A/n: Chapter skips around a bit. Sorry 'bout that.
Bleeding Loner-Chapter 14
"She's gone" my voice is barely above a whisper as I tell them the answer to their question 'Where's Miley?' of course they don't stop there "Where's she gone to?" Lily is already letting the tears seep out of her eyes as Joe asks the firm question "I don't know" a single sob manages to escape and I flick away a stray tear.
"Well, have you tried calling her?" Jackson pipes in, his voice shaky "Yes" I avert my gaze from the ground to look over at Jackson, his face is red and splotchy, and his eyes match. "Did she answer?" his voice goes weak, I nod my head "No" he curls his hands into fists and his whole body starts to shake "Well try again!" my head sinks again "I tried many times to contact her Jackson, I figure we should just give her some time" I see a tear leak from the corner of his eye "How could she leave like that? Without even saying goodbye?" I pull the purple paper out of my back pocket and hand it to him. His eyes skim over the letter and he falls down on his knees "She's gone" I let my body fall into the chair below me as I let the quiet sobs escape.
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"Miley! What are you doing here?" I pucker my lips "Um, I know this is kind of short notice, and I probably should have called first, but is it alright if I stay here for a while?" she smiles, showing off her perfectly white teeth "Of course Miles, you know I'm always here for you" I nod my head "Thanks aunt Daisy" She moves out of the way of the door and I walk into the living room "You know where the guest room is Miles, you can go on up and settle in" I nod my head and walk down the long hallway until I come to the fourth door on the right wall.
I slip into the room, same as always. The walls are a caramel brown looking color, with black linings around the window and the door frame. All the furniture, the comforter and the shades for the window are a reddish pink. I take a whiff of the air and let my bags thump against the wood floor beneath me.
I've visited Aunt Daisy many times; Daisy is Aunt Dolly's sister, just not quite as goofy as Dolly. Her house has always comforted me, sometimes when we would come down to visit the family dad would always stay with my Granny but I always insisted on staying with Aunt Daisy because her house made me feel at home.
I yell back into the house that I'm going to take a nap, "Okay! Come get me when you wake and we can do something!" also another thing about Aunt Daisy I like, she loves doing things, it's like she can't stand still, kind of like me. "Okay" I plop down on the bed, pulling my phone out of my back pocket, 56 missed calls. I hit the view button: Nick. A low sigh escapes from my dry lips as I turn my phone off, of course this is going to be hard, I am leaving the ones I love back in California. But then I look on the easy side, leaving all the memories.
I throw my phone onto the top of my bags and snuggle underneath the covers, and then sleep overtook me.
The reflection is terrible; gray eyes, pale skin and white lips. The person squints her eyes and then I realize… it's me. I force a smile to form upon my lips, only making my mirror image worse. My hair is ruffled, like it hasn't had a good brushing in months. There are no signs of make-up on my poorly took care of face.
I move my gaze down, focusing on my attire. Black sweat pants and a white t-shirt. I wipe at my forehead, beads of sweat are rolling down my face, yet my skin is cool. I catch a glimpse of the skin before me, just as pale as my face, almost see through, or so it seems that way. My wrist is small, I figure my long slender fingers could wrap around it almost two times.
From the corner of my eye I see a glimpse of something shiny, something I've seen before. Without thinking my hand reaches out and grabs the silver object. I hold the small thing close to my face, examining it. It warms my skin, my eyes shut. I feel a prick and then liquid, my eyes reopen. A reddish substance runs down my index finger, tickling my palm and then eventually fading away leaving a trail of crimson afterwards. The color fascinates me, I beg myself for more. I pull the object up to top of my left arm, sliding the corner all the way down to the bend of my arm.
Like the beginning of a tree being chopped down, my arm slices open. The amazing looking liquid gushes, pouring out both sides of the slice. Beautiful. I feel my pulse from the tips of my fingers, it slows. My body drops to the ground, but I still can't get enough. The substance continues to flow, not seeming to want to stop.
The battle to keep my eyes open becomes a battle. Soon enough, the other side wins, my eyes close shut and my heart stops.
I jerk up into a sitting position, beads of sweat rolling down my face, I feel the urge to scream but I know Aunt Daisy will get worried.
My mind wonders, what's this dream mean? Does it mean that cutting is a part of me now and I have to have it, because I don't have to have it! I'm done with that, it was horrible part of my life and I'm never going back.
I wipe the sweat off my face with the sleeve of my shirt and get out of the bed. I walk into the living room "Hey Aunt Daisy, I'm up" she turns around, smiling "Great! Now we can get out!" her eyes are a bright blue, you'd almost think she has contacts "So, I was thinking while you were asleep that we could go see a movie, then maybe go to the mall?" I nod my head "Sounds good"
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"That movie was hilarious" the laughing rolls of our tongues, both of us clutching our sides "I know" we finally reach the parking lot, the sky is pitch black "Maybe we won't make it to the mall today Miles" I nod "Okay, let's just head home, I'm kind of tired anyways" truth is, I'm exhausted and I was going to ask Aunt Daisy if we could just skip the second part of the trip anyways.
"Do you want anything to eat Miles?" Daisy unlocks the door and we both go into the house "I already had 3 bags of popcorn and 2 pops, I think I'm good" she laughs "I guess you're right, I just didn't want you to go to bed hungry" I smile "Trust me, if I was hungry I would tell you" she smiles back "Okay I'm trusting you on that" a small laugh erupts from my mouth "Okay, Goodnight Aunt Daisy" she gives me a hug and kisses my forehead "Goodnight, I'll see you in the morning" "You think we could have bacon and eggs in the morning?" she laughs "Of course".
I pick my phone off of my bags and turn it back on. My body flops down on the mattress and soon enough the foam forms to my body '1 new text message' I click the open button…
To: Miley
From: Cassie
Hey Miles I tried calling but no one answered. My grandma finally came and I'm living with her now. Call me soon! =).
A long gush of air breaks out from my mouth, I had forgotten all about Cassie moving to Malibu, and now I'm in Tennessee. Do I call her? Would I be able to handle it… or would I just cave?
Another message pops up on the screen…
To: Miley
From: Nick
You obviously won't answer you're phone, so I'm trying a different route. Please, Please, Please, either e-mail or text or call me back. I just need to know that you're safe. I love you.
I gulp and start typing, I can handle this.
To: Nick
From: Miley
I'm fine.
I click the send button and Cassie's message pops back up, I start typing again.
To: Cassie
From: Miley
Cass! I miss you! I've moved to another state but hopefully we can meet up some time.
More than likely I'm not going to meet up with her that will only make me want to go back to California and like I've said many times before, I can't handle the memories.
I close my eyes, praying that I can actually rest instead of having a repeat of my last sleep.
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I stare down at the screen, she's alright. "Guys she's okay" everyone decided to crash at our house tonight because we are all so devastated "How do you know?" I pointed down to my cell phone "She sent back a text message" everyone let out a breath, as long as she is safe and happy I should be happy to right?
Jackson jerks my phone from my hands and stares at it with wide eyes "But how do we know its Miley, oh my god what if Miles got kidnapped!" I shake my head vigorously "Stop it Jackson! Just don't think like that. She's alright, I'm sure of it"
I crawl back on to the top of my bed and curl up under the covers. Jackson throws my phone back to me and returns to his sleeping position, even though he probably won't sleep. Poor guy, he's really tore up. Who knew that a brother would be that worried about their sister?
I scroll down my address book, staring at her name, not daring to hit the call button, knowing that I'll only get hit by another gush of pain when her answering machine pick up.
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(Next Day)
I pull my body up in the bed, running my fingers through my tangled hair. I grab my cell phone from the nightstand beside the bed and flip open the cover, '1 new message' I open the text message and read it thoroughly.
To: Miley
From: Cassie
Aw =( I was hoping to get to see you Milezz! I even got you a present; maybe sometime I could bring it to you, or just mail it. Whatever, I just want you to get it; I really think you'll like it! I'm starting school next week! I'm so excited; this is like the first time I've been to public school in like ever! Are you doing OK? You didn't… you know… go back did you? Is that why you moved? Ahh shucks, grammy's calling me to go back-to-school shopping. ILY Milezz! Luv, Cass.
I tilt my head to the side, and start typing the letters.
To: Cassie
From: Miley
Thanks for the present Cass, maybe one day I'll see you again. I'm not really sure what's going to happen at this point though. I'm excited for you, getting to go to public school and all, I know how badly you've been wanting to go… just remember what I told you… it's not THAT great! Don't worry Cass, I'm fine. I just needed to get away, escape that crazy lil town where everyone … knew. Here's my screen name so you don't have to text me all the time, if you want to write something long: Milezzbabyy244 Love, Milezz.
I click the send button and flip my phone shut. I climb out of the tall bed and walk down the hallway to the kitchen.
"Morning Smiley! I made bacon and eggs, just like you asked for. Give me a second and I'll put it on the table. "Thanks Aunt Daisy" I sit down in the kitchen chair and watch as she flicks the eggs out onto a plate.
She hands me a plate and I automatically scoop out a generous amount onto my plate, but leaving enough for Aunt Daisy. I pick up three pieces of bacon and start chewing on the first piece. Aunt Daisy takes a seat in front of me and puts enough food on her plate for her. "So, what are you doing today Miley?" I shrug my shoulders "I was thinking about calling up Leslie, maybe hang out with her for a while. Since it's been such a long time since I've seen her. Unless you had something planned, then I'll do that tomorrow or some other time" she shakes her head "No, I didn't have anything planned. I'll probably hit the mall while you catch up with you're friends. I have a spare key I'll give you just in case you get home earlier than I do" I nod my head and scoop up a bit of eggs with my fork.
"Miley, I hope you don't mind my asking, but how long do you think you're going to be here?" I gulp down the eggs "Well, I mean, I'm not really sure, if you need me to leave that's okay, I'll go stay with Aunt Dolly or somebody" she cuts me off "No, Miles, I was just curious about you're sudden trip down here. I don't mind you staying here, I love it actually, it's fun to not be the only one in this house" I sigh "I was having a rough time at home." She nods.
I pick my plate up from the table when I'm done "Do you want me to do the dishes?" she picks up her own plate and shoves it in the sink "Nah, it's not really that hard to rinse the plates off and stick them in the dish washer, I'll be good. You should go call you're friend, so you guys can spend the rest of the day together." I smile "Alright Aunt Daisy"
I run down to my room, searching my address book for Leslie. I hit the send button and hold the phone up to my ear "Hello?" her voice sounds excited "Hey Leslie" I hear a loud gasp coming from the other end of the phone "MILEY! Oh my gosh Miley! Tori, it's Miley!" I hear a clicking sound and then Tori's voice fills my ears "Miley! I haven't heard from you in such a long time!" I stifle a giant squeal and reply "Tori! Leslie! I've missed you guys!" I can hear them jumping up and down, probably trying to conceal themselves but realizing that they are failing "Some guy called us up a few weeks ago and asked us to come to a party in California but we couldn't manage to talk our parents into letting us come, sorry" I shrug my shoulders "It's alright, it wasn't anything special" okay maybe I'm smudging just a bit but I don't want them to feel bad "So, back to the reason I'm calling" they stay quiet so I continue "I'm back in Tennessee and" they cut me off, screaming to high heavens and jumping around making louder stomps than before, after everything gets more calm I keep going "And I thought that we could get together today and hang out?" Leslie screams into the phone "Of course! Meet us at the mall in like 10 minutes!" I smile "What store?" they debate it out loud, trying to deicide which store they wanted to visit the most "Urban Outfitters! Come quick!" they holler out a bye and I shut my phone.
"Aunt Daisy, do you think you could take me to the mall?" she nods her head "Of course!" we walk outside and hop into her white SUV. I can feel my hands shaking, anxious to see my old friends.
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I run my fingers through my hair, trying to keep a smile on my face "Tonight you guys have a charity concert for diabetes, of course, and tomorrow night you have a move premiere to attend. When other things come up I'll tell you boys, the limo will arrive tonight around 6 so be ready." My dad/manager tells us. Tonight is our first concert for a charity in months; personally I love these concerts, just knowing that I'm doing good for other people. But I have a feeling tonight just isn't going to be a good night.
(At the concert)
"Give it up for the Jones Brothers!"
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"Miley!" my name echoes through the large area filled with a numerous amount of people, I wave in Leslie and Tori's direction, picking up my walking pace. They both engulf me in a hug, I take in Leslie's strong vanilla scent, it's soothes me. "Oh my goodness Miley Stewart I cannot believe you are in Tennessee, how long are you back for?" I shrug my shoulders "I'm thinking about moving back" the words slip out of my mouth easily, but the pain rips through my insides. Moving back to Tennessee, away from Nick.
"Yay! This is awesome! Com'n guys let's get to shoppin'" Tori drags us into the store and we start rummaging through the racks of clothing.
Once we've spent a little over an hour in Urban Outfitters we check-out and decide on other things to do.
"I'm hungry" Leslie groans "Tori, you're always hungry!" Tori shrugs her shoulders while Leslie rolls her eyes "I say we go get some ice cream, and then head back to Leslie's house and watch bunches of movies!" Tori hasn't changed, and Leslie is right, Tori is always hungry "Alright Tori, let's go get you some ice cream" I link my arms with Leslie and Tori's and we make our way to PinkBerry.
Tori called her mom before we ordered our ice cream, telling her to come and get us so we wouldn't have to walk home.
"So Miles are you seeing anyone?" I inhale a spoonful of ice cream in, a picture of Nick flashes into my mind and I feel my heart break an inch farther "Um, No" my voice is squeaky "Well, you know that boy James from school?" I nod my head, how could I forget, he followed me around 24/7 claiming his undying love for me "Well I was talking to him the other day and he said that he still has a crush on you" and apparently, his love has yet to die.
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"Give it up for the Jones Brothers!" My brothers and I walk out onto the stage, waving in different directions. I force a smile to spread across my face, not allowing my teeth to show.
"Hey everybody, we want to thank everyone for coming out and supporting this cause!" Joe yells into the microphone, smiling out at the crowd. Everyone burst out into screams "The first song we're going to sing is called Burnin' Up!" Once again the crowd erupts and our band starts to play. Soon after I start strumming on my guitar and Joe starts to sing into the microphone.
Everyone claps as we walk off the stage; a frown mounts itself on my face once I get out of the view of the audience. She's safe, she's safe, she's safe. How come this isn't helping?
"Hey guys" I glance over and see an old friend from New Jersey, Stephanie. "Hey Stephanie" she walks over and gives each of us a hug "What are you doing here?" Joe asks "I heard the Jonas Brothers were playing at this charity concert and I missed my buddies so I came to watch them" she smiles and walks over to my side, whispering in my ear "And I need to talk to you" my face twists up in confusion, the frown still there. "Umm, okay" my brothers give me odd looks and I shrug my shoulders as Stephanie pulls me over to our dressing room.
A/n: OK so today school got called off for snow. =). So, I'm at home bored, until later when me my cousin and a friend are going to see Twilight!! But until then I'll probably be writing on this story (Chapter 15 isn't done yet, but it should be today) SO review so I can update sooner!!!! Peace-Love-Jonas-Always.