Clarys POV

I wake up once again feeling cold I roll over and see jace is not here again I feel his side and it's ice cold so I know for a fact that he did not come to bed last night and that means that he has not slept I know that this has got to him. He hates Valentine and wants to take him down, we all do but jace has to be the who does it well that's what he believes anyways everyone is already up I am assuming they are getting ready I can smell food cooking. the only people in here are mom, luke, and jace who is still trying to figure out what it says I look at mom and luke and see that he is rubbing her back I get up and walk over to jace

"You need sleep" "I am almost there just give me a few" "NO JACE" I shout I look over and mom and luke has looked up startled "you haven't slept in a day I am not going to let you tire yourself out" he looks like he is about to object "NO YOU ARE GOING TO GO LIE DOWN AFTER BREAKFAST AND GET SOME SLEEP.. UNDERSTOOD" "the longer we wait to figure this out, magnus could be dead already clary I don't have time for sleep okay" i put my hand on his cheek and look in his eyes "your not going to be able to solve anything if your tired you need rest to refresh your mind and sleep is the only answer I want magnus back to but you need sleep please jace" he nods "okay" I hug him as he put his head in my shoulder we take a deep breath at the same time. we pull apart when we hear maryse shout "BREAKFAST IS READY" we all walk to the kitchen to the lovely meal maryse has prepared

-time skip-

I finally got jace to lie down after we all ate breakfast he is now sound asleep I made everyone go do something quiet telling them jace needs sleep I am watching him as he sleeps so soundlessly, he looks so vulnerable and not tense like things are normal and the world is not crashing down when it is

"Hey clary" "hey Izzy what up" "I was wondering if you wanted to have girl talk" I smile "yeah I would like that" we go upstairs to her room to talk in private we are sitting up there with snacks all over and in our pajamas

We are sitting on her bed criss-cross apple sauce and facing each other

"Soooooo" "soooooo" "well how was it" "how was what" " oh don't play dumb with me clary, you know the sex" she said that just as I was taking a drink of lemonade I am now coughing my lungs out she Pat my back "sorry I should have waited till after you took a drink" "you think"

"Well come on I want details" I blush just thinking about

"It was good no scratch that I was more than good it was fantastic jace wa-"

"Okay I love girl talk but jace is my brother so could you I do not say his name it makes it.. i don't know awkward"

"Right sorry.. he was gentle and careful and sweet and made sure I was always okay"

"Did it hurt wait never mind it was your first time of course it did how about on a scale of 1-10 how bad did it hurt"

"Like 107" she just laughs

"it hurt that bad"

"Yes god it was so painful well that was probably because he is so big but oh my god I have felt quite a bit of pain since I became a shadow hunter but this pain was over the top"

"Exactly how big is he"

"I don't know it's not like I measured"

"Can't you guess I mean with your hand when it was by his penis"

"My hand wasn't even by it"

Isabelle's eyes were as big as saucers "you didnt give him a blowjob" she all but screams "shhhhhh and no I didn't"

"Well why not" "I don't know he didn't say he wanted me to"

"Jace isn't like that it's not he is going to make you give him one even if jace is a ass he is not that much of an ass, guys love blowjobs almost more than sex"

"Really" I look down blushing I am pretty sure I have been blushing this whole conversation.

"Yes girl you need to get on it and keep your man happy"

"I don't know isabelle I don't even know how I barely lost my virginity a little bit ago"

"He will help you and the sounds he makes will help you" I just nod

"Okay let's talk about something else how about you and Simon" and this time it's isabelle who blushes

"So have you guys you know" I say she blushes some more

"Yeah" "well come on I gave you all the glory details now it's your turn"

"Well Simon isn't that experienced as you know I am so I had to help him alot and he was embarrassed but I don't know he isn't the biggest guy I have been with but with him it feels right you know" I just nod finding this conversation so weird because Simon is my best friend

"So have you uhh..given him an uhh..you know...blowjob" finding it so hard to say

"Yes I did on our first time" I look down at my hands and wonder

"Do you think jace expected me to give him one"

"I don't think so clary" and we talked and talked some more until lunch was called