.:Zerophilia:.

Blaine pulled Kurt into his lap and just held him to his chest for a moment before sighing.

"What are thinking about?" Kurt asked breaking the silence.

"Nothing…" He sighed again before smiling halfheartedly," Just about how much I love you." He kissed the top of Kurt's head, lingering a moment breathing him in as he tried to hold back the tears threatening to fall.

Kurt could feel Blaine start to shake and sat up to look at him. He saw tears forming in his lover's eyes and Blaine's face gave away just how terrified he was, an expression Kurt was all too familiar with.

"Baby, what's wrong?" Kurt asked cupping his face and thumbing away the loose tears.

"I don't know… I just love you so much and I don't ever want to lose you." Blaine says unable to stop the tears from falling.

Kurt pulled him into an embrace and hugged him, letting him cry, while trying to reassure him.

"I love you too Blaine and you'll never lose me. I'll always be here… Always." Kurt whispers into his hair. He rubs circles onto his back and try's to sooth Blaine the best he can. He doesn't completely understand where all of this is coming from, but it breaks his heart. After some time just sitting there, holding each other Kurt cannot stop himself from asking any longer, so he speaks up.

"Blaine, please tell me where this is coming from…" Kurt pulls back and pleads with his eyes

"It's noth-"

"Blaine Warbler Anderson, do not tell me nothing is wrong because you just don't space out and then cry about your worries of losing me over nothing. Something is wrong, why won't you tell me? Blaine, I want to be here for you like you have been for me. Please…. " Kurt asks again.

"I just… It's…"

Blaine doesn't want to tell Kurt, but he knows he needs to tell him some form of the truth, but he doesn't know where to start, so he just starts talking.

"It's my parents. They're not okay with me being gay like your dad is with you. After I came out to them they went from denial, to being ashamed, to a form of both…"Blaine closed his eyes, unable to stop images of his parents disappointed faces that flashed in his mind. " If they found out that I have a boyfriend, if they find out about you, they'll try and take that away from me…"

"Blaine, no matter what they will never be able to take me away from you-"

"No, Kurt you don't understand…" Blaine shouted stopping Kurt from finishing his sentence. Blaine buried his hands in his face, ashamed.

Kurt moved from his lap to the spot next to him on the bed and grabbed his hands pulling them down to his lap.

"Then help me understand Blaine…" Kurt looked into his broken eyes and his heart broke at the sight.

Blaine looked up at Kurt and felt like crawling in a hole and dying. After everything that happened earlier that night the last thing he wanted to do was talk about his parents and their homophobic ways. He just wanted to be with Kurt and forget about his family. He just wanted to be happy and accepted for who he is with the one he loves and who loves him unconditionally.

"Blaine," Kurt whispers quietly, pulling him from his thoughts.

Blaine comes back to reality and takes a deep breath as he stares at his pants.

"My parents" He took a breath trying to concentrate on what he was saying "When I came out they first said it was a phase, then when I didn't 'grow out of it' they became ashamed and punished me for no reason. They would find reasons to ground me, and prevent me from going out with my friends. As I got older, I learned not to give them any reason at all and they just resorted to threatening me."

Kurt gave him a worried look. His eyes were wide and his mouth slightly ajar in shock that someone could do that to their son.

"I mean they've never hit me, but they said that if they ever find out that I am acting on my 'gayness' that they will put me in conversion camp and move me away to some private school in Europe… Kurt if they find out about you I would be taken away and I would lose you…" Blaine tightened his grip on Kurt's hands and slowly looked up at him.

Kurt had tears in his eyes, unable to process everything.

"Blaine, are you serious? You're parents are that… insane?" Kurt asked. He went from sad and shocked to completely irate, "I can't believe they would threaten you with a conversion camp. That's so stupid…"

Blaine looked back down at his lap. Kurt's features softened when he saw Blaine close in again.

"Blaine, I'm sorry, I just… That's awful." He placed his hand under Blaine's chin and raised his face to his. He tilted his head to look into Blaine's eyes that were still looking down.

"Blaine" Kurt said and Blaine's eyes followed to meet his, "I will never let them do that to you. If they ever found out I wouldn't let them take you away." Kurt hugged him.

"I am not going to lose you, and you're not going to lose me…" Kurt whispered in his ear.

"I just wish I didn't have to hide something as special as you. You make me so happy and I just want to share it with my parents like you do with yours…"

Kurt thought for a moment, a figurative light bulb clicking on in his head.

"What if you could?" Kurt pulled away and asked with a small smile.

"What do you mean?" Blaine asked wiping his eyes.

Kurt looked at him, smile growing, and raised his eyebrows hinting.

Blaine furrowed his eyebrows then his eyes grew wide.

"Kurt, you don't mean? No we can't!"

"Why not? Blaine this way you don't have to lie, your parents will be happy, and we won't have to hide our relationship per se…" Kurt excitedly explained.

"But Kurt-"

Kurt held his hand up. He knew what Blaine was going to say.

"Blaine, I want to. I want to be in your life as much as you are in mine. I mean I just found a perk in my disease… I want to do this. For you, for me, for us… But only if you're comfortable with it." Kurt said still smiling, still holding Blaine's hand.

Blaine thought about it for a minute. Kurt was right; it would be a win-win for everyone. It was risky, but if Kurt was okay with it, so was he.

"But wait, wouldn't that mean we would have to change you before you came over, then before you left?" Blaine asked.

"Yeah, but that just means some extra special time with you." Kurt said with smoldering eyes.

He leaned in and kissed Blaine, not so chastely, on his lips to emphasize his point.

"hmm… Well in that case." Blaine smiled eyes dilated almost animal like.

He met Kurt's lips again, a little harder this time and eased him back onto the mattress.

Kurt lay down on his back, feeling the sweet pressure of Blaine on top of him, straddling him, their growing erections pressing together.

Never parting, the kiss became deeper and more breathtaking. Their hearts began to pound in sync as Blaine let his hands grab the back of Kurt's head, pulling them closer. Kurt let one hand comb up the nape of Blaine's neck, into his gel free, damp and wild curls. Blaine pushed his hips down letting his erection slide against Kurt's making both of them emit low moans. Blaine pulled away and rested his forehead on Kurt's as he panted from lack of air.

"Kurt, I love you" Blaine simply stated.

"I love you too Blaine" Kurt replied as he pulled Blaine's lips back to his.

Blaine sat back up briefly to go to his side table drawer to grab his stash of lube.

"You weren't secretly planning this now, were you?" Kurt joked.

"Not exactly, but I'm always prepared." He smiled and wagged his eyebrows.

Kurt giggled and Blaine pressed his hips down making that giggle turn into a moan. He put the bottle next to them and ran his hands slowly down Kurt's chest taking the bottom hem of his shirt and pulling it up and off, throwing it behind him somewhere. He ran his hands back down his porcelain chest and moaned deep in his throat. Kurt then followed Blaine's actions as he ran his hands down Blaine's chest, grabbing the bottom hem, and pulling it up and over his head, then dropped it beside the bed. Now both half naked Blaine bent back down to nip at the sensitive spots on Kurt's neck. He came up to the spot behind his ear and Kurt bucked his hips up involuntarily, gripped Blaine's hips, and moaned.

Blaine smiled against Kurt's skin before moving to his ear and whispering,

"God, you make the most sinful sounds."

Kurt smiled and ran his hands up Blaine's back and then scratched downward gently. Blaine slid his hips forward against Kurt, and closed his eyes and moaned at the friction and pleasurable pain from Kurt, who smirked.

"Now who's the one making sinful sounds?"

"Turn over." Blaine whispered into Kurt's ear.

Kurt obliged and shifted, trying not to rub against Blaine, and flipped over onto his stomach. Blaine let his hands roam and massage the expanse of Kurt's back, relaxing him.

As his hands were working out the kinks in his shoulders he bent down and peppered light kisses on the back of Kurt's neck and in between his shoulder blades.

"Blaine…" Kurt moaned.

He didn't want to tease, he knew what Kurt wanted, and he wanted Kurt just as badly. He let his hands slide down to Kurt's waist, grabbed his hips and lifted him up slightly. His hands then circled around to the front of Kurt's jeans, undoing both the button and the zipper in one smooth motion before grabbing them at the hips and pulling, both, Kurt's boxer briefs and pants down. Kurt just lay back down and closed his eyes as he let Blaine take control. He felt his pants and underwear come completely off and heard them drop to the floor with a thump. He heard the sound of Blaine removing his pants as well hearing the sound of the garments hitting the floor. He felt the mattress dip and his boyfriends calloused hands going back to their previous ministrations on his skin.

Blaine bent down and kissed every inch of skin on Kurt's body he could reach. He got to Kurt's ass and spread his cheeks, making a spur of the moment decision, not even bothering to try and talk himself out of it, and experimentally licked his rim.

Kurt sucked in air, gasping and moaning in surprise, they've never tried that, and it never seemed appealing before now, but GOD it felt so good, and all Kurt wanted at that moment was for Blaine to do that again.

Assuming the breath and moan was a good thing Blaine continued his ministrations for a moment before pushing one step further. He pushed his tongue through the tight ring of muscle and entered Kurt as much as he could.

"Oh my God, Blaine!" Kurt yelped. He was white knuckling the sheets like a vice, thrusting his hips down on the mattress trying to get some friction. It all felt like it was all too much yet nowhere near enough.

"Blaine, please, I need more." He growled.

Blaine was happy to oblige removing his tongue before he kissed each cheek and sat up to grab the lube.

With a snap of the bottle cap he coated his fingers and warmed it up a bit. Without warning he slipped his hand between Kurt's cheeks and probed at his entrance. The first ring of muscle was loose from his tongue, but as he went further he felt the tight muscles surrounding his finger. Kurt moaned and writhed beneath him. Blaine felt him relax after a minute and started thrusting in and out before slipping out completely and adding a second finger. He started scissoring his fingers, stretching him and feeling for that spot.

"Oh holy hell…" Kurt yelled, jerking forward and back again as Blaine stroked his prostate.

Blaine smiled and took his fingers out eliciting a whimper form Kurt, who was surprised a moment later when three fingers entered and immediately hit his prostate with no mercy.

"Blaine, please…" Kurt begged.

Again, Blaine didn't want to tease Kurt, but after hearing him whine and beg like that, he couldn't resist.

"Please what?" Blaine asked.

"Please, I want you, I need you in me NOW!" Kurt ordered, unashamed. After all he wasn't the same baby penguin he was a few months ago.

Blaine bent down, still thrusting his fingers relentlessly and kissed Kurt's lower back feeling him shiver at the contact.

He removed his fingers and wiped them on the comforter before he grabbed the bottle once more and coated his painfully hard cock.

"I love you Kurt." Blaine said lining himself up, but not touching.

"I love you too Blaine." Kurt replied.

He felt Blaine start to push in slowly. Once completely sheathed inside of Kurt, he exhaled deeply, waiting for Kurt's okay. It wasn't long before he felt him relax under him and received a nod to go ahead.

Blaine grabbed Kurt's hips and pulled out almost completely then slammed back in.

"BLAINE!" Kurt screamed. He loved it when Blaine was rough.

Blaine thrust in and out, finding a rhythm and that oh so perfect angle. He shifted a little to the right and that was it, that was the spot.

Moans filled the room, sweat dripping down their bodies from so much heat.

"Oh God, Kurt, I'm so close." Blaine said brokenly.

"Me too." Kurt got out through clenched teeth.

With each deep thrust from Blaine, Kurt went into the mattress giving him that friction he desperately needed. His breathing was erratic and the noises he was making were highly embarrassing. This was the best sex they have had, and he didn't think that was possible. Incoherent words and phrases staggered out of Blaine's mouth. His eyes were closed and his head was thrown back from the new yet familiar sensation. Three thrusts later Blaine was coming hard into Kurt as he kept thrusting, riding out his orgasm and hitting Kurt's prostate trying to finish him off too. It took four more thrusts and hits to his prostate before Kurt was coming hard into the bed sheets below him as well.

"Blaine…" Kurt mumbled breathlessly into the pillow.

"Kurt…" Blaine mumbled back as he pulled out of him and collapsed on his back.

"Was it just me or was that somehow better than any other time?" Kurt asked still trying to catch his breath.

"Yeah, Nope, definitely somehow better… Who knew?" Blaine chuckled rolling off of Kurt to his side. Kurt turned his head in Blaine's direction and opened his eyes for what felt like an eternity of having them closed. Blaine turned to meet his gaze and smiled at his beautiful boyfriend.

"I love you."

"I love you too." They whispered.

It was with those words that Blaine wrapped Kurt in his arms and held him, sleep taking over. They closed their eyes and fell into their dreams not caring about the mess, or what was to come the next day, just caring that they had each other, and really that was all that mattered.

Tomorrow Kurt would be Elizabeth, and Blaine would, finally, get to introduce the love of his life to his parents, who would be none the wiser. All would be well. Blaine kissed Kurt, who had already drifted off, on his temple before closing his eyes.

Best night ever! He thought as he drifted off as well. Best. Night. Ever!