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A Time Long Ago
Chapter Fourteen: Luck
My lungs are so heavy, they feel like I haven't taken a full breath in years. Chichi and I have been walking for the longest time. No water no food, only hope. How large is this new Namek anyways!?
"Fuck" I curse at this rate we won't find anyone for days and by then we might be dead!! Chichi grabs my arm "Bulma we'll find someone, don't worry we made it too far to go back" nodding we continue walking in silence, talking takes up energy and right now neither chichi or I have that.
The sun is so hot and completely draining us of anything that our body could use. Right now my mind is set on placing one foot in front of the other, and this task alone is treacherous.
I can only wonder how chichi is holding up, she was always stronger than me physically and from what she's told me I can't even imagine myself in her shoes. She probably has so much hatred running through her veins. But she doesn't show it, maybe it's her maternal side that's taking it's course because in our state of crisis she keeps calm which in turn makes me calm. It must have been something she learned while raising Gohan or even dealing with Goku and his crazy ways.
All I know is that she hasn't ripped my head off, but when I think back on the old memories when she used to do that to her family, they were peaceful times.. it sounds like I am crazy for that logic but it makes perfect sense to me.
When we were on earth the most worries we had were things that I see insignificant now, money, property, .. At our gatherings chichi would scream and shout and indeed all of us would shared the mutual scare we had of chichi but reflecting on it now.. that's all we had to worry about. Well for chichi she was mad at goku for being late or eating like a slob. That's maybe a few of goku's flaws but in truth she was comfortable enough with her life to pick on little things like that.
Now. In our state she hasn't complained or bitched at me for doing any of that, but then again why would she? And why would I ? I just can't imagine myself yelling at chichi. For what we have been through we truly come to see and value life, value what it is like to have life and be blessed with people who we love to be in it. Honestly it is a blessing that chichi and I found each other, and for us to be well. As well as we could be considering our condition.
"Bulma?" chichi's voice pulls me out of my in depth thought analysis turning my head to her " yea chi?" while still walking towards our unknown destination.
"do you think king Yemma will allow us in Heaven?" snapping my head back at her question that clearly shocks me "What are you talking about chichi?" stopping in my tracks to address her, she soon stops as well " it was just a question Bulma, I mean Goku and Gohan are probably up there I just want to be with them that's all"
Something rises in my chest, it's painful and it hurts, it's my heart. Just thinking of the fact that Chichi would die and leave me alone. It kills.
"it's not like I'm going to go off and kill myself bulma. I was just wondering, please don't think I would ever do that to you" she has to explain herself to me for my face probably looked like a ghost.
Turning away from her I couldn't bare to envision Chichi dead and lifeless because it was all I could see when I looked at her " you don't think we'll make it do you?" I ask the question in almost a whisper but it's been plaguing my mind ever since we stepped onto the ship.
I hear her footsteps shift as silence passes through us. It's awkward because the silence is an answer in it's self.
"you can go chichi" my voice is soft, as soft as I can make it with my dry throat " I don't want to hold you back from whatever you have planned just please don't kill yourself" my eyes start to water and I cant help but brush them away immediately
"Bulma is that what you think? Truly is it?! I told you it was just a question and as I can see now it was clearly stupid for how we're discussing it now! I'm not going to kill myself so I can be with Goku and Gohan okay!"
Turning back to face her I challenge her outburst "because if you killed yourself out of selfish motives you'll go to hell,"
Chichi's jaw drops at my accusation shaking her head at me "don't bulma, don't" she starts to walk off as I call back to her " It's true isn't it?!" while trying to catch up to her movements. Grabbing her shoulder to twist it around to face me " Just tell me Chichi is that what you believe!"
"Yes!" shouting at me "Yes bulma! Because I don't know what else to think, look where we are!" she steps away from me and tosses her hands in the air as she looks around " Do you see anyone around here? Do you?! We're in the middle of no where and everything looks the same I can't even tell if we're walking in circles or not" placing one hand over her face to rub it from the tiredness. Taking a big sigh she looks back at me "what do you believe Bulma?"
Her eyes are burning intensely at me, wanting to know if I feel the same and if I do we'll share the unavailable doom of death that we both face, But if my feelings are otherwise, do we part ways? Does she fear that we'll both be alone and isolated like before, before either of us knew we even existed on Vejiitasei?
"I believe that we'll make it, isn't that what we both believed in? remember that night we first saw each other and we talked. It's all we hoped for how else can I think otherwise? And how can you act otherwise based on that. I thought we were in this together that's all and when you asked that question I flipped out thinking that you would want to leave me too like everyone else"
Chichi snorts at my logic "you make it sound as if they had a choice. If they did then I would hate myself to believe goku and gohan choose to leave me. Though their deaths are evidence to me that it was not a choice they willingly took themselves."
I can tell by this outburst by myself and chichi the elements have a hold on us. She's right though, where we landed was not anywhere close to any establishments that show signs of civilization. A lot of it is just clear land and some several figures that resembles trees on earth. Not a single life form around to suggest we are close to anything. I hate to admit it out loud but I have been wondering ' we are we? How much further?' closing my eyes I try and push down the hate that I have. The hate for myself. I got us into this situation so in reason it is my fault.
Hearing the whistle of the wind blow past us I feel bits of grain hitting against my face it's rough. As the wind picks up it starts to increase so much that I start to shield my face " what the hell is this?" I hear chichi as I peek through my hands I see she is covering herself as well "we better get some shelter" I yell over the competing wind.
Grabbing her with one of my hands I spot a near by cave, that was probably one of the only lucky things that have happened to us. So far our luck hasn't been as well as I hoped. The incidents are so rare I could count how many times on my fingers we have been spared from dreadful events. Running to the cave we quickly duck inside the shallow hole.
Shaking the grains out of our hair and clothes we look outside and see a storm brewing "it looks like a sandstorm of some sort. This is not good, just now the wind has picked up incredible speed and we can't even tell where it is travelling to" a worry expression spreads across my face
"what if it hits the ship?" chichi asks while her eyes still focused on the storm in front of us
Shit! What luck we have seriously. If our ship is totaled it'll be impossible to return to earth but as long as we find the dragonballs we can wish it all back. "don't worry chi, we'll wish everything back to normal getting home wont be hard and when we finally find someone I'm sure they will help us. The Nameks are peaceful people and plus your married to Goku not to mention gohan that's already good graces with them" smirking towards her I see a small smile pull at her lips at the reference to her family
"thanks bulma" this is the first time I really see chichi not as just a crazy mother and wife but a woman. A real woman who has unconditional love for her family. Put aside all the turmoil and grief. Deep inside she is a woman who loves a man and her son.
Chichi and I both decide it's best to wait until the storm passes to proceed on to look for anyone. Sitting against the wall of the cave I rest my head back and close my eyes wow I am incredibly tired " you can sleep bulma I'll wake you when it's over" chichi smiles towards me she must know that I am going on no sleep with running the ship and all. Listening to chichi I soon fall into unconsciousness and it's never been so sweet.
As I sat and watched Bulma I thought of how much sleep she has been missing, and I feel guilty for resting when I should be pulling my weight and helping her, though I don't know anything about mechanical things. I'm definitely glad to have bulma through this. I don't even think I could survive heck I wouldn't even know what button to press if I got onto a ship let alone set a coordinate it to namek.
Thinking back on our fight I draw on conclusions for my question. I asked it because I honestly wanted to know if we would make it into heaven but the subconscious part was to know if we did die. Meaning not from taking our own lives but if something should happen dende forbid. It seems like it was forever ago the passing of goku and gohan happened but I cant let it go and I don't think I ever will.
"please…." She prayed hoping to hear a heart beat. She placed her ear on her son's chest hoping that a miracle would happen. Her only son, had no heartbeat no movement. And her dear husband beaten to death blood everywhere. Why was she left ? the heartache increased with each passing moment.
Shutting my eyes tight I couldn't ignore the aching in my chest. Crying into my hands I tried to cover my sobs so I would not wake bulma. Looking up I see she was still sound asleep. Drying my eyes finally what it seemed like hours of crying. I glanced outside it's still windy and I could barely see any of the trees. It was like a wall of sand blowing wildly, the hiss of the wind roared viciously and echoed in the cave. It was so dark with the storm occurring it blocked out any sort of light leaving only a few rays to flicker with the passing winds.
Trying not to think I heard my stomach growl, frustrated I tried to think of other things. It has been days since bulma and I have had any sort of food. Our determination was pulling us through without a doubt. Pulling my knees towards my chest I laid my head against them while cover my arms around my legs. I was tired from all the walking but I wasn't tired enough to sleep and what was there to do than think.
Sometimes I imagine differently that scenario of my family encountering the sayians before their untimely death. What if goku had been able to fight them off? What if we had left before they arrived at our house? What if we were somewhere else? I curse myself for not taking the chances that I had. Earlier than day goku wanted us to go on a picnic near the riverside and I had told him that Gohan had to study. No matter how many times I run it through my head I always think that we never stood a chance.
Why couldn't that boy from the future have told us that! He saw the androids surely he must have seen this too! Unless it didn't happen in his timeline, after all goku died in his world. But not in ours, I couldn't allow it especially now with this antidote he gave us but did it matter anymore? it makes me think what if he was evil? tricking goku into believing he was 'good' but knowing goku.. he always saw the good in people and especially with the way he was talking about him just assured me this boy from the future was someone to trust and someone who will be close to us.
"Goku! This boy could be tricking us for all you know, Seriously he comes out of no where claiming he is from another time and that he wants us to be prepared for these androids. It's madness!"
Goku sat there his eyes focused on my words yet he displays this peaceful manner. I never figured out how goku could mask his emotions so well but I think it must be do to the warrior in him. " chichi, I can see how you may think that but everyone else had met him and think that he is nice especially bulma. Plus I don't think he could of given this antidote to me if he-"
Throwing my hands up in the air "Goku it could be poison! To kill you, who says we are to believe that you are even dead in his timeline he could be lying to kill you now so you don't even exist at all!" sometimes noting how naïve goku is worries me. I wont deny that I fell in love with his pure heart and good ways but sometimes he needs to understand not everyone is good!
"Chi pleas-" cutting him off again " I don't understand how you can meet this boy and trust him instantly and gohan told me he can be that super sayian thing you can do. What if he is like Vegeta and his people when they first arrived, remember that?! They tried to kill you!! Goku sometimes I do-"
Goku suddenly appears in front of me and places both his hands on my cheeks this stales all my movements he laughs ironically at my words " he is like vegeta but not how you think chichi" raising an eyebrow at his random words " I know it sounds all weird with this boy from the future but i.. I trust him. I just sense his pure intentions he really does want to help us. I can't explain it right now but in time you'll see, please just trust me" he says this in a soft gentle voice. Ugh how can I ignore him like this, I never could and I cant start now. I hate how he just melts my heart instantly shaking my head while his hands remain on my face i grab his wrists with my hands sighing briefly
"okay goku, I trust you."
Dende, how long ago was that? I cant even remember the last touch Goku and i shared. Or the last hug I gave to my gohan. It seems that's all I ever think about now 'the last time'
I just want to see them again
The wind starts to die down a little bit and the howling decreases as light slowly descends within the cave. The storm is still current but it is a good sign that this storm isn't going to be a forever type thing.
I see bulma still resting. It's been a while I would suggest 2 , 3 hours? Being in here. I'm torn between waking her up and letting her sleep for I don't know what lays ahead of us. How much energy we'll require. I decided I'll wake her up when I can actually see the sun, stretching out my arms and legs I yawn quietly moving my neck as it started to get sore while resting it on my knees. Rubbing my face trying to wake myself up I take note in the storm
It's different
I know this because something is moving in the distance. My heart starts to race as panic creeps up in the pit of my stomach, I want to scream because the outline of the figure is vaguely familiar to me. All my fears and insecurities surface when the figure approaches closer as it does I note it is not alone, other follows…
No! it cant be! No not now! My eyes start to water we were so close. Silent tears start to flow down my face as I can see the form taking shape gradually. I can not see specific details but only the outline presents it's self to me now. The top of the head resembles of several spike like contours. I start to shake and tremble I'm speechless I want to shriek to alert bulma but for some reason I am experiencing a dual emotion. A part of me wants to cry, yell with hatred burning through me. And the other side feels content, comfortable for what is about to appear before me.
I don't know what to do. As I just sit on the ground I feel my legs can not move, I can not move immobile to the unavoidable event that is about to take place. Closing my eyes I prey
Dende please, help us through whatever dangers we will endure in bulma's and my lifetime ahead of this moment. Please.
As I sit there on my knees with my hands clenches in my lap my eyes shut tight. I think if I would of screamed and woken bulma. The storm alone would of killed us if not this coming form. I decided if bulma is lucky, she'll have a quick death in her sleep. I'll ask them of that so she can leave peacefully. But quickly predicting that scenario would be a dream for it to occur like so.
I hear the storm dying down and the winds howling has stopping completely. Yet I do not open my eyes. I hear bulma's soft breathing noting she is still resting calmly.
Footsteps approach closer and closer I can nearly feel the impact of the stranger for it is near. Probably close enough to touch.
"chichi" his voice is very familiar to me. Yet I do not respond. It has to be some sort of dream it can't end like this "chichi" he says it again and I respond like I had before, a still movement.
"open your eyes" I knew it would be only in time that I would have to eventually see the figure in front of me, I can not deny this any longer, my death, my capture.
Opening my eyes slowly as I set my sights upon him my eyes start to water immediately and he extends a hand out to my sitting form.
Instantly I grab his hand as he pulls me to him and I wrap my other arm around his neck as I cry into his chest choking on my sobs as I cry out his name
"Goku"
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