Chapter 14

Untouched

Hello again my lovely readers! I'm back! Thank you all for the lovely reviews you left me on the last chapter, they absolutely made my week. They're the bane of my writing existence and you guys keep me going. Thank you!

So here's the make up you've all been waiting for. Hopefully it's okay. There is mature content and it's my first time writing that so bare with me. I tried my best writing it and hopefully it turns out okay. So I will let you all read now. Enjoy!

Songs-

Say-John Mayer (Alec to Magnus)

Aftermath-Adam Lambert

While the Candle Still Burns-Thriving Ivory

Alec had spent the rest of the weekend in a better mood than when he had got there. His parents and Jace had refrained from asking him if something was wrong and he had actually been able to enjoy the small amount of time he had with them. He kept thinking about Magnus but instead of dread, he felt elated and excited about getting back and trying to patch things up.

There was something about Magnus that made him feel different. Alec felt safe, happy, and completely at peace in Magnus' arms. He felt like a piece of him had been missing his whole life and Magnus was it. He felt like Magnus was all he'd ever need in his life to be happy. He wanted a future with him, he wanted to tell the world Magnus was his, and he wanted him, every single part of him. He was an idiot not to have realized it before and he just hoped it wasn't too late.

Alec slid his key into the door. Please tell me I'm not too late. The lock clicked and he slid his key out as he opened the door. The familiar scent of Magnus and Chairman Meow hit his nose and it brought a smile to his face. That scent had become such a part of his life that he didn't realize how two days away could make him miss it.

As he walked through the door, the aforementioned cat came and rubbed against his legs. Chairman purred as Alec bent down to scratch behind his ear. So the cat was pleased to see him, but what about his owner?

Alec looked up at that thought to see Magnus perched on his bed, his sketchpad in his hand. He was drawing frantically, his hand skimming effortlessly over the page, as he once again got lost in his art. Alec knew it was impossible to get through to Magnus when he was drawing and knew that he wouldn't even have registered that Alec had come in the door.

Alec felt his heart drop. What if Magnus had given up on him? If Alec was him he would have ages ago. What if Magnus had gone back to William? Damn it Alec, wasn't it those thoughts that got you in trouble in the first place? Alec sighed, as he set his bag down on his bed. He looked over at Magnus and just stood there, admiring him for a few seconds. He looked as impeccable as he always did. His hair was spiked in its normal style and was void of any colour but black. He had on a neon green shirt underneath a sparkly black vest and tight black leather pants that Alec had come to appreciate more and more as they were together. But it wasn't the view of how perfect his ensemble made him look that Alec wanted to see, it was his eyes that Alec wanted to see. He hadn't seen his eyes since their fight and he was dying to see something besides anger and sadness in his eyes.

Alec wanted to speak to him but he didn't want to interrupt him, since he knew he'd get bitched out if he did. There was nothing Magnus hated more than being interrupted while drawing or during his morning routine.

Alec sat down on his bed to wait for Magnus to finish. Thankfully, he didn't have to wait long. Just as he sat down, Magnus set his pencil down. He sat there quietly for a few seconds before Alec found the ability to talk. "Magnus, I…I'm sorry." He hadn't intended for his lips to form the empty words of 'I'm sorry' but they did. Then again, how else was he supposed to start? He really was sorry. He looked at Magnus as he bit his lip.

"I've heard that one before Alexander." His voice was cold and void of emotion. Alec wasn't sure if he'd feel better if he could hear something in his voice; at least maybe then he could gage how Magnus was feeling.

Alec took a deep breath. He knew that Magnus needed more than that to forgive him. "Magnus I…I want to be with you, more than I've wanted anything in my life before. I've realized that what I feel for you…I can't deny that. It's amazing…and with you I don't feel scared anymore. I want you more than anything else in the world Magnus, and I can see that now. I really am sorry. I know that means so little but I don't know what else I can say to you." Alec paused as Magnus looked up from his sketchpad. Alec met his gaze and he saw it there. There was no anger like there was that night but there was sadness. He saw pain too, and underneath it all, he thought he saw a light. Magnus' eyes wavered, something they rarely did, and Alec knew Magnus had heard him.

He took a deep breath before starting again. "And I understand if you don't feel the same way anymore. I mean, I wouldn't. What I did was stupid and wrong and I never should have accused you like I did. I realize now how much of an idiot I was. I was wrong Magnus. I am so sorry and I just hope you can forgive me."

Magnus didn't answer. He just looked at him, as if waiting for something.

"Magnus, I'm sorry."

Magnus still didn't say anything. Instead, he smiled and Alec could see the sadness and the pain disappearing.

"Say it again."

"I'm sorry? I thought that didn't work anymore."

Magnus laughed softly. "No. Say it again."

"'It'? What's 'it'?"

Magnus smiled even bigger than before. "You can be so clueless sometimes darling." He stood up, crossing the space to Alec's bed in a few short steps. Alec stood up to meet him. They stood a few inches from each other and Alec could feel the happiness growing within him. He felt like he had a chance. Maybe Magnus would forgive him. That smile and the light that was growing in his eyes was enough to spark hope inside of Alec.

"To add insult to my intelligence, I still don't know what 'it' is."

Magnus grinned. "Think."

Alec thought back to what he had said and suddenly it clicked.

"I want you."

"And?"

And? There was an 'and'? Oh…"I want you more than anything else in the world."

"There." He smiled, pausing. The smile slipped from his features, replacing his face with a blank look. "Alec, you had no right to react like that."

"I know."

"You should have let me explain."

"I know." Slowly Magnus was making him feel worse about what he'd done, but he deserved it.

"You've got to stop being so jealous."

"Yeah, I really know that one." Alec had definitely learned his lesson and there was nothing more to say on that matter.

"I'll admit I made a mistake Alec. I should have told you earlier about William, and for that, I am sorry."

"And I'm sorry for reacting the way I did. I shouldn't have."

"We both shouldn't have done what we did." Magnus took Alec's hands in his as he let out a soft sigh. "I still feel the same way about you as I did two days ago. Despite you being a complete idiot, I still want you." He traced a hand down Alec's face, sending a shiver through him. He hadn't realized how much he loved the feel of Magnus' touch until he had done that. His hand came under Alec's chin, lifting it slowly. "And hearing you say it too makes how much I feel for you so much better." He smiled softly. "I was scared you wouldn't feel the same way, that this didn't mean that much to you."

He was scared. Alec had a hard time believing that when he'd never seen Magnus scared as long as he'd known him. "You were scared?"

"I didn't want to lose you."

"And here I thought I'd lost you."

"No. I'm not going anywhere until you tell me to." They both smiled as Magnus brought Alec's face to his lips. The kiss was soft, but it spoke volumes to both of them. It spoke about love and everything they felt for each other. Love. Yeah, that was a scary possibility. But at that moment, it didn't matter to Alec. He knew in that moment that all he needed was in Magnus' arms and he didn't want anything else. Right here, right now, was where he wanted to be as long as he could. He had never felt so happy in his entire life. Magnus made him feel like he could do anything because with Magnus, the whole world meant nothing. The only thing Alec saw was Magnus, the only person he cared about was Magnus, and the only one he wanted to be with was Magnus.

Magnus' hands moved to wrap around Alec's waist, pulling him closer as the kiss intensified. "God, I missed you," he muttered before his tongue darted between Alec's lips, touching and caressing in all the right places. He always knew what to do and never failed to elicit a shock of need through Alec's body. He moaned against Magnus' lips as Magnus moved to take his lower lip between his. His hand trailed up Alec's side, moving underneath his sweater to grab his side and pull him closer. Not an inch separated their bodies and they moved as one, each action drawing a reaction from the other.

"So, does that mean we're okay?"

Magnus laughed against Alec's lips. "Babe, we're more than okay." He smiled before taking Alec's lips with his again.

Alec could feel Magnus' heart beat against his chest, beating in rhythm with his own racing heart. The fire that burned inside of him was beautiful. It was the fire of what he felt for Magnus and what Magnus meant to him. He would never have thought that two months ago he would be where he was now. But he didn't care because this was so much more than he had ever dreamed of. He had never asked for anything or wanted anything, and here he had the best thing he could have ever asked for. Right now, life was good. Life was beautiful.

He jumped slightly when Magnus' hips brushed against his own. His cock was hard beneath the straining leather, rivaling Alec's own growing erection. God, he wanted him. The sensation that one connection sent through him was unbelievable. They had never gone any further than kissing but at that moment, Alec really wanted to take a step, a very big step, with Magnus. It was like every other coherent and reasonable thought went out the window. Magnus was all he could think of, all that he could see. Nothing else made sense to him at that moment except for the way he felt for Magnus. It was like his want for Magnus-his want for everything Magnus-was taking him over.

Magnus' hands continued to trail up Alec's sides and they broke apart for one second to allow Alec's sweater to slip over his head and onto the floor. He shivered as the cold air bit at his naked skin, but was warmed as Magnus's hands moved softly down his back, tracing the lines of his spine. He let the feel of Magnus' hands against his skin overtake him. The soft feel of Magnus' manicured fingers sent a chill over Alec's skin, and elicited an even brighter reaction when his nails scraped softly down Alec's skin to rest his hands lightly at Alec's hips.

Alec's hands fell back to Magnus' shoulders where he slipped his vest off, letting it fall carelessly to the floor. Unconsciously he moved his hands to the hem of Magnus' shirt and slowly, he pulled that over his head, discarding it with the rest of their clothing. His hands traced down Magnus' chest and, inch by inch, he felt raised lines in his skin. Alec pulled away from his lips unintentionally. It was the feel of the scars beneath his skin that surprised him. He had only seen them slightly and in the light, they were small and barely noticeable, but up close they were rigid and deep, far worse than he had thought. What had happened to him to cause such scars? A pain ripped through Alec as he traced his fingers over one. He could only imagine what sort of pain he had gone through to get such scars.

Alec looked up into Magnus' eyes and he knew he didn't have to ask for Magnus to understand. He saw pain flicker in Magnus' eyes and it hurt Alec even more to know something like this had happened to him.

Magnus placed his hands over Alec's. "Another day Alec." He pulled Alec's hands away from the scars, dropping their hands so they were clasped at their sides. "I told you there was more to my story, but I don't want to tell it tonight. Tonight I just want to be with you. Can I do that?"

Alec nodded. "Okay."

"Thank you." Magnus smiled, meeting Alec's eyes. Without even a second to think and catch try to catch himself, Alec was lost in the swirling yellow and green of Magnus' eyes. They were magnificent and they told so much. He didn't know what, but they told a story.

Magnus quickly closed the new distance between them, his chest an inch away from Alec's cold and yearning skin. His hands fell to Alec's belt buckle but they made no motion to do anything. Alec's heart skipped a beat at the thought of what was inevitably about to happen. The motion suddenly sent a wave of fear through him. He was ready to take a step but he didn't know if he could go that far. He had been so caught up in his want for Magnus he hadn't thought about what that wanting entailed.

"Magnus…wait."

Magnus looked up to meet Alec's gaze. "What is it, love?"

"I can't do this."

"What do you mean?"

"This…" He couldn't even get the word out.

"Sex?"

Alec blushed, nodding.

Magnus smiled, moving his hands from Alec's belt buckle to his biceps. He rubbed his hands up and down his skin lightly. "I'm not going to force you to do anything you're not willing to do, so don't feel pressured until you're ready."

"I just…" God he wanted to, but he knew he couldn't and he wanted to remember his first time. There was the fact he was scared of having sex and was completely not ready to go that far yet, whether it was with Magnus or not.

"You're not ready Alec. I understand."

"Honestly?"

"Yes. Are you thinking I'm lying to you?"

"No…I just…I'm sorry." Alec bit his lip, feeling more than slightly uncomfortable standing there half naked and telling his boyfriend he didn't want to do anything.

"Don't apologize Alec." He paused, a mischievous light flickering in his eyes. "There are things we can do besides sex." And in the word things, Alec heard the perfect inflection that still indicated sexual themes.

Alec looked up in surprise. What else could they possibly do? He felt a blush cross his face. This was definitely not the type of conversation you had every day, hell Alec had never had it.

Magnus laughed as he moved his hands down Alec's skin. "And I thought my mind was in the gutter. Your mind goes directly to sex and forgets that there's other ways of pleasuring someone."

Alec's blush grew more red as his mouth opened to speak, but closed as no words came together in his brain. Instead, he just let out a soft exasperated breath which Magnus caught as he pressed his lips once again to Alec's. Oh, God. If Magnus kept that up Alec just might say fuck it and do it. The need that was building inside of Alec was unbearable and sooner or later something needed to be done or he was going to burst.

"So what do you say? Do you want me to do it?" Magnus muttered against his mouth.

"I don't even know what it is," he admitted innocently.

Magnus smiled. "God, you're amazing." And with that, he pushed Alec down onto the bed, following with his body to lay on top of him. He placed a deep but quick kiss to Alec's lips before trailing them down his chest, licking at the exposed skin with his tongue. He felt Alec shiver underneath him but the boy didn't protest. Magnus took that as a good sign. He took his time, kissing each line of Alec's torso before stopping just before his pant line. He grinned as he undid Alec's belt buckle and slid the belt slowly from the loops.

"Do you want it?" He looked up at Alec from under his eyelashes. As much as he wanted to work Alec over, he couldn't just take advantage of the boy. It was Alec's choice on how fast he wanted to take it. Magnus wasn't going to push him any further than he was willing to go. There was a fine line between comfortable and uncomfortable.

Alec blushed deeper, which just added to the whirlwind of feeling rushing through every inch of Magnus' body. "O…kay."

Hearing that word and all the other ones previously from Alec's lips had lit up an undeniable need in Magnus that was to the point of driving him insane. He wanted Alec, he hadn't lied when he said that. He wanted Alec in every sense of the word and having him come back was so much more than Magnus could ever have asked for. He had been furious with Alec only 30 minutes ago, but now he wanted nothing more than to ravish and mark him in a way he had never been before. Magnus prided himself on his abilities and was determined to make this memorable for Alec. Now, if only the boy would relax…

"Baby, relax." Magnus looked up at Alec from his position above his hips. He met Alec's eyes and he saw them soften. "I'm not going to hurt you." Understanding flashed in Alec's eyes. Magnus understood what the boy was going through and he didn't want to scare him away from sexual actions forever. He was here to alleviate Alec's fears, not instill more.

Magnus turned back to Alec's pants. He undid the button with ease as he slipped the zipper down. He hooked his fingers under the jeans and Alec's boxers, sliding them effortlessly down Alec's hips, freeing his erection as he threw them down on the ground. Damn, Alec. The sight of Alec lying there, naked and innocent, was breathtaking. Magnus' own erection jerked but this wasn't about him. He was going to pleasure Alec, and as much as he wanted to take him then and there, he needed to take it slow.

Slowly, he began to caress his hand up and down, just savouring the moment. He stayed there for a few minutes, slowly building pressure. He kept his eyes level with Alec's as he took in each pleasurable change in Alec's features. Watching Alec there was enough for Magnus and he slowly let go and let himself fall into the moment, letting the gravity of it overtake him. Alec had given himself over to him, not completely, but he had taken what Magnus had given him and hadn't shied away or ran. It meant so much to realize that. He knew it was just one sexual action but to give yourself to somebody meant so much than just an action. It was like seeing someone in a completely different light. You saw their imperfections and their fears and their wants, all there in one single moment. Here with Alec, he saw how scared the boy was of the future and what would become of him. He saw how much he just wanted to be held and to be loved. Magnus saw in Alec what he saw every day: a perfect, amazing man that his heart was falling head over heels for. It took Alec coming back to realize that. What he felt wasn't make believe; it was real. It was scary and it hurt, but it was so, so real.

Alec sucked in a breath as Magnus slowly increased the pressure of his strokes. He watched Alec, as with each increased stroke he elicited a lovely moan from his mouth. Their eyes met as Alec took in a deep breath to steady himself, his body slowly relaxing beneath Magnus. God, did he ever look beautiful lying there, open to everything Magnus was giving him.

"God, Magnus." His fists clenched in the sheets around him.

"More baby?" Magnus asked, meeting Alec's closed eyes. He nodded, biting a lip as the ever-beautiful blush decorated his pale skin. "Well, since you asked." He placed his hands on Alec's hips as he lowered his face to him. He flicked out his tongue, drawing a deep moan from Alec's throat. His hips rocked under Magnus' hands. Magnus trailed his tongue down the length of Alec's shaft before he took the first inches of him into his mouth. He continued down lower as Alec's grip on the sheets increased.

Magnus glanced up at Alec, catching a look of complete and utter bliss on his boyfriend's face. Well, if he'd known he'd get that nice of a reaction from him, he would have done this eons ago. Alec looked so at peace there, his eyes half closed, his face a mix of utter bliss and ecstasy. His skin was a soft red shade and his eyes sparkled, as blue and as beautiful as they'd ever been. Magnus smiled before taking Alec to the base. He shifted his angle, taking him deeper as Alec's hands moved to Magnus's hair. They found their place there, pushing Magnus deeper. Magnus' name escaped from Alec's lips in such a way that could have kept Magnus happy for the rest of his life.

"God…I'm going to…Magnus…"

Go ahead baby, go ahead.

Alec continued to move his hips with Magnus' motions, his body becoming accustomed to the up and down movement. Alec's hands loosened themselves from Magnus' hair and moved back to the sheets. Magnus looked up at him from where he was and knew he was close to release. Magnus quickened his movements, leading Alec through it slowly. Baby steps. He wasn't going to rush a single a part of their relationship and he was going to savour each and every second.

"God, don't stop. Don't stop!" Alec twitched in Magnus' mouth, bucking his hips before releasing the hot liquid down Magnus' throat. Magnus swallowed before slowly easing himself back up, grazing his teeth across Alec's skin, darting his tongue out quickly to lick Alec's head before straightening to look down at Alec.

Alec, who was breathing heavy where he lay. The look of ecstasy on his face was absolutely beautiful, and his body was limp against the bed. His eyes were closed as his breathing settled down slowly as the minutes passed. Magnus smiled knowing that he had pleasured his boyfriend in a way he'd never been pleasured before. Magnus' own erection needed some sating but right now, he cared only for Alec. To know that he had caused such a look of peace on his face was enough for him right now.

He sat there staring at Alec as he waited for him to recover. Alec shifted slightly, taking a deep breath before opening his eyes. His eyelids were heavy, and his eyes exhausted, but happy. Magnus smiled at him as he leaned down to his kiss his waiting lips.

"That…was…amazing." A small blush crept across his face.

"It's one of my many talents." He placed another kiss to the crook between Alec's neck and his collarbone. Just wait until you see my other ones. He'd wait for that, because this, well, this was good enough right now. And then maybe one day Alec would get up the courage to do it too. But until then, and until the day Alec was ready to give up his V-card, Magnus would be happy right where he was.

Alec let out a breath as he smiled. "I like what it is."

"I told you you would." He met Alec's eyes as he tucked a stray lock of hair behind Alec's ear. "One day you'll be ready to let me pleasure you properly, but until then I think that sufficed pretty well."

"God, yes," Alec said through soft breaths. "That…was not what I was expecting."

"Yes, we established that you were unaware of what a blow job was," Magnus teased.

"I knew what a blow job was. That just wasn't what I what I was thinking about at that moment in time," Alec defended, growing even redder. Alec would never know now much that small splash of red did to him.

"It's okay, not all of us are blushing virgins like yourself." Alec grew impossibly redder as Magnus smiled, capturing Alec's swollen lips once again. He took Alec's bottom lip with his, dragging his teeth across the wet skin as Alec sighed. He continued to play with Alec's lips but stopped when Alec moved underneath him.

"Magnus?"

Magnus looked down at Alec. "Yeah?"

"I…Well, I should do the same for you," he muttered, biting his lip in a clearly uncomfortable state. Magnus couldn't get over how adorable Alec looked in that moment. He looked so innocent and clearly incapable of doing what he was implying. He was still exhausted, his body sated in all the right ways. Magnus loved that Alec would offer up such a thing and it lightened his heart, but Alec didn't need to anything to make Magnus any happier than he already was.

Magnus smiled. "I appreciate the gesture babe, but not now. When you're ready."

"But…"

"Shh." Magnus placed a finger to Alec's lips before once again taking his lips with his. He'd wait until Alec was ready. He'd told Alec that from the beginning and nothing had changed. He'd waited for Alec to grow comfortable with them to do that, and so he'd wait for Alec to do it him, and for him to go public. He'd wait as long as Alec needed, but of course, he'd give some gentle prodding in the right direction.

Alec pulled away abruptly, throwing his head in his hands.

Magnus looked at him. "Baby, what's wrong?" Magnus pulled Alec's hands away from his face.

"We just…well, we just…you know."

"Performed oral sex," Magnus stated blatantly.

"Yes!" The embarrassing shift in Alec's features when Magnus said oral sex was enough to make Magnus laugh at how adorable he was, but Magnus refrained. "And we have neighbours." He threw his head back in his hands. "God, someone had to have heard."

"No one heard."

"Really? Did you hear me?" Alec exclaimed.

"Yes I did, and it was quite beautiful I might add."

"Oh, god." He buried his face deeper in his hands.

"No one heard Alec. Well, except Chairman who I will apologize to later, but that couldn't be helped." Magnus placed a hand on Alec's reddened face, massaging his thumb along Alec's cheek. "Baby, these walls were built to keep the noise in. We know perfectly well what's going on next door but we've never heard it. Our secret's safe." He smiled, trying to reassure Alec. "I can do whatever I want to you and no one will ever hear a thing."

"How do you know that?"

"Because I'm all-knowing and awesome, that's how." He smirked, warranting himself a glare from Alec. "Don't deny it. Look at this. I am marvellous and you know it."

A smile twitched at Alec's lips. "Don't flatter yourself."

"I'm offended. You don't think I'm marvellous?"

"No."

Magnus leaned back. "Ok, now that's just being mean. I do that for you and this is how you repay me."

"No, this is how I repay you." Alec wrapped an arm around Magnus' neck, grasping his hair to pull him down to Alec's lips. Alec's tongue darted into Magnus' mouth, as Magnus let out a moan of happiness. Having Alec like that was amazing and he knew taking those baby steps was worth it. Now he had Alec all to himself and he was growing to be more sure of himself as each day passed. One day, he would assuage all of his fears, and one day, he wouldn't be afraid. Magnus would admit, he'd miss the impromptu blush that crept onto his face on cue every time the mention of other people knowing came up, but Magnus would find other ways to make Alec blush.

Magnus pulled away softly. "I'm glad you came back."

"I'm glad you took me back."

So, what did you all think? Should I refrain from mature content ever again or was it a reasonable attempt? I hope it wasn't terrible. Anyway, I thought i'd let you all know in regards to upcoming updates. Next week will be the last update for a few weeks. I'm going to Europe for Spring Break and will have no time to write for around two weeks in March. So I will get you all an update next week and then another one hopefully two weeks from then. But I can't be sure so please bare with me if following next week's update there isn't another one for a little while. I will try to write in Europe but will have no access to a computer so it will just be me and my trusty notebook on the trip. Anyway, I love you guys and you are all amazing. Thank you so much for reading. Until next week!

Be the change,

Amber