Lavender Surrender

Disclaimer: I do not own Code Geass or any of the characters. I do however own the plot of the story.

Summary: When you pick the wrong flowers, can you expect that the others, still will grow, or will they wither away, and bloom in another man's garden? Will they ever return just for you? Suzalulu rated M for future chapters. (Lelouch is a normal person, Zero never existed)

Chapter 14

Gino laughed nervously, trying to look at Suzaku. Suzaku was in pure shock. It was HIS Lelouch, hanging on that wall. The painting, was very beautiful with Lelouch, naked, showing of his flawless skin, with a sheet wrapped around his lower half, only covering his member, posing sexily on a soft rug in front of a lit fireplace. HIS Lelouch. Suzaku shook with anger, but still he blushed, remembering how beautiful Lelouch was. God he missed him now… but why did that man have a picture of his lover? More importantly, why had Lelouch agreed to give this to him? James just stood there admiring the picture. "He gave me this as a farewell gift. Can you see his unique beauty? He made me want to own him, and not sharing him with his other lovers…" James paused and frowned, then he laughed and caressed Lelouch's face on the painting. "Oh Lulu… whoever didn't want you at the time, was mad. So beautiful and passionate, caring and smart… but he was broken." Suzaku looked up at him. James was still staring at Lelouch. "Come closer." Suzaku and Gino didn't really want to, but did so anyway. "Look at his eyes. What do you see?" Gino looked intensely at the picture. "Lust?" James laughed. "When you don't look directly into his eyes, you would think that…" Suzaku stared at the painting, having a hard time looking into Lelouch's eyes. "If you look closely, you can see how… lonely he really was. Sad, miserable. He was everything, and he was nothing. He could be everything you wanted. He was a dancer, a lover, a whore, he could be dominate or submissive, sadistic or a real masochist. He would do whatever he could, to hide himself. He was a great actor, but this picture shows just how fragile he was… Somebody, clearly hurt him a lot…" James sighed and looked at the other men. Suzaku felt a wave of sadness fall over him. He thought about when they went to high school, Lelouch was never to figure out. He was something. He had always been. But had Suzaku even seen the real Lelouch? He doubted it.

"Lulu didn't want to be treated gently, like a lover" he said. " He wouldn't let any of us kiss him. Well I managed to sneak a kiss every once in a while, but I don't think it bothered him that much. He just wanted to be held, and forget, I think…Oh enough with the sad talk, you don't want to hear that!" He turned his head and smiled at Gino and Suzaku, but Suzaku yearned to hear more, and yet James was right. So he smiled. "He was amazing in bed." He laughed. "He sucked cock like he was born to do so. Best money I've ever spent." Suzaku felt his eyes burn with anger. "He liked it rough. My marks could last a week, if he got what he wanted." Suzaku clenched his fists. Gino noticed Suzaku getting more and more angry. "I am sorry to interrupt you, Mr. Ackworth, but we are to get back to the base to report now." Gino said, bowing. James nodded and lid a cigarette. "Then I will not hold you up. Good day, Mr. Weinberg, and Mr. Kururugi, good luck on your promotion." Suzaku said nothing and simply bowed, never taking his eyes of the painting. "Thank you sir. Good day." Gino pulled Suzaku out of the room, still starring at the painting. Gino said nothing, not even when the silence became unbearable in the car. Even if he had spoken, Suzaku wouldn't have heard him at all. He was sad and angry, the feelings overwhelming for him. He had never thought of Lelouch's past as a problem. But now, now he did. His mind was screaming at him. He didn't want to listen, but he couldn't stop the yelling. "Prostitute, hussy, street walker, hoe, tramp, hooker, whore, slut!"

Lelouch was sleeping peacefully on his couch with Arthur on his lap. He had fallen asleep while watching some movie again, completely exhausted from the busy day he had had on work. His neck was hurting and his ears was ringing. 2 weeks for Christmas, and still he hadn't started shopping or decorating. He had hoped that Suzaku would help him later. He smiled in his sleep. Soon enough, they would be buying Christmas decorations together. Lelouch turned on his couch. Secretly he had been looking on apartments on the internet, trying to find some, in Tokyo, not too far away from work, but not too close to the inner centrum. It was too noisy. Lelouch had looked at a few small houses outside the city, but had decided that buying a whole house, with only Suzaku and himself to live in, would be too much. But he did want a place near a park, so that Arthur could run around outside. Arthur could only walk a little on his little balcony, and he hadn't been too happy about that. So Lelouch had been forced to buy Arthur a cat leash, so he could walk him every now and then. People had laughed at him, but Arthur had been so happy. So Lelouch hadn't minded. Maybe he should take him for a walk a little later, when he had to go shopping for groceries anyways, Arthur was always welcome in the shop, if he was in one of Lelouch's bigger bags. Lelouch turned again, trying to fall back asleep and right as someone rung his doorbell. Lelouch groaned and walked to the phone. "Yes?" "…It's me…" "Suzaku? I'll let you in." then he pressed the button, and the high unpleasant sound rung. The elevator was pretty slow, so Lelouch decided to lay down under his warm blanket again. He was exhausted. He fell asleep pretty quickly, when a violent knocking, woke him up. Once again he groaned and rubbed his eyes sleepily, walking to the door.

Lelouch looked like a child when he opened the door. Suzaku almost forgot that he was angry at him. He was in a pair of loose shorts, which most likely was Suzaku's and an oversized sweater, rubbing his eye. "Hi love…" he said sleepily. Suzaku said nothing and walked into Lelouch's apartment. "Do you want anything? Coffee? Tea?" Suzaku shook his head. "What's wrong?" Lelouch said. "I was at one of our supporter's office today." Lelouch's face brightened. "Oh, he gave your new department more money? That's great honey!" Lelouch said happily, trying to kiss Suzaku. But Suzaku grabbed his wrist and held it. "It was James Ackworth." Lelouch gulped instantly. "S-So?" Suzaku frowned. "He showed us a painting. Of you." Lelouch looked down, shamefully and scared. "Why the hell did he have a picture of you?" Lelouch flinched. "WHY DID HE HAVE A PAINTING OF YOU LELOUCH?" Suzaku yelled angrily. Lelouch flinched again. "I-I ga-gave it t-to hi-him." Lelouch said carefully. "Why?" Lelouch shook his head. Suzaku forced Lelouch to look at him and yelled at him. "WHY?" Lelouch shook his head again. Usually Lelouch would have yelled back. But he was scared of losing Suzaku when he finally had him. "I'm sorry… Suzaku I'm so sorry…" Suzaku just got even madder. "Sorry? You're sorry? That doesn't remove the picture from his wall! What did you give the others huh? A sex tape? Nude pictures? A STATUE MAYBE?" Lelouch bowed his head in shame. "You did huh? You dirty little whore!" Suzaku yelled before he pushed Lelouch out of pure anger. Lelouch fell back and hit his head against his table, bombing his head on it violently. Lelouch writhed in fear and in pain. "Le-Lelouch?" Suzaku said. He hadn't meant to hurt Lelouch, had he? He kneeled next to Lelouch. "Lelouch? I'm… I'm sorry I didn't-" "Get out." A choked sob, came from Lelouch. "Lelouch I-" "GET OUT!" Lelouch screamed. Suzaku didn't know what to do. His heart hurt. But when he reached out for Lelouch, he flinched. Lelouch was sobbing violently. The only person he had ever loved, had just hurt him. Suzaku felt tears sting behind his eyes. But he decided to stand up and walk away. He had just hurt the only person who had ever loved him, whom he loved so much. "Why?... oh god why…"

Lelouch was left on his floor crying. "What am I going to do?... it's all my fault…" Lelouch was sobbing hard, his lunges felt as if they were to explode. And suddenly something inside Lelouch broke. He felt it, something inside him breaking. Suzaku… disappeared from his heart so suddenly and painfully came back. In a stream of all of the bad things he had done to him. Not his love. Not his gentle smile. He clutched his head, trying to get a grip of his own mind. But he couldn't. Suzaku's angry and hurt face kept coming back into his head, yelling at him. The words kept on being thrown back and forth in his head. 'Slut! Whore!' he couldn't handle it, it all hurt too bad and it was too much all at once. He had lost Suzaku once… he had never been supposed to lose him twice…This time he had had Suzaku. He had made love with him, he had been kissed, he had been hooked on the drug that was Suzaku. And now he had lost it, so there he was… alone and pathetic. He frowned. Did he make it so easy to just walk away? Wasn't he good enough? Wasn't he… beautiful? Was he really that much of a slut? Why wasn't he good enough for Suzaku? He had been good enough for all of the other men…He shook his head, he didn't want to think about it… His tears was streaming down his cheeks, like a never ending river. So he sat there for a while, unable to move, shaking and sobbing. He was alone now. Nobody needed him anymore… Suzaku didn't want him… His eyes hurt, and his face itched from his salty tears, so he rose from the floor and walked to the bathroom. He washed his face and dried it and looked at himself in the mirror, and felt nothing. Like all of those years ago, he only saw an empty shell. And now… Nunnaly didn't need him anymore… now, no one did.

He touched the mirror. "So ugly…" He whispered. He looked so intensely at himself, feeling more and more disgusted by the second. And suddenly the image in front of him changed, and he the new image made him feel sicker than ever. It was him, being taken by a faceless man, moaning shamelessly. He got eye contact with himself. The other him had lustful cloudy eyes. He felt sick, but clearly the image didn't he smiled arrogantly and kept moaning. "Stop it…" Lelouch whispered. But the image didn't, he got more and more into it. No matter how much Lelouch would yell, the image of him wouldn't stop. He was mocking him, with his lusty moans and shameless eyes. "STOP IT!" Lelouch yelled in a pained scream as he smashed the mirror with his hands. He didn't feel the glass cut his skin. He didn't feel the warm red fluid streaming from his skin. The mirror broke and cracked, but the image didn't disappear, instead new ones appeared in every crack of the mirror, every image of the same as the last. Him. Had he always acted like that? Degrading himself like that. "Slut! Whore! Hoe! Hussy! Dirty pavement princess! Tramp! SLUT! SLUT! DIRTY LITTLE WHORE!" Lelouch held his hands over his ears. Suzaku's words kept stinging his heart and hurt his ears. Now it wasn't only Suzaku yelling, now it was all of his own reflections as well. "Shut up!" He screamed and smashed every mirror, breaking all of his reflections, yelling at him, all of them being taken by faceless men. His hand was bleeding, the skin was broken. But he didn't feel it at all. He just wanted the voices to stop. And suddenly they did. And Lelouch looked up at the broken mirror and found several reflections of himself, looking back at him, with an equally broken face. Lelouch sobbed and fell to the floor. He felt… alone.

Suzaku had absolutely no idea where he was going, or why. He wanted to go back to Lelouch, and beg for him to forgive him. But every time he turned around to go back, he came to think of the picture… and the movie… and the pictures… and the statue… and he felt angered again. Why had Lelouch given such lewd gifts to those men? Didn't he love him at all? Oh yeah… as James said. He had been a fool for not wanting him, for not seeing Lelouch's hurt. It was his own fault. But he felt so disgusted knowing that some people had had Lelouch, before him. But he guessed that Lelouch had felt the same way, when he was with Euphemia. Suzaku gulped. He had been married to her for 2 years, and been with her even longer, and he had always come home to rub it in Lelouch's face. He felt ashamed of himself. Poor Lelouch. Suzaku sighed and sat down on a bench. "I'm really just such a child… I'm a selfish bastard… and I… I hit him… he will never take me back… I just screwed up bad… I… you could never ask for someone as Lelouch… he is just what you want him to be… he never thinks about himself… he… shit… I wanted to celebrate Christmas with him… and hold him… hell we were to move in together… I have been looking at apartments… I wanted… children with him… Damnit!" Suzaku cursed at himself as he cried silently. He had always been too much of a man to show anyone, that he cried… all, except Lelouch. Because he wouldn't judge. He would just, hold you and smile. "Oh god Lelouch…" Suzaku sobbed and held a hand over his eyes. "I'm so sorry… I'm so sorry… I forgive you Lelouch…" Suzaku breathed out. He hadn't even noticed that the snow, that was falling softly, once again. Lelouch loved snow. Suzaku thought happily. "It cover's the ugly bald earth…" Suzaku laughed. The color of innocence.

"Oni-san why are you crying?" Suzaku looked towards the sound and saw a small boy staring at him intensely. "Oh, I didn't see you there kid." Suzaku said. "Oni-san why are you crying?" Suzaku chuckled and nuzzled the small boy's head. "I got in a fight with my… boyfriend." Suzaku said. He couldn't call Lelouch his lover, and if Lelouch knew he had referred to him as his girlfriend, he would rip his head off. "What's oni-san's boyfriend's name?" Suzaku laughed. "It's Lelouch…" The kid smiled as if he knew. "Oni-san should make up with Lelouch. Oni-san is lost without Lelouch!" Suzaku laughed. How did that kid know him so well? "It isn't that easy. I screwed up. Big time." The kid leaned his head to the side. "But if Lelouch loved oni-san very much, he will forgive him! Lelouch is special." Suzaku ruffled the kid's hair. "How do you know all that?" The kid smiled. "Because I know. Lelouch needs oni-san!" Suzaku smiled. "You sure as hell are a smart kid." The small boy nodded. "What's your name?" The kid smiled. "Silly oni-san. I'm you." Suzaku looked at the boy, really looked at him this time. It was him, as a small boy. "Wha? How?" "You don't have time oni-san! Lelouch needs you!" The kid smiled gently. Suzaku nodded and dashed away, towards Lelouch's house. "I just talked to… myself… I really am lost without you Lelouch!"

Suzaku had a hard time breathing the dry cold air, as he ran with all his might, to Lelouch's apartment. He was nervous. What if Lelouch wouldn't take him back? He had to! He simply had to! Suzaku ran even faster. Lelouch's couldn't just leave it all behind. Suzaku wanted to live with him. Take care of him, look forward to seeing him every day, hold him, sleep with him, make love to him…He wanted to get married to him and have children with him. He ran, as fast as he possible could, and when he reached Lelouch's apartment building, he was out of breath. But he didn't stop running. He ran up the stairs, all the way. He wanted to see Lelouch. He had hurt him so badly. He knocked the door carefully. "Lelouch? It's me…" No answer. So he knocked again. "Lelouch? I- I understand if you don't want to talk to me, but please, just listen to me… I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to mention your past, I didn't mean any of it! Please… I just became so jealous, and I…I didn't mean to take it out on you, I love you Lelouch…" still no answer. "Lelouch! Listen to me! I'm sorry I called you a slut! Okay? I'm sorry! Lelouch? Lelouch talk to me! I love you! Please Lelouch! I love you…" Still no answer. Suzaku was now knocking the door violently. There was no reaction at all. Suzaku didn't want to barge in, but now he had no choice. So he grabbed the handle. "Lelouch!" he called as he opened the door. It was left unlocked. So Lelouch had to be home.

"Lelouch? I'm coming in…" Suzaku walked into the hallway, the lights were on, Lelouch was there, but he was ignoring him or sleeping... "Shit… what if he hit his head very hard and is passed out somewhere?" Suzaku thought and He ran into the living room, finding Lelouch on his couch. Fast asleep. Suzaku sighed. At least he was okay. He walked closer to him, and sat on his knees in front of Lelouch to look at him. His face was red, and his cheeks was stained with tears. He was crying in his sleep. Suzaku felt guilty again. He carefully wiped the tears from Lelouch's eyes. Lelouch stirred lightly, and brought a hand up from under his blanket, and rubbed his face. Suzaku gulped. Lelouch's hand was wrapped in gauze, but a big amount of blood was staining the white gauze. Suzaku felt tears stain his own cheeks. Lelouch had hurt himself. "Lelouch?" Suzaku shook Lelouch lightly. Lelouch opened his eyes for a short moment, and closed them again. "Lelouch…" Suzaku said, caressing Lelouch's cheek. Lelouch opened his eyes, clouded over with sleep. "Hi…" Suzaku said lovingly. Lelouch blinked sleepily, he looked so small and vulnerable. "Wh-who?" Lelouch stammered. Suzaku's gentle smile disappeared. "It's me Lelouch…" He said sadly. "Suzaku? Wh-why are you he-here?" Lelouch stammered looking at Suzaku intensely. He wasn't sure if he was awake or if he was dreaming. He hoped he was awake, but didn't think he was. Why would Suzaku be there?

Suzaku soon realized that Lelouch was looking at him, his eyes pleading for comfort, for him to really be there. So he took a deep breath and then he spoke. "… I… I'm so sorry about what I said to you earlier! I didn't mean it… I… I got so jealous and mad at myself… James made me realize that it was my own fault… you had guys before me, I know that… I didn't mean to… to bring up your past." Lelouch stared at him with a blank expression. "Lelouch please forgive me! I never meant to hurt you… I love you so much. I-" Lelouch grabbed Suzaku's face and kissed him harshly. Suzaku's eyes went wide, but soon enough he closed his eyes and held Lelouch close to his body. Both of them shed tears in the kiss. It had all hurt and scared them both, and now relive took over. They just kept kissing, until their lunges were screaming for air and as they pulled away for the source of life that they craved, Suzaku wiped Lelouch's tears. "Why did you come back? After what I did…" Lelouch whimpered. Suzaku looked at him tenderly. "Because I was at fault…. Not you. I love you so much Lelouch… forgive me?" Suzaku blinked a few tears away. Lelouch nodded and Suzaku smiled. Lelouch rose one of his hands, to stroke Suzaku's cheek. Suzaku looked at Lelouch's wounded hand, grabbed it tenderly and kissed it. "Please…" Lelouch suddenly said. "Please let this be real… I'd rather die if I wake up and you're not here… please tell me you're real… or tell me I'm dead and in heaven…" Lelouch was crying comfortlessly. Suzaku whimpered as he heard these words. Had he always meant so much to Lelouch? "It's real… I'm real…" Suzaku whimpered and held Lelouch close to his body. "What would I ever do if you were dead?..." Suzaku whispered, making Lelouch cry more. It was so real and it hurt so badly. Who had ever known that love, would hurt you like that? Their heartbeats, started mixing once again, as they held each other close and cried.

"I'm so sorry I left you all alone… I'm so sorry…" Suzaku cried. Lelouch whimpered as he felt Suzaku's hot tears wet his shoulder. He ran a hand through his thick unruly brown hair, and just held him, like Suzaku held him. He felt his need to comfort the being that held him and started humming lightly. Suzaku tensed. Never once in his life had he ever heard Lelouch hum or sing. But now he was holding on to him tightly, sinning ever so lightly. "Come stop your crying…It will be all right…Just take my hand…Hold it tight" Suzaku knew this song, and as Lelouch continued Suzaku calmed like a child would, and sank further down, until he was laying with his head in Lelouch's lap, while he sat on the floor in front of him. Suzaku smiled. Lelouch had always been there for him, no matter what. Lelouch was… an angel. He looked up at him through his tears, and saw nothing but a bright, smiling beauty sitting there. His eyes were shining brightly as Suzaku looked at him. "You'll be in my heart… No matter what they say… You'll be here in my heart, always…" Lelouch sang lightly, smiling at his lover. "I love you..." Suzaku said, without noticing himself. Lelouch blushed and stopped singing. Suzaku had gotten up on his knees, and had eye contact with Lelouch. They were studying each other's faces, wanting to touch each other so badly, their hearts constricted. Lelouch kissed him with passion. He wanted to touch him so bad. Suzaku got up on his knees to kiss back with the same amount of love. "Lulu didn't want to be treated gently, like a lover" Suzaku stopped for a second and looked at Lelouch. "He wouldn't let any of us kiss him. Well I managed to sneak a kiss every once in a while, but I don't think it bothered him that much. He just wanted to be held, and forget…" "To be held and forget huh…" Suzaku muttered. "What?" Lelouch asked, touching his lover's face tenderly with his injured hand. The gauze was hanging a little loose, and the scabs had been stuck in the gauze that was hanging loose, meaning that the wound was bleeding. Lelouch hadn't noticed though. But Suzaku did. He put his hand over Lelouch's and pulled it away from his cheek. He unwrapped the gauze and kissed Lelouch's bleeding hand tenderly. "Ah, what are you doing? That's dirty!" Lelouch uttered trying to pull his hand away from Suzaku. But Suzaku held his hand in a strong grip and refused to do so. He just kept kissing the wound, until Lelouch started crying. Lelouch didn't know himself, why he cried. Maybe it was the tenderness that Suzaku offered him. He had never wanted tenderness.

"Do-don't…" Lelouch stammered as Suzaku kept licking his wound. "Stop…" This tenderness was too much for Lelouch to handle all at once. No one had ever held him like that when he cried, no one had ever kissed his wounds, no one had… not like Suzaku did it. With pure love and concern. So he cried. "Wh-why are you doing th-that?..." he whimpered. That made Suzaku stop and look up at his lover. "Because I love you." He simply answered. Lelouch pulled his hands away from Suzaku's hold and held them closely to his beating heart, clenching his fists. He was blushing, crying and his heart beat so fast it hurt him. He was more in love with Suzaku than ever. Suzaku smiled. Lelouch looked like a girl confessing for the first time in her life. He chuckled brushed the hair covering Lelouch's eyes and forehead away placing a light kiss on his forehead. Lelouch looked up at him in pure wonder. This was real… not an illusion. "Sta-Stay here tonight!" Lelouch uttered suddenly, shocking both of them. Suzaku blinked. Lelouch felt so embarrassed that he held his hands even tighter to his chest, his blush reddened even more and his eyes watered once again. "I'll stay." Suzaku said. Lelouch looked at him with teary eyes. Suzaku couldn't hold himself back anymore, he was so overfilled with love, so filled with regret, he had almost lost Lelouch. So he took a hold of the smaller man and carried him bridal style. Before Lelouch could protest he kissed him tenderly. When he pulled away he could only whisper to Lelouch. "Let me make love to you…" Lelouch still blushed at this. "Hai…" Lelouch looked at his lover with gentle eyes as Suzaku carried him. All he had ever dreamed of, was with him now.

Suzaku placed Lelouch carefully on his large bed, covered in white pillows and his heavy duvet. He kissed him lightly and pushed him down, making sure to be as careful as ever. He looked at his lover intensely, before he turned off the light, letting the moon be the only light they had. "It's full moon… It's a beautiful night." Lelouch whispered. "And yet I can't take my eyes of you…" Suzaku said and kissed Lelouch harder but still as lovingly as before. Tonight was about their love and about Lelouch. Not about lust or release. Lelouch kissed back with an equal force. Suzaku started undressing Lelouch, studying every bit of his white skin as he did so. Lelouch whimpered, and tried to get Suzaku out of his clothes as well, but Suzaku wouldn't let him. He was too into caressing the white porcelain skin that covered Lelouch's body. Lelouch leaned his head back, moaning very lightly as Suzaku ran his bog warm hands over his body. "Ah-ahhh!" Lelouch moaned as he felt Suzaku caressing his nipples. He was rolling them in between his thumps and forefinger. He pulled and pinched them slightly, making Lelouch cry out for his touch. "Ah! Suzaku!" Suzaku smiled and started sniffing Lelouch's neck. His natural vanilla scent floated of his skin, as he ran his fingers over his lover. The scent was intoxicating, and he felt himself get pulled in by this scent. So he started licking Lelouch's neck. "Ah…" Lelouch had never been pleased like that. It was pure torture.

"Suzaku… please touch me more!" Lelouch cried. That made Suzaku fly up from his position. He blushed as he looked at his lover. Lelouch was panting and his face was flushed. It turned him on, seeing Lelouch like that. Suzaku smirked and licked his way from Lelouch's neck to his nipples to tease them even more. They were hard and had turned completely pink. But Suzaku wanted them to be red and bruised. So he started sucking on Lelouch's right nipple, while pulling and pinching the other. Lelouch whimpered. It was too much for him. Suzaku seemed very pleased with having Lelouch writhe in pleasure from under him. He looked at Lelouch as he licked his nipples. Lelouch's face was amazing. He could feel his pants getting tighter. he wanted him so bad that it was painful. But he put his focus on pleasing Lelouch, and slid one of his hand down Lelouch's body, caressing the skin all the way down. Lelouch whimpered and moaned as he felt Suzaku's hand bearing his twitching cock. He wanted Suzaku to touch it so bad, and his body automatically thrust upwards as it felt the hand coming closer. But Suzaku didn't touch him where he wanted him to. Instead Suzaku moved his hand, to Lelouch's inner thighs and started caressing the tender skin there lightly. Lelouch whimpered as Suzaku who had been sucking and licking his nipples, leaving them wet, bruised and hard, licked his was down his body and gave his cock a light lick. Lelouch gasped. Suzaku had never done that and he felt exited knowing what his lover was doing to him.

Suzaku felt somewhat nervous about having an unfamiliar organ in his mouth. He had no idea how to do it probably, but he remembered Lelouch's movements, from when he had pleased him, and tried his hardest to please his lover. He started licking the organ, in long, slow licks, making Lelouch pant heavily. He started sucking lightly at the tip and took Lelouch's need in bit by bit, which wasn't much, but it seemed good enough for his lover, who was moaning loudly. Suzaku wrapped his hand around the bottom of Lelouch's cock, slowly working his hand up and down his shaft. He suddenly felt Lelouch's hand in his hair, pulling it slightly, his hand was shaking, and so was the rest of his body. His moans had gotten louder, even as he tried to keep his sounds back. He simply couldn't. "Su-Suzaku! I'm cumming!" But Suzaku pulled away just as he moaned that sentence. Lelouch's head shot up. "WH-what? Wh-why di-did you st-stop?" Suzaku smirked and put both of his hands under his knees pushing them up. The look in Suzaku's eyes, made Lelouch get even more turned on if that was even possible. He needed his release. "Suzaku! Please!" Lelouch whimpered, but gasped out in pleasure as he felt the exact same warm and wet organ from before, lick in entrance. Lelouch moaned. Suzaku's tongue was swirling his entrance teasingly, putting in the tip every once in a while. He started massaging Lelouch's inner thighs as he stuck his tongue fully inside of him, making Lelouch moan for more. Suzaku was swirling his tongue inside of Lelouch, enjoying Lelouch's loud moans. It felt amazing pleasing your lover in ways he had never been pleased before. He pulled out his tongue, leaving a generous amount of saliva at the puckered hole, so that his ginger's would slide right in. Lelouch almost couldn't take it anymore and when Suzaku started sucking on his inner thighs while kneading his balls with the other hand, he had had enough. His orgasm had been building up and disappearing in his stomach throughout the whole process, and now he exploded. "AHHH! SUZAKU!" he screamed as he came. His release had been so powerful, that some of his seed landed on his own face. But he didn't care. He was breathless. But it wasn't enough. He wanted more.

"Su-Suzaku…" Lelouch whimpered as he tried to get on his knees. But he was so turned on and weak, that he toppled and fell onto his stomach. He was panting, desperately trying to get some air. "Suzaku.. no more… please! Let me…" Suzaku smirked. "Let you what?" He had started undressing in front of his lover, teasing him to the end. Lelouch's face was completely flushed and was watching Suzaku intensely as he almost stripped off his clothing. Lelouch couldn't take anymore waiting for what he needed. So he turned around, still lying on his stomach, but with his ass raised high, as he held his lower body high with whatever strength he had left. "Take me… please!" Lelouch whimpered. He looked almost drunk, he was high on endorphins and was needing Suzaku. Suzaku quickly stripped himself. If Lelouch just wriggled his hips a little bit more, he would cum all over him, without being touched at all.

He sat on the bed and moved Lelouch, so that his head was resting on a pillow with Suzaku was in between his legs. Suzaku looked lovingly at him. "I'm going in now…" he whispered into Lelouch's ear and pushed in. Lelouch moaned as he felt the familiar organ push its way through his tight walls, and immediately touched his prostate. Suzaku moaned loudly as well. It was amazing… "You're so warm and messy inside…" Suzaku whispered making Lelouch blush. Lelouch just closed his eyes as he felt Suzaku staring to move, very slowly. Painfully slow. But it was nice… no not just nice, indescribably nice! Oh hell it was fucking fantastic! Lelouch was moaning, giving himself into the feeling of being loved. Suzaku was kissing his neck, chin and lips, with sloppy and gentle kisses, whispering sweet nothings into his ear. Lelouch was whimpering. "Suzaku… faster… harder." But Suzaku didn't speed up. He kept torturing Lelouch with his slow thrusts. Lelouch opened his eyes to look into Suzaku's. his eyes were begging for Suzaku's animalistic instincts, to come forward. And somehow they did. Lelouch was waking up the animal inside him. And soon he was slamming as hard and fast as possible into Lelouch. Lelouch was literary screaming out in pleasure. "AHH! AH! SUZAKU! AH! FASTER! Oh god!" Suzaku liked it. His lover's desperate cries for more, could be heard in the whole building but he didn't care.. he only obeyed. He took a hold of Lelouch's legs and put the up over his arms, so that he could come closer to Lelouch's screaming body. "HARDER!" Lelouch moaned. Suzaku obeyed once again, slamming only into Lelouch and not out. And as both of them came, Suzaku pushed into Lelouch with every bit of strength in his body, while Lelouch arched his back, pushing down onto Suzaku's cock. Suzaku collapsed on top of Lelouch, both of them completely spent, every muscle arching. But that didn't stop Suzaku from looking down at his lover.

"Daisuki Lelouch…" then he gently took a hold of Lelouch's chin and kissed him, lightly, gently, lovingly. The kind of kiss that was more intimate to Lelouch than making love. Kissing. He smiled, Lelouch's eyes were shining, full of love. Never had purple eyes been so beautiful.. Lelouch loved his kisses, he loved to be kissed by HIM. He was never going to be kissed by any other man than him. And he loved the thought of it. The painting didn't matter. Neither did any of the other stuff. Or the men Lelouch had been with. Because Lelouch had never loved anyone else, but Kururugi Suzaku. And no one would ever be able to take that away from him.

Mina-san! Konichi'wa! Sorry to make you wait for so long- but that damn paper took a lot longer time than planned -.- damn you college ._. Oh well! Thank you for all of the reviews! I'll see you next time- love you all! Kya~~ =^.^=