Diary entry: Friday, September 22, 2017
I truly can't take it anymore.
I miss Jellal.
I miss seeing him.
He didn't come to school today as well and there is no one I know whom I can ask who might know what happened to Jellal.
At lunch I sat under the tree and cried.
Was I not going to see him again?
I wish I could do something but wishing is the only thing I can do...
Why did it turn out like this of a sudden?
Why am I getting hurt for no reason...?
I really can't take it anymore.
I hugged Levy today the moment I came home, and she looked at me dubiously. I knew she was doubting something and would shoot me questions I wouldn't be able to answer. That's why I apologized to her for the unexpected hug and locked myself in my room.
Levy knocked a few times to ask me if I was okay and I lied that I was.
I'm not okay.
I'm not fine.
It's like I'm dying.
Like someone gave me a poison and it's slowly killing me...
I hate it because it hasn't even been weeks that we met and... I fell in love with him so deeply that it feels like I can't live if I don't see him now...
And I'm getting anxious that I might not be able to see him forever...
Please, somebody help me. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I don't want to think that I won't be able to see him anymore.
Please...help me.