CHAPTER 14 – BACK TO HELL
"Ok that was sappy but come on. Let's go back to hell!" Liam said.
We bribed people to get us into Russia and from there made our way back to the explosion site. When we got there I finally saw the damage I had caused, and felt the guilt again. I saw bodies of my friends but also my captors. A few dismembered bodies that couldn't be identified and a whole lot of charred broken building lying in a heap of its own trash.
"Come on, we should split up and look around." Liam said. I nodded and started heading further into what was once a building. I had been walking for about five minutes when I saw a safe looking box that had survived the explosion, I wonder if whatever it contains survived undamaged as well? I go to open the box when I heard the familiar click of a gun being loaded.
"Повернитесь медленно (Turn around slowly)" A Russian man said from behind me, I comply and turn around to face him. I instantly recognise the man, he is the man Liam and I have been looking for.
"Danil I-"I begin to say but he interrupted me.
"Don't! You know the kids of the red room weren't the only ones forced to be there. I feel horrible for what I've done but they had my wife and child. Look around you Varya, do you see what you've done. You killed a lot of people, none were innocent no one here is, but they didn't deserve to be blown up! I always disagreed with what was done to you but I understood the risk, and by the fact that you came back I'd say you do now too." Danil says shocking me, another new emotion. He switched to English speaking but I don't know why.
"Yes I do, so please help me, bury them again, if for nothing else but your own safety." I beg, I've never begged for anything before but now I'm desperate
"Varya, if you can truly feel now then look around, you did this. My friends were in there as were yours. Now do you see what you've done?" Danil says. I turn and look around I notice the bodies again but this time I notice the things around them, a child's, around six, body was in two, but slightly more importantly she was under a broken table obviously hiding and holding onto a very ruined burned and broken stuffed bear. I could see the scene playing out in my head. 'The guards found out she had the bear so she hid and held onto it for dear life. Then came the explosion and the fire and the smoke. She couldn't escape so she hugged her teddy closer.' I fall to my knees, I cry for the second time today and again in my head are the words 'what have I done?' over and over again.
"I'll help. Come with me, anyone who was out at the explosion all went to the same lab not far from here, they were the people forced to be there and forced to torture all of you, we need to get there." Danil says. I stay sobbing for another moment before I drag myself up. Apparently Liam had heard everything because he was standing beside Danil. The three of us went to the lab. So we went there, when we got there Danil took us to a medical room where he told me to sit on the metal table which I did. He then went to speak to a few other people who were watching me and Liam closely. They knew what we were capable of.
"You had no choice you know." Liam says suddenly.
"What?" I ask confused.
"The room getting blown up, there was no other way to stop them." He says.
"Liam there is always another way, someone once told me a very long time ago that killing someone because they are bad makes you just as bad. There is never a reason good enough to justify killing. I don't kill you know that no matter what happens I flat out refuse to, when I blew that building up I became as bad as the people in it, because after all they inflict pain and death. Well so does the explosion I set off." I explain thinking of the conversation with Hill when I was eight.
"They tortured people V!" Liam says in a whisper yell.
"And being on fire doesn't, dying of smoke inhalation doesn't, being blown to pieces doesn't. It's all a form of torture and caused a lot of pain, I caused a lot of pain. I'm dangerous normally, but now with emotions I can't control myself and I can't control what they did to me. Not that I could before but it's channelled through emotion, so it almost just doesn't work normally until Loki went messing about and making me fly things around a room." I say.
"Alright, lay down, we are starting the procedure." Danil says. I nod and lay down. They inject some sort of liquid in me that I guess is a sedative because then I fall unconscious.
(Liam's POV)
"I guess we should tell you Liam, we aren't burying her emotions." Danil says to me.
"What the hell are you doing to her then?" I say almost yelling suddenly furious that V and I were stupid enough to follow Danil here.
"The only reason she did what she did was because of how she was raised, we let her keep her emotions but take away her memories, and she will remember growing up with her parents and their band of superheroes and SHIELD. We'll incorporate everyone she knows in some fashion so that no one is forgotten. She'll have grown up well, it's all we can do for her after ruining her child hood. Her emotions won't be as intense so her power should be controllable, having remembered having it all her life she will be able to control it because she will know how, you'll take her back to America and her parents. She'll go to high school and grow up normally so that the world's deadliest weapon isn't so deadly." Danil explains.
"You can't do this it's not fair on her, she'll be a totally different person remember things and jokes that never occurred or happened and people she never met." I yell now outraged.
"YES AND SHE NEVER GOT BEATEN WHEN SHE DISOBEYED OR TAKEN THROUGH ENDLESS TRAINING SHE GIT TOYS AND CANDY AND BIRTHDAYS, SHE NEVER KILLED ANYONE TO SAVE HER'S OR HELENA'S LIFE!" Danil screamed. "She grew up happy and loved, how is that not fair, it might not be true but she will be happy. She'll have the life she always should've had." Danil says. "I always wished I could change the past undo everything I did to all the room kids. But I can't, this however I can do." He says.
I let him do it, because he's right.
"It's done. We have a plane ready for you to take her back, good luck Liam, and I am sorry." Danil says, he then leaves the room, leaving someone else with us to take us to the plane.
"She shouldn't wake up for 24 to 48 hours so she won't wake up on the way there." The guard says. The rest of the walk is in silence as I carry Varya bridal style.
During the plane ride over I keep checking that Varya's breathing and her heart is beating because I don't know what they did but her face seems calm and peaceful so whatever they did was big. We finally get to America as soon as V and I are off the plane they leave again. I get Varya's phone out and call Helena. After two rings she answers.
"Varya, is it you where are you?" She says upon answering the phone.
"It's me Hel." I say.
"Liam, aren't you dead?" she asks.
"No, does it sound like I'm dead Hel?" I ask her sarcastically.
"No, but why are you calling on Varya's phone or calling at all? Wait Varya's phone where is she?" she asks.
"Helena, something's happened. You and her parents should get over here, I should explain in person but what you need to know now is that Varya has her emotions, she's unconscious and needs medical attention, and I'll explain what happened when you get here." I say hating myself for sounding so panicked, but I am panicked.
"Ok, where are you?" she asks.
"The airport, we are outside the fence out the back of the airport." I say.
"Why are you at the airport?" she asks dreading the answer I know she knows will come.
"Why do you think? Varya decided on a side trip to Russia." I say before hanging up.
"Well Varya, help is on the way and I can meet your parents! Just hang in there."
OMG I am soooo sorry this took so long. My internet wasn't working and I couldn't update. Here's four chapters I hope makes up for it!