Chapter 14.

"I need to see what we're dealing with." Roan stated whilst pouring clear liquid into a martini glass. "Assume your partner is the mark."

Chuck's heart thudded to a speedy halt. He could already see where this was leading he was about to make a fool of himself and he knew it.

"How would you seduce her?" Roan asked. Be cool, be cool, Chuck. He told himself firmly.

"That's an excellent question. I would probably start with the err.. Bedroom eyes, you know, maybe. The old Bartowski eyebrow dance, and come in at you like this.." He wiggled his eyes brows and came closer to her. "And then I'd start firing the guns at you. Hey baby -"He was interrupted as Sarah giggled silently.

"Hey, don't encourage him! This isn't happy hour at Chile's, this is Sasha Banachek!" Roan almost sighed.

"I don't know, I would probably, you know, be myself, and try and make her laugh a little bit. Find a cultural interest - music." Chuck stuttered.

"Be yourself - you think a woman like this.." He indicated at Sarah. "Would ever fall for a guy like you?"

Chuck often wondered this himself because he was still totally oblivious to what she felt. He was only just coming to terms with what he felt - after a nearly year. Well, almost. Sometimes he was quite accepting about it but other times he span into a deep web of denial. It's not that he wished that he'd never met her - because he'd never do that, it was that the fact that the feeling wasn't returned and that hurt more than anything. Roan was right why on earth would a gorgeous girl like Sarah fall for a geeky guy like him?

Sarah felt as if she was going to explode, what did he mean a woman like her? There wasn't really anything special about her at all. She gazed into the distance and thought about it, say maybe she had fallen for a guy like him? 'A guy like him' was right if he meant the funniest, cleverest, most generous smartest guy in the world. She found herself thinking about this thought more and more frequently, she was getting emotionally weaker - she couldn't push it away anymore. She wanted to hold him that very moment and tell him to never get himself into any danger - because it would absolutely destroy her. Even though she was very much still in denial about the whole situation, that much she knew.

"I don't know, borrowing any national emergency - I think I might have a shot." Chuck joked meekly.

"Be reasonable. This is a gorgeous, sophisticated woman. And your-"

Sarah couldn't hold in in anymore. "Passionate and sweet and caring." She couldn't meet his eyes as he smiled adoringly at her.

"Really? Tall dark and caring - what a complement." Roan sneered.

"I don't mean it like that - he has a lot to offer." Sarah argued.

"Fine. Let me see this caged passion. Kiss him." He replied.

Any day. Sarah thought. I mean uh.. "Excuse me?"

"I don't think that's necessary at this particular juncture right now, Roan. I'm solid as a rock in that department." He protested, of course he wanted to kiss her but he didn't want to throw himself on her when she would probably push him away.

"What's wrong, don't you find agent Walker attractive?"

How could he even ask that question, wasn't it blatantly obvious to Roan that she was the most beautiful woman on the planet? He really didn't want to sound soppy here, but to him her hair wasn't just blonde - it was golden, her eyes weren't a boring shade of blue they were bright and sparkling in the daylight and her smile could light up the room - the whole street even.

"Of course I find her attractive.." Sarah felt her heart lift but pushed back a smile, so instead, she sat staring with a bemused expression into the distance. "- It's just that I had a burrito earlier and I'm trying to be respectful." Chuck tried, and he definitely didn't want to kiss her in front of him.

Roan wondered out loud how if he couldn't kiss her now, would he be able to seduce Sasha? Sarah thought about this and felt all of her willpower giving away, she wanted this. She didn't care about the circumstances she just wanted to feel his lips on hers again - that was the way it was supposed to be. She wanted to feel his hands running through her hair and the excited beating of her own heart. The rush was intensifying. She didn't think she had ever wanted anything more.

How do I put this lightly. "Chuck it's okay." She said. Wait, what if he doesn't want to kiss me?

Chuck felt the world around him stop. "Really?" Wow.

"Yeah."

He glanced at Roan and again at Sarah and slowly started moving his way towards her. He was inches away from her face when he chickened out and gave her a peck on the lips.

Sarah felt quite unsatisfied.

"Perhaps I moved too fast, have you had intercourse before?"

Chuck wasn't being made a fool out of. "Okay, you know what? You're crazy. This is crazy, I don't have to take lessons from you." He stood up as Sarah looked down awkwardly at the table - feeling rejected and wanting the ground to swallow her whole.

"Really, maybe I picked the wrong agent. I'll get agent Casey to kiss her." Roan lied, of course he wouldn't do that - but he could tell the kid was wavering.

And he was. "You really want me to kiss her?"

"Desperately." Roan said sarcastically.

"Fine." And it was fine by him. Chuck reached out and grabbed a very shocked Sarah. He whirled her off of her seat and pulled her towards him and suddenly their lips met and they forgot anybody was watching. Passion exploded inside them as she ran her hands through his hair and held him tight.

Chuck felt it all - the heart pounding, the butterflies, the weak knees but also, he felt strangely satisfied, like a whole was being filled. Because he had wanted to do this again for so long that it felt good to have it. It was like going on a diet and not being allowed chocolate, but then finally caving. But Sarah wanted it to develop into something more, she suddenly felt very turned on.

She slipped her tongue into his mouth and greedily kissed him harder. Roan watched with what started with amusement but then he started to get very interested in what had happened between these two previously. It was obvious that this wasn't the first time, he could see the need being expressed in them both. If he was honest, he didn't know the kid had it in him.

Chuck and Sarah parted for a moment and were about to go back in and kiss again when they remembered one significant detail - they were being watched. With a deep regretting feeling, Chuck pulled away and coughed awkwardly.

"Bravo." Smirked Roan.

"I'd better fix my lipstick - excuse me." Sarah mumbled quietly and walked hurriedly out of the room.

"Something tells me that wasn't the first time that's happened." He said.

"What?" Chuck's voice turned very high pitched. "No - no, we're totally professional. That's - we work together.

Roan said something about that he'd help Chuck get her too and outside in the van Casey dropped his head. "We're dead." He sighed.

"Roan, honestly, you have no idea what you're talking about!" He lied angling himself towards the door.

"Whatever." He slurped his martini skilfully. "Where are you going?"

Sarah said she had to fix her lipstick - you can't say that - say something clever. "Um, I need the bathroom."

"Sarah just went in there."

"Look." Chuck came closer to him. "I really didn't want to tell you this but you leave me no choice. I have a killer wedgie and I'm not picking it out in front of you." He lied, he wasn't good with improvising. He knew that from the spastic colon incident.

Roan's face crumpled in disgust . "Ew, okay - go for it."

Chuck smiled and nodded before scooting out of the room after Sarah. This time he wasn't up for playing mind games and only saying what he felt through he eyes - he wanted to find out what just happened there and he knew he wasn't just feeling it. She had kissed him with as much passion as he had, he was almost certain of it.

He came to the bathroom door and couldn't hear anything, it was open ajar so he pushed it gently. "Sarah?"

Sarah had put the toilet seat down so that it was acting like a chair and was just sitting there with her head in her hands. She jumped up when he came in.

"Chuck! Hi.." He came closer so that he was opposite her and just looked into her eyes knowingly, she felt like his eyes were boring into her very soul, carefully analysing each detail, she felt exposed and naked. She tried to stare back just as dominantly, trying to push out her inner spy. But he made her feel like no one could, for once she wasn't the one in charge, and she felt like a woman.

"I'm just going to go for it, Sarah." Chuck said, perching on the edge of the bath.

"For what?" She asked.

"I - uh.. Look. We both know our relationship isn't ever going to be professional, is it? I feel too much for you. Was it only me who was feeling it in that kiss just then?" He replied.

She shook her head vigorously. "I felt it too." She whispered.

It shocked him a little to hear her say it out loud. But he nodded anxiously and continued. "I know that I've never felt like this before and I just want you to know that, you don't have to say anything - just.." He put his hand to her cheek and stroked it with his thumb. "Knowing that you know makes me feel better. God, I sound cheesy, don't I?"

"No, no of course not!" Sarah said suddenly waking up. She placed her hand on his while it was on her face and sighed. "I can't do this, do you understand?"

"Well no, not really." He admitted.

"Maybe one day you'll find out more about my past, Chuck. But I'm damaged goods, I can't do stuff like this, I have a job to do, it's all I have." Sarah stood up and checked her reflection briefly.

"You have me." He whispered so quietly that he thought she didn't hear as she was leaving.

As she was half way down the hall, she turned around and met his eyes. He saw that she was close to tears, but she shook her head and gave him a weak smile and walked into an empty room. This isn't some television programme. Chuck thought. That's not what happens and you flick to the next scene and it's all forgotten about.

He followed her.

"I'm not leaving it like that." He said boldly. "Just tell me Sarah, what's going through your mind?"

She turned away from him. "I'm scared of it all. I just want to forget it's happening."

"I guess I'll have to wait for you." He smiled, kissing her on the forehead.

She smiled as he walked away. He had no idea how much she wanted him and wanted to tell him she thought that she might be falling in love with him and wished to have his ring on her finger one day. When she thought of her future before, it only involved her next mission - but when she was with him, the world was full of a million dazzling possibilities.

She decided that next time, when she felt the time was right - she would tell him what was going through her mind.

What she didn't count on in the next episode was Bryce showing up - yet again. What happened after Chuck told her he couldn't be with her in that devastating scene?

Find out soon and thank you so much for all your awesome reviews and I'd like to dedicate this to Coreymon77 - for supporting me in each story I've done.

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