Extra Side Story
Heichou's Journal
Year 849 December 25th
I don't know why I'm writing in this journal, but I'm doing it. It's Christmas, so Erwin gave me this to write my thoughts down. I told him that it was a waste of time but I'm writing anyway.
Year 849, December 26th
I don't know why I am still writing this. Maybe it's that I never told anybody about what I feel so it's a relief to write down what I feel, to let it all out.
Year 849, December 28th
Today, we went to the 55th expedition. Lots of deaths, just as usual. It angers me that I, the Humanities' Strongest, could not save the lives that were sacrificed. It makes me hate myself. Every time I see the anguished faces, every time I hear their terrified screams, I want to break down, I want to cry. But I can't. I must be inhuman, detached, and unemotional. I must be so because only then, people can depend upon me, rely on me so that they themselves won't break down in times of hardship. It's the least I can do.
But then I ask: Whom will I rely on when I'm the one about to break?
Year 850, January 1st
Today's the New Year. A new start. Another year to survive. This year, too, will have just as many deaths as last year, probably.
Year 850, February 5th
I did not write for the past month because there was nothing to write. What was there to write? Deaths, MIA, titans…A sickening part of my life. If Erwin didn't find me when I was in Underground, I wouldn't be experiencing this, would I… Sometimes I wonder why Erwin was so keen on me joining the Survey Corpse. It is true that I am talented at the 3DMG (What? It's the truth, and there's no use denying that), but that was all to me. Even today, even though I am the Humanities' Strongest, I find myself wondering if Erwin foresaw all this and if that was the reason he was so insistent on recruiting me.
Year 850, February 11th
Today's the brat's birthday. She would be fifteen this year. I'm sure that she forgot about me now. She was so young when I left her…Maybe she's not even alive. Maybe she died when the titans broke the wall.
Year 850, February 28th
It was the day for the 56th Expedition today. It was the most…queer one we had. The most wasteful one, too. We were outside the walls, killing titans and gathering data when Erwin suddenly ordered us to retreat. I was of course annoyed and angry. We weren't at to our limit yet, but the arrogant Eyebrows was ordering us back to the confinement of walls, making the lives of soldiers who were sacrificed basically wasted.
When we got back to the walls, we found out that the gate of the Trost was broken, yet somehow blocked off again with a gigantic boulder. Where was hordes of titans milling inside the walls for me to kill. I did not know what was happening, but immediately began my task of killing the titans. As I was exterminating the vile creatures, I also rescued three brats who were covered in titan filth. So, naturally, feeling my need to know the situation, I asked them what the heck was happening. The situation was very…interesting. Eren Yeager, who was one of the three brats, had the ability to turn into a titan.
Year 850, March 5th
Today was the day for trial for Eren Yeager. I talked a bit with him beforehand, thus discovering his very strong desire to kill titans. I wonder what he has experienced in the past to make him so hating toward the giants. Anyway, to make sure that the brat won't be dissected by the MP, I was forced to put on a show and kick that brat until he was half-dead. But I don't regret that. It saved him, and frankly, I meant every word of what I said to him. But I was sorry, so I asked him if he blamed me. He said no. But I don't like the way he looks at me, mixed with respect and fear. I don't find the fear; it's the respect that bothers me. I don't deserve it.
Year 850, March 14th
What. The. H***.
The impossible have happened. I saw a doppelganger of myself.
It was a perfect day, so I decided to clean the castle. I had my supplies and was going upstairs when I bumped into another person. Me.
We stared at each other, and I felt a strange sense of wrongness. We started fighting, and Erwin heard us and sorted us out. We had no idea what had happened, and Hange barged in frantically and babbled about an experiment she did but how could she remember nothing of it until she noticed us. Then, Erwin, the S***** Four-eyes and the doppelganger and I searched her room until we found a book about parallel universe. The rest of a breeze after that. Except for the bit when I had to hold back from killing the Four-eyes.
Hange promised me to try to find a way to send me back as soon as possible. She better will.
Year 850, March 30th
Hange have finally found the way back. She says that she'll send me back around noon tomorrow, but I feel a strange feeling of…danger. I don't like to look she had in her eyes when she told me that.
Also, I feel…a bit of sadness and longing. I don't know why, but…actually I think I do know. Whenever I close my eyes, whenever I think about going back, I can't help but think of her. Petra.
Petra's very similar to Petra in my world, but somehow different. She has honey-golden eyes instead of sky-blue ones, and her hair's more of a caramel then blonde. Yet she's as kind as the Petra in my world, if not more. I found myself attracted to her, and when I told her so, she said that she loved me too. She respected the me from this world, but for some reason she couldn't understand, she sees something different in me, and loves me. But now I'm going back. Even if I start a relationship with Petra from my world, which is unthinkable, it won't be the same. Even though Petra is Petra, she wouldn't be the Petra I know, the Petra I love. What should I do?
Year 850, March 31st
I knew it.
I knew I shouldn't have trusted S***** Glasses.
I knew she would try something fishy.
I knew she would send my other self back, rather than sending me back.
But where is she now? I looked for her in the castle, but I couldn't find her. She must be hiding. If she is, she better hide well, because I am going to kill her when I find her.
But there are also other strange things. People acts like nothing happened, like I was the Levi from this world and nobody came over to this world at all. I will need to inquire Four-eyes later when I find her.
For now, I must leave, for I hear a loud noise downstairs.
A/N: Surprise Chapter! Yay! So, yeah, an extra story I wrote when I had a lot of ideas and a bunch of free time. It kind of explains Levi's side of story, and a bunch other things my fangirl mind dreamed of. To say the truth *cough cough* I wrote this so that when I was late on writing a story I would have something to replace it...But please review!