Something Else To Reconsider
Written by Karinda Stellare Yosheru
Chapter 12. His aura begins to suffer.
Sakura sat at the edge of a rock face, and looked down to the forest covered ground below. His words had cut deep into her, and the pain that she felt was unbearable. Sure, she had been yelled and screamed at before, but this... This was different.
She breathed in, looked up at the sky, then back to the bottom of the face. She was comtemplating on taking her life.
'I have had enough.... Syaoran's right... I did kill Zezzabellina... It was me who brought the force to Gemstar... Not him, he's totally innocent... I'm the murderer...'
She took a couple of steps back, for a small run up, closed her eyes and began to run. She jumped off the face, when something latched onto her shirt. She heard the sound of someone skidding along the dirt.
"I am not going to let you kill yerself!"
Sakura looked up, and there was the dragon, Kieba, with a firm grip on her shirt. She dragged her back up onto solid ground and sighed.
"Don't ever do that again.." She softly scolded. "You almost gave me a heart attack."
"You should have let me die... You all wouldn't have to worry about me anymore."
Kieba sighed. Syaoran obviously had already vented out all of his anger on the girl. She noticed the gash on Sakura's shoulder. She frowned, but didn't say a word.
"Why die though? Just because something goes wrong, doesn't mean you go and throw yourself off a cliff."
"Everything's gone wrong..." Sakura murmured, looking to the ground. Kieba raised a brow.
"Like?"
She watched the young girl sigh and rest her head in her hands.
"I have got nothing else to live for... I have no friends, the only friend I had was Zezzabellina.. And now she's dead, just like the rest!"
Kieba sighed. She looked slightly hurt.
"You got me." She said. Sakura slightly looked up and gave a weak smile.
"Thank you, Kieba."
The dragon sat down on the ground beside her, and placed a claw on her shoulder.
"Now... If you wish... Tell me everything."
Sakura shivered. She wanted to let everything out, but what would Kieba think of it? Would she freak out, cast her aside? Kieba looked down with calm and content eyes. She was willing to hear her story. Sakura swallowed a lump in her throat. It was a chance she had to take. It all came out in one, chocked sentence.
"I am the only one left out of my family... The force killed them, to torture me... God, Kieba, I miss them so much... It killed my friends, everyone I knew and held dear to me...."
Sitting away from their view, behind a couple of small trees, was Syaoran, listening into their conversation. Something tightened around his heart. He could feel her suffering.
'She has lost everything.... Oh, FUCK! Syaoran you fucking fool... She's been through so much pain...'
His mind hissed."You wanna do me a favour, shut up." Syaoran whispered to himself. His mind thought differently. Still, he didn't know why, but he felt sorry for her. He gave a final look over at the girl and sighed before turning around and walking away. He couldn't feel it through his own emotional pain, but a part of his soul cried out for the first time in his life. It was crying out for her.
Kieba's ear fins pricked up while she listened to the distraught girl. She felt Syaoran near. A small smiled appeared on her face. She knew that he had followed her.
'I wish that boy would stop hurting himself like that... The fool... If only he really knew.'
She turned her attention back to Sakura, who had stopped talking some five minutes ago. All she was doing now was crying.
It had been a long time since she had properly cried, to get the pain out of her body. Kieba mentally sighed. It would take a lot more than crying to bring her to peace.
"Hey, hey, hey..." Kieba whispered, taking the shivering girl into a hug. "It'll be okay. You got me, and you know that Zezza will still be along side us, even in death."
She stopped, and frowned slightly. "And it is not your fault that she died, so stop thinking that."
Sakura gasped and drew back from the dragon. She was confused.
"You can read my thoughts?" She asked, panic rising in her voice.
"I will not lie to you, Sakura..." Kieba answered, standing on her feet. "But, yes, I can. Only the thoughts that are bothering you the most. I could sense that you thought that it was your fault that Zez died. You know as well as I do, that it is not true."
Suddenly Sakura began to relax. She knew she could trust Kieba.
"That is not what Syaoran thinks...." She sighed. The dragon began laughing madly, and the girl screwed up her face.
"Oh, screw what that boy thinks!" Kieba laughed, tears glistening in her eyes. She then became serious. "Believe in what you think is true, not on what other's may think. You know you'll be right. M'kays?"
Sakura nodded, taking in Kieba's advice.
"Where is he now?" She asked, getting off the ground, brushing at her skirt. Kieba raised a brow.
"Heh... With Reili. The rest of the class has headed off home, HA, the fools are walkin'. Hehehehe... We are the only one's left here in the forest..." She began laughing, at the thoughts of a bunch of brain-less students walking towards their home town, all covered in dirt and shit from the march.
"Wells, me dear." Kieba laughed, walking up beside the girl. She gestured to her back.
"We had better get to you with the rest of us. We'll be right here in the forest for now. Jump on, and we'll get that wound on your arm checked."
Reluctantly, Sakura got on the dragon's back, and together they trotted towards their camp base, where, unknown to them, that they would be staying there for more than one night.
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