My Deadman Wonderland
What it means to care.
(I do not own anything of the awesomely sick manga/anime Deadman Wonderland, that credit belongs to the talented writer Jinsei Kataoka and illustrator Kazuma Kondou, the only thing I own is my OC, the now dead Puffin and Pigeon, and a few other Deadmen I've made up for filler.)
Previously on My Deadman Wonderland:
I stand to face him and he uses his thumb rings to cut his forearms, letting out his scythe like branch, Crow's Claw, so I bust out my own.
"We'll start out slow and move up as needed." "Sounds fair. But how will we know when I have achieved the goal of each level?" "Simple. That's when I've stopped attacking you."
With that said, he comes at me for the kill and I just barely get out of the way, so begins our rigorous workout, he tries to kick my ass or kill me, and I have to not die or beat him, which in a confining room like the gym, filled with equipment, isn't easy to do...I have a much pain coming to me this day.
And for the next two and a half hours, pain becomes my middle name.
Senji cuts me absolutely no slack in his training of me, each new lesson is a new level of hell, he is completely relentless.
The first five lessons were just a warm up for the real training, learning how to use your branch at the speed of sound so you'd break the sound barrier.
Why would a Deadman need to attack at such a speed...Why not?
He does this lesson by introducing me to his deadliest move, Invisible Black, it's so powerful, it creates a sonic boom, something that you don't see but get hurt by anyway.
But this will all be worth it in the end, I will become stronger, he'll make me strong, there is no better to learn from then him, I must get stronger, I have to, I need to become powerful!
He beats me into a corner and puts his claw to my forehead.
"That's six times you've died. You need to figure out what you're doing wrong." "You don't stick a worm against a bird and expect it to kill the bird. Give me a break for a sec. I need a drink." "Fine."
He retracts the blade and helps me up.
"You have three minutes." "Thank you."
He towels off while I hit the vending machine for something tasty, but with this being in the gym, it has no soda, damn it, so I go with a juice box of fruit-punch.
What am I doing wrong?
My tendrils are dense enough to damage and even pierce through these harden steel walls, why can't I break his claw, I don't get it.
Lost in though, I drink too fast and choke myself when the juice goes down the wrong pipe, Senji helps fix me by patting my back a couple times and my violent coughing soon ceases.
"You okay?" "Yeah...*cough*...I'm fine." "You sure?" "Yes I am." "Good. Because you only have a minute left." "Great."
Super, I still don't understand what to do and time is almost up, what do I need to do, think damn it, think!
Hold on...Density may be good when it comes to smashing, but it sucks when it comes to swift movements, I can still have a skull splitter and make it smaller, I did that in my hallway rampage, I can do this.
"Times up V.F.. Have you figured this out, or are we calling it a day?" "Oh, I believe I've figured it out." "Then by all means..."
He summons up his Invisible Black and gets ready to fight.
"Show me what you've got."
I smirk and bring out a couple of tendrils from my shoulders, but these things are much thinner and longer than my standard ones, which gets his attention.
"You sure that's what you want to do?" "Let's find out."
He smirks and swings his mighty backhand scythe, so I do the only thing I can think of, I duck and brace for the boom's impact.
Once I stop skidding, one tendril lashes out and without touching him, slices through the bench-press by his side, it moved so fast that I couldn't aim it right.
After seeing that, he whistles impressed but comes at me again, like he's about to let me try to fix that problem, yet when he slashes, he finds himself stuck, being so close that my aim is much better, a tendril had managed to spike into the center of the blade and is keeping him from moving.
"What the...Well aren't you clever?" "I do my best. Speaking of which, I do believe I've passed this lesson." "What did I tell you earlier? The lesson ends when I stop attacking you. Not when you pause me."
He kicks me in the gut and makes me release him, so I pay him back as he stumbles to get space, now that I've had practice with this new trick, I lash at him and when he stands up straight, his pants fall down, earning me a shrill cry of shocked horror from mister badass and a madding blush as he tries to cover up his tightie-whities.
"Ahhh! What the hell is wrong with you?! Why did you do that?!" "Payback's a bitch." "What?!" "You kicked me were the doc cut me open. That hurt."
That got to him, and for a moment, it seems like he's forgotten that he's standing in nothing but his underwear, so I make amends and using a tendril, I grab his coat and drop it on his head.
"I'm sorry, Senji."
He just looks at me and puts his coat on, closing it all the way to fully cover up.
"Forget it. I deserved that for hitting you. No man should ever hit a woman. Unless in a life or death situation."
I smile, finding him charming and so very sweet, chivalry is definitely not dead with this gentleman.
"You're a good man, Senji. The woman you decide to keep will be a very lucky lady." "I don't know about that. What woman would want a guy like me? A cop turned prisoner, missing an eye, and battle hungry." "You'd be surprised. I know I like you."
His eye widens.
"You...You do?" "Yeah...And I also liked what I saw too."
I can't help but blush with a giggle and he nearly dies in disbelief while clinging to his coat.
"You pervert! How could you even do that?!" "Dude, it's your own fault. You're an amazing guy and chiseled like a god. How can I not stare when given the chance?" "You mean...Sick! You looked at me like that?!"
Like what...wait...Oh hell no!
"No-no-no-no! I didn't do that. My eyes staid above the bellybutton and enjoyed your awesome abs. That's it."
Realizing what just came out of my mouth, we both blush to the point that someone soon is going to have a nosebleed, so I start to back away to leave before things get any more awkward.
"So...Um...I'm just...I'm just gonna go." "Oh...Uh...Okay."
At the door, I'm still messed up and fumble miserably to unlock the door, I'm about to break it in my panic till Senji comes up behind me and opens it with ease.
"Heh...Thanks." "If you're serious about getting stronger, I want you to come by here at least twice to three times a week." "You're still willing to train me?" "Only if you want me to?"
He's different somehow, more confident and masculine, it's odd yet nice, this is the badass I like.
"Yeah. I'd like that a lot." "Then I'll see you later?" "I'll try to come by tomorrow, but I make no promises that I can." "But you will come back right?" "You can bet your life on it." "Good. I like working out with you. You make things interesting." "Now, I guarantee to be back soon."
He chuckles and I start to leave.
"Hey V.F.!" "What?" "Thanks again for the gift."
I snicker at that, I didn't think he'd be so happy about it, all it was is a red version of his eye-patch that has a slight Oriental flower pattern on it.
"No problem Senji. But remember. That patch is for special occasions only." "I will. Catch you later." "Later Crow."
And like that we part ways for now, I head back to HQ and he goes to his room to get a new pair of pants, our time together was well spent and fun, I must make sure to hang out with Senji more often.
Suddenly when I'm about halfway to HQ, far enough that no Deadmen dare to tread, I'm blindsided by Genkaku, who is bolting down the hall and, if I heard right...crying...Something's terribly wrong.
I quickly follow after my poor friend all the way back to HQ, there he shuts himself in his room and now I'm worried, I've never seen a man cry like that, even the Foot Soldiers look at me in confusion as to what to do, so doubting he'd let anybody else near him, I go over and knock on his door.
"Azuma? Azuma, are you okay?"
I receive no answer.
"Azuma, let me in. I want to help you."
It gets quiet for a moment then the door slowly cracks open, only letting me see his upset and tearful face, it breaks my heart.
"My Azuma. What happened to you? Was this Tamaki's doing?"
He just shakes his head and opens the door more, revealing the broken remains of his guitar clutched firmly in his grasp.
"Nirvana? What happened?" "That white bitch...She broke it."
White bitch...What is that suppose to mean?
"My poor Azuma. Can I have the soldiers fix this for you?"
He sniffles and with shaky hands, he lets me take the pieces from him.
"I promise, it'll be okay."
I turn to go where the soldiers are but he grabs my shoulder in worry.
"You'll come back, won't you?" "Of course I will. I said I wanted to help you. And that's what I'm going to do." "Thank you."
I smile warmly and he lets me leave him for the moment, I lay the broken guitar-gun on a workbench and the soldiers just stare at it.
"I don't mean to scare you lot. But if this isn't fixed and improved. I have a feeling his next outburst will involve everybody dying in horrible ways. Do not, I repeat, do not fuck this up."
I walk away on those words and return to Genkaku's door, but he's not there anymore, so I go inside to check if he's at least still in the room, that's when the door shuts behind me and when I turn around, he wraps his arms tightly around me.
"Azuma?" "Stay with me. I don't want to be alone."
His voice is weak and pleading, his body is shaking, he is so close to breaking down it could never ever be funny, I hold him fondly and rub his back in comfort.
"I won't go. I don't want to."
His hold strengthens and he presses his brow to my forehead.
"Bless you my goddess. I am not worthy."
His tears slow down but still continue, they fall from him and land on me before being caught on the clothes between us, he's in pain and it hurts me to see this.
"You're more that worthy Azuma, my Uber Monk. Why don't we sit down and you tell me what happened. Okay?"
His answer to me is him picking me up, going over to his bed, and sitting down with me on his lap, he refuses to put any distance between us and I won't dare leave him while he's like this.
"Am I helping you so far?" "Yes." "Good. Just checking."
He chuckles weakly and I smile.
"There we go. Now that's a much better sound. Can I hear more?" "I don't really feel like laughing." "Then can you tell me what did this to you? I can help better if you let me know."
Hr sniffles and takes a moment before telling me his tale.
"When I was done meeting with the Chief, I went to see Owl. You know, just to say hi and see how he was doing." "You're so sweet." "I noticed he had a new friend with him. So I thought I'd play a song for him. Just being friendly." "You don't like it when more people take Nagi's attention, do you?" "No, I don't. He has so many of those flies buzzing around his head already. He doesn't need anymore. I was just about to end the pest when suddenly, from out of nowhere, this albino chick dropkicks from the ceiling and breaks my Nirvana."
An albino girl...Could it be...I have to calm him down before I can ask more about this.
"So you came back here?" "I was going to hold a memorial service for it. But you stopped that with the promise of its rebirth." "I told the soldiers to make it even better, or you'd kill them." "I'll do worse if they ruin my baby." "I swear Azuma, everything is going to be okay. I'll be here with you the entire time. I promise."
He nuzzles into my hair and holds me closer, his tears ending.
"Thank you, Lynsie. What would I do without you?" "You'd be killing everybody, instead of letting them help." "Probably."
I snicker and kiss his cheek.
"You are a silly and sweet man, Azuma. But I like you that way." "I like that you like me, my goddess. Though I don't see why." "That's simple. I like you because you're a wonderful person. You treat me like no one else has. You see me as no one has. And you care for me like no one ever will. With such charms, is it any wonder how I could not like you?"
He smirks and brings a hand to my cheek, caressing it fondly.
"You bless me with such praise my goddess. Might I be so bold as to ask for your favor?" "Oh? You must be feeling better if you're asking to do that." "You're a powerful medicine that I love to take."
I grin slyly, he wants to play, then let us play.
"But Azuma. I don't recall you paying me for the last time we had fun."
His smirk grows and becomes pleasing with the thought of what I might do.
"Then by all means, collect what you must. I offer myself unto you." "Good boy...Now take your top off."
A normal guy would be a tad confused by such a request and a guy like Senji would probably scream before fainting, but Genkaku isn't like any guy, he reaches behind his back and undoes the sash holding his robe together like a good devout monk who lives to serve their faith, and lets me be the one to remove it from him.
Slowly I open his robe and slide it off his shoulders, letting it lay flat on the bed as I look at the sight before me, his body is lovely, sure, he's not ripped like Senji, but he's muscular and very well toned.
Damn he's good looking, I couldn't take my eyes away even if someone put a gun to my head, he watches with great interest as I bring my hands to his chest and his head lulls back with a pleasing smile at my touch as I feel him in slow detail.
"Mmmm...You're hands are warm."
I blush and pull away, much to his confusion.
"What happened? Why'd you stop?" "Lay on your back. I want to make you feel good."
He smiles as I stand up and as told, he moves over and lays fully on the bed, his arms behind his head.
"Like this?" "Roll over." "Understood."
Now he lays on his stomach and his arms are under his chin as a headrest.
"Better?" "Perfect."
He just continues to watch me as I climb up and straddle his back, not entirely, but just enough to be safely over him without sitting on his butt.
I put my hands to the base of his neck and listen to the delightful sounds he makes as I massage him, from light shudders to droning groans, I make him feel fantastic as I move from his neck to his shoulders, to his back, and to just above his pants, and he's loving every second of this as much as I am.
"It feels good doesn't it my Uber Monk? All of the wicked sins of the day have left you upon my touch. Leaving only the bliss of Nirvana to fill your being."
He moans to my words, a mimic of his from days past, his body flexes randomly yet remains relaxed, I'm driving him mad with affection...and loving it.
"Lynsie...My goddess..." "Yes?" "I...I need more..." "More?"
I give this some thought and then smirk.
"Wish granted."
Leaning down, I trail kisses from the base of his spine up to his neck, just to drive him crazy, which works as he trembles and digs his hands into the sheets, clawing as if to get a grip of something on anything, but it only spurns me on to nibble at his nape before biting down, earning me a rough heated moan from him.
"Yes. Damn it, yes! Stronger. Take me and my blood. Claim your vassal, merciful goddess! Do it now!"
My new fangs make it easier to drink without hurting him, a benefit to us both, and I suck lightly as he bleeds, now he tastes good, it sort of has the tang of my own blood, a sweet and delicious flavor, his blood that for some reason makes me think of ice cream, I can never get enough.
I try to maintain a hold on him but he's making it difficult, he's writhing and squirming, he's deep in need of relief, he's even going so far as to bite his lower lip just to keep himself contained and he's doing that hard enough to start bleeding, which gets to me as I pull away with one last lick to seal the holes.
"Don't hurt yourself. It pains me to see that I've made you go to such extremes."
He pants to calm down and releases his death grip on the bed.
"Forgive me...my goddess." "No, Azuma. Forgive me."
I lick away the blood from his face and kiss him apologeticly, but when I move to pull away, he quickly rolls over onto his back and holds me against him, smothering my lips before I can speak or make a sound.
I'm stunned by the sudden attack, but I don't fight against it, no, I'd never fight such wonderful bliss.
I lay atop him now and give him the same care that he's giving me, and it pleases him to no end.
And there we play our favorable game, locked together in each other's arms, faces shrouded by my hair, lips and tongues mingling as one, hands wandering and caressing, legs rubbing against one another, and the sounds of delirious pleasure escaping us to fill the room.
And this is just from making out, I can't imagine what would happen if we ever...No, bad brain, get out of the gutter, don't think like that!
Just 'cause Tamaki made me dirty doesn't mean I have to think that way, I am still me, I am with a cool guy, I am in...in love...Maybe?
My thoughts are killed when he suddenly grips my hips possessively and holds them down to crush against his, as if to merge us into one single being, it feels interesting in a good way at first, but then that certain part of him begins to push into me and my interest dies in an instant, so to make him stop, I pinch his ear and twist till he breaks the kiss with a wincing yelp.
"Ow-ow-ow-ow...Let go!"
I do and he rubs his now sore ear.
"What was that for?" "You're doing it again." "Doing what?" "How do you not feel this?"
I lift myself up so he can see and he reddens slightly as he slaps his forehead in annoyance.
"Can you honestly blame me? I mean. You are showering me with your blessing. How can I not get this way when I have such a gracious goddess laying atop me?"
I smirk and kiss his forehead.
"You flatter me my Uber Monk. Though I don't know why. I don't deserve such sweet words." "Why are you being so hard on yourself all of a sudden? Of course you deserve my praise. Who else am I going to give it to? I pray to Owl, but he doesn't want to hear me. But where the god shuns me, the goddess embraces me. You listen to my prayers. You heed my favors. You are there for me when I need someone. That is why I will continue to pray to my merciful goddess and seek your glory."
I blush and he smiles as he cups my face in his hands.
"You bless me my goddess. I obey your words and follow you blindly. I give myself to you and only you truly. I am devout in your faith. I will do as you wish. I'm so fanatical for you, that I'm surprised I still haven't worshiped you fully yet." "That's because you know better. One can never force a god's favor, one must always earn it. Or be doomed to suffer eternal damnation." "Amen."
He pulls me into a hungry kiss and I melt into him completely, I fall so under his spell that I don't even mind when he rolls us over and that bump of his goes hard against me, I'm more confused as to how he isn't in pain, I mean, his pants have got to be constricting at this point, ouch!
His hands feel under my shirt, rubbing my stomach before slipping around to my back, taking torturous care to skim his finger tips across my skin ever so slowly, it drives me insane as my back arches up in his hold and I claw at his back uncontrollably, we both moan loudly at this.
We just pause for a moment after that, not moving or making a sound, simply gazing at one another with eyes of hazing desire and care, unsure of what we should do next.
"Lynsie?" "Yeah?" "You look beautiful."
I blush and smile foolishly.
"Thanks...You're quite handsome, Azuma."
He smiles warmly and kisses my forehead.
"I'm glad you think so."
He lays down on his side and holds me close, not yet ready to let me go.
"So...The moment is over now?" "Yeah. I know you're still not ready for my worship. But I can wait for an eternity if need be." "But, what about your..." "It'll go away after a while." "But doesn't it hurt?" "A little. But I can deal with it." "Wouldn't it just be easier to go into the bathroom and rub it out?"
His eyes widen in shock...Stupid brain, why didn't you stop me from saying that?!
"Did you...Did you really just say that?" "What? It's not like I'm so innocent that I don't know guys do that." "It's just...I would never have expected you to say it." "I'm sorry. I must have sounded like a total perv. That was so stupid." "If it makes you feel better. You should know I don't do that."
Now my eyes widen in shock.
"You don't?" "Never have." "Really? I though every guy did that?" "I'm not like every guy. I don't chase after earthly pleasures. I seek those of heavenly delight. I long for the glory of a benevolent goddess. I will let this leave me slowly, for I want to remember how you made me feel for as long as I can."
I find myself shuddering lustfully and clinging to his shoulders much to his interest.
"Are you okay Lynsie?" "Azuma..."
I drone out his name and he smirks seductively, something about what he said, how he said it, and he himself, it all got to me.
"Yes my goddess?" "I...I..." "Yes Lynsie? Tell me what you want. What you...desire."
He growls the last word as he pulls me fully against him and I lose myself in the haze of his body heat.
"Azuma...I desire yo..." *knock-knock-knock*
A knocking at his door cuts me off and he sneers with hate.
"Hold on to that thought my goddess. I'll be right back." "Uh-huh..."
He angrily lets me go and leaves the bed before steaming to the door, the poor soul who knocked is going to wish they were dead in a second, and he opens the door.
"WHAT?!"
Even I jump when he snaps, that scared the hell out of me.
"Sir. The Promoter wishes to have a word with you." "Son of a..."
He growls under his breath and turns back to me.
"I won't be long." "It's okay. I'll be here."
That at least gets him to smile before he closes the door, what could Tamaki want with him now, weren't they just talking with each other earlier, and what the hell was I going to say, damn brain fart, I can't remember, he spooked it out of my head.
Taking this time to relax, I cover myself in his robe and let my mind wander.
What the hell was I going to do, man this thing is cozy, what is this made of, silk, that's nice, he has good taste, what were we even talking about before, ugh, I remember something about his guitar...Oh yeah...He said something about an albino girl, there's not many around here, I got to ask him about that when he returns.
Huh...I feel sleepy all of a sudden...I guess it wouldn't hurt to just close my eyes...Even for just a moment.
...
"Lynsie? Are you asleep?"
I yawn as I force myself to sit up and Genkaku is leaning on the bed.
"How long was I out for?" "Not long. I've only been gone for maybe ten or fifteen minutes." "What did Tamaki want?" "Nothing important. He just asked me stupid questions." "Were they about me?" "Some of them were." "I had a feeling it would." "I think he misses you." "Then he should come by and visit. Not hide like some pansy." "You're really pissed at him, aren't you?"
I sigh and run my hand through my hair.
"Actually. I'm not." "Oh?"
He sits down and scoots to my side.
"Honestly, I'm not mad at him. I was when he first told me. But I've given it some some thought, and have come to realize something." "And what's that?" "Before it happened. Tamaki and I were both virgins. And I have to admit. I was starting to see him in a attractive sort of way." "The Chief?" "If you were me, you'd see what I have and know what I mean." "I guess." "But the thing I've come to accept about this is...We were each other's firsts. He may have took me, but he gave himself to me. That must have been hard for him to do after never having such a need before." "So, you've come to accept his sin and have moved on?" "I have."
He smiles as he slips an arm around my neck and pulls me to lean on him.
"You are learning quickly what you must do in order to reach paradise my song bird. I am proud of you Lynsie." "I am only learning because I have a wonderful teacher. My Uber Monk Zen-master."
I nuzzle into his shoulder and close my eyes, he smiles and kisses my forehead as he strokes my cheek.
"Are you tired so soon?" "A little bit. I went to the gym and had an epic workout." "And yet you still smell so sweet."
I giggle thinking he's being cute, but then my thoughts return to me before I lose them forever in his care, so I look up at him.
"Azuma?" "Hmmm?" "You said an albino girl broke your Nirvana." "And she did." "Tell me more about her. What did she look like?" "Why so curious? Do you want to kill her for me?" "Heh...I might. But my main reason is, I think you might have had a run in with the White Rabbit of Wonderland."
He looks at me funny and confused, great, now I have to explain this game Tamaki and I have made, this may take a while, but hopefully he'll understand it, after all, he is the Hookah Smoking Caterpillar.
(To be continued.)
First up, I will thank my good friend and Beta reader lunamirrior, for doing this for me, thank you my Otaku. I see London, I see France, I see sexy Crow in his underpants. Oooh! I'm so evil. I hope everybody loves that part. This was a very Genkau and lust heavy chapter. Am I going overboard on them? I know some romance was needed, what with that being my intent from the beginning, but I don't know if I'm doing it right. Does this seem real? Like you can see Genkaku behaving like this? I don't what to make him OOC. I'd hate myself if any of the characters are. Tell me what you think so I won't go crazy. On a different note, a Deadman Wonderland dream I had the other day has become a new side project that goes with this current story. Me and lunamirrior will be doing a Q&A with the cast of My Deadman Wonderland. If you have any questions you'd like to ask to any of the characters, any characters at all, feel free to PM either of us. She is the Interviewer on this and I will be answering as the characters. I hope this idea is as loved as the story. Till next time my birdies, thank you for reading and I'll see you on the other side of the looking-glass.