Author Notes: So this chapter gets pretty crazy. In the middle there will be a trigger warning in all caps so please be aware of it. The section isn't needed to continue the plot so if you must please skip it, other than that please enjoy the rollercoaster ride of the next chapter.

EM ;)

Ch 14 IT ALL FALLS APART

Lexa's POV

It was still the middle of the night as she caught herself staring at her new wife again. Her face looked so peaceful in her arms. Her breathing was even and she could feel the occasional puff of breath on her neck, she truly loved this woman. She was slightly prideful that Octavia had allowed her to take her first and even more prideful that she told her only hours before that she loved her. Her fingers lightly caressed Octavia's naked back as her thoughts went back to earlier that night and how she had made love to her. Everything about it was so dreamy and perfect, but she knew her new wife still didn't have the stamina to be able to return the pleasure she gave her. She really didn't mind it she was happy to be the first to please her and she didn't mind that she had fallen asleep, but her core still pulsated with need. She tried to avoid it by sleeping, but sleep never came and the night seemed to last an eternity. She felt Octavia shift in her sleep and a soft moan hummed into her neck. She shivered as it sent goose bumps throughout her body. She raised an eyebrow as she inspected her wife. I wonder what she's dreaming about. She thought to herself. Another moan sounded from her throat a little louder than the last one as she felt Octavia tense her legs in the sheets. Ah, she must be having a wet dream. A small smirk lined her face. With her free hand, she slowly moved it down her already warmed body. She tried her best not to wake her wife from her erotic dream as she felt the warmth radiating from her core. She could feel she was already soaked with lust for Octavia as her fingers slipped between her between her legs. She started slowly as she watched her wife's blushed face. Her breaths became shallow as she started to feel the light sweat accumulate on her brow. "Oh Octavia" She whispers as she felt her climax getting closer and to her surprise she received a small moan in response. She was even more surprised when she heard a soft whisper near her ear "mmm Lexa" She felt Octavia clench her legs again and softer moans hummed in her throat and it finally pushed Lexa over the edge. She quietly rode out her orgasm as she pictured her wife between her legs, her wife gripping her thighs, and her wife's beautiful eyes looking up at her. She finally sighed in relief as exhaustion finally caught up with her. She moved slightly to make herself more comfortable next to her wife and wrapped both her arms tightly around her. "I love you so much Octavia." She whispers as she saw the small smile on her face. She soon fell into a deep sleep relaxed and happy.

She was still lying on her bed trying to sleep when something soft pressed against her neck. She tried to ignore it as she tried to stay asleep. She hadn't slept this good in a long time and the nightmares had finally stopped so she wanted a few more minutes, but there it was again and a small nip at her ear followed. Her eyes shot open when she remembered who was sharing her bed and who could possibly be touching her right now. She turned to look at a beautiful brunette next to her and her surprised face softens. "Good morning. If I told you that you look even more beautiful in the morning would you believe me?" She saw Octavia's hands go directly to her hair.

"No! My hair is everything and I'm sure I have morning breath." She put her hand over her mouth as she spoke the last few words. She really is cute when she's blushing.

"I meant it." Lexa got up giving Octavia a kiss on her forehead. "We are pretty dirty from last night how about we go to the bath. I'll scrub your back if you scrub mine?" A smile spread across Octavia's face as she nodded happily and they walked hand in hand into the bathing room. Looks like Meka came in while we were still asleep. She thought to herself as she saw a bath was already ready and it was still warm. She got in first and helped Octavia into the bath. Lexa sat down and Octavia followed sliding between her legs pressing her back against Lexa's body. Lexa sighed contently as she rested her chin on Octavia's shoulder grabbing a soft towel beginning to scrub Octavia's body. The room was already slightly steamy, but the light touches they were giving each other made the room even hotter, but it was all interrupted when a loud knock came from the door. Anger started to consume her as she was wondering who would dare interrupt them she then heard the door open. She quickly wrapped her arms around Octavia covering her exposed breasts and saw the bubbles cover the rest well enough. Octavia quickly glanced back to her with a worried expression. "Shhh. Don't worry not just anyone can walk in here." She glared at the door waiting for the perpetrator to step in and when she did she was surprised. It was Indra and she was someone who would avoid at all cost to anger her. It must be important.

Indra walked forward into the washroom with her eyes to the floor. "Commander I truly apologize for interrupting you so suddenly. A messenger from the Steel Clan has just arrived and the uprising has taken a drastic turn. They are raiding and killing innocent people now. Commander Abigail has left Clarke Griffin to deal with them as she goes back to her clan to protect their stronghold and elders. She afraid they will start assassinating their leaders. Clarke is waiting to speak to you and won't leave without you."

Lexa takes a deep breath. She was hoping she wouldn't have to get involved, but it seems these criminals aren't going to stop. They were the same terroristic group that killed Clarke's father and tried to overthrow the leadership of the Steel Clan. Clarke had been crying the night before when the group in charge of the uprisings finally revealed themselves. This was the one thing that actually scared Clarke and she begged Lexa to help her through it and she had agreed. Now she will have to leave her new wife alone to fight another war against some of the worst people she knew. After years of trying to find them in the caves of the mountains without success, the people started calling the revolutionary group the Mountain Men. The Mountain Men were led by a maniac, Cage Wallace, he was the first scientist to want to use biochemical weapons against their enemies, but was experimenting it on Steel Clan members and when Jake Griffin, the current Commander, and Clarke's father, found out he banished him and destroyed all the information he had gathered. Using fear as a weapon Cage convinced many that if they didn't create the weapon someone else would and use it against them and soon after he tried to overthrow Commander Jake. He ended up being outnumbered when the armies finally mobilized and he ran, but not before executing Commander Jake in front of a young Clarke. It happened so fast and drastically even Lexa who was in training to become Commander heard of the execution. It was her first fear of becoming Commander, to be killed by someone from her own clan to get her title.

"Commander what is your decision."

Lexa snapped out of her trance. "Yes, I will go meet her. You may leave and please ask Meka to enter." Indra bowed and left the room. Meka entered with towels in her hand as she helped a confused Octavia out of the bath wrapping a towel around her. Lexa followed taking her towel from Meka's hand. "I'm so sorry, love, to leave you like this, but this is something I gave my word I would help take care of." She pulled Octavia close seeing her hurt eyes and she leaned in giving her a small kiss. She closed the gap giving her a long hug before you walked out the room to dress quickly and meet Clarke.

Octavia POV

She didn't have anything to say as heard the small conversation between Indra and Lexa. She didn't have anything to say when she heard Lexa say she was sorry and she didn't have anything to say when she watched her walked out the washroom and then out their bedroom. She hung her head low as she walked into their room. She still only had a towel wrapped around her as she looked towards the unmade bed. She was so happy just a few hours ago and now she felt empty. She felt a hand on her shoulder but she shrugged it off.

"Octavia."

"What Meka?" She knew she was being harsh to the woman, but whom she really wanted touching her or even speaking to right now was her wife.

"You know Lexa is the Commander of the Twelve Clans. This is her job and responsibility."

"I know."

"You know this means she's going to leave right?"

"Yes, I know she is leaving me."

"Maybe you should meet her at the stables and say goodbye. I know she would like that. Let her tell you she loves you one more time. Maybe then you wouldn't feel so alone while she is gone?" Meka could always read her like a book. She knew she wasn't mad at Lexa, but already missing her. She nodded her head and decided to let Meka help her dress.

Lexa's POV

After the meeting with Clarke she knew they would head towards the mountains again, but this time, they had heard a rumor of their next raid of a town near those mountains. It had high-quality steel for weapons and many other resources. It would be a sure target if they were going to try to overthrow the Commander again. She had wanted to see Octavia again before she left, but the window of opportunity was closing. She saw Indra waiting in the hall for her and started walking along side her.

"Indra have you seen Lincoln? I think it might be wise to have him come with us."

"No Commander no one has seen him since he has returned so I have prepared Gus to take his place. He must be restocking on herbs and medicine and isn't here to go on such short notice."

Lexa stopped in her tracks. Something about the last time she saw Lincoln didn't sit right. The jealousy she saw in his eyes when they spoke of her wife made her slightly fearful to leave.

"Indra I must ask you a favor. I want you to stay here." Indra looked at her shocked.

"I have always fought by your side Commander why do you ask this of me now?"

"Indra as my best friend I'm asking you to watch over my wife. I don't feel she is safe if I leave, so please stay I can only trust you to protect her." Indra nodded.

"If this is what you ask as my friend Lexa I am honored you trust me so much. I will go find her and she will never leave my sight." Indra bows and Lexa puts put her hand on her shoulder.

"Thank you, my friend. Please be safe."

"And you as well Lexa." They both turned around walking their separate ways. She was walking towards the stables when she sees a figure she recognizes standing by the entrance. So much for Indra finding her. She walks up to her wife with a smile on her face.

"I didn't expect to see you again before I left."

"I was really hoping to say goodbye." Lexa looked into her wife's eyes and saw so much more than just a simple goodbye. She saw the love, the hurt, and the sadness everything her wife was feeling was so transparent in her eyes. Lexa reached over pulling Octavia into her chest and she started to hear the quiet sobs coming from her. "Please come back to me." She could hear the desperation in her voice and wrapped her arms and even tighter.

"I promise I will." She let go of Octavia reaching to her belt pulling out a dagger. "This was a gift from Anya. She told me to be strong and courageous like the mighty Oak that helped create this weapon. So take it Octavia and be strong and courageous till I return to you." She placed the small dagger into Octavia's hands giving her another kiss before entering the stables to ready her horse. I promise I will do everything I can to return to you, my love.

Octavia's POV

As she stared at the weapon in her hand with tears still in her eyes she knew she had to be strong for Lexa because how could she be fighting out there if she was worried about her here. She took a deep breath taking in her wife's words. As she about to walk away she sees a figure move in the shadows by the stables. She quickly crouches behind a barrel of supplies to see who is sneaking up in her direction. She recognizes the figure carrying the bow. It's Lincoln. He wore a light colored shirt with a quiver over his shoulder. He was also carrying a medium size knapsack as well. He must have been summoned to go with Lexa, but something was off about him. His face looked contorted with anger. Something wasn't right about what she was seeing so she followed him quietly as he walks over to the other entrance of the stables. She closed in on him as she hears the thumps of a horse heading towards the same direction. She saw him look around the corner but kept himself hidden from whoever was in the stables. She hears the horse neigh as she sees Lexa start galloping away. She watches in shock as Lincoln raises the bow towards her wife with an arrow pointed directly at her. Before she could even think anything through she was running towards him tackling him to the ground as the arrow flies high into the sky barely missing its target. She looks down to interrogate Lincoln about what he was doing when she see the scarlet color spread across his shirt. She looks down and sees Lexa's dagger deep in his abdomen. Her eyes widen as she pulls the dagger out seeing his eyes wide as well looking from her hands to his torso. She looks down at her blood-covered hands and quickly turns and runs from Lincoln. What have I done?! What just happened?! I just killed Lincoln who was about to shoot my wife! I need help! I don't know what to do! Her mind was racing, as she was about to reach the castle only to see Indra running towards her. She watches as Indra's eyes going directly to the blood on her hand and the dagger. Lexa's dagger.

"What have you done!?" Her voice was loud and full of authority its power terrified Octavia.

"I…I… Lexa was…"

"Indra!" A soldier ran towards her at full speed. "The Commander has been wounded! She was stabbed in the back! She's by the stables and unconscious!" Indra's eye widen in disbelief as she looks at Octavia's hands again. She quickly grabs the hand that held the dagger twisting it causing Octavia to drop it and then twists her arm behind her back to immobilize her.

"Why Octavia?" She heard Indra whisper.

"It wasn…" Octavia feels a sharp pain on the back of her neck as everything turned black and she lost consciousness.

Lexa's POV

A Few Moments Before

Lexa was sad to leave Octavia alone, but she had given her word to Clarke and she always kept her word. She patted her horse as she checked that she had everything she needed. She grabbed her beautiful stead's reins and led him out of his stable. Her mind was still on Octavia as she mounted and started to slowly trout and move up to a gallop as she left the stables, but as she was nearing the tree line she heard a whistle of wind breaking by her head. It was an unmistakable sound, the sound of an arrow slicing through the air and it was aimed at her. She quickly turned the horse around to see Octavia on the ground with someone under her. At this point, she was at full gallop fearing her wife was in danger or worse hurt from trying to stop the assassin. She watched as Octavia got up and ran towards the castle. She was dismounting her horse when she realized it was Lincoln who was on the ground covered in blood. She didn't have time to think as she looked at what seemed as an unconscious Lincoln on the ground and appeared like Octavia had stabbed him. Her worry quickly went to Octavia as she walked passed Lincoln to start running after her when she heard a sound behind her, but before she could turn around a sharp pain went through her entire body. She fell to her knees when she heard voices coming from the other end of the stables. The pain in her body intensified as she felt whatever pierced her be removed and the steps shuffling away from her. She felt her face hit the grass as she turned to look behind her only to see Lincoln on her horse galloping towards the woods leaning heavily to one side. Her vision started blackening as she heard shouts and people running towards her. Her last thought was of Octavia in her arms asleep when she finally lost consciousness.

Octavia's POV

It all felt too familiar, the hard cold floor, the musty smell, the darkness. She knew exactly where she was. She was back in her prison, but this time, she wasn't worried about her brother or her clan, she was worried about Lexa. If she heard correctly before she was knocked unconscious someone had hurt her wife. She didn't blame Indra for believing she had something to do with it. Everything looked like she did, but what did tear her up is that no one would tell her how Lexa was doing. The same silence from before was back. She sat again on the back wall waiting for anyone to come and save her. She had been in here for at least 3 days and the small amount of food given to her was causing her to feel extremely weak. She heard the door start to open. Maybe it was someone finally here to take her from this dungeon. Her eyes widen and she stood quickly defensively when she saw Lincoln step through. The kind eyes were gone and his face almost looked repulsive to her.

"Hello, Octavia I'm glad to see you're doing well."

"I thought… I thought I killed you?"

"Any other man probably would have died, but I was wearing my combat armor and it's a little thicker so your dagger didn't pierce anything vital. I was able to convince everyone I was in an accident when I was searching for medicine and rushed back when I heard the Commander was hurt. You see she was stabbed in the back and the injury seemed to have gotten infected. No matter what I do she not breaking out of her fever and will die soon. I was allowed to come see you and get your confession since Indra would kill you if she came." His evil smirk twisted her stomach. "So do you confess your sins?" She finally connected all the dots. He tried to kill Lexa and when he failed he was ready to die, but he got a second chance. Not only a second chance but was able to shift the blame to her absolving him from all of it.

"Why Lincoln? She was your friend."

Anger flashed across his face as he stepped towards her. "She took the only thing I ever wanted! She took you away! Not only that but she stole your heart from me! You don't understand the pain I felt when I realized it was you who stabbed me to protect HER! I would have given you everything you wanted. I would have given you a family and taken you away from all this pain and stupid politics! I would have made you happy!"

Octavia couldn't stand to listen to another word he had to say and shouted right back at him to shut him up. "She is my happiness! She gave me everything I wanted! And I am completely in love with her! I married her! I decided to be with her and not you! Why can't you understand that! I love her!" She saw his body shake in anger and his eyes lose everything she had once considered kind. He took a step towards her and then another. Her back was already against the wall when he stood right in her face with his hand balled up into fists. "If you won't give yourself to me then I will just have to take you." His words were whispers but laced with so much hate and venom.

(TO MY READERS PLEASE SKIP THIS SECTION FOR TRIGGERS ON RAPE TILL THE NEXT CAPS LOCK)

His hand gripped her neck and she felt the air stop flowing into her lungs. His soft hands had turned coarse and the lightning she felt when he first kissed her was now a nauseating taste that burned her lips. Her weak body could hardly fight back as her lungs started to burn for air and he would only release it slightly to allow a few gasps before tightening his grip again. She felt the clothes on her body be ripped and torn off. She managed to dig her nails into his arm only for him to grip her throat and force her head back to hit the wall hard causing her vision to turn white and stop her from being able to fight back. She felt the hot tears run down her face as she felt him devour her body. His touches were nothing like Lexa's soft caresses and her gentle and loving eyes. She sobbed as begged Lexa for forgiveness while he continued ravaging her body over and over again till she lost consciousness from the pain. Her eyes opened to seeing Lincoln fixing his pants. Her throat was burning and she could hardly move her body as she pulled her knees to her chest in the fetal position naked on the floor. Her clothes were destroyed all around her. She saw his smirk as he turned to face her. "Lexa will die and you will die soon after. I am glad I was able to finally show my love to you."

(IT IS SAFE TO READ AGAIN. YOU DO NEED TO READ THE SECTION YOU MISSED TO CONTINUE.)

He turned and left Octavia lying there on the hard cold floor. She didn't know what was going to happen next and her heart ached to know her love was dying, but at least she would join her soon. As she lay there contemplating her death the door burst open showing a terrifying Indra as she searched the cell and when her eyes landed on her she stepped back in shock.

"Meka hurry get in here!" She heard the footsteps run towards her, but she had no more strength every last bit of it was ripped out of her. She heard the two women kneel next to her and felt a small hand go through her hair; she couldn't help but flinch at the touch.

"Octavia what happened?" Meka's voice made hot tears run down her face.

"Lincoln… Lincoln tried to kill Lexa and I stopped him, but he still managed to hurt her. He… he…. He raped me, Meka." Her voice was barely audible to her own ears, but she knew the women heard her as she felt them stiffen next her. She heard Indra get up and run out the room, but Meka stayed.

"We know Lincoln tried to kill Lexa. Lexa was conscious enough for a moment to tell us. We came to get you out of here and found you… like this." She felt Meka cover her body with her own cloak. The only thing she was worried about was Lexa.

"How is she?"

"Gus broke the fever. He said even though Lincoln said he was medicating her to get better he really wasn't. It wasn't till Gus notice something wasn't right and started watching Lincoln that he realized it. We have been searching for him the past few hours. I would never have guessed he would have come here, but we couldn't prove your innocence till Lexa said herself. She is still very ill, but Gus says she will live. Come Heda. Let me get you back home.

Days went by and she couldn't eat or drink. Indra had searched high and low for Lincoln, but he was never found. He had escaped the wrath that awaited him. No one knew that she had been raped except for Indra and Meka. They also couldn't even tell Lexa what had happened. All they said was that she was safe waiting for her return. Meka came in after the fourth day and told her Lexa was well enough to return to her chambers, but Octavia didn't respond she only stayed in her bed like she had the past few days. Meka left knowing she wasn't going to get a response from her and closed the door behind her. Not that long after she heard the door open again and Lexa soft voice filled the room.

"Octavia… I heard you haven't left your room. Were you that worried about me? I promised I would come back to you, my love." She felt the weight on the bed shift as Lexa sat next to her on the edge. She flinched again when she felt Lexa touch her. "Octavia what's wrong? Please talk to me." How was she supposed to face her and tell her another man stole her body?

"I'm so sorry Lexa." It was the first sentence she had said since she admitted the truth to Meka and it was broken with sobs.

"No love. I am sorry Indra didn't believe you when you said you were innocent. I made them return you home as soon as I awoke. I saw you. You saved my life."

"NO!" She didn't mean to shout, but she had to tell Lexa.

"I'm sorry I couldn't be strong enough. I'm sorry I couldn't fight him off of me…"

"What are you talking about Octavia? Fight who?"

"Lincoln raped me while I was in prison." She felt Lexa's hand jump away from her and she started sobbing all over again. "I'm so sorry Lexa, I'm so sorry I couldn't stop him." She felt Lexa grab her hands and bring her up. The thin undershirt she wore showed her body covered in bruises especially the deep purple ones on her neck. She heard Lexa gasp at the sight. She couldn't stand to see them herself that why she hadn't left the room in days. She wanted to forget and she couldn't if saw the evidence on her skin. She couldn't look at her wife as she saw the evidence herself. She was ashamed.

Lexa's POV

She took in the appearance of her wife. She was broken and ashamed and Lexa couldn't do anything about it. She saw how she looked at the floor unable to meet her eyes, but she carefully grabbed her chin and left her face. "No matter what happened you are still my wife. You are still the love of my life and I will make him pay for what he did to you. But don't you ever feel like I would reject you because of what he did to you." She slowly started to put her arms around Octavia making sure she was ok with the contact when she felt her rush into her arms almost taking the breath out of her. She finished wrapping her arms around her as her wife sobbed into her shoulder. She would hunt down Lincoln and kill him with her own hands if it was the last thing she did.

End of chapter Notes: Ok ok I know I ended on such a low note, but I actually changed the ending. I had first planned to have Indra walk in and cut Lincoln's head off as he tried to escape, but why not drag it out a little longer? I'm actually getting close to the end. Just have to tie a few loose ends. I'm sorry if I caught anyone off guard and don't worry Lexa and Octavia will get over this hump. So what happens with Lincoln how was he able to escape without a trace? How will Octavia be after all this has happened to her and will all her pain finally stop or is there more to come? And lastly what about Lexa? She must feel like she failed to protect her and her best friend failed to keep her promise. What will happen to them all? Till next time.

EM ;)