue Bella. But, she was pretty shocked when I told her about Bella being the war photographer. And she was really disturbed seeing my broken hand. But, in the end she just sighed and shook her head seeing me pack my things.

I stayed at Tanya's apartment when I settled all of the things I needed to settle. I sent all my things via mail to Emmet's house since I would stay there until I got an apartment in Seattle. There was no use to send the things to Forks. And Emmet offered a room for me to use at his house.

Besides my things, I needed to settle about my residency. My mentor in hospital wasn't happy either hearing my plan to transfer. He asked me to reconsider. He could persuade the hospital to let me take some times off because of my hand. But, my decision about going back to Washington had fixed. After I said goodbye to the hospital's staffs I knew, I left the hospital without a glance back.

After all of that finished, January had been almost gone. It was the last day of January when Tanya took me to airport for my flight home. I hugged her before kissing her cheeks. She asked me to promise to keep in touch. After promising of staying friends with her, I boarded the plane with calmed heart. It was like a chapter of my life had been finished before I needed to start another chapter. And I felt ready to start my new life in Seattle.

I started my residency at one of hospital in Seattle in the middle of February. The hospital wasn't as big as the one I had left in Chicago. But, it felt really great to start the residency. The staffs were so friendly, and a few of them even were too friendly for my liking. Emmet teased me because I got admires even before I started my residency officially. He said that it was a curse and a fortune that The Cullens would get admires every where they went. And you need to notice that Emmet included himself in that situation. The brother of mine was really too conceited.

With all of my busy activity, the pain I always felt every time I tried to sleep was subsided a little. I was always wondering about Bella. I even asked Aro constantly about that, but he didn't get any news either. Bella had been gone for too long. She was due to be back at the early of February. I was really restless every time I thought about her.

I sighed and tried to concentrate to write the report I needed to finish for today. The doctors' office had been getting quieter along with the tic-toc of the clock. It was getting late, but I still needed to finish the report.

It was fifteen minutes after nine at night when my phone suddenly rang. It was my dad. I picked it up happily before I froze after listening to my dad's words.

"Edward, there was a news from Aro about Bella.."

A/N: So, what do you think? What news will you like to read about Bella? Hope you like this chapter :)

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