his is more of a filler than anything and it lets you know what Ella is feeling. I also put Renesmee in the chapter for some reason even though she dosn't speak.
The difference between house and home.
I hunted down another two deer so I was full of warm satisfying blood my belly slushed as I walked from the amount I drank in one night,
I took a slow walk back home, home a simple word that could mean everything to you. It was different to the word house, the place I would call the flat I moved out of only 4 days ago.
The word 'house' was just a simple place for shelter it was just a building that you had to pay a lot of money for to live in, it doesn't mean anything to you, and you have no bonds, no strings attaching you to the building. It was empty. The house could be full of top of the range equipment that a rich man simply wanted but he still might not feel at home.
The word 'home' was the complete opposite it was the place where the Cullen's where. It isn't for shelter but protection and love and the only way you could pay was through emotions and affection. It means the world to you and you have many bonds and strings attaching you to the place, the place the people where in it, it didn't matter if they had no money and lived in a cardboard box because that box would become home, it would give you shelter, love, affection and companionship all in one place you don't have to hunt for it as it comes to you.
'Home is where the family is' the phrase was true and it was so much more. I never thought it would, I just thought people were stupid saying such things but through the four days I have spent with the Cullen's it was the truest phrase I have ever heard I my existence.
"I'm glad that you think that way." A voice I recognized said to me just as I walked through the Cullen front door,
I blanked out through the whole walk back. I completely forgot about my surroundings, the night sky, the slight breeze, the animals curling up into balls as they slept, it all left my mind in the slightest moment as I strolled back.
I looked up to see Edward sitting at the grand piano that was tucked away in the corner. He was sitting their hands on the keys like he just finished playing or was about to, next to him was his daughter Renesmee.
Sitting together they looked so alike; the bronze hair shone in the light coming from the lamp above the piano making them look identical. The nose and face shape was also in each other's features but Renesmee was more beautiful she was captivating and a face that would stay in your mind for eternity. I always thought she looked a lot more like Bella but now sitting next to her father they could be identical twins if Nessie looked a couple of years older. Her main feature though was her eyes the color of the earth, rich and fertile. She could hold you in a trance if you looked into the orb like circles. The eyes I guessed weren't from Edward though I guess as the shape and the bigness of them looked more like Bella's. She is truly magnificent.
"I'm scared though," I wisped back to Edward,
I didn't know if Renesmee could hear me as I knew she had human traits just like me, her fluttering heart like birds wings proved that she had them. I guessed she could as her eyes began to widen and her mouth slightly parted, it looked like she was thinking, I knew that she was confused by her feelings but she mainly felt sorrow the one feeling I hated to the moon and back, it was the one feeling that people gave me and it made me feel weak and powerless, the feelings that I hated to feel.
A single tear feel down my face and I took in a ragged breath as my breathing spiked in panic. Panic of becoming close to the Cullen's and them hurting me was at the back of my mind. The main part of the feeling came from Seth he acted innocent towards me but, what if that was all an act just like the woman who raised me? If she raised me at all, it was more like the men in my bed raised me to become who I was today and it was truly a horrible feeling.
Edward stood from his position and went to step over the bench to get me but I held out my hand.
"Don't…" I told him, stopping him from coming over to comfort me, I looked around the living room but no one was in here except Edward and Nessie.
I could hear; Esme in the kitchen opening and closing cupboards like she was putting away food, Alice was forcing Bella and Emily into new outfits that they both hated, Jasper (my dad) was flicking through a book while rocking on a chair I could feel that he was too engrossed in the book to feel my emotions at this point, snores where coming from Sam and Quill upstairs while outside I could hear the other two wolves Seth and Brady running I guess in wolf form as I heard eight paws pounding the ground as they ran, Rose and Emmett I could hear upstairs giggling and rolling around on the bed it doesn't take Einstein to guess what they were doing, the only person I couldn't hear was Carlisle he was probably at the hospital for his night shift.
"Where's my car? It wasn't in the garage the other day. I completely forgot about it."
I asked I needed to get away from this place just for one night to think and drown my sorrows.
"Rose brought it back to try and fix it after crashing into you at the hospital but the boot at the back was too damaged so she had to throw it out…I thought she told you."
"No…She never," I wisped while walking out. More tears streamed down my face as I ran back to the forest, the place I just came from.