A/N: Ahhh...so they are finally back together! :3 What's gunna happen now? A lot can happen in one night. -nods-

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Chapter XIV: Nervous?

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The car ride was awkward as it well should have been. Axel barley so much as looked at me. I could tell he was still trying not to be too angry with me. Even though he didn't show it—I knew he was pissed. I knew he was battling with his mind to not just take me back to the Lab and lock me up for forever, just like he said. I hoped that he could somehow forgive me for all of this. However, telling me I could actually live with him had totally thrown me off. I had no idea what he was thinking, no idea why he was being so kind to me. If I were him, I would never forgive me.

"Roxas." His voice made me almost jump out of my seat belt.

I kept my head down, eyes focused on my fingers that were interlaced on my lap. I noticed they were turning white. "Yea…?" I sounded like a whipped puppy.

"I want you to know that you don't have to tell me everything you've done these past few days." Well that's a relief. "But you are getting punished."

I heard myself sigh. Of course. That's no surprise. I deserve punishment.

"But keeping you locked up isn't going to work obviously—so I'll have to try something else."

I dreaded the thought of anything worse than being confined up in the Lab. I doubted anything could be worse. Other than being away from Axel.

"So I'm signing you up for school." This time I looked up at him.

Is he being serious?

He looked staid enough, the way his eyes focused on the road out in front of him and his hands gripped at the steering wheel.

"School…?" I squeaked, "Like…your school?" I asked timidly, drifting my gaze to stare anywhere but his disappointed face and trying to hide the surprise in my voice.

"No. You'll be going to Jacksonville High—which is just down the road from my apartment. My school is for older kids who want to be in a special field."

My heart couldn't seem to stop racing in my chest. I couldn't tell him that this was actually what I wanted. That this wouldn't be a punishment at all. Normal kids went to school; it's what I've been hoping for. What I've been wishing for. How could he possibly think that it would be a punishment? Even if Axel wasn't going to be there—I could finally be normal.

"You don't seem too disappointed. Maybe I picked the wrong punishment?" Axel turned to face me, the corner of his lip turned up into a small smile.

My heart didn't do well with this. I felt it flutter throughout my chest and I hoped that my face wasn't stupidly red again. "It's just—wasn't what I was expecting. That's all…"

"Hmm…I see." He seemed to cut the conversation at that. He turned back to face the windshield, focusing intently on driving; though his mind looked else wear.

"So, how was freedom?"

I froze when he spoke again. I could have sworn he was done talking to me by now.

"N-nice…it was nice." What else could I say?

"Was Sora good to you?"

What is he up to? I thought he wasn't going to make me tell him anything…

"Sora…he's fragile and kind. I'll be worrying about him…" What am I saying? Don't say that in front of Axel! "I-I mean—as a friend. He…he was a nice friend to me…"

"You don't have to hide the fact that you had sex with him, Roxas."

My eyes narrowed into slits when I turned to glare at him. So he knew already. Why is he doing this to me?

Axel took a deep breath before he spoke. "I just want everything to be right with us again. I don't want you to feel embarrassed to talk to me about anything—and I don't want too either. I want you to choose what you want in your life. If I'm not good enough for you—then by all means, go ahead and date the kid."

I felt my hands clenching at my sides. What is he saying…?

"You idiot! You and I both know that I only want to be with you. It doesn't work any other way. It won't work. It can't…" I trialed off, trying to calm down by taking deep breaths. In and out. In…and out.

Axel's expression didn't change, even as I said the words.

Him and his poker face…

"Okay," was all he said.

—XxX—

Time goes by—life goes by. However, for me, it was like it was just starting. My life had been just a clump of time—packed together to form one lifeless mess. But now, I could live. I could do something with myself. I could have a future and learn new things. Maybe get a job or think about who I wanted to be when I grew up. Things I couldn't have thought of back at the Lab. Things that I could now have—living with Axel.

All these thoughts ran through my mind as I lay on my new bed in the room Axel let me have. It was a nice room, small, but comfortable. The walls where painted a dark green color, which I loved. No more white walls to glare at. It had carpet, which I loved as well. Also no more cold feet in the morning. There wasn't much to the room, only a dresser, a closet, a bed and an old stereo in the corner that looked like it'd seen better days. Though, I really liked the room. I enjoyed it so much more than the Lab. The fact that it had two windows was also a plus. I could be content living here.

It was about 11PM when I stared at the old clock on the stereo. Axel had gone back out to go get my clothes from the Lab and anything else I would need from there about thirty minutes ago. I was comfortable lying there, though. I already felt at home. It was a nice, little apartment he had. It had two bedrooms, one bathroom, a kitchen, and a small living room. It was kind of like a mini version of Sora's house—just big enough for two people to live in. Which I would now be doing. I'd be living with Axel. I would see him every morning and every day of my life. Just as long as my memory cooperated with me, I'd live here for a good while.

I suddenly couldn't stay on my bed anymore. I suddenly wanted Axel. I didn't know what it was, but I wanted him badly. I wanted him to touch me and kiss me.

Would he still want to?

I stood, frozen in the living room, staring at the floor.

What if what he said earlier was meant to be a warning? What if he really just wants me to live here, go to school, and be normal? Does he want anything to do with me anymore?

The front door creaked open and I just about had a heart attack. Axel's bright hair flamed into the room as he pushed open the door with his shoulder—holding bags of what I knew were my clothes in his hands. "You won't have to worry about going clothes shopping at least. Who donated all these anyway?" he grunted, setting the bags onto the floor in front of him while closing the door with his heel.

I bit my lip as I stood there; staring at him, wanting nothing more than to bring him back to my room with me. Sure, the bed was small, but I could manage.

"Rox…are you okay? You look pale."

Axel's fingers came to brush up against my cheek; he was standing right next to me. I stood as still as I could, hoping that my body wouldn't win against me this time.

He doesn't want to be with you. He needs time to forget about all of this. Even after time, he still might not want anything to do with you.

"I'm…alright," I lied, subconsciously leaning my head into his hand.

"You suck at lying, seriously." Axel let out a small laugh above me.

"Axel—do you not want to be with me anymore? Do you hate me?" Did I really just ask him those questions?

Axel's hand tightened on my face as it reached my chin. He moved his pointer finger out, bringing my chin up with it so he could see my eyes. I wasn't going to allow that, so I drifted my stare to his shoes, hoping he couldn't read my mind. "I doubt anything you do could actually make me hate you. Besides, I never said we were together."

I felt tears begin to bubble up. Right, we aren't together. We only kissed a few times. I'm so stupid…

Axel laughed again, now using his whole hand to move my chin. His face was in mine—so close I could feel his breath on my skin once again. My eyes could only focus on his, as if I was in a trance. "But I never said we weren't…"

"Can we be?" I asked quickly, my eyes forgetting to blink.

"Only if you want to."

"More than anything."

A smirk set across his face, which made my heart almost stop. "You might want to think about that a little more. Stop jumping to conclusions so quickly."

"I know what I want," I told him, confidence in my tone.

"Oh? And what would that be?" His eyes sparkled.

"I want you."

"Hmmm…And why should I let you have me?"

His question shocked me slightly. I guess I really wasn't very fit for him. I was stupid and young.

He can have any girl he wants. Any guy he wants. Why should I be able to have him?

"I…I don't know—I don't really deserve you…" My heart sunk slowly as I said the words. I sighed as his hand released me and he backed up slightly, still looking me in the eyes.

"Well, you're right about that. You've made some really bad choices." My head lowered and I nodded. "But the problem is that I'm seriously attracted to you and no matter how many times I try to stay away…" His hand grasped my wrist and I was suddenly jerked forward into his chest, hardly able to breathe. "I always come back again." His other hand came up under my chin again and his lips came down onto mine. It felt like I no longer had any spine. I felt like I was melting. A shiver of excitement shot through me like a bolt of lightning. Goosebumps covered my arms and I knew. This was what I was meant to do. If I could do anything in the world, it would be kissing Axel. His tongue slowly slipped into my mouth and again I wanted so badly to bring him back into my room with me. I could show him all I learned. I would be good at it— I could be his equal. My hands came up and clenched themselves in his mass of spikes on his head. I kissed him with all I had, everything I had. He wasn't being careful, like before. Even when he had kissed me in the shower, it wasn't like this. This was hungry, like he wanted me almost as much as I wanted him. I hoped I wasn't just being delusional.

"Let's do it, Axel," I whispered into his mouth, his tongue still on the inside of mine.

"Do…what? You want to make up...with sex?"

I shivered again, feeling his hand inching its way down my back. "N-no…I just—wanna have sex…"

Axel's lips left mine for a second, probably so he could glare at me and tell me how stupid I was sounding. How he didn't want to do anything like that with me. I shut my eyes and swallowed, which tasted like Axel. I loved that taste.

"You really are something." Axel's eyes were hard to read. They were steely, but soft at the same time, so I had no idea what he was thinking. "I really should be punishing you, not making-out with you. But…now you've got me in the mood, I don't think I'll stop at this point—not if you don't want to."

My mouth watered as I wrapped my arms around his waist, smiling into his jacket. "The truth is—I never wanted to stop with you…I've just been embarrassed," I admitted sheepishly.

Axel laughed and I pictured his smiling face in my mind. "Well now that we aren't being embarrassed anymore, it's okay then."

"Yea sure—let's go with that," I scoffed, though a smile was plastered on my face. I could barley hold in my excitement.

Axel was actually going to…

"To the bedroom then? Or do you prefer somewhere else? I guess the couch might work…though it is kinda small." His gaze drifted to the black leather couch that sat in the living room.

"Y-you idiot—I could care less," I huffed. I noticed my voice starting to tremble.

"Nervous?" Axel asked, his lips pressed into my hair.

"N-no…I'm not," I lied as best I could. Of course I was. Who wouldn't be with Axel?

Axel chuckled, moving his hand into mine so that our fingers laced together. "Don't be nervous. I'm not that intimidating, am I?"

I blew my breath out through my nose, ignoring his question as he pulled me to his room, obviously not liking the idea of being on the small couch. I walked beside him, knowing what I was doing. Knowing this would define our relationship after tonight. We would be together. I would be dating a 19-year-old god. I couldn't help but smile as Axel opened the door to his bedroom. The bed was bigger than mine, which I was glad for. We would have plenty of room. I let my fingers fall out of his and I lay down onto the bed, my head resting on the pillow behind me.

"You look happy enough," Axel laughed while he crawled onto me, making the bed creak with distaste.

I felt myself blush, blood filling my cheeks. "I-I am—This is what I want."

"Good…'cause I want you too," Axel whispered seductively into my ear. I felt myself tremble beneath him as his hand shot down to the zipper of my pants. I forced myself not resist, even with how awkward this was. Axel just smiled above me, undoing my buttons quickly he slipped down my pants then my boxers. He threw them both onto the floor, smirking at me now like a lion with his prey.

"You sure you're ready for this?"

"Do your worst." I tried to sound confident, seductive. I don't really think I pulled it off. I was much more scared than I had been with Sora.

"My worst huh? I dunno if you'll enjoy that…" His lips came down to brush against my neck.

"I can handle anything," I whispered, feeling my sex drive shoot up to a newer level. I had a crazy feeling; it was hard to hold back.

"I hope you know what you're getting yourself into," Axel breathed; grabbing my shirt, he lifted it over me, so I was now completely naked. It didn't feel as weird as I thought it would, actually, it felt somewhat nice.

"Take yours off too," I complained. Yea, okay I sounded like a fucking 2-year-old. But this just wouldn't be fair if he could be clothed.

Axel's eyebrow went up slowly as he leaned back up and threw off his shirt. He then pinned me back down (I had started to get up just to get to him) and started kissing me. No, this wasn't a kiss. He was trying to eat my face, I swear. Oh god, how I loved it.

I moaned as his hand caressed me gently. I felt tingly all over my body. This had to be the best feeling in the world, hands down. Axel's lips left mine for a second, only so he could unbutton his own pants, slipping them down and throwing them off the bed to join the other clothes. I stared at him, only for a second before he was back on me; his hands moving all over me quickly, his lips attached to mine. I kept my hands on his chest, resisting the urge to flip him over so I could be on top—I had to remember who the bigger one was now.

"Ready…?" he asked, breathless as he lowered down further onto me, his chest tight against mine.

"Yea…" I closed my eyes and clenched the sheets beneath me.

—XxX—

Waking up is hard. Especially after you've had sex five days in a row. And especially after the last time was with Axel. However, as I woke up, still lying in Axel's bed, I felt happy. I knew I was smiling as I stared at the ceiling above me. I was sore—really sore. Axel was insane…But I had loved it. He was incredible. So amazing I'd probably never want anything else besides him for the rest of my life. Nothing could compare. My eyes drifted lazily back into my head as I thought about just going back to sleep. I opened them again slowly to check the time. It was 2:25PM. Well, no real surprise there—I sure as hell could sleep. I closed my eyes again and pictures of Axel drifted through my mind.

Maybe if I go back to sleep I'll have a dream about him…

I fell asleep again after that; only I dreamt of Sora.

—XxX—

"Wake up…"

"Nooo…"

"Roxas! Get up!"

"Don't want to…"

"I swear—if you don't, I'll flip the mattress over."

"Someone's cranky," I whispered, lifting the sheets off me only to see Axel's fuming face.

"Only because you slept in again! Tomorrow you're going to school; I'll wake you up myself if I have to."

I huffed and threw the covers back over me. "How was I supposed to know that school started so damn early? No one tells me anything."

"You're going to have to stop being so lazy and get your ass in gear. This is your punishment."

"I know, I know!" I yelled, throwing the covers over my head.

It'd only been two days since I moved in with Axel. The first day was pleasant—Axel had let me pretty much sleep all day, but maybe he was only feeling sorry for me because I was so exhausted from the sex. I don't know, either way he was nice to me. Though he didn't come home until around 7ish, I'd slept in till five, so I didn't have much time to wait for him. We ate dinner and I almost felt like a regular kid. After that, we had played a few video games on his Xbox 360, which he showed me how to use the controller to. It wasn't hard and actually was really entertaining. I took a shower then headed off to bed, but not before begging Axel to have sex again. He only glared at me and slammed the door in my face, saying something about how he had to work tomorrow and didn't want to be up all night and blah, blah, blah…So I lay in bed, awake until late in the morning. It wasn't my fault my schedule was all messed up. I liked it the way it was. Why couldn't school start at, like, five in the afternoon? I would be fine with that. But no, it had to start so early! Like 6AM early! That was insane. I'd never be able to wake up.

I heard Axel sigh by the door, slamming it behind him as he exited. I sat up; awake now. I looked out the window, seeing that the sun was about to set.

Man, I barely see the sun anymore.

I noticed my ever-rumbling stomach and tiptoed up to my door, feeling somewhat bad for pissing Axel off so much. I should try to be good. He is letting me live in his house, eat his food and have sex with him. Well, okay the last one was just in my mind. I'd hoped that living here came with those three all combined. I'd just have to get him in a really good mood.

I smiled and opened the door, hoping to get a head start on being good for once. I skipped out into the kitchen, popping my head into the fridge. I spotted a sandwich. I quickly went to reach for it when I heard Axel's loud voice from his room.

"Touch my sandwich and I'll kill you."

I narrowed my eyes, poked the bread and closed the fridge, reluctantly heading over to the cupboards for a box of cereal. It was kind of weird not having lunch, dinner and breakfast brought to me every day. I just sort of had to eat whatever Axel had around the house. I smiled when I found some Lucky Charms; snatching them from the shelf I ripped the box open. I grabbed a handful of them and stuffed them into my mouth as I headed over to the TV, planning on playing Halo. I flipped the Xbox on and grabbed the controller, sitting on the edge of the couch, munching on Lucky Charms. I suddenly wished that I didn't have to go to school. I could start next year—I could just chill the rest of this year, and start up when everyone else did. That would make more sense, wouldn't it?

Of course, stupid Axel would never let me. It was my punishment…

The game started up and I shook my head, trying to only focus on shooting people and running things over.

After I'd been playing for a few minutes I saw Axel walk into the room out of the corner of my eye. I didn't acknowledge him, only continued to play.

"Roxas, you will wake up tomorrow," I heard him say sternly as I threw a grenade at some other person.

I nodded slightly, grabbing more cereal, eyes never leaving the screen.

"Tell me you will."

"I will, I will—I swear."

"Good." I heard his footsteps into the kitchen. He grabbed his keys from the hook on the wall, getting ready to head off to work I assumed. I blinked once and paused the game quickly, sitting up from the couch. I headed over to him with confidence.

"What?" he asked, rather angrily.

I rolled my eyes as I stopped in front of him. Quickly, before he could do anything, I planted a kiss on his lips (while standing on my toes.) I expertly ran my tongue along his teeth, letting his circle mine playfully.

Of course, he can't resist me.

I backed up soon, coming back on the soles of my feet, licking my lips. "Have a nice day," I said happily, beaming up at him.

Axel's eyes narrowed and he turned around without a word. I took that as a "Thanks for making me horny right before I go to work." Well, I had to start somewhere didn't I? Sure, I'd pissed him off a lot, but I knew he liked it. Deep down, he was thanking me right now.