Hey guys! I'm so excited for the story that I ended up writing some more! This story is Naruto POV so I hope y'all enjoy! The songs I used for this is Iris by Goo Goo Dolls, and Trouble by Kristin Hersh. I'm looking forward to sharing more chapters with you all!

Junior High

"Sasuke!" I run towards Sasuke who is sitting in his seat in homeroom.

When he sees me, he smiles, he has a very nice smile.

When I get close to him, I plop down right on his lap, causing him to make an 'oof' sound before he began laughing.

"Dobe! What are you doing? You're heavy!" Sasuke doesn't stop laughing, even while throwing a fit.

"Sittin'. It's quite comfy here, teme." I lean back and give a sly smile.

I lean my back farther against him and put my arm around his neck, he stops trying to push me off and looks down to the floor, for some reason his cheeks are red.

"You okay, teme?" I give him a curious look.

He looks up at me but avoids my eyes, "Uh.. yeah, why you ask?"

"Well your cheeks are red." I poke his cheek for emphasis and smirk at his reaction.

His eyes widen, and he looks away, trying to push me off again.

"I'm fine, dobe. Get off!"

I feel a sharpness in my side from his pushing.

I smirk, "No. I think I'll stay."

I snuggle up closer to him, bringing my legs up as I wrap both of my arms around him, burying my face in his neck, I take in a deep breath.

"Umm.. Naruto, Sasuke?"

Sasuke and I both look up and see several people watching us, they look uncomfortable for some reason.

"Yeah?" I reply.

"Are you guys dating, perhaps?" The girl, Mira, asks a little hesitantly.

My eyes widen, dating? Me and Sasuke?

I look around the room, and I see people giving us strange looks and giggling and whispering.

"Hey! Why are you asking that? What does it matter?" Another girl, Hiroko, stands up and confronts Mira.

"I'm just asking! What's it to you anyway? Do you support disgusting stuff like that." She points right at us.

I flinch, what is going on?

Why is she saying something so mean?

"Yeah, so what! They are cute together and you can tell they really care for one another, what does it matter if they are two boys or not?" Hiroko's eyes are on fire.

"Ugh, just shut up." Mira rolls her eyes and turns her body away from Hiroko.

What's going on? Why do people think me and Sasuke are dating? We're just friends.

I look at Sasuke, his eyes are looking down to the floor.

He must be embarrassed.

"We're not dating." I reply quickly.

Everyone looks towards me and after a moment of silence, everyone laughs.

"Yeah, right! Two guys don't act like that with each other!" One guy replies.

"Yeah! I mean, he is sitting in his lap!" A girl laughs.

"Stop lying, you fags." Mira giggles.

I felt Sasuke jerk at the insulting name.

I feel my heart thud against my chest, why are we being called something so insulting?

Well, why am I even sitting in his lap? That is pretty weird, even Sasuke tried pushing me off.

I stand up and sit down in my seat in front of Sasuke, I shouldn't have done that to him.

After school, and after suffering through rumors and bullying, Sasuke and I walk back in silence to my house, tonight he is staying with me.

When we get there, we both walk up to my room and sit down.

"Naruto?"

I look up and see a small smile on Sasuke's face.

"Are you okay?"

I nod, "I guess. I was expecting nothing like that earlier."

"Yeah, me either." He says softly.

"I can't believe people really think that way about us. Also, I'm sorry, it was my fault.. I shouldn't have done something so weird." I look down to the floor.

"What?"

I look up, surprised at Sasuke's tense tone, his eyes are hard.

"You did nothing wrong, idiot."

"Hah?" I give him a strange look, what is he saying? Of course I did.

"We're friends, we were both playing around. What's wrong with that?" Sasuke is looking at the floor, his fists are clenched tight, his eyebrows furrowed.

"Uhh.."

"I mean, we're family, we're brothers. I really do care for you, I do love you so why is it weird to show that?" Sasuke looks at me with anger.

"W-why are you so mad?" I stutter.

He sighs, "I'm not mad at you, moron. I'm mad at those ignorant people."

I look down again, "Yeah, I guess you're right."

I don't wanna argue with Sasuke, but I can't help and see what they were saying, I did do something weird and gross.

"Naruto."

I look up and see him smiling, he must really not care about what they said, huh?

"Don't worry about what people think. All that matters is you and me."

I smile, he is right I guess.

"Oh! I almost forgot!"

I jump when he all of a suddenly yells.

"What is it?" I ask, worried.

"We sent in that letter, remember!? The one to the radio station? They are gonna pick a letter to read and then play a song for the people he picks."

"Ohhhh, yeah! Hurry, turn it on!"

Sasuke hurriedly turns the radio on, and we sit and listen for the announcement after the music plays.

"Alrighty now, time to pick the letter of the day."

"It's here!" I say excitedly to Sasuke.

He nods his heads, a smile plastered onto his pale face.

"Okay, time for the draw! Let's see here.."

Sasuke and I look at each other excitedly.

"Ah, we got one. This letter is from Naruto and Sasuke."

Sasuke and I jump up and yell, our excitement overflowing as we jump up and down on the bed. When we hear the start of our letter being read, we hurry and lay back down to listen, our rapid heart rates pumping in our ears.

"The letter reads, 'We are best friends in Junior High and have been great friends ever since we were little, and have stuck by each other and have supported each other, even during the hardest times, like the death of parents."

"We are always together and would do anything for each other. We hope to stay as great friends forever, if at all possible. We never wanna forget our memories together. We always want the other to know that, no matter what, we'll be there for each other. We'll drop whatever to be there and that even when we become adults, we'll never abandon the other."

"We, Naruto and Sasuke, will always be best friends. Always. So we'd like for you to pick a song for us, to represent our close friendship.'"

"Wow, sounds like you guys are a great pair! I hope you guys stay as great friends. We have a good song for you then."

"This song is 'Iris' by Goo Goo Dolls, this song was written for the 1998 film City of Angels starring Nicolas Cage. The writer said this about the movie and song, "When I wrote it, I was thinking about the situation of the Nicholas Cage character in the movie. This guy is completely willing to give up his own immortality, just to be able to feel something very human. And I think, 'Wow! What an amazing thing it must be like to love someone so much that you give up everything to be with them.' That's a pretty heavy thought." So for two young friends, who have shared such amazing and heartfelt memories together, I present this song to you."

Sasuke and I look at each other, happy and excited as the song began to play.

We listened to the song over and over again after it went off on the radio, we fell in love with it and it's now our song. The lyrics seem really personal and loving.

After listening to the song on repeat and playing around, we laid down for bed.

"Even though today had been crappy at the beginning, we got our letter picked!" Sasuke rolls over to me, his arm drapes over my chest.

I tense up at the sudden contact.

He then smiles at me.

I turn more toward him, his beautiful smile shining through the darkness.

My muscles relax under his warm touch.

My heart skips a beat though.

"Yeah, that was great. That song was nice too."

"Oh most definitely!"

A few moments of silence go by before Sasuke speaks again.

"Thanks."

I turn toward him again, he is still staring at me.

"For what?"

"For being my best friend, for always sticking by me."

He gives another blinding smile, the smile he has reserved for only me.

I smile too, "Always."

I flick him on the nose and get a chuckle out of him.

"I guess we should get some sleep now. Night, dobe."

I chuckle, "Night, teme."

In no time Sasuke falls asleep, but I'm not sleepy yet.

I can't help but replay the day through my head.

The name-calling, the humiliation, the rumors, the weird and gross things I did.. that I'm doing.

Here I am, sleeping next to my guy friend, his arms are draped over me and I ain't removing them or sleeping on the couch.

I'm gross.

That song, it was great but it seems very romantic, not something for two guy friends.

I sigh and look over at Sasuke, my heart jolts and butterflies well up in my stomach.

Is this for real? No no no no no..

I can't possibly like him, can I?

My heart starts racing, am I really what they said today?

Am I a fag?

I feel tears slip down my cheeks but I hurriedly wipe them away.

But, I can't.

I look at Sasuke, and the song replays in my head, the feel of his skin comes to my mind, the smell of his freshly washed hair, the feel of his hands against me.

My stomach feels so light, my heart feels so heavy.

I mean, I've had butterflies in my stomach around Sasuke for a while now, that's normal, right?

And who doesn't like the feel of touching their best friend? That's gotta be normal.

And it's not weird to think your guy best friend is handsome.

I can't be gay, I can't, this kinda thing has to be normal.

Right?

Okay, think, how do I feel around my other guy friends. Like Kiba!

Well, I mean, he ain't a bad looking guy, I suppose, but I don't think he is super handsome.

I pout my lips as I try to recall anything else.

I don't get a funny feeling in my stomach around him either.

I go through all my other friendships but I still have no conclusion.

I look at Sasuke and the butterflies act up again, I look at his face and then down to his lips and my heart lurches forward.

I jolt up.

No way.

I wanted to kiss him right then.

My heart is racing in my ears.

No way.

Have I always liked Sasuke?

My pounding heart feels so loud that Sasuke has to be able to hear.

No, I like Sasuke?

I'm gay?

I look at his face again.

I like Sasuke. I'm gay.

So what they said about me earlier, that was true.

I'm disgusting.

Present Time

After I realized that I have the hots for my best guy friend, I started actively searching out girls to date. I had to hide what I was, especially from one person in particular. I could never let Sasuke find out I liked him.

A like that turned into love.

A love that in the end broke us.

The rumors started to die down too after that but I had to make sure they didn't start up again.

As I got older, I lied to myself so much, told myself that I was straight, that I didn't love my best friend in such a disgusting way, that I began to really believe it.

But my feelings for Sasuke grew, the more I pushed him away, the more I pushed my true self away as well.

And I hurt my best friend because of my foolish fear.

When he confessed to me on graduation, I couldn't believe that he also loved me and that scared me, so I hurt him worse than ever that day.

I couldn't accept myself, I couldn't accept what would come if we dated.

I couldn't accept Sasuke getting hurt from horrible people who hate guys like us.

So I told him that I couldn't accept him and that he was disgusting.

I don't deserve to be forgiven, and that's what I thought and one reason I never contacted him.

That is, until he ran into me at college, and I was so surprised but then I thought, 'this must be fate, a second chance for both of us', but completelypushed me down.

At first, I thought maybe I'll give him space but the more I saw him and the more my boxed up feelings came to surface, the more I couldn't leave him be.

So I would watch for him, I would wait for him, I wanted to see him, to talk to him, to be with him again.

That day he told me off hurt pretty bad, but I deserved it, but he didn't deserve the pain I inflicted onto him.

Finding out Shikamaru is his best friend makes me super jealous and I know I have no right and I know I should be grateful but I still don't like it. How could I stand the thought of someone being closer to Sasuke than me?

Even if I'm the scum of the earth, I know that I'm selfish.

And then I saw him at the smoothie shop and our song was playing, that moment was special and I couldn't stop the smile when Sasuke ran out the door, flustered from that moment.

I thought, 'maybe I have a chance after all.'.

And then when I decided to call his old phone number to see if it worked, I lucked out, but the teme hung up on me and then ignored my text and so that's how I find myself in front of his door, no plan at all ready for the moment that door opens.

I knock on the door and wait for Sasuke to answer, I hear his footsteps and then the door opens wide.

He frowns and clicks his tongue when he sees me.

Wow, so welcoming.

He tries shutting the door but I hurriedly stick my foot in the way.

"Wait, Sasuke!"

"Shaddup! I don't wanna talk to you!"

"Please, Sasuke! Just...please."

"No!" He uses all his strength against the door, pushing it hard but I get my body in half-way before using all my strength to fully push myself all the way in.

Sasuke grits his teeth, staring at me in thought before he tries to leave himself.

I grab his arm and push him up against the now closed door.

"Please, wait.." I look down at him, who is frozen from my touch.

Sasuke furrows his eyebrows in pain, "Please, can't you just let me be? You keep hurting me all over again."

I flinch, I must be really hurting him, and for what? My own selfish reasons?

"Sorry, I don't wanna keep hurting you." I rest my forehead against his.

He tenses and then takes in a quick breath.

"Then stop." Sasuke tries to push me away again.

"I can't, I can't let you go this time." I say desperately.

"Why? You never had trouble before." He quickly replies.

It's like he cut me, I feel a painful sting.

"I know, and that's one thing I wanna talk to you about. But for now, will you allow me to apologize?"

"No."

I chuckle a little, "Why not?"

"Cause it's worthless."

I sigh.

I feel Sasuke look down.

I trace my hands over his arms, up and down.

"Well, listen first and then decide if it's worthless."

I wait for his reply but receive none, I guess that means I can go ahead.

"Sasuke, I'll never be able to tell you sorry enough times even if I did it 24/7. I.. I hurt someone who I never wanted to hurt. I pushed you away and I said so many horrible things, that I can never take back, I can only apologize and make up for it. I don't deserve you and I don't deserve your forgiveness but I'm selfish and seeing you, I just couldn't leave you alone."

Sasuke takes a deep breath.

"I'm truly sorry for all I have ever done to hurt you. I am so so sorry. So truly sorry. I can never make up for what I did, but I wanna try, if you'll let me."

I clench his arms, tears stream from my face.

"You were my best friend, my family and I threw you away." I choke from my sobbing.

"Sasuke, I miss you so much. I accept you, Sasuke. I will always accept you. It's me I couldn't accept."

I wipe some of my tears with my sleeve.

"Sasuke.."

"Shh."

I open my eyes and see a sad smile on Sasuke's face, he reaches up and wipes the new tears from my eyes.

"I forgave you a long time ago, dobe."

"Then why did you avoid me?" I sniff.

"Idiot, just cause you forgive someone doesn't mean you have to hang out with or be around them. I forgave you but the scar still exists, I'm still healing."

"Sasuke."

He looks at me in my eyes.

"I'm really sorry."

Sasuke gives another sad smile, "I know."

He pats my head and I lay my head on his shoulder.

"Really sorry."

"I know." He pats my back, the sad smile never leaving his face.

"What does that mean for us then?" I look at Sasuke's face.

He doesn't look at me.

"I'm sorry." He gently pushes me away and opens the door, not once looking at me and not once did the sad smile leave.

Fresh tears slide down my cheeks as I nod, "Okay."

I walk out the door, not looking back as I hear the door gently close and sobbing from the other side of the closed door.

I made him a wreck and I'm leaving him in his misery again.

I'm trouble.

Oh trouble, set me free.

I've seen your face, and it's too much for me today.

Trouble.

Oh trouble can't you see, you're eating my heart away.

And there's nothing much left of me.

Trouble.

Oh trouble please be kind.

I don't want no fight, and I haven't got a lot of time.

So, what y'all think? I wanna show that even when someone may look like the bad guy, and may make mistakes, there is always more to the story., always more than one perspective. I know that there isn't many excuses for treating people wrongly but I wanted to show that Naruto was indeed going through his own battles as well. I hope y'all enjoyed reading! I always get excited to share the new chapters with my readers. Thank you to all who continue to stick around and patiently wait for my next chapter! And thank you to all new readers and followers! I will try to post the next chapters asap! PS: thanks for sticking around for my first posted story, the first chapters were rough, I was fairly new to writing and made many mistakes but as I work on this, I can see my writing improving. Thanks for helping me and for reading! I will continue to work on my writing skills and I will keep improving!