You used me. I can't believe you used me. I can't believe I believed you. In your lies. In your trust. In you. But this is always how it's supposed to end, huh? Because I'll never get a happy ending.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I loved your blue eyes, the way your hair fell into you face. I'm sorry that I loved how smart you were, how you were always aspiring to learn more. I loved how you always kept your head in the clouds, your nose in a book; I loved you.
I'm sorry, but I won't be at the castle tonight. I won't be in the grey room, or wandering the streets of The World That Never Was. I won't be anywhere; not even in your memory. Maybe, just maybe, you'll look up from that encyclopedia and wonder what was missing from your library. It's not a book, it's not Lexeus. Think about it; the girl with the short black hair, always there, giving you books, sharing her stories, laughing with you and giving you kisses on each cheek every night. The girl you used to compliment everyday because her eyes were the brightest shade of blue, a beautiful blue that you didn't have a name for. Me.
I hope you're happy now; I hope everyone's happy now. I've left the Organization. I've left this world. Don't ask Roxas or Axel where I am, because they won't know. No one knows. Only because no one will remember me.
It hurts - being alive without really being alive - to remember you. It hurts remembering that soft smile I thought you only reserved for me. It hurts knowing you used me to gain Roxas's trust, only to injure him. It hurts me to know that you won't miss me - Is there anyone out there, anyone at all, who is missing me? Isn't someone missing me?
Inside another person, all traces of my existence are being wiped from every person I've ever met. So I guess, if you do have the feeling that something is missing from your cozy little library on the third floor of the castle, I would be honored. But I know. You don't miss me, no one does.
Isn't someone missing me?
Sorry this is so delayed. I was a total Slacker, and I'm behind in all my schoolwork if that makes you guys feel any better. ^^'
So this is dedicated to Jamimlia, one of my favorite people! Sorry this came out so late, lol. This is a Zexion-Xion.
Inspiration: Missing, Evanesceance