Mia's POV

We walked to Jacob's house. Seth stayed behind me so I couldn't see his face. I didn't know what he wanted to talk to me about. If he knew about what Jacob did I thought he might throw it in my face; which he had every right to do. I now knew how Seth must have felt. How hurt he must have been. I would not be surprised if he did the whole what goes around comes around conversation. I would not be upset. If he wanted to yell at me than I would stand there and try to apologize anytime he let me. I really cared about Seth and if the only way to get him to want to be friends again was to let him get his anger at me out, then it's a very low price for a high gain.

I opened to door, and walked in. I figured Jake wouldn't mind us using his house to talk. I just wanted a little privacy and didn't want to look ever at the stares of Quil and Embry, much less the looks of Jacob. I heard the door close and quickly I turned around knowing if I took any time to think about it my words wouldn't have come out.

"Seth I just want to say that-"

Before I even got the last word out Seth had his arms around me. It took me two seconds to realize he was hugging me and I automatically hugged him back. I took in this moment scared that I was making it up and scared that in reality he was yelling at me. He began to let go despite the fact that I wasn't ready to. But as soon as he did he began to babble his words out.

"Mia I am so sorry. I completely overreacted and I didn't think things through. I didn't mean anything that I said and I'm so sorry."

I cupped his face in my hands and smiled. I was relieved to hear that he wanted to get our friendship back and I couldn't help but let out a sigh of relief.

"Seth, you have nothing to be sorry for. You had every right to get mad and to say the things you said. I get were your words came from. I really hurt you and now I understand what you felt."

I tried to keep my tears in but there was no hiding the pain on my face. Seth placed his hands over mine and slowly pulled them off his face. He kissed my right hand as he pulled it off.

"Leah told me what Jacob did." he said.

I realized that must have been what they were talking about before I got there. I couldn't hide the shock into knowing this.

"Leah knows?"

I pulled my hands away from Seth and I walked a few steps away from him. I hadn't realized how close we had gotten but I had to take a few steps away and take some breaths.

"Maybe Jacob wanted to brag about how he has two girls fighting over him."

My eyes shot straight and I felt my body stiffen. I quickly turned around and didn't hesitate to respond to Seth in a very upset tone.

"Or maybe he needed someone to help him out but his best friend wouldn't talk to him."

I regretted every word as it came out. I expected Seth to yell at me and I ended up yelling at him. I couldn't believe that after everything I was still causing him pain.

"I'm sorry. I've had a very short temper ever since my change."

"No I'm sorry" he sat down on the couch. "But just know that I will never forget the fact that he took you away from me."

After everything, Seth was still apologizing to me. It made me feel horrible. I walked to him and sat down on the couch as close to him as possible.

"Seth he didn't take me away from you because I'm still here. And I will always be here for you if you'll just let me. I love you Seth and I don't want you to push me away."

He looked at me with the sweet eyes that a few days ago asked me to be his girlfriend. He placed his hand on my cheek and I finally had full hope that we could be friends again.

Before I could say anything else Seth had leaned in and kissed me. It took me by surprise and at first I just let it happen. I was afraid to push him off and upset him and lose him again. But I knew he had ruined everything by kissing me. When Seth noticed that I was trying to push him away he leaned over me and his weight made it harder to push him off. I was finally able to push with a strength I didn't even know I had.

"Seth what is wrong with you?"

I was trying to catch my breath. Seth was using a good amount of his strength on me and I still didn't know how I was able to push him off.

"Mia now that we've both been hurt we can work our relationship out. "

"But Seth you were hurt by me. That complicates things."

I quickly got up and realized that I had to get outside before either Seth got upset and phased, or I got upset and hurt him. Just as I grabbed the door knob Seth grabbed my hand and held me back.

"You just told me you loved me. Was that a lie?"

"No Seth." I couldn't let go of my anger. "But there is a difference between loving you and being in love with you."

I pulled my hand out of his grip and stormed out the door. I heard Seth follow me and before I got too far he got a tight grip on my arm and pulled me back with such force that I slammed back against a tree. The impact was painful and to make things worse Seth put his hand on my neck and leaned in and kissed me again. I didn't know what he was trying to achieve by kissing me but all I could think of was the pain in my back. Pushing him off was harder this time but again I used strength I didn't know was there and I pushed him off. He tripped back a few steps and I instantly dropped down. Then I heard Jacob call out my name. I cringed at the idea of Jacob making things worse. He ran straight to me and helped me out.

"I don't know what the hell came over you but I swear if you ever hurt her again I'll-"

"You know what Jacob; don't threaten me because there is nothing you can do to me that will hurt more than what you have already done. And even if she stays with you, she will never forget the pain she felt at the sight of you kissing Renesmee."

I looked at Jacob and even though he kept his glare on Seth, I saw pain in his eyes. Then Seth turned to me.

"I'm sorry that you can't open your eyes and see that you deserve better."

His words hurt me. For the minute that he spoke, the pain on my back seemed insignificant compared to the pain of his words. Then Jacob placed his hand on my shoulder and the physical pain jolted back into my body.

"When I saw Seth kiss you I felt such rage, I bet that's how you felt when Renesmee kissed me."

The way he said that pissed me off. His tone was light; he smiled and almost let out a laugh. Like everything was fine.

"What I felt was pain, because you kissed her back."

His smiled faded. Again I regretted the words as they came out. He helped me up and I could see that he was trying to start another talk of apologizing and trying to make things right but there was only so much pain I could handle at a time.

"I just want to go inside and rest."

He nodded and helped me inside. He helped me sit on the couch and I let out a grunt of pain as I sat down. Jacob cringed at my noise of pain.

"You know I should go into town and get you some medicine for the pain."

"I don't really want to be all drugged up"

"It's all natural tribal herbs made into a tea; no drugs. Only it's going to take a couple of hours because everything is picked and mixed fresh. Are you going to be ok here by yourself?"

"I'll be fine. Thanks" my tone was still harsh and I saw it affected him. But I felt it would be best for Jacob to leave for a while.

"Ok I'll be back in a couple of hours. Be careful and don't leave the house."

I wanted to tell him I was sorry, that I appreciated his help, and that I loved him. But he left and I didn't say anything. As soon as I heard the ignition of his bike I went to get my cellphone. As I looked through my contacts I tried to find someone to talk to. I knew there was one person I wanted to talk to but I knew it would be hard to get him here. I dialed the number and waited for an answer.

"Hey Alice….I'm fine, listen is Edward there? …Great can I talk to him….thanks"