Alright I will basically have the same repeated AN's For all my chapters for a reason... -will state in bottom AN-

As of April 26th 2012, this story is being looked over for spelling mistakes, missing information and for the purpose of taking notes for the future chapters, which is as of today, at Chapter 37 on hiatus due to missing info.

All Author Notes will be edited… in the sense of getting rid of non-sense information that is no longer needed.

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I glanced over to Akuma; who now was more closed off and silent than normal. I sighed, recalling what had happened just a few nights ago.

I closed the bathroom door, sliding down against it as I placed my head into my hands. I know it was rude to just leave Akuma out in the dark on something like family but… with my own memories locked away, how can I give her the answers she probably wanted?

Itachi… I stared at the floor as the name ran through my mind. I hadn't seen him in 10 years; though he would try to call me. During the first year here when he found out my original dorm number I had gone berserk and it just so happened that a fellow classmate made it worse when he woke me from my venting. I had destroyed the entire dorm; which helped me loose that dorm number and gain this dorm in which the phones do not work in.

I sat up, sighing. By now Akuma would understand to change the conversation. I opened up the door, looking over to Akuma's bed but didn't see her. When I heard movement I looked up and noticed Akuma turning around slowly to face me from the dorm window.

My eyes went wide at the scene before me. The moon in the background gave Akuma a light aura; as tears fell from her glazed eyes. The scene itself had me mixed in emotions; in which Akuma currently seemed to lack in.

"Akuma…?" I said softly, afraid that the sound would break something. My eyes went wider as I watched Akuma fall backwards. I quickly ran over, catching her before she hit the floor. My mind was racing; why was Akuma crying? Why did she suddenly pass out like that? Did I do something wrong?

I couldn't place my finger on it. It drove me crazy because I couldn't figure out what was wrong with my own girl.

I sighed as Akuma seemed to be on autopilot. She was able to be pulled from her thoughts for a few weeks, actually able to focus on school itself. Now…? It seemed like the original Akuma was back… the one that was to herself and very out of it.

I wasn't the only one to notice. Tsunade had tried to confront her yesterday over it but Akuma had simply kept walking, not even noticing Tsunade. It made us all worried but we couldn't do anything for Akuma when she was in this state.

No matter what we tried to do; it didn't take her out of her current state. I sighed again, following Akuma as we headed towards the dorms through the main streets of Konoha. We hadn't come down this path since her birthday; instead we took the regular quick path. My eyes went wide as I watched Akuma stop then turn towards the on-coming traffic.

I quickly grabbed her hood, pulling her back, making me fall to the ground as I held her close. "God damn it Akuma!" I said, looking down at her. All anger left me when I stared into her eyes. She stared at me; her eyes filled with confusion.

"Ne… `Suke I'm hungry." I blinked, before dragging Akuma into a hug. "Sasuke?" I growled softly. "Shut up and let me hug you…"

"Did something happen?" she asked. I couldn't be mad at her; not when she was so innocent and clueless to what happened. "You've been on Auto-pilot for several days…" I trailed off, not sure if I should finish.

"Ah…" she said, pulling away from me as she eyed the other people in the town that stared at her with hatred. "Can we get food? I'm hungry!" I smiled, pulling her up with me.

†Break†

"So… what happened?" I asked, staring at her as she ate her ramen, smiling away with her eyes closed. She stopped eating then appeared to be thinking. "Well… I remember coming back from the bar then I asked you something."

"You asked me about my family." I stated to her. She nodded "Yeah that's right then you went into the bathroom. Then…" she froze. I watched the bowl of ramen fall from her lap, scaring Foxy away. "Akuma?" I watched Akuma shake slightly as her hands came up to her head.

I quickly put down my omusubi and bolted over to her, wrapping my arms around her. "Akuma, what's wrong?" I could feel her shaking uncontrollably. "Then…. Then I remembered something…" she said finally.

She looked up at me, eyes filled with tears. "I had asked jiji if I had a mother or a father… when he said 'did' I snapped, feeling abandoned by my own parents… then he…" she quickly wiped the tears from her eyes.

"He then told me… that they died for me to live…" I stared at her in shock. Could that have been the reason behind her trauma? Tsunade did say it was related to someone close to her. I held Akuma closer; trying to comfort her.

I didn't know what to do… this was the first time Akuma had broke down due to memories. The break down she had at the ramen restaurant subsided as fast as it came. We didn't have to say anything, nor do anything to stop her from the break down.

I stared down and noticed Akuma fast asleep. "Hm…. Looks like crying knocked her out…" I lifted her up then walked over to my bed. I placed her down then covered her up, kissing her forehead before I left the dorm.

As I opened the door to go outside of the dorm building, I saw Tsunade getting ready to enter. "Where's Akuma?" she asked me. "Asleep… I was just about to come to you to talk." She looked around then nodded, turning back around.

"We'll talk as we walk." I nodded to her, walking beside her.

"The reason why Akuma was on auto-pilot was because of a memory hitting her." Tsunade stared over to me. "It was the one where Hiruzen told Akuma that she had parents… that died for her to live." Tsunade sighed then looked away. "That is a memory she may not fully remember. She wasn't too old when it happened."

I stared at Tsunade confused. So this wasn't what caused Akuma her trauma? "How old was she when her parents died then?" I asked. She looked over to me, frowning. "Not that old at all… she was kidnapped from the hospital, sending her parents into a mad hunt before they died protecting her. I can't say I know what happened; only Hiruzen knew. He was there for a lot of what had happened that night."

I frowned, looking down at the ground. "So that wouldn't be something that would cause her trauma then… I see." I stated, running a hand through my hair. "Why isn't Akuma allowed to know though?" I asked, looking up to Tsunade.

"It's not that she isn't allowed to know…" I stopped walking, staring at Tsunade, who soon stopped walking. "I was forbidden to tell her anything."

"What?" I stared at Tsunade, who glanced over her shoulder at me. "I'm not allowed to speak a word of what happened to her… nor anyone else. However…" she turned around, crossing her arms. "It doesn't stop me from sliding out things that are close to those memories."

"What do you mean?" I asked, confused. Tsunade sighed "I want Akuma to remember everything but I'm not allowed to speak a word… instead I've been throwing things at her that are related to what happened to her." I frowned; trying to figure out what was some of the thing Tsunade did that were possibly related to Akuma's memories.

"I have another question…" I said, staring at Tsunade. She nodded, letting me know I could ask it. "The reason why everyone stares at Akuma with hatred… and calls her things…?" Tsunade sighed, turning to the side. "That is related to both her parents death… and what happened to her that caused her the trauma." I sighed, but nodded in understanding.

"If Akuma remembers… I will be allowed to speak. However until then… I can only slide tiny lures to Akuma and pretend it is just normal gestures." I crossed my arms, closing my eyes. "Was the choice of medicine for Akuma… one of those lures?"

"Yes… it's not the taste, but the scent or just speaking the name that would have a possibility of setting her off." I shook my head. "I stated the product names but it had no effect on her."

"Then I shall keep tossing out lures and pray one of them will help her." I looked over to Tsunade, eyes open again. "If you wanted her to remember… why didn't you like her going into the slaughter room on Halloween?"

"Think about it… what happened when she looked at the blood and the bodies and all that?" I stared at her, trying to remember Akuma's actions. "I see… so you are trying to lead her into remembering things through the pleasant memories, rather than discreet ones that can send her into a coma." She nodded.

"I had taken her to a graveyard one year saying we are visiting people close to her… she was in a comatose state for almost a year, with even less memories than before." I frowned. "I remember that… when she came back she was twitchy around everyone."

"Yes… even Jiraiya, Hiruzen and myself couldn't stay near her. She locked herself in the dorms here; taking care of herself without our help."

"So Akuma did take care of herself…" Tsunade nodded, before sighing. "… a lot of her life was spent in hospitals though… but she didn't let them take care of her that much."

"Did she ever have a home?" I asked, causing Tsunade to freeze. "No… but yes… it wasn't her home at all but the people who owned it always welcomed her with open arms. Her home though… has always been in the dorms."

"I see… so that's the reason why she knows the dorms so well…" she nodded again before turning her back to me. "Each time she sustains an injury to the head… or suffers the trauma side of the memories… she forgets more and more and it gets harder to make her remember. She once was at a point of where she didn't even know her own name…"

I stared at Tsunade in shock. "It took several years to get her back up but then she started high school and it has been hell trying to keep her memories even." I nodded, remembering the entire head trauma's she had received just in the past month.

"I'll become a better body guard and protect her with all my might." I stated, turning away to head back to the dorms.

Akuma's Pov

I sat up, rubbing my eyes. I was in Sasuke's bed… yet again. It felt like it was becoming a ritual for me to wake up in his bed. I know I didn't mind it though; why? I actually don't know… I guess the scent of his bed keeps my nerves so calm. Creepy right?

I looked around the room but didn't see any sign of Sasuke. I sighed then stared down at the sheets on Sasuke's bed.

"You are the one causing Sasuke-kun this pain and suffering!" I gripped onto the arm around my neck. "What the hell are you talking about?" I growled out through gritted teeth. "It's because of you that Sasuke-kun can't remember anything! My parents told me so." I glanced over to Sasuke as he attempted to get back up, holding his forehead at the same time, trying to stop the bleeding.

"You say that to me yet… who is the ones who hit him in the head? Blunt force trauma can be bad you know." I felt the grip around my neck tighten. "Listen Uzumaki… no one likes you so drop the 'I'm cool' act. I've put up with you for 10 years… knowing that it was your fault that he couldn't remember anything, not even his love for me."

I stared at Sakura through the corner of my eye. I had to call bullshit on this one… Sasuke has always hated Sakura… even all the boys that went to the grade school remember this. I couldn't say anything though; Sakura had the upper hand.

"Let's end this so Sasuke-kun can start to remember…"

I looked up at the door, after hearing it open. I sighed with relief when I saw Sasuke walk in. "Oh good you are awake… how long have you been up for?" I rubbed my chin then shrugged. "I zoned out… so uh yeah I don't know." I laughed, scratching the back of my head.

"Move over." I stared at Sasuke, confused, but nodded. I slid against the wall then blushed when I noticed Sasuke getting into the bed. He grabbed the sheets then covered himself before wrapping his arms around me. "Sas…uke?"

"Hn… its fine Akuma; go back to sleep." He stated, pulling his pillow down for us both to be able to lay on it. "Night Ku-chan." He mumbled, kissing my forehead before he drifted off into a sleep. I stared at Sasuke; smiling at how peaceful he looked when asleep.

I felt Sasuke pull me closer to him, causing me to 'Eep'. I found myself not even an inch away from his face. I smiled softly, pushing my lips against his. I felt his lips curve into a smile before I pulled my head away, moving it to cuddle against his chest.

I wasn't use to this love thing… but I could get the hang of it… maybe.

-AN-

Alright this is a repeated AN for all the chapters I'm updating (Sadly no NHS because I was too busy to type out the chapters for a while... these were already typed out.) I waited to update all my stories until today (Though most hit there mark around last week or a few days ago) because I'm not going to be around a PC for a good couple of days. I hope you guys do Understand that... and I will look into updating once I am back again, regardless of chapters being at the hit mark or not.

Today (its 319AM) is also my B-day and I will be on the road for a few hours. My only internet for the next few days will be my phone... in which now won't even go into fanfic's account settings when I log in. It crashes my browser each time I try. So the word from me will be at a minimal for almost a week. I, once again, hope you guys understand and I would like to say sorry for this also.

I went through this entire chapter, taking notes and fixing spelling mistakes caused by my relative's Laptop. I will continue to work through the chapters to HSF until the last posted chapter that way I can obtain all the needed information.

-Ja ne