Aw, I wanted to post this for my birthday but I'm a day late... and six days late for Ciel's birthday. This sucks. Okay, so my character is not mute, I'm just limiting the dialogue since I use too much all the time. WARNING: Explicit stuff.
I was writing my feelings down in the this story and this is the result. I kind of rushed a bit at the end... sorry.
Chapter 14: Desperately Searching
Last time I checked the Faustian symbol was gone; now I'm too afraid to check it again.
I needed sleep. Sleep and a steaming bath to unnerve myself. I crawled up my stairs and collapsed on my floor. I was only a few feet from my bed yet I couldn't make it. Ciel came over, picked me up by my arms, and dragged me to the bed. I would not have thought that Ciel would pick me up because he hated manual labor. Sebastian was strangely standing in my room and tugging on his tie. He needed to change out of his French butler clothes, which didn't look very different from the British's, to look more in fashion with the time period.
"Adrienne! What kind of grades are these?" my mother stormed into the room with a piece of paper in her hand. Her mouth dropped to the ground when she took in the picture of my room. It seemed a bit weird since Ciel was on top of me on the bed and Sebastian was starting to undress into one of his many shirts. Mother crossed the room, pulled me up, and slapped me across my face. Her façade grew furious as she threw the piece of paper at me. I reluctantly looked down to see what it was and realized it was my report card. I was marked for skipping school and being absent for over a month. My grades dropped to D's and E's and I was to be held back for another year. My hands were shaking because I never dropped this low in school this dramatically before. However, I guess it didn't matter since I signed my life away. "I do not have a daughter like this! Hanging out with two guys twenty four seven and failing school! This isn't the daughter I gave birth to and it's not the one I will have now! You soil the family name and I won't be able to show my face in public!" she screamed at me. My mother had been hanging around some really strict parents for a while and she came to conclusion about this. I didn't want to listen to her lecture, again. It did hit me that I wasn't doing very well in school but whenever my mother scolded me, I didn't talk back to her. It's a waste of breath.
"Get out of my house," she said in a dark tone. Now I was going to defend myself but she shoved me out of my room and down the stairs that I tiredly walked up, "Get out now! I don't know you!" My elbow scraped on the wax floor and my head hit every step as I fell to the living room. Then she skipped steps and kicked my head while I lay on the ground. I scrambled up, clutching to my bloody nose and stepped out into the mucky snow because she kept pushing me back. Fear filled my eyes as she locked the door on me and I finally realized what happened. Sebastian draped a thick overcoat on my shoulders as Ciel held my nose in his handkerchief. His face was full of disgust and pain while he tried to wipe the blood away. I was kicked out of my house with nowhere to go. I looked up at Ciel but he was glaring back at my house. Despite him knowing that many families had their own issues, he cherishes his own parents but grew a strong hatred for mine. But I didn't care. I nonchalantly turned around and walked away from my house. The three of us walked to the school since it had a shelter. It being Sunday, the custodians were inside along with other sport teams. We strolled in silence until I broke it.
"How old are you Sebastian? You don't seem young for a high school student but not old enough to be in the mid thirties," I tried not to insult him. I thought he looked about twenty but that would take away his charisma, in other words, no one would watch the anime. He didn't respond and kept looking straight with a blank stare on his face. Was he thinking about something intense?
The coat around my shoulders felt unusually like a fireplace surrounding me while the outside was full of mucky snow. When I arrived at the school, I headed toward the nurse's office. The second my head touched the polyester pillow, I slept like there was no tomorrow.
Time Lapse
Waking up to see that everything is okay / First time in my life and now it's so great / Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed / I think about the little things that make life great / I wouldn't change a thing about it / This is the best feeling
I groaned as I sat up on the uncomfortable bed, noticing blankets covered my body. The room was toasty warm with bright candles and the smell of pasta made my stomach project an awful growl. I kicked the sheets away and walked to the smell. Despite it being twenty digress outside, I felt comfortable in the office.
"Dinner is served," a voice spoke and I snapped my head toward it. Ciel was holding a napkin on his arm; he wore a tailcoat and a tie around his neck. He adjusted it and made it looser than it was already, "Sebastian told me you were under a lot of stress so I will serve you to the best of my ability. This is so excruciating." His explanation turned into a complaint but I giggled back. It was nice to see him in a butler uniform, especially when there was a slight sign of a blush on his cheeks as he turned his head away. I took a seat on the scratched plastic chair the school offered and stared at the table. Ciel sat down a plate of pasta, parmesan cheese melted on chicken and lasagna; all smothered with sauce. I looked at him, wondering where he got the food and why is there so much of it. The rich smell of cheese and tomato dance around my nose making my mouth water.
"If I couldn't do this much, what kind of butler would I be?" He copied Sebastian's infamous quote and I raised my eyebrow at him, "I practiced cooking while you were asleep." Finally, some truth. I jabbed my fork into the pasta and ate my meal as quickly as I could. I hadn't eaten for a couple of days and I was dying from starvation. After the meal, I approached Ciel. He looked at me with curiosity. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. "Wha-," he began but quieted. Tears rolled down my cheeks but I dug my head in his shoulders; not wanting to see me cry. His hands hesitated but finally made its way to hold me close to him. I would say our bodies fit together perfectly but I was a bit taller than he was. Now the only problem was how was I supposed to convince Ciel?
Time Lapse
"Wake up!" Ciel ripped off my blanket. I shot up in a sitting position and looked at the clock. It was five thirty in the morning. I squinted my eyes and looked at Ciel with a crazy expression. He put a finger to his lips and hushed me. A pair of footsteps increasing became louder. My eyes widened as I scrambled up. The three of us hid in the bathroom of the office. It was a tight but we made it in time when a nurse opened the door and walked to her desk.
"Why does the nurse need to be here two hours before school starts?" I questioned but the two demons covered my mouth. Another person came in the room. Through a small crack Sebastian opened, we saw the second nurse was heading toward the bathroom. I held my breath, praying she wouldn't come any closer. Right when she stretched her hand out for the door handle, the first nurse spoke out.
"Pam! Can you teach me how to use the coffee maker? The school got a new one and I can't figure how to use it!" called out to the other nurse. Nurse Pam quickly walked away and led her to the main office. We all let out a sighed when the coast was clear. I pushed the door open outward and waited for Ciel and Sebastian to walk out first but no one budged. "Adrienne, you're blocking us," Ciel's gentle voice reminded me. Oh yeah, I got in the bathroom last. The warmth of Ciel on my back was so relaxing but I stepped out of the bathroom quickly. We escaped outside, between the new fitness building the school built a year ago and the old gym. It was a bit chilling outside and the sun only poked out at the horizon. It was still considered dark outside and puffs of smoke was emitted every breath I made. There wasn't much to do in the corridors of the school so we stood there awkwardly. Then, I got a fantastic idea, a way to get Ciel's heart. I smiled warmly at Ciel and he stared back with confusion.
"Ciel, for the rest of the week, be my substitute. Do not question my actions, my motives, and my reasoning's. Don't worry of think about it unless I tell you to," I gave Ciel an order. He shifted his weight with doubt, not used to being ordered around.
"Yes, my lady," he replied unconditionally. I gave him a firm nod and asked for Sebastian's palm. I'm pretty sure Ciel could read my next moves but I proceed continue to write on Sebastian's hand, "Meet me here when first period starts." Sebastian, a tad bit worried for his master, understood. Now, the only thing left as to put my plan into action.
Ciel's POV
She told me not to think about it and worry but I'm worrying. She had been skipping school for about a week and I took all her tests, did her homework, and took notes for her. I might be a demon, but I don't study like Sebastian does in his free time. She came to the nurse's room to sleep at three a.m. every day and waking up at five thirty every morning. She ditched class after the teacher took attendance and came back sweating and sometimes even red slashes across her face. it wasn't healthy for her to torture herself like this but I couldn't help but wonder what she was doing.
I carried her lunch tray to the cafeteria, hoping she would be there today. When I went inside, she was already chatting with her friends.
"You're killing yourself!" her friend Rose shouted at Adrienne when I sat down next to my mistress, "Playing the viola, fighting with gangs in other towns, pushing yourself to became an international fencer and other garbage you're doing is suicide! I know you're trying to copy Ciel's previous lover's talents; I'm not stupid but think for yourself as well!" My previous lovers? Wait, is that what Adrienne was doing all along? The activities sounded vaguely familiar but I kept my mouth shut. I have to follow my orders and not think about it. Adrienne was at loss of words when her friends attacked her and I couldn't stand up for her; the weak lamb that my eyes saw.
"Honestly, I can't see Ciel with a girl," Veronica spoke up with a strawberry on her fork, "Not even with other girls since he is too girly himself." I tuned her voice out of annoyance because all she did was insult me. I was not girly, she just read too much yaoi in her free time and thought of me as the uke. I can be with any girl I choose to be. Adrienne got furious and slammed her hands on the table. She stood up and knocked her chair backwards. Everyone's conversation halted by the loud noise. I could hear a small growl coming from her throat and her long hair covered her eyes.
"Veronica, step outside with me," Adrienne strutted away and left the scene. Veronica stared at me but I got up from my chair as well, and dragged her along with me. Then a noticed a sudden change in atmosphere as Sebastian tailed behind me. We ended up outside again, in the freezing cold. Veronica winced when I tightened my grip on her arm. I let go immediately when I made eye contact with Adrienne. "Ciel, kill her." Adrienne said softly. Veronica blinked, unable to hear what she said.
"But," I started but Adrienne glared at me. Her eyes were full of pain and it looked like she was on the verge of crying. "Did you or did you not make a contract with me that you will destroy anyone that comes in my way?" she screamed at me and a single tear trickled down her right cheek, "Did you?"
Her forcefulness made me jolt a bit but I recovered my composure. I took in a deep breath and didn't hesitate. It wasn't like me, not keeping my promises or binding myself down to a lowly human like Adrienne but I was hungry. If this helped her gain a step toward me being fed for a couple of hundred years, then I will get it over with. This Phantomhive member will not ruin its name by breaking a covenant. "Yes, I did. Sebastian," I faced my butler with a stern look in my eye, "Kill her." The simplest orders were given out. Sebastian sighed as if he had to take care of a small chore. He disappeared but reappeared behind Veronica and slit her throat. She choked on her own blood and suffocated. Her soulless body dropped to the floor and a small pool of blood formed near her neck. Adrienne crossed the small distance between her and me and slapped me across the face. It stung a bit and I looked at her with bewilderness.
"I told you to kill her not Sebastian!" she stormed off back into the cafeteria for a few moments, leaving us the dead body. Was it so wrong to ask my butler to kill for me? Or was I becoming soft?
"She's one of those types of children," Sebastian spoke his mind and I looked up at him, "She plays with her dolls and then throws them out when she gets new ones or is tired of them." I thought carefully and knew many people who were like that. But in the beginning, she seemed sweet and easy to win over but she was this jumbled up puzzle that becomes more difficult afterwards. You drain humans until they are dry and let them drop, I noted to myself as Adrienne walked out with Kate and Sophie.
Adrienne's POV
I shoved Sophie at Sebastian and pinned Kate down on the floor. She squirmed and tried to punch me but I held her arms down with my knees. I didn't weigh much but I was sitting on her chest, making it hard to breathe. Ciel didn't kill Veronica so I brought out two more victims that got in my way.
My heart twisted into knots as I stared at the ignorant friend. My breath became heavy and eyebrows furrowed. This strong feeling of hatred and anger flushed through me, making me more aggressive than I normally could be. I pulled out a knife from my pocket that I kept for future uses. With one motion, I stabbed her in the neck. She kept wheezing through her punctured skin. I lifted the knife and stabbed her again in the chest repeatedly. After a couple of pierces, her life finally slipped out of her body. Her eyes rolled backwards into her head and she was covered in her own blood. Strange how Kate didn't scream in pain but it was I screaming for her. I dropped the knife and looked at the chunk of flesh. Humans are so grotesque. Sophie was trying to escape with fear in her eyes. "Ciel." I said in a low tone. Sophie let out another ear ripping shriek as Ciel grabbed her. He killed her in an instant, my hair was draped over my head so I couldn't see, and left her to slump onto the ground. Then he came over and picked me up by my arms. Kate's blood was soaked into my skin and clothes. I looked at the demons for an answer to my question. Why did I do that? No one answered me.
Sebastian merely looked revolted by me. Ciel began to wipe the blood away from my face and fingers as I shut my eyes from this world. Did they know? Do they know that I'm the one who was terrified of my actions and shaking right now? Did they know I have a nasty side? Do they know that I'm just being a stupid human being? I held my tears back by staring at the black spot in the school.
"Clean it up so that I won't ever be suspected," I ordered Ciel. I walked to the showers in the locker room without another word. The steaming hot water rushed onto my skin and the clothes clung onto me. Why did that happen so quickly? It was supposed to be slow so that I could release my anger. I shook my head in disappointment and closed the shower. I was dripped wet when I stepped outside the curtains and searched for a towel until I realized Sebastian was standing by the doorway. I looked surprised because I thought he would be helping Ciel.
"My master said to help you clean up. He didn't want to make the same mistake again," he said as he brought a towel out from a locker. He knew that I was being harsh on Ciel when I demanded him to kill veronica but he asked Sebastian to do it and it pissed me off. Sebastian took my damp clothes off and dried me as fast as he could.
If Ciel wasn't able to give me the warmth and love, then who would? I tugged on Sebastian's tie and brought him closer. I pressed his lips to mine and kissed him hard. This felt wrong but I couldn't get what I wanted. I let go and expected a surprise look on Sebastian's face but he kept it indifferent. I bit my lip with uncertainty. "Make me feel loves," my voice quavered with desperation but I knew I couldn't order him around. But he shocked me instead. He pushed me onto one of the benches and kissed me. He took off his glove and groped my chest as he French kissed me. I felt his tongue dance with mine as I kissed him back with passion. This was what I couldn't get out of Ciel. A moan escaped my mouth by accident but I let it go. I sat on Sebastian and continued to kiss him. I felt a bulge through his pants and on my naked body. My hand reached down there and caressed it as he licked my neck. His body structure made me feel secure and I could feel a bit of warmth from him. Was this really what I wanted?
"What are you doing?" a voice inquired. I slowly broke off the kiss and stared at Ciel, who was standing by the locker room's door. He was covered in bloody as his eye resembled the hatred from hell and glowed bright pink. His eyebrows knitted together and he gritted his teeth. His fingers were coiled into a tight fist. I didn't have a clarification for this. "Sebastian! Come here! We're leaving!" Ciel shouted and Sebastian lightly placed me on the bench. He was used to being ordered around like an object but he left me all cold in the room.
"You can leave! That's fine with me! Go on, I hate you too!" I retorted back to Ciel. He swiveled around on his heels and tried to tower me with his height.
"No one wants to love an idiot, stubborn and a slut like you!" Ciel lost his temper and stormed out of the place. He vanished quickly and I tried to put on random clean clothes that lay around the place. When I jogged outside, there was nothing outside. There was no vestige of the demons on campus or anywhere near me. I ran out to the drive way and into a street. It was really stupid because right next to the street was a small highway. I stood in the middle of it, calling out for Ciel. I was being an imbecile for doing that and I regretted it. I didn't want Ciel to leave. I didn't know what I was doing.
Suddenly, I felt a light tap on my shoulder. I looked around but there wasn't a single soul in sight. Then there was another tap on my eye as I blinked to shield myself. I glanced upward into the sky, only encountering black skies and a distant thunder. At different rates, rain drops fell to the sky and soaked me again. I rubbed my eyes, denying the fact I was crying and blaming it on the rain. My tears mixed in with the rain. A honk resonated toward my right side and a bright flash of light blinded my eyes. I slowly craned my head toward the truck that was coming for me but I didn't move. It's fine, just let me die as it is.
The truck hit its brakes to stop but it was initially going at fifty five miles per hour. It sped closer and closer. I closed my eyes, waiting for an impact; until something slammed into me. I fell to the ground, hoping I was run over by the truck but when I opened my eyes, a familiar blonde guy was on top of me. "What were you doing?" he shouted at me as rain dripped from his face. He panting, probably from running to me, but I couldn't tell if there was sweat on his face.
"Lawrence? I thought you were in jail in England?" I asked as he pulled me up from the ground. It was the guy who faked my mother's death, but why was he here? He smiled at me and hugged me.
"Don't do that again!" he cried and hugged me tighter. I scowled at him with depression. Then, a sharp pain right under my ribs rippled out. I heard a popping sound and my body jerked. I dropped to the ground, clutched onto my clothes, and screamed in pain. I tried to breathe and catch my breath but every time the air entered my lungs, the spasm attacks grew stronger. What was happening?
"Ahh!"