I'm so sorry, this is literally the worst thing I've ever written.
The lack of bensidy is shocking and the writing in general is just an abomination but I needed to get this out and unfortunately it all came out in this one crappy chapter.
the next one will be better, I promise.
although, remember it is just a continuation of the last chapter.
just...god just don't even bother reading!
"What the hell do you mean second baby?" Olivia lay still, her hand holding Brian's in a death grip.
"Congratulations you two, you're having twins" Doctor Betts said with a wide, glowing smile.
"Hmm, no, I only ordered one…" She sat up on her elbows glaring at the doctor.
"Babe…"
"Don't you 'babe' me!" Olivia glared at Brian "Twins? Seriously?" She turned back to the aging doctor.
"What has happened, it's not entirely uncommon actually, one baby has been hiding behind the other so to speak, which is why it was never picked up on your previous ultrasounds…"
"Hiding?" Brian asked
"Yes. It can happen sometimes, most of the time they shift themselves, realising they have no room, they shift and become visible, like yours have. Sometimes they don't which causes the miscarriage of one twin"
"But they're both okay right?" Brian questioned the doctor again, leaning forward slightly to get a better look at his kids.
"They both seem fine, good strong heartbeats. Baby B is a little smaller, obviously having been hidden for a while means it hasn't been getting enough nutrients and space to grow but for now it seems to be doing just fine and that should all change, they should even themselves out over time, we will be keeping a close eye on them both so you have no need to worry"
"Twins…" Olivia said to herself. Her heart thudded hard and fast in her chest, she had wanted kids her whole life, never imagining it would happen this way or that she would ever be lucky enough to get two but right now, it all seemed just a little too much to take.
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"There's gonna be no confrontation between you and Benson right? You two can act like adults?"
"I don't have a problem Cap, she's the whore who spread her legs for someone else, if she's got…"
"Elliot…"
"Just saying…I'm over it" Elliot folded his arms over his chest
"You're not going to get any sympathy from anyone if you start running your mouth so don't even bother" Cragen ordered, he couldn't quite believe that this bitter man sitting in front of him was once one part of the greatest team of detectives he had ever had the pleasure of working with.
Benson and Stabler were the unbeatable force of SVU for a good six years before things started going south. People started betting, earlier on in their partnership about how long it would be before they finally got together, no one was surprised when they did eventually announce their relationship, causing Elliot to leave the department for a life in Narcotics.
And that's where everything changed.
"I'm telling you Elliot, the same thing I've already told Olivia, if you two can't behave like adults then I'll have no trouble tossing you both out of here"
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"So, you wanna go shopping first and then eat or eat then shopping or….Liv?" Brian watched as his pregnant girlfriend slowly walked to the car, completely unaware of anything and everything around her, stuck in some sort of trance she climbed into the car and pulled on her seatbelt and waited.
"Babe…you okay?"
He knew she was shocked when they had found out about the second baby, he was as well, beyond shocked, never did he think he'd have one kid never mind two, at the same time!
"I'm fine" She replied
"What do you wanna do?"
"Can you take me home?" She asked quietly "I just need some time"
They still hadn't officially moved in together yet, although they almost always stayed at his apartment, mainly because it was a little bigger than hers and closer to both of their work places.
"Back to your place or…"
"Yes, please"
Olivia was silent the rest of the way home, her hands resting atop her growing bump the whole time. Two babies, not one but two tiny little babies that she had to raise. She was so lost in her own mind that she didn't even realise they had arrived at her apartment building until Brian had opened her door and held his hand out for her.
"I kinda just wanna be alone right now…" She said to him quickly, kissing him on the cheek and pushing her key into the lock.
"Oh, alright, gimme a call later?" He tried not to give away the fact that he was a little hurt by her complete dismissal of him today. It had been just over an hour since they had found out about the twins and she had been in a complete reverie ever since. He tried not to take it personally but she didn't even act the least bit happy or excited, sure it was a shock, it was a shock for him too but she had wanted children her entire life, what was stopping her from being happy?
"Sure"
Brian leaned down and pressed his hand to her bump whispering a quick 'love you guys' and 'be good for mama' to his unborn children before retreating down the concrete steps and jumping back into his car.
Olivia sighed as she watched him drive off; she pushed the heavy door open and quietly stepped into the elevator, her hand continuously rubbing her stomach trying to calm the rambunctious movements of her children.
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The SVU team minus Nick and Elliot sat around the large table discussing their latest case, sheets of paper and folders littered the table as they scrambled to find evidence worthy of a search warrant.
"I still think it's the husband, his alibi is shoddy, he admitted to them fighting a lot lately…" Amanda inputted, shuffling papers back and forth.
"I pulled her phone records; she made eighteen calls to three different numbers the week before she died…" Olivia walked over to the team, taking a seat beside Fin, handing him a sheet of the records.
"Do we know who the numbers are?"
"One of them is to some hot-shot wall-street guy, Damien Rutherford, another is for a guy, James Etheridge and we're still trying to find the third one"
"James Etheridge, isn't he the guy that works with the husband?" Fin piped up
"James was in the office the day we went to interview him"
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"She was having an affair…" Amaro announced as he and Elliot walked over to the rest of the squad.
"Rutherford admitted that they had been sleeping together for a couple of months, met her at a bar, didn't know she was married until her husband confronted him about two weeks ago"
"How did the he find out?" Olivia asked
"She had a second cell phone" Nick pulled records from the folder he was carrying "She got it six months ago, seems she was having an affair with quite a few guys, we've got seven different numbers, three still unaccounted for…"
"Do any of the numbers match the other cell phone?" Olivia asked
"Yeah" Nick nodded and handed her the sheet of paper
"I don't understand, she had the life…" Amanda sat back and stretched her arms "Husband, kids, money, job…why sleep around with all these guys?"
"Just because she had it all, doesn't mean she was happy" Fin jumped in "People have their reasons"
"Yeah, it just seems strange, what makes someone cheat?"
The table went quiet before Elliot asked "I have no idea…Liv, you got any ideas?" He glared with a smirk in her direction as an awkward silence fell among the team.
"You're a bastard…" Olivia muttered before leaving the table, she marched her way to the cribs, making sure no one saw how much his statement hurt her.
"That was uncalled for man…" Fin scowled at Elliot "It happened, get over it, she's happy now, leave her be."
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Olivia paced around the cribs, anger racing through her veins. She tried hard not to let Elliot get to her, most of the time she ignored him and his snide remarks but for some reason that one just wouldn't slide. She was stressed out enough as it was.
Life was getting more and more complicated by the second; just two short days ago she had discovered she was having not one baby but two, throwing her world into a commotion of fear and anxiety. Brian had been amazing when she let him in, for some reason she had felt herself being distant, she knew she was and she knew it hurt him.
She had stayed at her own apartment since finding out about the second baby, her mind constantly on over-drive. She'd lay in her bed alone missing him. Missing his arms around her body, the sound of his sleepy breathing, the way he always kissed her goodnight and then spoke a soft goodnight to their baby...babies. They were having two babies, the idea alone terrified her and excited her at the same time. Olivia had always known she wanted children and over the last few years had come to think it would never happen but it was.
She made herself angry by being like this, being distant from him when he had been nothing but supportive. Why she was shifting away from him she had no idea. She loved him; she was in-love with him and needed him now more than ever.
She grabbed her phone that she hastily threw on the bed in a fit of rage and scrolled to find his number praying he would answer. She felt her hormones building as tears filled her eyes; she ran a shaky hand through her hair and sat on the edge of the bed running her free hand back and forth across the swell of her stomach.
"Cassidy…"
"Hey, it's me"
"Hey babe, you okay?"
She smiled through her tears as his deep voice poured through the phone "Yeah, it's just been a rough day so far, I just wanted to talk to you"
"You're adorable" He chuckled "You sure you're okay?"
"Yeah" She sighed
"Hey, Liv…"
"Hmm?"
"I love you"
Damn pregnancy hormones, she thought to herself as she tried to blink away her tears "I love you too, so much"
"Can I come over tonight?" Olivia asked hesitantly, they hadn't seen each other since he dropped her off at her apartment after the doctors appointment, she had insisted on needing some space to think and prioritise. She hoped he wasn't upset or angry with her.
"You don't even have to ask, Liv" Brian replied quietly
"Thank you"
"What's going on babe? You've been so different these last couple of days…"
"I'm sorry"
"Don't be" He insisted "Don't be sorry, I just wanna make sure you're okay, I tend to worry about you, you know"
"Everything's just getting a bit much I guess...twins Brian..."
"I know" He couldn't help but grin through the phone "It's gonna be okay Liv, you've got a right to be nervous, hell I'm petrified over here but I'm so excited as well. We're having two kids, baby!" He laughed
"I love you" She laughed back at him, his excitement becoming infectious.
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"You alright for getting home, Liv?" Nick asked as he shrugged on his jacket ready to finally leave the precinct for the day, everyone had been more and more concerned for Olivia the further she got into her pregnancy.
"Yeah, Brian's coming to get me" She replied with a smile "Thanks though"
"Alright, take it easy" He pointed towards her stomach with a bright smile muttering "Can't believe I was right about it being twins"
"Me either!" She shouted at him as he walked away leaving only her and Elliot in the squad room. She ignored his stares and proceeded to finish typing up her report before filing the folders away in her desk.
Elliot shut off his computer and made his way over to her desk.
"Elliot, don't…"
"Look Liv…" He sat perched on the edge of her desk
"Please don't. I'm far too tired to argue with anybody, especially you, so please, just leave me alone" Olivia pushed herself back from her desk and stood, quickly rubbing her stomach to calm her children who seemed to sense straight away when she was angry and moved around a lot.
"I just wanna say I'm sorry" He moved to stand in front of her, his eyes clouded with sincerity, or what looked like sincerity but Olivia could read him like a book…
"Okay. Apology accepted. Please leave me alone" She grabbed her coat and pulled it over her shoulders, grabbing her purse from her desk drawer and doubling checking her phone before dropping it into her pocket.
"Liv, I am sorry, for everything. Not just how I acted today." He took a hold of her hand "I just….it hurts to see you, you know? You're pregnant with his kids. I wanted that for us…" He slowly ran his thumb over the back of her hand
"I always thought I'd be the one to live this life with you, not him" Olivia closed her eyes and sighed, turning her gaze to the floor, why must he always make me feel guilty? she thought to herself.
"Sorry Elliot…I am. But I'm happy, I'm really really happy. I'm in love with Brian, he's amazing. I'm sorry I hurt you but please, just let me be happy" She practically pleaded with him, pulling her hand back
"Liv…"
Olivia's eyes widened as he stood closer to her, she backed away only to trip slightly against the edge of her chair. Elliot's hands automatically gripped her arms to stop her from falling back; he pulled her closer, his hand rising to gently cup her cheek
"Elliot, stop…"
He leaned in and pressed his lips to hers, both hands reaching her face, only for a second before she pulled back and slapped him away
"What the hell, Elliot!?" Olivia raged "Are you kidding me!?"
"You felt it Liv…" He took another step towards her "Look, please, just give us another chance…"
"Do you have any idea how desperate you sound? It's getting pathetic…"
"I love you, Olivia. It's always been you" He told her sadly
"I did love you Elliot, just not the way I should have…"
He stepped in for another kiss and Olivia pushed him back "Elliot stop…"
"Pretty sure 'SVU detective gets arrested for sexual assault' probably isn't the best headline that could be written about you Stabler…" Olivia whipped her head round to find Brian leaning against the desk at the entrance of the squad room.
"Go to hell, Cassidy" Elliot growled as he stepped back from Olivia once again, his eyes pleading with her.
"It's over Elliot, please, accept it" She said quietly, leaning over to grab her purse from her desk once more.
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"You okay?" Brian squeezed her hand in the elevator.
"I'm so tired…"
He turned and wrapped his arms around her shoulders, kissing her hair.
"He didn't…"
"He kissed me, I pushed away and told him to stop and then you came…that's all." Olivia felt the rage radiating from her boyfriend's body.
"Don't worry about it" She leaned up and kissed his lips "He's just sad and angry; he'll get over it…"
"I love you" He leaned in and pressed his lips to hers, grinning against her lips when she got playful and pressed her tongue into his mouth.
"Take me home, Cassidy" She moaned, her arms wrapping around his neck, playing with his hair.
"As you wish, Madam…"
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any thoughts?
should I just give up now?
thought so.
The twin situation will be addressed in the next chapter, do not worry.
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