Sinfully Yours
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AN: Hahaha. I couldn't think of any original titles for the TV shows. So lame. Hahaha.
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After almost two months of endless recordings, it was finally done.
The frigging album was done, edited, finished.
GoM couldn't be more thankful. The first phase was over. Now the next thing they needed to focus on was the promotion.
One afternoon, during a priceless day off, the boys of GoM were staying at home relaxing. Well, except Midorima, who had mysteriously disappeared this morning right after breakfast.
Takao hung up with whomever he was talking to on the phone. Ecstatic, he turned towards the three young men in the Living room: Kise, Kuroko and Kagami. "Finally! Aaarggghh! We got the Happy! interview! As well as a 30minute feature in Tokyo Beats!"
Kuroko and Kise were sitting on the loveseat, Kuroko's legs lying on Kise's thighs and they were snuggling, whispering sweet obscenities in each other's ear. Meanwhile Kagami was trying hard to watch TV without getting distracted by the sickeningly affectionate couple on the loveseat.
Upon Takao's joyous announcement, the three boys also felt cheery.
Takao began to make plans. Happy! was a famous Saturday afternoon variety show. Because of the large audience share, the band would be getting good exposure. Tokyo Beats was a leading music video channel in Tokyo, and it was hard to be featured in the show's tightly packed programming.
But because Takao was a hard working manager, he did his best to find good spots for his boys. "Okay, guys, I'll just be in my room, making appointments. Kagami, why don't you tell Aomine the good news?"
Kise and Kuroko were back in their own world, oblivious to their surrounding.
Kagami shifted on his seat, not knowing what to do. He watched as Takao climbed the stairs, dreading the task he was about to do.
For the past few weeks Aomine really became cold towards him. Cold, distant, yet still polite. Aomine smiled at him now like it was an obligation. And he never engaged Kagami in small chit chats like in the past.
Kagami exhaled shakily, feeling tired with Aomine's hot and cold personality. The guitarist could be boisterously chatting with anyone, especially in the band, but when it came to Kagami, Aomine would simply smile, nod his head and agree to anything Kagami would say.
It was maddening.
Sure this was what he wanted in the past. To just be professionally working with each other. Kagami was just a stand in. After this gig he had a home to go back to. He and Aomine didn't have to be friends in the first place.
In the past, it was Aomine who always encouraged him to do his best, tease him when he was feeling lonely, assist him with ad libs and chord plays. Kagami knew he himself was a good musician, but Aomine was so wicked with his guitar Kagami had never met anyone before who could be as flexible as him. He could easily pick up a tune and rhythm as if it was as natural as breathing itself.
But over the past few weeks...
Aomine never spoke a friendly word to him, outside of business, even during rehearsal breaks. Whereas before Aomine would stick to him like glue, sitting close to where he was, eating beside him, now it seemed as Aomine didn't even see him.
Oh, Kagami did make the moves to bridge that widening chasm between them. He asked so many questions about the song's parts, hoping Aomine would go back to his original playful self, so that they could go back to how it was.
What Kagami hated more was when Aomine would politely answer all his questions with that annoying fake smile pasted all over his face. Aomine never teased him anymore, never joked around with him, though he still acted normally with the other guys.
It was driving Kagami nuts.
Why was he so concerned about this?
Especially now that Kise and Kuroko were acting all lovey dovey with each other. They were still discreet when there were other people around, but Kagami could tell how affectionate they were to each other. Those glances they gave each other when no one was looking, they were so hot and lust-filled that Kagami would find himself blushing to the root of his hair, just by watching.
Of course Midorima and Takao had not changed. They still goofed around or sometimes bitched at each other during rehearsals, but Kagami still felt the connection between them. They may snap or glare at each other, but at home, they let down their hair and Takao would fawn over Midorima. Midorima was still bitchy at other people but he tolerated Takao's skinship with hm.
Sometimes Midorima would surprise everyone because he would casually wrap his arm around Takao during one of their breaks. Kagami could see how happy it made Takao sometimes when Midorima showed him some affection.
That left him and Aomine, with this awkward current between them. If the other guys in the band noticed it, they did not make any comment.
Mustering his courage, Kagami went up the stairs, pausing in front of their bedroom door first, before turning the doorknob.
Aomine was sitting on hs bed, watching something on his laptop. A pair of expensive headsets were on his ears. Kagami knew Aomine could see him from the door, but the guitarist did not move from what he was doing. Bitterly, Kagami thought he was being ignored again.
"Ehem," he coughed, clearing his throat. Aomine's eyes remained focused on the screen.
Annoyed, Kagami knocked on the door. Aomine raised his eyes to Kagami questioningly. Then he removed the headsets. "Yeah?"
"Takao said we got an interview on Happy! And a spot on Tokyo Beats."
A genuine look of surprise and happiness washed over Aomine's face. "Cool. That's cool."
Kagami was honestly stunned by how handsome Aomine really was when he smiled. Especially since these past few weeks Kagami hadn't seen that kind of smile from the bluenette. "Since it's kinda new for me, these variety shows and all... What do you advise? How do I act?" He was still standing by the open door.
Aomine shrugged, the smile disappearing from his face. He looked at his laptop again, almost like dismissing Kagami. "I don't know. I don't know how it's like in any American show either. Just be yourself, I guess."
"Okay,"Kagami, acknowledged, feeling disappointed again that Aomine had once more rejected this chance of having a simple conversation.
Aomine put the headsets back on, concentrating on his computer. Kagami felt like a fool, there, standing by the door, hoping to talk more and being shot down instead. With a curt nod, Kagami called out, "That's all, then. I'll go back now."
"Hn,"Aomine grunted, typing on his laptop.
Kagami closed the door and walked away.
Inside the room, Aomine raised his head, his eyes fixed on the closed door. Suddenly he tore away his headsets from his ears and threw them on the bed.
He felt a headache coming.
Massaging his throbbing temple, he closed his eyes and swore, "Dammit!"
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Takao was back in the room he shared with Midorima. He opened his laptop, getting ready to do his reports. As he waited for his computer to boot up, he looked at Midorima's bed.
His used shirt and pants lay there. Takao went over to them and picked them up, planning to throw into the dirty clothes' hamper.
He wondered where Midorima went to this morning. These past few days off , Midorima had been disappearing to who knew where. As a manager, it was Takao's duty to find out where his talents spent their free time. Not to intrude too much, but it was his job to know if his talents were doing something that would get them into trouble.
Takao knew he had all the right to ask where Midorima had been spending his days off. As a manager, yeah, he should ask. But whenever Takao thought about asking, he would think that Midorima would get annoyed with him and instead mistake it for being too clingy or needy, something that Takao did not want to happen.
They didn't have a relationship of course. They were nothing but fuck buddies. At least in Midorima's part. For Takao, a single second being with Shin-chan mattered a lot. He treasured all these moments. If Midorima ever lost interest in him because he was getting needy in this set-up, Midorima may avoid him like a plague.
Takao knew how it was with rock star playboys like these people.
Though he wasn't like that before...
Nevertheless, Takao decided Midorima was not stupid. He could handle doing some things on his own. Maybe he was just hanging out with his other friends.
Takao piled the clothes on his arm, bending over to fix the bedding on Midorima's bed.
Some pieces of paper fell from Midorima's pants.
Frowning, Takao picked them up.
Receipts.
One was from a known five star hotel in Shinjuku. And one was from a pharmacy.
Strawberry flavored condoms.
Takao's fingers trembled as he read the receipts. Hotels and condoms? There could only be one meaning to that.
Losing the energy on his legs, Takao slid down towards the bed. So. This was where Shin-chan was spending his free time. Sleeping around.
Why did it hurt so much? They weren't in any kind of relationship. Takao couldn't stop Midorima from seeing anyone else. Who was he? He was their manager! They weren't even supposed to be hooking up in the first place!
Takao crumpled the papers to his chest. He thought –
He thought that after all this time, since Midorima was getting more affectionate with him, Takao thought it had started to mean something more serious to the drummer. Apparently he was wrong.
He was so wrong.
Takao forgot what he was going to do in his computer, just sitting there on Shin-chan's bed, the dirty clothes on his arms.
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When Kagami went back downstairs, Kise was alone, watching TV. "Where's Kuroko?"
"Oh, he said he's going to lay down for a bit."
The two guys started watching a baseball game. Kise was a big fan of the sport so he cheered when his favored team would make a homerun. Kagami wasn't much into the game. He preferred American basketball.
He just sat there on the couch beside Kise, looking gloomy.
Kise noticed the red haired bassist's dismal expression. "Hey, are you okay?"
"Hmm?"
"You look as if your cat died or something," Kise commented with a sad smile.
Kagami shook his head. "Nothing. I'm just nervous. With the band and the sales and our tour. Things like that."
"Oh. Well, this is your first time doing something this big, so I can understand. But don't worry. Everything will turn out great."
After that they watched more TV.
During a commercial break, Kagami decided to ask what had been nagging at him these past few days. "Um, Kise?"
"Yeah?"
"How do you – " Kagami paused, flushing in embarrassment.
"What is it?" The blonde turned towards Kagami, curious.
Kagami had to clear his throat. "Y-you and Kuroko... You're – what? Dating?"
"Aaah." Kise scratched his head, getting equally flustered. But he looked pleased, nonetheless. "Well, yeah. You can't tell anyone, though. I know you're straight, so you probably won't get it. But, yes, we're together." There was a tinge of pride as Kise made the confession.
"S-so, how does it work?"
"What do you mean?"
Kagami also didn't know exactly what he meant by his own question. "I mean, for how long? Dating like just – being together now or will you – um – you know – get married one day?"
Kise snorted loudly. Then he chuckled, making Kagami squirm more in his seat. "I – I don't know, man. I really like him. If it's possible to stay together until we're both very very old and retired from the business then that's what I want."
"But how about marriage to women? Kids? Won't people wonder why you're both single?"
Kise sighed. "Kagami, if Kuroko and I spent our time thinking about the negative things in the future – which may or may not happen – it would only make us miserable."
"But you have to think about them, too, right? Especially since you're both celebrities and this wouldn't be good for your careers."
"That's why Kuroko and I prefer to just stay home because here we can be ourselves. Of course we have to pretend when we're out in public. That's the normal thing to do. But our private lives are ours. No one can dictate who I should love and what not."
"But marriage?"
Kise shook his head. "We haven't talked about what we'd do if it comes up. I don't think I'd want to deceive a girl by marrying her just so I can hide behind her. I don't know yet, but marrying is the furthest thing in my mind."
They were silent for a while, both of them thinking about their current situations.
Kagami spoke again, "Is it worth it?"
"Worth the what?"
"W-well, because you're both guys, you cannot... express your feelings for each other. And since you're in showbiz, you have to hide your relationship all the time."
"Kagami... I love Kuroko. No one else. If the price of having him is to keep on hiding this relationship, I would gladly do it. I will not lie and be married to a person I do not want. So as for your question. Yes, Kuroko is more than worth it."
"I see."
"Lying takes its toll overtime, Kagami. A person may break down and do worse things. Think about it. People cannot lie their whole lives." Kise spoke pointedly, as if he was sending the message to Kagami himself.
Kagami blushed, looking away.
"It's hard to let go, Kagami, I know that. But unless a person accepts who he is, he will never truly be happy."
Kagami sighed, feeling bone weary all of a sudden. He stared at his hands, turning them over and over.
Kise gripped his knee. "If you need to talk to me about anything bothering you, I'll listen. I won't judge, I won't tell you how to make your decision. I'll just listen."
The bassist nodded, sighing again.
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Midorima came home late, after dinner. Kise and Kuroko had already retired to their room. Kagami was left watching TV, though he was staring at the wall the whole time.
When the drummer slipped into the room, Takao was working on his computer.
Midorima was undressing when Takao looked up from his laptop. In a gentle voice he started, "Shin-chan, I found receipts in your pocket. Are you sure whoever you're sleeping with wouldn't cause you troubles?"
Shin-chan stopped undressing, staring at Takao as if hedidn't know what their manager meant. Then he seemed to remember. "Oh. The hotel? Yeah, well, it's okay. Don't worry about it."
Takao was hurt more by the casual way Shin-chan confirmed the hookup. As if it was no big deal at all. "You do know we're in the middle of promotion right now. We cannot afford to have any kind of scandal now that –"
Impatiently Midorima stated, "I told you it's okay. It was a woman. I'm not stupid as to hook up with a guy at this point in time."
Takao clenched his fist. So. A woman. Knowing that it wasn't a guy did not alleviate the pain he felt. "And today? Did you go to a hotel, too?"
Midorima grumbled, "So many questions."
"As your manager –"
"No, it wasn't a hotel. I went to her place. Don't worry, no one saw me, okay?"
Takao endured the piercing he pain he felt in his chest. "Is it the same woman?"
Midorima looked at him as if he was an idiot. "Of course not. I don't see people more than once. Less messy that way."
In a weak voice Takao said, "Okay, as long as you're careful."
Midorima shrugged going back to his undressing, oblivious to the misery that Takao was feeling. He had no idea his casual flings hurt their manager more than they should.
Takao went back to typing, determined to just move on and forget about the whole thing. Midorima was free to do what he wanted. If Takao continued to be depressed over it, he would end up the loser over it in the long run. He shouldn't let this affect him.
When Midorima was completely naked, he glanced at Takao sitting on his bed, looking serious in whatever he was doing.
Slowly he walked to Takao's bed, climbing it and reached out to draw Takao into a kiss. Takao was startled, pulling away. "What is it?"
"Let's fuck."
Takao frowned. "Dude, you just went to a woman's place. Didn't get any?"
Midorima rolled his eyes. "She doesn't have the same tight ass that you do."
Takao was going to protest, since he was busy finishing his report and he was also busy sending emails to TV/radio show producers so he could get more airtime and spots for GoM. "Wait, wait. I'm doing something important –"
"Tsk. Just ten minutes," Shin-chan growled.
Takao knew he should really decline. He should. He was the biggest doormat in the history of all doormats.
But whenever Midorima spoke forcefully to him like that, Takao knew he couldn't deny the green eyed drummer anything. Shin-chan lifted the laptop away from Takao and lay on top of him, roughly shoving Takao's thighs apart with his knee.
Takao moaned into their kiss, temporarily forgetting the pain he felt when he learned about Midorima's casual flings.
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The following days were busy for GoM. They performed in several events and parties. Kise and Kuroko were amazing in their performances. Their chemistry onstage was undeniably captivating. They also made guest appearances on several variety shows and radio programs.
For awhile, Kagami was distracted by all the glitz of the entertainment industry. He saw himself on TV, on youtube, their ads were posted in different websites. It was almost surreal.
One thing that didn't change though was how Aomine kept his distance. Even when they were doing shows, Aomine would playfully play guitars with Kise during their ad lib parts, connecting with Kise.
But he never tried any stunt with Kagami. He was still distant. Polite, but aloof.
One afternoon, while GoM was on the set of one music show, where in some of their performances would be taped, the boys were busy setting up their instruments along with other assistants.
Kagami was a little confused about his part in the intro. They had rehearsed it several times, but today, they were doing a different rendition of the song, somewhat like an acoustic version.
He wanted to ask Kise and Kuroko but they were currently talking to the floor director about blocking and such.
Nervously, he turned to Aomine who was standing a few feet away from him, tuning his guitar. Kagami sighed. He supposed it was better now than never. They should talk eventually, right?
Sucking in a harsh breath, Kagami gathered all his courage and walked over to where Aomine was. "Hey, got a minute?"
Aomine was honestly startled for a second but he came around. "Sure, what's up?"
Kagami gestured with his bass. "Uh – this part... I honestly don't know if it should be like this or like this..." He proceeded to show Aomine what he was talking about by plucking the chords.
"Aahhh... Go a little slower. Like this."
They spent the next minutes studying their chords, with Aomine showing him how to do his part in the intro.
Kagami gave him a wide smile. "Thanks, man. You're really awesome."
Aomine merely nodded, not being able to look at Kagami straight in the eye. He was thinking of stepping back so he could continue checking the sounds of the instruments but Kagami slapped his arm lightly.
"This is great, you know? I never imagined I would be able to be a part of something this big and... You guys are the best. And thanks – for being so patient with me..."
Aomine glanced at his beaming face, once again enthralled by the way Kagami's face lit up whenever he smiled like that.
He was so gorgeous.
So hot.
And so unattainable.
Aomine removed his guitar from his body and said, "Please excuse me. I need to go to the washroom."
Kagami was still smiling. "Okay."
Aomine strode away, his steps quick and fast. When he got to the men's room, he quickly shut the door. Aomine proceeded to check all the stalls, making sure no one was inside.
Hmm, the men's room was empty.
Aomine sighed. And looked at the mirror at his miserable face.
Then he started screaming.
"BAKA! BAKA! BAAKAAAAAA! Bakagami, you idiot!"
He squatted on the floor, his head bowed low between his knees, his hand going up to scratch his head.
Scritch... Scritch... Scritch...
"What the fuck are you doing, showing me that kind of cute face! Do you want me to rape you?" he screamed again, as he stared at his shoes.
"I just want to give up, you know... Yu're going back to LA. You're straight. I just want to walk into a room and feel nothing when I see you. Is that hard? Huh? Is that sooo hard?"
He was now talking to the floor.
"Damn it! This is fucking stupid!"
Resolutely, he stood and went to the sink. He opened the faucet and splashed cold water on his face. He had better calm down once he went back to the set.
He'd calm down and try to forget Kagami.
Even if it killed him.
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LOL.
Hahaha. I dunno. I just love Aomine.
Anyway, do you hate Midorima now? Yeah well, he'll get his punishment, don't worry. Although technically he and Takao really are just fubus so it should be, no harm, no foul, right?
No haters, hehehe...
Love you guys.