Fourteen: Like It Doesn't Hurt

(Like it Doesn't Hurt by Charlotte Cardin)

In case she didn't already know it, being alone with Kōga proved that she was being really, really stupid. But she had to know. The way Inuyasha was acting made her hate that she was attracted to him and more. Some teen magazines had informed her over the course of her life that having sex meant that chemicals would get released in her woman brain and she'd develop feelings she thought were love but were just a reaction. They made very clear that this was magnified when losing your virginity.

So maybe if she went ahead and had sex with someone else, that would break the spell and she could hate Inuyasha without it hurting. And maybe if she even managed to enjoy it, it would release different chemicals and prove to her she had never loved him in the first place.

But gods, did she wish there was anyone else available other than Kōga.

Why were all the men who were interested in her such freaks? Hojo was a lying, cheating homosexual she had devoted the last few years of her life to and pictured her future with. Then there was the peach guy, whom she'd rather forget about for the rest of forever. And Kōga was overly sexual and possibly even autistic with his lack of understanding of social situations. Finally, Inuyasha. There were too many things she could think of that made Inuyasha so crazy wrong for her. He was mean, a bigger pervert than Kōga, he'd made her boyfriend cheat on her with him, he'd almost gotten them arrested, he took away Shippo, they had the same freaking parents—

Wait a minute.

Kagome was still in such shock from meeting her biological father that she still hadn't completely processed what he had said. Izayoi had not just gotten herself a sperm donor, but an egg donor and even a surrogate as well. That meant that the two of them weren't related. That meant that the biggest obstacle, which hadn't even been big enough to keep them from coming together, no longer existed, had never existed.

Her heart was beating so fast and her head was spinning along with it. Her fingers clutched at the fabric over the left side of her chest as she tried to force herself to calm down and just breathe. This changed nothing. Things were still the same. Inuyasha was off who knows where, probably getting his dick sucked by another man, and she was alone sitting on her hotel room bed while Kōga "slipped into something more comfortable" (his words) in the bathroom.

The door opened and she was confronted with the sight of a naked wolf demon.

"I texted Inuyasha and told him to stop by my office and my entire tribe would submit to him," he snickered. "Idiot's gonna be there for a while. Probably won't figure it out for at least an hour. My wi—uh, secretary—will keep him in the waiting room."

The plan. She had to remember the plan.

Smiling at him in a way she hoped was welcoming, she tried not to stare at his giant erection. Holy hell, but he was giving Inuyasha a run for his money. While he was not as thick, he was maybe a good inch longer. Suddenly, she got a whole lot more nervous.

"Do you have your school uniform in your suitcase? I feel like something kinky."

Smile fixed on her face, she was fairly certain he couldn't tell that sentence of his had made her throw up in her mouth a little. Kagome shook her head and he sighed dejectedly.

"Why don't you show me just how big and bad you are, Kōga?" Her voice was breathy from sheer anxiety, but the look on his face showed he thought it was lust.

Kissing him was strange. The feeling of his tongue rasping against hers, his fangs pressing against her lips, didn't inspire that same sexy thrill of excitement that always came with Inuyasha, or even that tantalizing arousal like with Hojo. The only things she could feel were how very warm he was and how very uncomfortable it made her. Damn it, she had to focus! There were so many articles on faking orgasms, but how was she supposed to fake everything else?

"Your heart is beating so fast," he murmured, lips moving down to her pulse. "Feel me, I'm the same."

Kōga brought her hand down to wrap against his dick, and she just barely managed not to scream like a little girl and jump away. Instead, she closed her eyes and let herself feel him. Despite Inuyasha's regular exhibitionism, she'd never had the chance to just feel what this defining part of the male anatomy was like. And of course she had never gotten anywhere near Hojo's dick. In a way, this was a chance for a lot of firsts. Just because she was no longer a virgin didn't mean she had any sort of idea of what it was that she was doing. To her surprise, he was throbbing in her hand, hard and hotter than anything. Was this what all men felt like? Was this what Inuyasha felt like?

Kagome moaned aloud at the thought, and the wolf demon continued to kiss her throat. His hands made quick work of her blouse and then she was left in just her bra and jean shorts. Kōga moved down to her navel and she watched in slight awe as he undid her shorts using only his tongue and teeth. Did she have reason to be impressed, or was that something everyone could do after a while? Could Inuyasha do that? Closing her eyes again, she replayed the moment in her mind, replacing the panting demon with a smirking half-demon.

"You're so wet," Kōga groaned in admiration, peeling her panties away. "This is going to be so great. I love you, Kagome."

In her mind, it wasn't him saying those things. "I love you, too," she whispered truthfully to the man she saw, the one who had ruined her life and given her a better one. Kagome could feel the breath on her inner thighs and every part of her was straining, waiting for the contact that would allow her to have control again.

"What the fuck!?"

Kagome opened her eyes. What the fuck, indeed. "I-Inuyasha?" Had she fallen asleep or was he actually standing there, glaring at the two of them, eyes filled with a murderous rage.

The wolf demon smirked and made everything so much worse. "You're back early. Care to go back out the way you came? Kagome and I are kind of busy."

Inuyasha's left eye and left ear began to twitch rapidly as he clenched and unclenched his fists and jaw. "Get out or I'll fucking kill you."

He snorted. "Like you fucking could. Come on, let's get this over with here and now. I have a woman to claim."

Kagome saw how serious Inuyasha was, how hard a time he was having controlling himself. A part of her wanted to see if they'd actually fight over her and what would happen, but the possibilities horrified her too much.

"Kōga, I think you should go." Her throat was tight and her voice came out gratingly. She felt like an idiot but at least she wasn't actually crying just yet.

"But Kagome—"

"Now."

The look on his face was heartbroken.

"Well. You know where to find me, I guess."

Were all demons so quick to become attached, like she had experienced with Inuyasha and the wolf, or was it just something wrong with her that made them act this way? Whatever it was, she couldn't deny how her entire chest hurt as she watched the demon she had been using walk away, picking up his clothes and slipping on only his jeans before closing the door behind him. That last glance of his made her feel like the worst person on the planet.

As was typical, Inuyasha immediately began to yell at her. "What the fuck was that!? I leave for not even an hour and you're about to fuck someone you hardly even know? Did you fuck him already, Kagome? Did you fuck him last night after you came to me? I should have killed him. I'm going to fucking kill him!"

The dam finally broke and tears rushed down her face. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry to him and I'm sorry to you. I don't like Kōga at all and I was still going to have sex with him. You were right. I really am a whore."

What she didn't expect was for Inuyasha to sit down next to her and envelop her in his arms. "Fuck, Kagome, don't say that. You're not a whore, I'm just an asshole. And a total fucking idiot." He sighed and held her a little tighter. Grateful for his presence, she snuggled into him. He felt so good, smelled so good. "You need to know. I... The reason why I took you on this trip isn't because Father asked me to. Kagome, I wanted you from the first time I saw you. I didn't know anything about what that guy said about the egg donor and everything. I just wanted you. So fucking bad. I even... Fuck, Kagome, I'm a sick bastard. You got into your school. I faked the letter that said you didn't."

Not even a bombshell like that could disturb the peace she felt by being in his embrace. "I don't care. I don't care about school or parents or anything but you."

His claws dragged through her hair, stopping every now and then to massage her scalp. It was such a small, intimate thing that it brought new tears to her eyes.

"I'm so sorry, Kagome. If it wasn't for me you never would have met that asshole sperm donor. I honestly thought it would go differently. I thought it would make you happy."

"You make me happy. You always do," she murmured, bringing her head up from where it lay on his chest so she could look him in the eye. "I think I'm in love with you."

The half-demon looked distressed at her admission, but he didn't let her go. "This wasn't supposed to happen. We weren't supposed to feel this way."

"I love you," she said in her quietest voice, kissing him as softly as she could. If he pushed her away, she didn't think she would be able to handle it. "I love you so much, Inuyasha." Straddling his lap, she kissed him until he surrendered and kissed her back. Winding her arms around his neck, she felt how he shuddered when her breasts pressed against his chest, separated from being skin to skin only by the thin material of his t-shirt.

Kagome didn't want to go too fast, didn't want to push him lest he reject her again. But she just couldn't help how her hands wandered under his shirt, her fingertips ghosting along his skin, eager and timid all at once. His muscles twitched at her touch and he stopped kissing her. For a moment, they just stared at one another, him breathing hard through his nose and her not breathing at all, then he erupted in movement. Clawing his shirt off, he flung it somewhere across the room before pinning her down on the bed. She wanted to say something, anything that would finally let him know just how much she loved him, but there wasn't a chance to even think the words up, let alone say them, with how furiously and thoroughly he was kissing her.

The fiery trail his lips made down her body had her squirming in the most delicious agony of her life. Instead of lingering at her aching hard nipples like she expected him to do, Inuyasha passed them by with only a quick tweak with his fingers, continuing on his path until he was kissing her pussy. Kagome's mouth fell open in a low moan as he tongued her down there just as passionately as he had her mouth. The tip of his tongue made teasing flicks against her clit as his fingers pumped and wiggled inside her. There was no way for her to control the movement of her hips, how they grinded against his face, seeking more from him, more of him. She was so slippery wet she could feel the mixture of her juices and Inuyasha's saliva dripping down her ass and onto the sheets. Just as she thought that, Inuyasha followed the trail with his tongue, spreading her juices around her pink starburst while continuing to pump his fingers, thumb circling her clit. It was too much stimulation for someone with such little experience and Kagome came in an explosion of his name.

When she opened her eyes, all she could see was his smile, mouth shining with her orgasm.

"I don't think that took even half a minute," he murmured, leaning down to kiss her. She moaned as she tasted herself. "A new record."

There wasn't enough left of her brain to start sparring with him now. Tugging on his hair, she pushed his face down to her breasts. "Fuck me, Inuyasha. I need to feel you inside me again."

An almost canine whimper was breathed over her right nipple. "Keep talking like that and I won't last even as long as you did."

His mouth engulfed the mountain peak of her breast and she threw back her head with the pleasure of it. All of her was still burning for more and her hands roamed the strong muscles of his back, pressing her fingers into him, feeling every contour, delighting in his warm realness. Still sucking and nibbling her nipples, switching back and forth, he grabbed her behind the knees and pushed her legs up. Little by little, he inched himself inside her, puffing his breath against her neck, trying to control himself and not blindly hammer into her. Kagome brought her hands to his ears and rubbed them, moving her hips to help him inside.

"You're so tight," he whispered, voice strained.

His left ear was twitching rapidly, right by her mouth. Turning her head the slightest bit, she captured it between her teeth and nibbled it gently, licking the small hurt she'd inflicted after.

"Fuck me until I scream, Inuyasha."

With a full-body shudder, he did just that. Pulling out of her almost all the way, he slammed back inside. Kagome saw stars. His hips moved rapidly, shaking her, shaking the bed, shaking the room, shaking the world. His face was pressed even more into her neck and she could feel his lips moving, but he wasn't kissing her. He was saying something. A lot of somethings. The vibrations from his words added to the erotic experience and she wanted to hear him, wanted to know what he thought was so important. Wetness. His tongue? Or tears? There was no time for her to think it over because the tip of one of his claws was circling her areola and she knew the second he stopped teasing her there that it would be over for her and probably for him too. Then his mouth covered hers, he caught one nipple between two knuckles and squeezed, and gave one last giant thrust as her world came apart at the seams.

Inuyasha swallowed her cries, one after another, and kissed the tears of passion from her face, polluted with mascara as they were. Still connected, they lay panting together, entwined in more ways than just the physical. Kagome wanted to have this moment forever, to come back to it again and again, her own precious little world away from the harsh outside world.

"I really, really, really love you, Inuyasha," she whispered when he finally slid out of her. "For real."

He just kissed her. "I'll clean you up. You'll probably be a little sore, so just go to sleep."

She smiled. Her very bones were humming with a musical happiness.

O\o/O

Kagome pretended to be asleep for as long as she could. Though she'd woken up before the sun rose, she was too excited to make a return to dreamland. Besides, she'd been dreaming about Inuyasha anyway. Why dream when she had the real thing right there next to her? It was so nice waking up in a warm bed next to the man of her dreams. Another memory she wished she could somehow save and experience over and over again.

Smiling, she could wait no longer. Wrapping herself around him as much as she could considering he was on his side facing away from her, Kagome kissed Inuyasha's cheek over and over again, feeling his feathery lashes against her lips. Being the backpack wasn't so bad, but next time she'd want to wake up in his arms.

His eyes opened. He didn't move.

"What's on the agenda today?" she murmured, kissing him some more.

Inuyasha shrugged her off. "Don't you have to go back to school shopping or something?" He turned over, burying his head in the pillow.

Kagome had completely forgotten.

About their deal. About school.

Even though he had faked the entire thing just to get her to go on the road trip with him, she still had to go to school. Even though she wanted to stay with him, there were still things she needed to do. What else was her life for but reaching her goals? She wasn't going to be like her mother and make a man her only destiny.

And he wasn't asking her to stay, anyway.

Gods, but she was stupid. Kagome refused to cry and instead got out of bed and dressed for the day, eyes on the wall, not wanting to look at Inuyasha or any image of herself. It was as she had thought from the start. He'd just wanted to fuck her. And now he'd gotten what he wanted. Inuyasha had simply hired her for a good time and that was all. They were done. The more she thought about it, the more their special moments seemed ridiculous. So stupid. She was so damn stupid. How could she think that his eyes had been telling her things, that his kisses were secret messages? She had told him she loved him how many times and yet he had never said it back.

Kagome wanted to be angry, but she was just hurt.

Clearing her throat to make sure her voice wouldn't come out high and tight, she said, "You promised me a paycheck."

Without even taking his head up from the pillow, he grabbed his wallet from the nightstand and tossed it in her general direction.

Kagome opened it, then closed it again. Fuck him, she was taking all of it. Grabbing her bags, she walked to the door.

"Send my things to school. I want them there before I arrive."

His muted grunt was the last thing she heard before she shut the door and walked as fast as she could to the lobby restroom, where she cleaned the tear tracks off her face and did her make-up alongside the rest of the women who had been hired to be someone's temporary companion.

Note: ONLY ONE MORE CHAPTER TO GOOO! And then the sequel, which will be from Inuyasha's POV and even crazier. Honestly, I know I'm so bad, but like I was thinking of putting the sequel on hold for a little while and instead start posting a BRAND NEW STORY that I'm like super excited about. I like to have a few things going on at a time that I work on when I'm just not feeling my main focus (which now is Thy Thralldom Come). So if anyone is still reading this thing, tell me what you think.