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I turned around slowly. No. It couldn't be. I was physically impossible. My Bella. Right in front of me. A Hallucination. That's what it was. Only a hallucination. The dead heart shattered to pieces and the pain was too much to bear. Why was the world so cruel to me, teasing me, toying with my emotions? Tears poured down the hallucinations eyes as she looked at me. There was pity in her eyes, and surprise, as if she had not expected to see me here. I could not let her get away, hallucination or not. I ran full speed so that I was directly in front of her in less than a second. Every detail of her face was perfect. I could feel the heat radiating off her body, her heart beat was clearly evidedent, pounding as if it were to about to burst out of her chest. Was she surprised or scared of me? Her tears smelled fresh and I could feel her hot breath on my skin. I pulled her too me and crushed my lips onto her big soft ones without thinking. She stiffened in what I can only imagine was shock, and then relaxed in my arms. There was no way I had made this up. My mind was not this creative. I was not imagining the taste of her mouth or the pressure of her frail human body against mine. I reluctantly pulled away and breathed deeply, inhaling her tempting scent.
"Bella" I said in a breath. This was no doubt my Bella. But how? It was not possible. She was dead. She had died. It was my fault. She had died because I had not been there. Because I did not protect her. I could not help but let the sobs pour out of me. Tearless sobs. I would never be able to shed a tear for my angle. I pulled the angel back into my arms recklessly and tangled my hand in her hair so that I could bring her head closer to by chest. I sank down to the floor in complete helplessness. It was my entire fault. All My Fault.All mine. My fault.
"Shhhh" she whispered in my ear. Oh how wonderful her voice sounded. Like bells; I had never heard such a beautiful sound, "It will be alright" I cringed at her words. No, it would not be alright. Nothing would ever be alright again. No without my
Bella. And it was all my fault.
"Please" I heard her beg. She was begging me? Why? "Please don't cry. I...I didnt mean to make you cry" Her words where like a stab in my back. She thought she had done something wrong. No, she was too perfect. She could do no wrong. Why did she not know that? "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry, whatever I did, I'm sorry" It came out as no more than a whisper, but I heard it. Had she really said that? She had nothing to be sorry for she was not the guilty one. She should not be apologizing. I lifted my head and stared into her deep chocolate colored eyes.
"Bella, I am...it's my entire fault. Please, I...I am so sorry" It was hard to speak as the sobs kept consuming my voice. The look on her face was so pained. Was it because of me?