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Declan's POV

3 days ago

I shot up straight in bed when I feel someone stir next to me. For a second I can't remember where I am. Oh yeah, Ste's.

My phone is buzzing next to me. I look at the caller I.D. and feel a rush of excitement surge through my body. I have been waiting for this call.

I get up out of bed mindful not to wake Ste and walk to the living room. I have been staying at his house since the run-in with my dad. Little does Ste know that everything that has happened since he arrived has been planned. Everything.

"Hello," I say in a hushed tone.

"Hello my friend," my mate says with excitement. Since we met almost 2 years ago, he is the only person who I can really talk to. I have become accustomed to it so not hearing from him had me worried.

"Where have ye been, I've been waiting for you. I almost went to your flat. I am getting restless, when do we get to have some fun. I'm tired of being here." That is a lie, I have found great pleasure in fucking Ste, and exploring the lines between my sexuality. I could see the point in fucking him on a regular basis. He has an addictive quality about him. But deep down, there has always been that part of me that needed to cause someone pain, to punish them. Not because of some convoluted Psychological bullshit like, I hurt so I hurt others. It is so much more primitive than that. It is as if I was born to do this that I would not exist without it. That desire to hear someone beg for me to stop, to see the fear in their eyes, to feel them take their last breath. It is the thing that is essential to life. Like breathing. It makes me feel powerful. Turns me on, more than sex, more than anything else in this world.

So when my mate says, "Patience my friend, you know I have a job to do, she is not going anywhere." I feel a sense of disappointment. It is not as if I hadn't been patient. From the moment I took her, I have been patient. It took everything in me not to make her suffer right there and then.

But my mate warned me against it. He said that without Amy, we don't have Ste and without Ste, we don't have my dad. "What if my dad doesn't give us what we want?" I ask.

"Oh don't you worry about that. Ste is his weakness and as long as we have him, your dad won't be a problem." He is right of course. I have seen the way my dad's heart broke the day Ste left. It would have been comical had it not been so utterly depressing. Dad tried so hard to hide it but everyone could see that he was dieing inside. I actually felt sorry for him but that is the price you pay for falling in love. And this is the price he pay's now for loving Ste, we will get back what's ours by any means.

"Listen mate, you need to disappear for a few days. We need Ste to go to Brendan now and he won't do that if you're around. I will plant the seed and watch it grow and he will lead us right to the treasure." I can't help but get excited. All of our calculating is about to pay off.

"And then we can have fun." My heart rate increases. My mate has assured me that when all this is over, Amy is mine.

"Then we can have fun Declan." I can hear his smile on the other end.

"Ok, when do I need to leave?"

"Now!"

4 Days Later

I am sitting in the hotel room that my mate paid for because at he moment I am homeless. My mom chucked me out for getting physical with her and if my dad got his hands on me he would kill me.

I am now here anticipating the return of my mate. He said that he had work stuff to take care of and would return in 3-4 days.

I often wonder how he holds it together so well. He has family and friends he keeps in touch with. A job that by it's very nature is contradictory to what we are doing here. And a career in killing that spans decades, since he was a kid torturing cats.

I on the other hand, have no one now. No job, no life. Except for this. I often wish that I could kill this desire inside of me. I have tried many times before, to go on the straight and narrow but it all becomes too much for me and I am once again at it's mercy.

I hear a knock on the door. The room is a mess, so I pick up what items are on the ground and go to answer the door. I have found out over the years that it is dangerous to not answer the door in a timely fashion or to leave things lying around, disorderly. My mate likes things a certain way and when they aren't he gets angry and you do not want to see him angry.

He pushes on the door hard and I almost fall over because of the impact. He slams the door hard and gets an inch away from my face. I feel my cock harden. Probably not the best time for this but the fear and the way he is so close to me is turning me on.

"Did you know about Lee?" He starts pacing. "You fucked up Declan." My face reads my confusion.

"What are you talking about, Lee who." I say. I honestly have no idea who Lee is. I try to search my brain for an answer but am quickly given one.

"Amy's fella, the guy she was going on vacation with." My stomach drops.

"How do you know that?"

He ignores my question and continues yelling. "Where the fuck is he Declan? You fucking fool, we need to ditch the girl and fast." I can see his mind working a mile a minute. He is trying to figure a way out of this. But it doesn't make any sense.

I was there and there was no one else. I did everything exactly to the T. I know he wasn't there. "No…no…there was no one there…I did everything right. I promise. I wouldn't let you down. I would never let you down."

"So tell me what happened to her boyfriend then, what if he saw you Declan. That would be the end of this, the end of us." He runs a hand through my hair and I feel my cock twitch. We have never done anything sexual before but I can kind of see the point in it now. He is attractive in a way I never noticed before.

I again try to persuade him to see sense. "No…he didn't see me…he couldn't have. If he saw me why wouldn't he have told someone? Wouldn't he have come forward?" His hands fall to his sides and I can see that he is realizing what I am saying makes sense.

"Yeah…yeah you're right." He sits on the bed and gestures me over. "We need to be more careful Declan, I don't want this to end, do you?"

"Of course not, I don't know what I'd do without you." He is looking at me intently and I can't help but get excited. Everything about us is so intense I feel like I might explode from the thrill of it all.

"So…what do we do now?" He say's smiling.