Ben had been gone a couple of weeks now and that had somehow gotten Adrian, Grace and Amy closer together. This was the second night they were having dinner together,that week. They'd spoken about everything they could think of, when Grace suddenly said," I miss Ben."
"Me too. I still feel guilty." Adrian said, poking around the food on her plate with her fork.
"What happened wasn't your fault Adrian. What happened to Ben was an accident." Grace said.
"He left because of that accident." Adrian said.
"He left because he needed space, he need to start over." Grace said. She looked over at Amy, who hadn't said anything. "How are you doing with everything Amy?"
Amy didn't say anything for a second. "I feel incomplete without him."
Grace and Adrian looked at each other, neither of them knew what to say.
"How so?" Adrian asked.
"Before Ben's accident, I felt like I had everything I could ever need. I had a beautiful son, I was dating his father and we were a happy family. But after his accident, after I spent time with him, it feels like nothing is enough anymore." Amy said, a lump forming in her throat.
"Have you told Ricky about how you feel?" Grace asked.
"No." Amy said, looking up at Grace.
"You should Amy, he deserves to know." Grace asked.
"Tell him what? That I feel incomplete without my ex- boyfriend who forgot me?" Amy said, getting irritated.
"Yes." Adrian said.
"Why should I tell him? It's isn't going to help anything." Amy said.
"Because you're marrying him Amy. It's a huge commitment and he deserves to know." Adrian said.
"By the time we get married, these feeling would've been long gone. This is just me dealing with Ben leaving." Amy said defensively.
"These feelings aren't just going to go away Amy, you said you feel incomplete without him." Grace said.
Amy didn't say anything, she just stared at the candle in front of her.
"Amy, I know it's going to be hard but you and Ricky really have to deal with this." Grace said.
"What good is that going to do? We'll break up." Amy said.
"That's better than marrying someone you don't love." Grace said.
"I love Ricky." Amy said, trying to convince herself more than Adrian and Grace.
"You love him but you're not in love with him." Adrian said.
"What difference does that make?" Amy said, tears forming in her eyes.
"All the difference in the world! You shouldn't marry someone you aren't in love with Amy." Adrian said.
"Adrian's right, I know you and Ricky felt that you had to try being together for John but you don't need to spend your life feeling incomplete." Grace said.
"So what should I do?" Amy asked.
"Talk to Ricky, tell him how you feel. It wont be easy but it'll be for the best." Grace said.
"What do I do after that? Ricky and I would've broken up, we wont be a family." Amy said.
"You're always going to be a family. John's better off with two happy parents who are friends, than having two parents who are unhappy." Grace said.
"We could be happy." Amy said.
"Loving each other, won't be enough. It's going to fall short someday Amy." Adrian said.
Amy knew she had to speak to Ricky, whether she wanted to or not. It wasn't just Ben leaving, Ricky and she hadn't been in love for a long time ; it just took Ben leaving for her to realize that. She and Ricky had been holding onto the thought of being together for John but how many nights were they going to keep fighting to stay together when all both of them wanted was to leave.